第一章

“ruanxiaojie,nihuanlezigongai……exingde……”

womeiyoutaiduojinghuang,qishi,xinzhongzaoyiyoulexieyinyinyueyuedeyugan。

zhuru,xiafushibushidejingluan,yaosuitengtong,jiuxiangmimimamadechongzizaikenyao。

“youjiarenpeiban,zhiliaoxiaoguohuihaoyidian。”

家人?

自己哪还有家人……

fumushuangwang,erzhangfu……

wodezhangfuyijingaishanglebieren……

mamudichedongzuijiao,“xiexieyisheng,zhiliaodeshiqingyihouzaitan。”

“keshibuzhiliaodehua,nideshentizhinengzaichengsangeyuele……”

buzhidaozijishizenmecongyiyuanchulaide,mumudilonglelongnizidayi,shoulidequezhendanbeizuandezhouzhoubaba。

冬天真冷。

womenmendihuchuyikoureqi,maozhebaiyan。

binglengdehanfengxiangdaoziyiyang,guazailianshang,shengteng。

wokanzhewumingzhishangjiudaotunsedehunjie,yankuangshirun。

这戒指戴了五年了。

wunian,zugourangyigefenghuazhengmaodenvren,bianchengyouyuchufangdejiatingzhufu。

wonulirenzhuhoujiandegengyan,zhongyunaqishouji,dajiwomingyishangdezhangfu。

yinwei,tacengshuo,xiaxueshi,chidaowozuodefanhenxingfu。

yeshiyinwei,jintiandewo,zhendehenxuyaota。

“yuanbai,jinwanhuijiachifanhaobuhao?”

wotingdaodianhuaneiyiduan,nvzidejiaoxiaosheng,“nishisheiya?”

她反过来问我是谁?

真是可笑。

wodexinzhongyichunongnongdesuanchu。

“woshipeiyuanbaideqizi,nijiaotajiedianhua。”

pianke,dianhuaneitou,nvrendeshengyinyouxietiaoxin,“yuanbaijinwanhaiyaomang……pashimeishijianjienidedianhua……”

“nibadianhuajita,wozhixianghetashuoliangjuhua。”

nvrendejiaoxiaoshengjiaranerzhi,shoujizhongchuanlaiyuanbaidichendanmodesangyin,“wojinwanyaojiaban,biefanwo。”

“keshi,niyijing,henjiumeihuijiale……”

“yaowoshuoduoshaobian?guangshikandaonidelian,wodoufanwei!”

dianhuabeibunaifandiguaduan。

woxinxiayisuan,moxiangzijidelianpang,neishi,tashuo,zuixihuanwomingmeidexiaorong,fangfodaizhezhizihuaxiang。

zhishi,xianzaiyijingmeiyouzhizihuale,yishenyouyan,kuikongpobaideshenzi,zhishengchaimiyouyanjiangcucha。

tabuhuilai,woyemeiyouxinsimaicaile。

manmanduobudaojiebiandexiaotan,chileyiwanqingshuimian。

我突然想起五年前。

neishi,womenlianyiwansikuaiqiandeqingshuimiandoushebudemai,taiqiongle,quchaoshimaiyikuaiqiandeguamian,shengzhemanmanzhu,nengchisiwutian。

jiushizheiyangnanaoderizili,tashenshenmimidicongbeihoutaochuyimeijiezhi,xianbaoyiyangdihewoshuo,“xiaoxun,nikanjiezhidelice……”

licekezhejigezi,“baicishengzhiaixunyiren”。

wozhidao,zheijiezhi,shitashengchijianyongzanlehenjiudeqianmaide,neixiezi,shitanazhekedao,yibiyibikechulaide。

woxintengdimozhetatiezhechuangketiedeshou。

taquemanbuzaihudibaozhuwo,tashuo,“jiajiwo,wozheibeizizhihuiduiniyigerenhao。”

houjiansuanse,wanlidemianjiaqilai,quezaiyeyanbuxiaqu。

woyibianbianmosuozheyanghuatunsedejiezhi,jixuyijiudeyanleizaiyerenbuzhu,zaluodaozhuoshang,yidiyidi。

zheiwunian,kukudapin,haoburongyiaochutoulea……