neinianxiatian，chanmingguozaodexiangshiyaobazhenggeshijiezhufei。wocengyiwei，neizhangtongwangqingbeidaxuedebaosongtongzhishu，huishiwoshibanianlaisuoyounulidezuizhongjiangshang，shiwozhenggeqingchunlizuiquezaowuyidexunzhang。tajinzaizhichi，tuoshoukede，kongqilidoumimanzheweilailantudexiangtianqixi。raner，dangneizhangtiezaigonggaolanshangdehongzhi，yongbinglengdedayintijianglingyigemingzijuankezaiwobengaizaideweizhishangshi，wocaimingbai，youxieguizecongyikaishijiubushiweiwozheiyangderenzhunbeide。tamenyiweiduozoudeshiwodeweilai，shiwodemengxiang。tamencuole。dangyigerenbeibidaotuiwuketuideqiangjiaoshi，tasuonengzuode，bushikuqi，ershizhuanshen，yonghoubeizhuangkaiyishanquanxindemen。erwo，zhengzhunbeibaneishanmenzhuangdezhentianxiang。
liuyue，jiaoxuelouxiadezhizihuakaidefangsi，nongyudexiangqishunzhechuanghupajingaosan（yi）bandejiaoshi，yufenbimohehanshuideweidaohunzaiyiqi，chenglewomenzheijiebiyeshengduyoudejiyi。
我的记忆，尤其甜。
“linmo，xianghaolema？quqingbeishibaojisuanjikexuehaishirengongzhineng？nizheizhongjibiede，gujiquleyeshirangneibangtianzhijiaozimenhuaiyirenshengdecunzai。”
shuohuadeshiwodetongzhuojiansidang，wangpangzi。tayibianxinbuzaiyandizhuanzhebi，yibianyonggebozhoutongletongwo，lianshangguazheyuyourongyandeshaxiao。
wocongyibenjingsaixitijilitaiqitou，yangguangzhenghaodazaiwotankaideshuyeshang，baideyouxiehuangyan。woweiweimiqiyan，kanzhechuangwaibeishaidefaniandexiangzhangshu，xinqingqueheneishuyejieranxiangfan，shuzhanderutongwanliwuyundeqingkong。
“haimeiding，buguowogengqingxiangyutulingban。”woqingshengshuo，yuqilidaizhezijidouweicengchajuededuding。
tulingban，qingbeijisuanjixidejingyingban，shiquanguosuoyougaoxinxijingsaidegaozhongshengmengmeiyiqiudeshengdian。erwo，shouwowudaxuekejingsaizhongfenliangzuizhongdeliangkuaiquanguojinpai，zaiquanshengnaizhiquanguodoupaideshanghao。womenxuexiaoweiyideneigebaosongminge，conggaoerneinianwonaxiadiyikuaijinpaiqi，jiujihuchenglewodenangzhongzhiwu。
banzhurenlaoliu，yigedaizhehoudiyanjing、yongyuanchuanzheyijianxidefabaichenshandezhongniannanren，meicizaibanhuishangtidaowo，douhuixiguanxingdituiyituiyanjing，yongyizhongjinhuxuanyaodekouwenshuo：“tongxuemenyaoxianglinmoxuexi，kandaolema？zheijiushizhishigaibianmingyun。linmotongxue，yijingyouyizhijiaotajinleqingbeidedamenle。”
tongxuemenyedoumorenlezheigeshishi。zouzailushang，xiangshudetongxuehuikaiwanxiaodijiaowo“linshen”，xiangwoqingjiaowentishi，kaitouyezongshi“moge，zheidaotichulechangguijiefa，youmeiyougengsaodecaozuo？”
jiulianchangnianwenzuonianjidier，yeshiwoweiyijingzhengduishoudexuyang，zuijinjiandaowo，yanshenliyeshaolejifenruiqi，duolejifenfuzaderenming。
xuyanghewobutong。tajiajingyouwo，fuqinshibendiyoumingdeqiyejia，muqinshishijiaoyujudelingdao。tachuanmingpai，yongzuixinkuandeshouji，zhoumoyousijiaobuke。erwo，laizichengjiaoyigeputongdegongxinjiating，fumuqingqisuoyou，yezhinengweiwotigongyigeanwendexuexihuanjing。woweiyideziben，jiushiwodedanaoheyuanchaotonglingrendenuli。
sannianlai，wojihufangqilesuoyoudeyulehuodong。dangbierenzaidaqiu、kandianying、tanlianaishi，wozhengmaishouyuhaoruyanhaidetikuli，huozhezaijifangliqiaoxiayixingxingkuzaodedaima。wodeshijiehenxiao，xiaodaozhiyoushuben、pingmuheneigeyaoyuanyouqingxidedaxuemeng。
