jiazuqunliturandanchuyitiaoxiaoxi：“shibasuitainainaijiadao，likeyiyongchuangshirizhongyan。
”fuzheyizhangshaonvzhaopian，meiyanhewoyimoyiyang。
bashisuidetaiyeyedingzheshoujilaoleizongheng：“shita...aruanzhendehuilaile！”kezupujizai，
tainainairuanguitimingmingzai1944nianjiushizongle。dangwoandizhizhaodao“shirizhongyan”minsushi，
kaimendezhengshizhaopianlideshaonv。taxiaoyingyingsaijiwoyiheyanzhi：“keyiguaisun，zheishitainainaisongnidejiazhuang。
”yanzhihedikezheliangxingxiaozi：“qirishafu，keposiju。”erwodeweihunfu，
zhengwenroudibangwocashizuijiaodedangaozi。kuaidiheshuaizaidishangshi，
wozhengbeilimuyunneitiandefanidenaiyouwendudechuanbuguoqi。shoujizaichajishangfengkuangzhendong，pingmuliangdeciyan，
jiazuqunlizhaleguo。woyonglituikailimuyunneizhangzhanzhedangaozidejunlian，shouzhihuaguopingmudeshunjian，
xueyedouliangle。“shibasuitainainaijiadao，likeyiyongchuangshirizhongyan。
”xiamianfuzheyizhangxiangsuyouxiefanhuangdeheibaizhaopian。zhaopianlineigechuanzhesuseqipaodeshaonv，
zhanzaipamantengmandelaoshimenlouxia，meiyanwanwan，chunjiaoweiyang。riguangxiexiedazaitalianshang，neiwuguanlunkuo，
neiyanshenliuzhuandeshenyun——huotuotuojiushijingziliershiwusuidewo，likeyi！“aruan……zhendeshiaruana！
”bashisuidetaiyeyezaiqunlifaletiaoyuyin，shengyindoudexiangqiufenglideluoye，daizhenongzhongdexiangyinhegengyan，
“bashinianle……tayidianmeibian……guitia……”qunlisijilejimiao，suijibeigezhongjingkonghewenhaoshuaping。
sanshugongzhijiedalaidianhua，pitougailian：“keyi！neidizhizenmehuishi？‘shirizhongyan’？tingzhejiuxiemen！
zupushangbaizhiheizi，tainainairuanguitiminguosanshisannianqiujiushizongle，shengbujianrensibujianshi！
zheizhangzhaopiannalaide？zheinvrenshishei？”wohoulongfagan，yigeziyetubuchu，
muguangsisidingzaizhaopianbeijingneikuaimohubuqingdemenpaishang——“shirizhongyan”。xinzangzaixiongqianglileigu，
yigehuangdanyoubinglengdeniantoupotuerchu：ruanguiti，woneichuanshuozhongdetainainai，tahuilaile。
yizheizhongdongjieleshiguangde、yuwogongxiangyizhangliandeguiyifangshi。limuyunwenredezhijiancengguowozuijiao，
daizhenaiyoutiannidechugan：“zenmelekeyi？liansezheimenankan。”tajianqidiaoluodekuaidihe，
xiaorongyirujiwangdewenroutitie，xiangjingxinzhangliangguohududemianju，“youshinagewuliaodeezuoju？
”wokanzhetaneishuangshensuihanqingdeyanjing，xiangqisantianqian，
tazhulixiaoweifacuodaowoshoujishangdeneitiaoxiaoxi：“muyunge，yichanjichengshouxuyibantuo，
querenlikeyifumuneifenyiwaibaoxianshouyirenshininwuwu。”yiguhanyicongjizhuizhichongtianlinggai。
womengdichouhuishou，zhijiashenshenqiajinzhangxin，jianruidetengtongrangwomianqiangweichizhuzhending：“meishi，
laojiayoudianjishi，wodelikehuiquyitang。”“wopeini？”limuyunlikeqishen，guanqieyiyuyanbiao。
“buyong！”wodeshengyinjianlidezijidouheleyitiao，suijiqiangyaxiaqu，jichuyigexiao，
“nigongsibushiyaoqianneigedadanma？biedanwuzhengshi。wo……ququjiuhui。
”wojihushiyitaolidesudulikaileneijianchongmannaiyoutianxiangdegongyu。daohanglishuru“shirizhongyan”，
mudedizhixianglinshengyigeditushangjihuzhaobudaobiaojideshenshanguzhen——qingwuzhen。
chezizaipanshangonglushangdianbolezhengzhengyitian，xinhaoshiduanshixu，xiangyitiaochuisideshe。musesiheshi，
