第一章
xiaoqunliyourenfaleyigewendang。
shangbanzanting，dakaichigua。
jiangdeshigebijituanmouxiangmuzulideyigeshixishengweilezhuanzhenggoudashangbumenjingli。houyinbumanxiaoqingrendeshenfen，daiqiubihun，wunaijingliyihun。
bihunshibaihoufenranzhenglileyifenwendangpuguangzheijianshi，zhunbeichuangfansuoyouren。
qunliyourenaitewo，“shixue，nilaogongbujiuzaizheixiangmuzu。chiguachigua”
“wa，kuaiquzhaonilaogongwenwen，diyikouxinxiandedaguajiukaonile”
wokanwantuwenbingmaodewendang，danaoyishunkongbai。
yinweizheilimiandenanzhurengong，jiushiwolaogong。
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zhouyidebanshangderenhuorenweisi，tebieshixiawuhaiyaokaizhouhui，kanzheyiduishujuhewendangdeyuanqidounengyuandifuhuoxiejianxianle。
“jingshenshiliang”xiaoqunlituranrenaoqilai。
曹姐发了一个文档。
“jiemeimen，kuailaichigua，jinrifentishenxingnaojingshenshiliang”
youtiqiankanguoderenzaiqunliaitewo，
“shixue，nilaogongbujiuzaizheixiangmuzu。chiguachigua”
“wa，kuaiquzhaonilaogongwenwen，diyikouxinxiandedaguajiukaonile”
“daiwokankanyouyoushenmezhananjiannvlaizengzhangwoduirenxingdeduoyangxingdejianshile”
kandaoyouguawoshunjianjingshenle。
dakaiyikan，gengxingfenle，yohuo，haishiwolaogongzaideneigexiangmulidegua。
zhuyaojiangdeshiyigemeizizaizheigexiangmuzulishixi，tadelaodafeichangwenroufuze，shoubashoujiaota，haiweitadegezhongshiwuqiangshidoudi。
zaiyicitayoufanleyanzhongcuowuerwuzhuzizedeshihou，tadelaodameiyouzhizeta，ershipeitajiabanjiadaolingchensandian。
“bangongshilijingqiaoqiaode，zhiyouwomenzheiyipailiangzhedeng。tajiuzaiwoshenbian，tadetiwenhengao，gezhejuliwodounengganshoudaotashentisanfadereyi。womenaidehenjin，woyicetoujiunengkaozaitadejianbangshang。wozheimexiangde，yezheimezuole。
tameiyoutuikaiwo，zhishiwenroudipailepaiwodenaodaishuo，leileba，xiuxiyixia，shengxiawolaijiuhaole。
neiyikewojuedetadejianbanghaoyouanquangan，wobukezibadixihuanshangta。”
ranhoutiechuletamendeliaotianjilu，doushinanfangwenrougulianweitadehua。
tajitadebeizhushiyxiansheng。
yxianshengdetouxianghewolaogongdeyimoyiyang。
neishiyizhang，wozhuapaide，womenjiadexiaojuhuajindoudoudahaqiandeshihoudeguichubiaoqingbao。
kandaozheiliwodexinturanjiuchenlexiaqu，yinyinyouxiebuhaodecaice。
woyaojinsaibangruanrou，qiangpozijijixukanxiaqu。
“tayoulaopo，tashuotahetalaoposhiqingmeizhuma，suoyitamenyibiyejiujielehun。”
wohewolaogongcongyoueryuanjiurenshi，yigejiashuyuande。
womencongxiaofudaohunsha，yibiyejiujielehun。
“wojidutalaopo，taoyantashuoqitalaoposhihoudebiaoqing，tashuotaduilaopodeaiyijingchengleyizhongbenneng。”
“keshineiyouzenyangni？tayiranchenmiwodeshenti，womenzuodeshihoushineimehepai。tahuiyijiabanweiyougenwosihunririyeye，womenjiuxiangrelianzhongdeqinglvyiyang。wonengganjuededaotahewozaiyiqideshihoushifangsongde，yuyuede，tayeshiaiwode。”
“womenzheiyangbuqingbuchudizaiyiqiliangnianle，woxiangyaochedizhanyouta，wentashenmeshihougentalaopotanbai，tazhihuifuyanwo。”
“tashuotaduitalaopohaiyouzeren。keshitalaopoweilegongzuolianhaizidoubuyuanyiweitasheng。”
“我愿意为他生”
fushangleyizhangyun12zhoudebchaodan。
“wobenyiweiwohuailehaizitajiuhuigentalaopotanbai，lihunquwo。keshitajingranrangwodadiaozheigehaizi，shenzhibuxiyiwodekaohezuoyaoxie。”
“shiyizhici，wozhinengpuguangchulaile。wobuhaoguodajiadoubiexianghaoguo。”
limiandeshijianxian，liaotianjilu，chuqulvyoudekaifangjilu，shenzhimaitao，xiaowanjudejiludouqingqingchuchu。
tamenduizhechuyangbi“ye”deneizhangzhaopian，nanrengujiefenmingdewumingzhishangneimeishuxidejiezhi，kandewoyankuangfare。
neishiwohetayiqiquzuodeduijie，shangmianfalangdeyansewomeidiaohao，shaozhichulaiyouxiebanbo，queshiduyiwuer。
wolianqipianzijidouzuobudao。
wodemubiaohuazaineizhangyunjiandanshang。
xuexingweimimanzaikouqiangli，wozhijuequanshenbingliang，huxikunnan，yanleidakedakedizalexialai。
woxiaoxinyiyi，dakouhuanmandijiangzhuoqihuchu，buganfachuyidianshengxiang。
haipabeirenfaxianwodeyichang。
wozhandouzheshou，qiangzhuanglengjingdijiangwendangbaocunfajiziji，ranhounazheshoujiliuqucesuo。
zaicesuosimixiaxiaodekongjianli，wozinvebanzhongxindakaiwendang，quanzheshenti，yaozhezijideshou，wuyanchusheng。
心痛到窒息。