xianzai，mengjijiangzhaojinxianshi。
neizhongganjuehenqimiao，xiangyigebashelehenjiudelvren，zhongyukandaoledipingxianjintouneizuojinsedechengbang。guoqusuoyoudepibeihegudu，douzaizheiyikehuazuolejudade、jijiangduixiandexiyue。wokaishizainaohailiguihuadaxuedeshenghuo，xiangxiangzheheguoneizuidingjiandedanaomenjiaoliupengzhuang，xiangxiangzhezaineigegengdadewutaishang，zijinengchuangzaochuzenyangdeqiji。
“hei，xiangshenmeni？koushuidoukuailiuchulaile。”wangpangziyongshubenzaiwoyanqianhuanglehuang，“biewangle，shuohaode，niquleqingbei，wokaogebeiyou，yihouzanliangxiongdijiuzaibeijingchengjixubingjianzuozhan。”
woxiaolexiao，pailepaitadejianbang：“fangxin，shaobuleni。”
xiawudierjiekehou，laoliubawojiaodaolebangongshi。
bangongshiliyirujiwangdianjing，zhiyoulaojiufengshanzaitoudingzhiyazuoxiang。laoliujiwodaolebeishui，xiaorongbipingshiyaoreqingdeduo。
“linmoa，zuijinganjuezenmeyang？buyaoyouyali，fangsongxintai，jiudangshitiqianshanganle。”tacuozheshou，jingpianhoudeyanjinglishanzheguang。
“xiexieliulaoshi，wohuide。”
“ng，”tadiandiantou，sihuyouxieyuyanyouzhi，zuihouhaishishuodao：“xuexiaozheibianduinidecailiaofeichangzhongshi，xiaozhangqinzibaguande。nideneixiejiangxiang，fenliangtaizule，qingbeizhaoshengbandelaoshidoutiqiandaguohaojicidianhualaiwenqingkuang。nijiubaxinfangdaoduzili，wenwende。”
tadehuaxiangyikedingxinwan，jiangwoxinzhongzuihouyisibuquedingyechedifupingle。woshenzhinengxiangxiangchuxiaozhanghezhaobanlaoshimenzaidianhualishizenyangjiaoaodijieshaowodelvli，neizhongbeirenke、beizhengqiangdeganjue，rangwohunshenchongmanleliliang。
“duile，”laoliuxiangshixiangqileshenme，congchoutilinachuyizhangbiaoge，“zheishibaosongshengzuizhongquerenbiaodeyigecaogao，nixiankankanyoumeiyouwenti，zhuyaoshigerenxinxihehuojiangjingli，bieyoucuolou。zhengshiwenjianmingtianshangwujiuhuizaigonggaolangongshi。”
wojieguoneizhanghaisanfazheyoumoxiangdezhi，muguangdiyishijianjiuluozailexingmingneiyilan。
“linmo”，lianggezaishuxibuguodeziqingxidiyinzaishangmian。xiamianshiwodeshenfenzhenghao、jiatingzhuzhi，yijiyizhangchuanjinguangshanshandehuojiangjilu。
“quanguoqingshaonianxinxixueaolinpikejingsaijinpai”、“quanguogaozhongshuxueliansaijinpai”、“yazhouwuliaolinpikejingsaiyinpai”……
meiyixingzi，doudaibiaozhewushugetiaodengyedudeyewan。
“meiwenti，liulaoshi。”wobabiaogedihaijita，xinzhongdeneizuojinsechengbang，fangfoyijingnengchumodaotajianshidechengqiangle。
laoliujieguobiaoge，manyididiandiantou，dantadeyanshensihuyouyishunjiandeshanduo，kuaiderangwoyiweishicuojue。tahenkuaiyouhuifuleneifureqingdexiaolian，paizhewodejianbangshuo：“hao，hao！huiquba，zuihoujitian，jiudangshifangsongle。mingtianyigongshi，nijiushizanmenxuexiaojinniandechuanqile。”
wozouchubangongshi，zhangzhangdishuleyikouqi。zoulangwai，xiyangzhengjiangtiankongranchengyipianxuanlandejuhongse。**zailanganshang，kanzhelouxiacaochangshangbenpaodetongxue，diyiciyouleyizhong“chenailuoding”deshiran。
wotaochushouji，jiwomafaletiaoweixin：“ma，wenle。”
jihushimiaohui，womafalaiyigeyongbaodebiaoqing，heyijuhua：“erzi，niyongyuanshiwomendejiaoao。”
woxiaole。zheisanniandexinku，zhile。
diertianshangwu，zhenggegaosannianjidoumimanzheyizhongzaodongbuandeqifen。yinweijintian，bujinjinshibaosongmingdangongshiderizi，yeshigedagaoxiaozizhuzhaoshengchushenjieguogongbuderizi。jijiahuanxijijiachou，doujiangzaijintianchenailuoding。