zhongyudida。zhenkouchulizhezhaopianlineizuopamankuteng、fenghuayanzhongdemenlou，zaihunanzhongrutongjushoudehaigu。
chuanguoshilengxiazhaideqingshibanxiang，yidongguazhe“shirizhongyan”mupaidelaozhaigulinglingchuzaijintou。
mumenzhiyayishengdakai，menhouzhanzhedeshaonv，rangwodehuxishunjiantingzhi。suseqipao，wuheizhangfasongsongwanzhe。
neizhanglian，neizhangheworutongfukebandelian，zaiyanxiahunhuangdedenglongguangli，chongwozhankaiyigeqingqiandexiao。
tayanboliuzhuan，daizhekuayueshiguangdeningjingyuchuantougusuideliangyi。“keyiguaisun，
”tadeshengyinqingcuidexiangshanjianquanshui，neirongquejingleibanzhaxiang，“kesuanlaile。
”tawushiwoshunjianjiangyingdezhiti，baixideshoushenguolai，
burongjujuedijiangyigebingliangguanghuadexiaoyuanhesaijinwoshouxin。neishiyigejiqigujiujingzhidefalangyanzhihe，
chushoushenghan。“nazhe，tainainaisongnidejiazhuang。”taxiaoyijiashen，daizhedongxiyiqiedeguiyi，
“nihuiyongdezhede。”menzaiwoshenhouqingqinghelong，gejuelewaimianzuihouyisitianguang。wobeikaozhebingliangdemenban，
zainongzhongdeyinyingli，zhandouzhedakaileneigeyanzhihe。fuyude、jinhufuxiudehuaxiangpumianerlai。hedi，
jiezheshoujipingmuweiruodeguang，liangxingxiruwenzu、quelitoubeimiandexiaoziqingxikejian——qirishafu，
keposiju。limuyunneizhangwenroudaixiaodelian，hebaoxiandanshang“shouyiren”sangebinglengdeheitizi，
shunjianzaiwonaohailizhongdie、niuqu。“nihenxiangta。”aruan——huozheshuo，
wodetainainairuanguiti——dijiwoyibeirecha。cibeishijiushide，yousewenrun，chatangqingliang，
yinyundereqimohuletaguoyunianqingdelianpang。womenzuozailaozhaitianjingli，
sizhoushigaosongde、beisuiyueranchengmoheidemuqiang，toudingyifangxiazhaideyekong，xingzishudan。“xiangshei？
”wopengzhechabei，zhijianjiquzheyidiankeliandenuanyi，muguangsaoguozheidongjijingdelingrenxinhuangdezhaizi。
kongqilifudongzhechenjiumutouhehuichendeweidao，haiyouyizhongruoyousiwude、leisicaoyaodeqixi。“lijitang。
”taqingqingtuchuzheigemingzi，xiangyishengtanxi。lijitang，wodetaiyeye，cikezhengzaiqianlizhiwaidelaozhaili，
duizhetadezhaopianlaoleizongheng。“dangnian，tayeshizheiyang，buguanbugudiyitouchuangjinlai。”tataiyan，
muguangluozaiwolianshang，youfangfotouguowo，kanxiangyaoyuandeguoqu，“zhei‘shirizhongyan’，
conglaibushishenmehaodifang。”“zheilidaodishishenmedifang？nin……daodishishei？
weishenmehewo……”worenbuzhuzhuiwen，shengyinzaikongkuangdetianjinglixiandeganse。“woshiruanguiti，
nidetainainai。”tadaduanwo，yuqiduding，daizheburongzhiyideweiyan，jinguantadewaibiaozhishigeshaonv。
“zhiyuzheili……”tadunledun，chunjiaogouqiyisibinglengdehudu，“shi‘shoumenren’deqiulong，
yeshi……‘yaochi’deshilianchang。nilaile，shilianbiankaishile。shitian，keyi，nizhiyoushitian。
”“shilianshenme？”hanyishunzhejizhuipasheng。“huozhezouchuqu。”taxialekoucha，shensepingjingwubo，
“huozhe，chengweizheilideyibufen。xiangwaimianneixie‘dongxi’yiyang。
”taxianxideshouzhisuiyizhixiangqiheidechuangwai。jiuzaizheishi，
yizhenjiqiqingweide、zhijiaguacamubande“cila”sheng，congerloumougejinbidefangmenhouyouyouchuanlai，
shiduanshixu，zaisijizhonggewaishenren。wohunshendehanmaoshunjianzhaqi。zheizhaizili，guoranbuzhiwomenliangge！
