第4章 比死还可怕的绝望

di4zhangbisihaikepadejuewang

却还是晚了一步。

yiweizailuxingyuanhuaizhongdefanshuyunyanzhongshanguoyimojingguang,tongkudeshengyin,“ayuanwohaotong。”

luxingyuanzheicaifanyingguolai,baoqifanshuyunwangwaizou。

“chengxiaoran,nijiwojizhu,yaoshishuyunyoushenmesanzhangliangduanwoyaonichangming。”

chengxiaoranxintouyizhi,xinzangbeijiandaocichuan。

changming!yaotazheitiaomingjiunaquba,fanzhengtayehuobuleduojiule。kanzheluxingyuanbaozhefanshuyuncongcongliqudebeiying,chengxiaoranxinrudaoge。

congqianneigehuaibaoshitayigerendezhuanshu,luxingyuanyecengbatapengzaishouxinzhenzhengaiguo。

可现在......

“mama,teng......”yigezhinendeshengyinchuanlai。

chengxiaoranzheicaiconghuiyidesixuzhongxingguolai。

zhijianxingermantoushixue,xiangyizhibinlinsiwangdexiaoyang。

chengxiaoranlimaqishenbaotaquyiyuan,yilushangxingerbutingzailiuxue,shunjianjiujinshiletaxuebaidechenshan。

“xinger,nijianchizhu,mamabuhuirangniyoushide。”chengxiaoranshuangmuhanlei,qiangrenzhehunshentengtongzhongyugandaoleyiyuan。

“yisheng,hushi,kuaijiujiuwoerzi,qiuqiunimen,jiujiuwoerzi。”chengxiaoranshuangshouzhuazhubaiyidagua,falefengsideyingyingtikubianchenghaotaodaku。

hushiwenyanmashangganlai,baxingerjieguopaoxiangjizhenshi。

chengxiaoranguidaozaidi,juewangdekuqi,tabuzhidaozheiyiqiedaodishizenmele。shizhi,shenshenqianruzijirouli。

“chengxiaoran,nihaiganlaiyiyuan。”binglengdenanshengzaitatoudingshangkongxiangqi,haimeidengchengxiaoranhuiguoshenlai,jiubeiyizhidajiaohenlichuaixiangxinkou。

chengxiaorantaitouwangqu,shiluxingyuanlengmodejunlian。

beiluxingyuanyiti,chengxiaorandexiongkoujiuxindetong,xiangshibeiqianwanzhimayizaiyonglisiyao。

tadelianzhujiancangbai,yishibuqing,doudadehanzhubutingdewangwaimao。

“chengxiaoran,nizenmeneimeedu,shuyunneimejiaoruonidoubufangguo,youzhongnichongwolai,wopeiniwan。”luxingyuanjugaolinxiadekanzhechengxiaoran,yifupinidizitai,xiangyigemengshouduizheyizhimayi。

jiaoruo?zheijiushifanshuyunyizhizailuxingyuanmianqianzhuangbandexingxiangma?neitakendingbuzhidaoneisannianfanshuyunshiruhexinhenshoula,ruhezhemotade。

“bushiwo,shitazijiguyishuaidaode。”chengxiaoranjinhuyongjinquanshenliqisihou,“ayuan,woqiuqiuni,xinwo,bushiwo......”

“xinni?”luxingyuanlengzhelian,piexiangtadeyanlianzanglebiyi,“xinnishenme?xinnibuzheshouduanshanghaiwozhiqinderen?xinnibeipanwohuailebierendeyezhong?haishixinnihuayanqiaoyuboqudajiatongqing?chengxiaoran,nishuoniyaorangwoxinnishenme?”

yizhenhanyiconggusuilitouchulai,xueyehaosizaishunjianningjie,chengxiaorantanruandeguizuozaidishang,heitonglijinrunchujuewang,“nizhongjiuhaishixinbuguowo......”

cunlideneichangdahuo,zaitaxinliyijingrendingtajiushizuikuihuoshou。

“wojiushiyinweitaixinni,caihuibeinizheimeyunong!”luxingyuandingzheta,henbudesikaitaxuweidelian,“niduiwofumuxiashoudeshihouyoumeiyouxiangguoneishiwodebama?nizaijuedingfangneibahuodetongshiyoumeiyouxiangguoneixierendoushiwugude?jiuyinweinidewocuogoudang,xishenglezhenggecunzideren,nishibushixiangbawoshenbianderendouhaiwanle,nicaiganxin?”

“meiyou......womeiyou......meiyouzhengjudeshiqing,nipingshenmedingwodezui......nibunengjiangzheixiemoxuyoudezuimingquananzaiwodeshenshang......womeiyou......”

chengxiaoranyijingbuzhidaoduiluxingyuanshuoguoduoshaobian,suoyoudeyiqiedoubushitazuode,ketabuxin,jiurutongzheiyici,tabuxinta!

只因为范舒云!

“shibushiziyoufalvdingduo,tianwanghuihui,nitaobudiaode。”luxingyuanyanlizhuqilebingleng,cigudeyinhan。

chengxiaoranyidongbudongzuozaidishang,yanleiyikekegunluo,chenshandeqianjinhunzhexuejishitouheyunran,sishiyougushengxiudetiexingwei。

yichanghunyin,huanlairucidadedaijia,nandaojiujinjinyinwei,taaitama?