第4章

woconghunmizhongxingguolaideshihou,yijingshiwanshang。

zhengkaiyan,jiukandaoguyunhengyiguanchuchudezhunbeichumen,zhengpishangtadexizhuangwaitao。

wodezuichunkailie,sangziyesiya,yitianmeichifan,cikehunshenruanmianmiande,jiuxianggepobukoudaiyiyangweidunzaichuangshang。

pinjinsuoyoudeliqi,shuangshouchengzhechuangdanzuoqishen,wowangxiangguyunhengdefangxiangshenchushou:“yunheng,shui……”

guyunhengyijingzoudaolexuanguan,tingdaowodehuhuan,youxiebunaifandeniuguoshenlai。

“nizijidaobeishuidoubuhui?suqing,woquannixibieyantaiguo,bieyiweiwobuzhidaonineidianxiaoxinsi。”

youruqingtianpiliyiban,wozhengzaiyuandi,buzhidaotaweishenmezheiyangduiwo。

qianjitianwogangzhidaozijihuaileyun,dangshiwoxingfendehaojigewanshangdoumeishuihao。

manxinxiangdedoushitaruoshizhidaowomenyoulehaizi,duiwohuoxuhuigengtitiewenrouyixieba。

bijing,youlehaizi,womenjiuyoulegewanzhengdejia。

我能有什么小心思?

wosuoyoudexinsi,jiushiningyuanbuzhiliao,yeyaobahaizishengxialai。

zaiguyunhengshenbianliuxianapayidianwodehenji。

danzaiguyunhengkanlai,wochuxianzaiyiyuanjiushimeishizhaoshi,wodehunmiwodenanshoudoushizhuangchulaide,yanchulaide……

“zheimewanle,nichumenqu,jiushiweilejianyeanranba,woyezhidaonidexiaoxinsi。”

woyaozheya,renzheyanlei,jueqiangdeyangqitoukanta。

dangchuyeanranzaiguyunhenghetagegezhijianxuanzelegumingfan,guyunhengshenshoudaji,zheicaidoudouzhuanzhuanzhaodaolewozheigetidaipin。

wozhidao,taxinlihaiyouyeanran。

woyezhidao,taduiwodeneixiewenrouheqianjiu,doushiyinweiwoheyeanrandexiangsi。

danjiranyijingjielehun,wojiushitamingmeizhengqudeqizi。

tashenweiyigezhangfu,shenyepaoqugenzijidesaoziyuehui,nandaoshishenmehenguangcaideshima?

tahaidaodayipalaixiuruwo!

我咽不下这口气。

quemeixiangdaoguyunhengshunjianbeiwodezhiwenjinule,takuaibuzouguolai,shenchushouqiazhulewodebojing,bipowotaiqitouyangwangzheta:“woqujiananranyoushenmebudui?tashiwodesaozi,shiwodeqinren,wogesile,wojiuyinggaizhaoguta,anweita,suqing,shiwokancuoleni,nibujinrenxingbudongshi,nidexinhaizheimezang。”

我心脏?

shisheizaixinhunyedewanshang,shuimenglihanzheyeanrandemingzi?

shisheishuobuxihuanjiezhineiyangsutaodedongxi,jieguoquebeiwofaxiangenyeanrandaizheqinglvduijie?

shisheizaigumingfansihou,jiupobujidaidebasaozijiehuilai,ririyeyebufenli,erwozheigesuoweidehefaqizi,xiangjianshangtayimiandounan?

“shi,woxinzang,shenmerenxuyaonishenyequzhaogu,bieshizhijiezhaogudaochuangshangqule。”

wocengjingqianwancidequanziji,rendaohaizichusheng,dancike,queshizaiyerenbuzhu。

ranerhuayinmeiluo,guyunhengkouzaiwobojingshangdeshoujiushiyijin。

tafushen,bawolongzhaozaitadeyinyingzhong,wangzhewodeyanshenbinglengerwuqing:“wozaojiugaosuguonile,jiushiyinweita,nicaiyoujintiandehaorizi,suoyi,tinghuayidian,duiniduiwodouhao。”

shide,tazaojiugaosuguowole。

jiehunchuqi,womenyeyouguomilidiaotangderizi,erzaijianguoyeanranzhihou,woxinsuiyoubugandeduizhetayoukuyounao。

tapingjingdekanzhewokudechuanbushangqilai,zaiwoweidunzaidideshihou,congshenhoubaozhuwo,dongzuoqinni,yuqiqueshibingleng。

tashuo,doushiyinweita,nicaiyoujintiandehaorizi。

tashuo,suqing,renyaozhizuchangle,buyaoxiaoxiangbushuyuzijidedongxi。

tashuo,taxihuandongshidenvren,yikuernaosanshangdiaodenvren,lianzuotidaipindoubupei。

wozaogaizhidaode,dangtazaiwobojingshangzhuachuyidaoxuehen,xianedeshuaikailewo,baworengdaochuangshang,woxinlishanguozheiyangdeniantou,wogaizhidao,bingqiebaizhengzijideweizhi。

yuezhengzha,yueshihuibeishangdexueroumohu。

pengdeyisheng,tayangzhangerqu,zhongzhongguanshangfangmen。

zhiliuxiawoyigeren,daizheyishendebingtonghewomendehaizi,pazaichuangshang,yanleijinshilezhentou。