第1章
shoujilizhengzhibofujinranqixieloudejiuyuanxianchang，woquezairenqunzhongkandaolejinjichechulaidezhangfu。
bengaichuchadetayibubiti，quehaisiminghuzhehuailichunguangzhaxiedenvren。
zhibokadunjian，wokandaoletabeidinggedelian，shiwodeguimi，yeshizhangfudezhuli。
我心如死灰。
yuanlaiyizhibeiwoshizuozhixinhaoyoudeta，daotoulaijinghewodenanrengaozaileyiqi。
我决定成全他们。
tawobuyaole，duzilidehaiziwoyebuyaole。
01
“bentaibobao，muqianjinxiudajiefashengderanqixieloushijian，xiangguanrenyuanyijinxingzhubucheli…zaizheizhongshangyejiefasheng…”
zhiboshipinlijizhedeshengyinhaizaitaotaobujue，woquehuangruoweiwen，zhiyouhuamiankadunshitongyandeneizhanglian。
dagaishiranqixieloudeyuangu，taochulaideshihoutaiguocongmang，tashenzhidoumeizenmechuanyifu，shuoshichunguangzhaxiedoubuweiguo，keshiquerengjiuyouyigezijidouyibubitidenanrensiminghuzheta，chongzhejingtounuhou。
“nimenshinagetaidejizhe？！nengbunengbieduizheimejinpai！zheishiwomendegerenyinsi！”
tongyanworenshi，shiwoduoniandeguimi，huzaitashenshangdenanrenwoyerenshi，shiwojiehunduoniandezhangfu，linye。
我简直觉得荒谬。
zaizhibolikanjianzijizhangfuhezijiguimiyibubitizaiyiqi。
woyouturanjuedeyiqiesihuzaoyouanshi，congzuikaishitongyangenwoshengleijuxiagenwomaicanshiye、rangwotuijiantaruzhidaolinyedegongsikaishi，daotongyanbujingyideluchuhelinyedeqinni，yiqiezaojiuyouduannile。
congtapengyouquanluchugenlinyedeyiqichifanneishi，wojiuyinggaihuaiyide，neishihouhaimeixiangneimeduo，haiyiweizhishiputongtongshiyiqichifan。
zhidaoxianzaiwocaifanranxingwu，tamendagaizaojiugaozaiyiqile。
linyehuilaishi，yijinghuanleyishenyifu。
wozuozaishafashang，kanletayiyan，buzhiyici，linyeyihuozhoulexiamei，suihouyouxiebuzirandikaikou：“gumuyin，nizenmegenmeikanjianwoside？”
“buranni，zenmehuanleyishenyifu？”
worenzhexintongsuikoufanwen，linyeshensedunshiluchuyimoleran，dagaihaiyiweiwomeikanguozhibo，huozhezhishizaojiuzhunbeihaoleliyou。
“zhuoshangdekafeidaole，linleyishen，jiuqubangongshihoumiandeshiyijianhuanle，niyezhidaoneijianxizhuangbixudiyishijianchuli，shideguodepai…”
woxinbuzaiyantingzhe，yinweigangcaitongyanhaitedijiwofaxiaoxixuanyao，shuogangcaimeiqixieloubeirenjiudeshi。
tadagaiyeyiweiwomeikanjianneiyishunjiandezhibo，tianyoujiacudishuojiuzijidenanrenduoyingyong，haiburangjingtoupaidaota。
wokanzhetadexiaoxiyitiaotiaobengchulai，zhijuedesuoranwuwei，zheigenvrenzuodeyiqiedoushianshi，erzheiyangdeanshi，zaiguoqudagaihaiyouhenduo，zhishiwodouconglaimeihuaiyiguo。
zheitoutongyanfalexiaoxi，shuozijijingheguodu，yaoquxiuxi，zhuantoulinyedeshoujijiuxiangle，woxiangdoubuyongxiangjiuzhidaoshitongyan。
guoranlinyenachushoujiyileng，suihoulikaiketingquyangtaijieledianhua，yuqiwenhe。
“ng？hao，womashangjiuqu，nibieji，meishi，biehaipa。”
wotingzhetazhuanbiandetaidu，bujincangbaichelechezuijiao。
linyejiewandianhuahuidaoketing，chongwogongshigongbansidekaikou：“yebuzhidaonijintianshizenmele，dengwohuilaizaishuoba，gongsineibianyoudianjishi，wanshangwobuyidinghuilaile。”
wowushengdiantou，wozhidaozheishitongyanzaiguyidexinongwo。
zailinyezouzhihou，wonachushouji。
yuyuelezuikuaideliuchanshoushu。