aruanquehuangruoweiwen，zhidandandishuo：“bielihui。neishi‘qianke’，zoucuolelu，
zhinengyongyuanliuzaizheili‘xiuxi’le。”diyiye，wojihuwufaheyan。
neiruoyousiwudeguacashengrutongfuguzhiqu，zaiheianlizhemozhewodeshenjing。diertianqingchen，
limuyundedianhuaruyueerzhi，beijingyinshijichangguangbo。“keyi，shiqingchuliwanlema？
woshizaibufangxinniyigerenzaineizhongdifang，womashangfeiguolaipeini！”tadeshengyinchongmandanyouhejiqie，
wanmeiwuxia。wokanzheshoujipingmushang“muyun”lianggezi，youditoukanxiangzhangxinneimeibinglengdeyanzhihe。
hedideqigezirutongshaohongdeluotie。woshenxiyikouqi，zhijiazaiciqiajinrouli，
shengyinquenulijichuqingkuaiheyilai：“……hao。muyun，woyoudianhaipa，ni……kuailai。”guaduandianhua，
aruanbuzhiheshichuxianzailangxia，baozheshoubei，sixiaofeixiaodikanzhewo：“guaisun，xuedetingkuai。jizhu，
zaizheizhaizili，xinshei，doubiexinnanrendezui。youqishi……nineiwei‘weihunfu’。”disantianbangwan，
limuyunfengchenpupudichuxianzai“shirizhongyan”menkou。tachuanzhezhidijingliangdeyangrongdayi，
yingjundelianshangdaizhezhangtubashedepibeiheduiwodemanxinguanqie，yuzheidongyinsenguzhaigegeburu。“keyi！
”tadabushangqian，yibajiangwoyongruhuaizhong，lidaodadexiangshiyaobaworousui，“zheishenmeguidifang！
danxinsiwole！”tashenshangshuxidenanshixiangshuiweicikequerangwoweiliyizhenfanyong。wanfanshiaruanzhunbeide，
jiyangjiandanqueyichangxianmeideshanyexiaocai。limuyunbiaoxiandeqianxunyouli，
duiaruannianqingdeguiyidewaibiaosuiyoujingyi，danzaiwohanhuqicide“yuanfangqinqi”jieshixia，bingweiguoduozhuiwen，
zhidangshishanlirenxiannianqing。tatitiedijiwojiacai，xuhanwennuan，yanshenwenroudenengdichushuilai。
aruanzeanjingdichizhefan，ouertaiyan，
muguangzailimuyunshouwanshangneikuaijiazhibufeidebaidafeilihewoqiangzhuangpingjingdelianshangsaoguo，
chunbianqinzheyisiruoyouruowudejiqiao。shenye，zhaizichenrusiji。wojiekouzhenglixingli，
huidaoaruanjiwoanpaidexiangfang，fansuolemen。yanzhihebeiwojinjinzuanzaishouli，
bingliangdefalangbiaomianjihubeiwodetiwenwure。hedineiqigezizaiheianzhongzhuoshaozhewodelizhi。shafu？
limuyun？yongzheiheyanzhi？zenmesha？zheijianzhihuangmiujuelun！jiuzaiwoxinshenjuzhenzhiji，
chuangwaituranchuanlaijiqiqingweide“dong”yisheng，xiangshiyourenconggaochutiaoxia，luozaisongruandenitushang。
wotoupiyima，pingzhuhuxi，qiaoqiaonuodaochuangbian，xiankaihouzhongchuangliandeyijiao。qinglengdeyueguangxia，
limuyundeshenyingqingxikejian！tagenbenbuzaikefangxiuxi！zhijiantajingtidihuangusizhou，querenwurenhou，
dongzuominjiediraodaozhaizihouyuanneikouzaoyifeiqidegujingbian。tadunxiashen，congsuishenxiedaidegongwenbaoli，
jingrantaochuyibazhediejungongchan，kaishiyongliwajuejingbiandenitu！dongzuoshulianeryouli，
nalihaiyoubanfenyangzunchuyoudeguigongzimoyang？tazaiwashenme？nandao……tazaojiuzhidaozheizhaizidemimi？
neibijuebaoxianjinhetajiqieganlaidemudezaiwonaozhongfengkuangpengzhuang。yanzhihezaiwozhangxintangdexiangkuailuotie。
wosisidingzhechuangwaineigefenliwajuedeshenying，yigebinglengdejihuachuxingzaixindizisheng——huoxu，
zhei“shafu”zhiji，bingfeikongxuelaifeng？disitianqingchen，bowulongzhaozhe“shirizhongyan”yinlengdeyuanluo。
wozuozaishuzhuangtaiqian，tongjingyingchuwocangbaidelianheyanxianongzhongdeqinghei。