第五章

hongdeyixia,naohaibeijingdeyipiankongbai。

wenjiayuchadianyabuzhuhoulongdexuexing,nanyizhixin:“……nishuoshenme?”

kehaimeidengdaojiangxulijieshi,buyuanchudesunmengyaoquejianruicuicu:“xulige,nibushidayingyaopeiwoqujibaiwobadema?womengaizoule。”

jiangxulilimatuikai,zhiliuxiayiju:“wowandianzaiqukanni。”

tamenyixingren,congcongshangchelikai。

wenjiayuzaiyicibeipaoxia,tayiweizijiyijingxiguan,kexinkoudetengquezenmeyabuzhu。

jicongconghuidaobingfang,tazhandouzhedaochuzhitengyao,ganyanxiaqu。

yaohenku,kudaoyanleichadianrenbuzhu。

zheishi,bingfangmenturanbeituikai。

shiwenkuanquerfufan,shoulihaijiazheyizhixileyibandeyan。

“你来干什么?”

wenjiayufangxiayaoping,zhiqiyaozhanqilai。

tazaiyebuhuishadao,renweitazheige‘haogege’shilaiguanxinta。

gaodadenanrenzoujin,qiangrendeyanweizuanjinbiyi,jiaotanaohaiyizhencitong。

quetingduifangbieniudikaikou:“……niyekandaole,mengyaoshizhendexihuanjiangxuli,nibarenrangjitaba。”

huaruliren,mengdiyoutongxiangwenjiayu。

tengtongrangwenjiayuyouqiwuli,tachaofengxiaolesheng:“ge,nihaijide,15suizhiqian,woshinizuitengaidemeimeima?”

温宽沉默。

wenjiayuquejuedemeiyisijile:“wozhendebuzhidaowodaodizuocuoleshenme,shibushiwosile,nimencaihuiganxin?”

“你发什么疯?”

wenkuangaoshenghechi,yangaitadenaoxiuchengnu。

“womeifafeng,zhishirunimensuoyuan,sunmengyaobushiyaowodeyiqiema?nigaosuta,gongxi,henkuaizheiyiqiedoushitadele。”

“nizheihuashenmeyisi?”

wenjiayubunaifan,shenshouzhixiangmenkou:“nidanfanyouyimiaozunzhongwo,jiubugaizaibingfangneixiyan,qingnilikai。”

wenkuanlianseyizhenqingyizhenhong,daodihaishizhuanshenlikai。

wenjiayukanzhetatachufangmen,kanzhezheigeyijingzhaobuhuibandianguanaidegege,zuizhonghaishimeirenzhuhongzheyancishuo——

“ruguonengxuanze,woyidianyebuxiangdangwenjiayu。”

wenkuanjiaobuyidun,suihoulikaidegengkuai。

dengdaowaimianmeiyoushengyin,wenjiayuzaiyerenbuzhu,chongjinxishujiandakoudakououxue。

yikou,liangkou……oubujindexinsuan,tubuwandebiequ。

手机不断传来声音。

taqiangchengzhenaqishouji,shijiangxulifalaideduanxin。

neixieduanxinrutongshenjingcuoluan,yihuieryaohetafenshou,yihuieryouyaoqiutabuyaolikai。

buyongxiang,tadouzhidaoneidoushisunmengyaodeshoubi。

mingmingyijingjuedingfangqizheiduanganqing,kekanzhezheixie,naohaiqueyizhenzhenteng,xiangbeirennazhejuziyaojukai。

真的太疼了。

tazaiyezhanbuzhu,daodihunleguoqu。

hunchenjian,yebuzhidaoguoleduojiu。

dengdaowenjiayuxinglaideshihou,faxianzijitangzailejizhengdebingchuangshang。

jutongxiangshiyaojiangtadeshenzihuohuopichengliangban。

hushixunwen:“nidejiarenni?”

wenjiayulengzhu,banxiangcaikusekaikou:“wo……meiyoujiaren。”

hushilianmindidijitayizhangzhi。

wenjiayuchengzhezuoqilai,jieguohou,yingmushi‘bingweitongzhishu’jigedazi。

yuanlaitakuaisilea,nanguaizheimetong……

danxianzai,tatongdaolianyanleidoumeiyoule。

hushidoukanbuxiaqu,burenxinquan:“yaobu,wojinidazhitongzhenba?”

“……谢谢了。”

dawanzhitongzhenhou,wenjiayuchengzheqiangbi,yibuyibuxianggepanshanlaorenzouxiangmenwai,buliao,quezaizoulangshangyujianlejiangxuli。

jiangxulishouzhongnazhehenxianyandejiezhihezi,kedengtakandaowenjiayushi,quehuangmangjiangneijiezhihezisaijinlezijikoudai。

suihoutazouguolai,xiangshenmeyemeifashengban,guanqiefuzhewenjiayu:“niliansezenmezheimecangbai,nalibushufu?”

wenjiayutaiyankanxiangzheigezijicengjingzuiaidenanren,tayanlihaizheshuxideguanxin,ketabuzhidao,zheiguanxindaodidaibiaoshenme?

是愧疚还是爱?

“yaoshiwosile,nizhendehaihuixintengma?”

wenjiayuhualuo,jiangxulilikecumei,buzantongdao:“bieshuoqihua,kuaigenwohuiqu。”

“yijiarenyoushenmejieshidabukaide?”

wenjiayumeiyouliqizhengzha,yilubeiladaolesunmengyaobingfangwai,liangrengangyitingxia,jiutinglimiansunmengyaozaishuo——

“ma,wohexulidehunli,jiayujiehuilaicanjiama?”

xiaoshuo《wenjiayujiangxuli》diwuzhangshidujieshu。