wodeneixinquepingjingrushui。duiwoeryan，zheibuguoshiyigeliucheng，yigejiangxinzhaobuxuandeshishigongzhiyuzhongdeyishi。
dakejian，gonggaolanqianyijinglisancengwaisancengdiweimanleren。wangpangzibiwohaijidong，lazhewodegebojiuwangliji。
“rangrang，rangrang！zhengzhulaile！”tarangrangzhe，yingshijiwokaichuyitiaolu。
zhouweidetongxuekandaowo，fenfentoulaihuoxianmuhuozhufudemuguang，zidongrangchugonggaolanzhengzhongyangdeweizhi。wonengtingdaorenqunzhongdeqieqiesiyu。
“kendingshilinmo，zheihaiyouxuannianma？”
“neibixude，liangkuaiguojin，shenyiyangdecunzai。”
“xuyangzheicigujiderenzaile，suirantayehenqiang，dangenlinmobihaishichaledianyisi。”
wolimaodiduitamenxiaolexiao，taitoukanxiangneizhangxingmudehongzhiheizi——《guanyu20xxjieputonggaodengxuexiaozhaoshengbaosongnituijianxueshengmingdandegongshi》。
wodemuguang，xiangbeishedinglezidongdaohangdexunhangdaodan，jingzhundisuodingle“xueshengxingming”neiyilan。
然后，我愣住了。
shijiefangfozaizheiyishunjianbeianxialejingyinjian。zhouweisuoyoudecaoza、yilun、huxisheng，douchaoshuibantuiqu，zhishengxiawojuliedexintiao，yishengsheng，chenzhongdizazaiwodeermoshang。
neigeweizhishang，yinzhedebushiwodemingzi。
是“许阳”。
zheilianggezixiangshaohongdeluotie，henhenditangzaiwodeshiwangmoshang。woyiweiwokancuole，roulerouyanjing，coujinlezaikan。
baizhiheizi，qianzhenwanque。
许阳。
怎么会是许阳？
wodedanaoyipiankongbai，xiangyitaishunjianbeibadiaodianyuandechaojijisuanji，suoyoudechengxudouxianruletingzhi。woganjuebudaozhouweirendemuguangbianhua，yetingbudaotamencongjingedaohuarandeyilunsheng。
“**？zenmeshixuyang？”
“gaocuoleba？linmoni？”
“zhei……youheimuba？xuyangdechengjihejiangxiangbilinmochayuanlea！”
wangpangzidiyigefanyingguolai，tayibazhuazhuwodeshoubei，shengyindoubianlediao：“mozi，zhei……zheishizenmehuishi？shibushigaocuole？tongmingtongxing？”
womeiyouhuidata，quanshendexueyefangfodouninggule。neizhanggongshi，jiuxiangyifenglaizipingxingshijiedepanjueshu，huangmiu，queyouzhenshiderangrenwufahuxi。wozuotianqinyanzailaoliubangongshikandaodeneifencaogao，shangmianmingmingxiedeshiwodemingzi！
weishenmeyiyezhijian，yiqiedoubianle？
womengdituikairenqun，xiangyitoufafengdekunshou，jingzhichongxiangjiaoshibangonglou。woxuyaoyigejieshi，yigeliyou！
wochongjinlaoliudebangongshi，tazhengditoupigaizuoye，kandaowotonghongzheshuangyanchuangjinlai，taxianshiyileng，suijijingpianhoudeyanshenbiandewubihuangluanheduoshan。
tazhidao。tacongyikaishijiuzhidao。
“liulaoshi！”wodeshengyinyinweifennuershayazhandou，“zheidaodishizenmehuishi？weishenmegongshimingdanshangderenshixuyang？”
laoliuzhanqishen，shouzuwucuodicuozheshou，buganzhishiwodeyanjing。tazhanglezhangzui，bantiancaijichuyijucangbaiwulidebianjie：“linmo，ni……nixianlengjingyixia。zheishixuexiaozonghepingdingdejieguo……”
“zonghepingding？”woqidexiaoleqilai，“wodechengji、wodejingsaijiangpai，nayiyangbushiquanxiaodiyi？xuyangnashenmegenwo‘zonghepingding’？pingtabashiqiyejia，haishipingtamashijiaoyujudelingdao？”
wodezhiwenxiangyibajiandao，cipolebangongshilixuweidepingjing。laoliudelianseshunjianbiandeshabai，taxiayishidixianghoutuileyibu，zuichunduosuozhe：“ni……nibiehushuo！xuexiaodejuedingshigongpinggongzhengde……”
“gongping？”woyibububijinta，“neizuotiannijiwokandeneifencaogaoyousuanshenme？shuawoma？haishishuo，neizhishianfuwodedaoju？”
neigeshunjian，zuotiantayanshenliyishanerguodeduoshan，taguodureqingdexiaorong，suoyoubeiwohulvedexijie，douchuanlianchengleyitiaoqingxidexiansuo，zhixiangyigewobuganxiangxinqueyouwubiqingxidedaan。
zheishiyichangchetoucheweidepianju。tamenzaojiuneidinglexuyang，queyizhiyongneigexuwupiaomiaodexiwangdiaozhewo，rangwoxinanlidedidangyigepeipaode“beijingban”，shenzhizaizuihouguantou，hainachuyifenjiadecaogaolaimabiwo。
judadexiuruganhebeibeipandefennu，xianghuoshanyiyangzaiwoxiongzhongbaofa。
“linmo，nitingwoshuo，”laoliudeshengyindaizheyisiaiqiu，“shiqing……shiqinghenfuza。xiaozhangxiangzhaonitantan，ta……tahuijiniyigejiaodaide。”
“jiaodai？”wolengxiaoyisheng，huanguzhezheijianwocengjingwubizunjingdebangongshi，kanzheqiangshangguazhede“jiaoshuyuren”sigedazi，juedewubifengci。
womeiyouzailihuilaoliu，zhuanshenchongchulebangongshi，zhibendingloudexiaozhangshi。
tuikaixiaozhangshihouzhongdemumen，wokandaoyigeyiliaozhiwaiyouzaiqinglizhizhongderen——xuyangdefuqin，xuzhiqiang。tazhenghemanlianduixiaodexiaozhangzuozaishafashanghecha。kandaowochuangjinlai，xiaozhangdexiaorongjiangzailelianshang，erxuzhiqiangzemantiaosilidifangxiachabei，yongyizhongjugaolinxiadeyanshendaliangzhewo。
neigeyanshenwodudongle。neishiyizhongshenglizhedelianmin，shiduiyizhibeicaizaijiaoxiademayidemoshi。
“linmotongxue，nizenmezheimechuang……chongdong。”xiaozhanglianmangqishen，shitudayuanchang，“youshenmeshi，womenkeyimanmantan。”
“wozhixiangzhidaoweishenme。”wodeshengyinlengdexiangbing。
xiaozhanghexuzhiqiangduishileyiyan，houzheweiweidianlediantou。xiaozhangzheicaiqingleqingsangzi，huanshangleyifuyuzhongxinzhangdekouwen：“linmoa，womenchengren，nidexueshuchengjifeichangyouxiu。danshi，baosongmingedepingding，shiyigezonghexingdekaoliang。xuyangtongxuebujinchengjiyouyi，zaishehuihuodong、yishutezhangdengfangmianyeweixuexiaozhengdelebushaorongyu。erqie……erqiexuyangtongxuedefuqin，xudongshizhang，yizhiyilaiduiwomenxuexiaodejiansheyejiyulehendadezhichi……”
tashuobuxiaqule，yinweiliantazijidoujuedezheifanshuociyouduomekexiao。
“zhichi？”wodingzhexuzhiqiang，yiziyijudiwen，“zhichileduoshaoqian，keyimaiyigeqingbeidebaosongminge？”
“nianqingren，shuohuayaozhuyifencun。”xuzhiqiangzhongyukaikoule，shengyindichen，daizheburongzhiyideweiya，“zheigeshijie，bushizhiyouxuexihaojiugoude。youxieguize，niyihouzoushangshehui，manmanjiuhuidong。”
tazhanqishen，zoudaowomianqian，gezibiwogaochubantou，neiguchengnianrenshijielidequanshiqixiyadewojihuchuanbuguoqi。
“nidecaihua，womenyehenxinshang。”tacongxizhuangkoudailitaochuyizhangmingpian，didaowomianqian，“zheiyangba，wogerenzizhunidaxuesiniandequanbuxuefeiheshenghuofei，xuexiaozheibianyehuijinliweinizhengquyisuodingjian985dexiaozhangtuijianminge，suanshiduinidebuchang。nikanzenmeyang？”
tadeyuqi，jiuxiangshizaishishelubiandeqigai。
wokanzheneizhangtangjindemingpian，youkanlekantaneizhangchongmanyouyuegandelian，turanjuedeyiqiedousuoranwuwei。
fennu、bugan、quru……suoyoudeqingxuzaizheiyikedouchendianlexialai，huazuoyigubinglengdepingjing。
womeiyouqujieneizhangmingpian。
wozhishikanzhexiaozhang，yongwozheibeizizuipingjing，yezuijuejuedeyuqi，shuochulesangezi。
“我退学。”