第一章
di99cijujueweichidelihunyaoqiuhou，wosile。
shibeitadechoujiahuoshengshengnveside。
duanqishi，woqinyankanzhebangfeijiangwokaichangpodu，taochuwosangeyuedahaiweichengxingdehaizi；erweichijueranbuzhi，tazhengmangzhepeibaiyueguangtiaoxuanhunsha。
qianshi，wochenweichihezui，pashangletadechuang。
jiehunwunian，weichiduiwojijinlengmo。
taweilebaiyueguangcaiwan，bawoguanjindijiaozishengzimie，hejiuhedaoweituxue。
weilejicaiwanyigemingfen，tawushucixiangwotichulihun。
woxiangtasihou，jiusuansiyebuhuirangchuweitaitaideweizhi。
如今，我真的死了。
dangdezhiwohecaiwantongshibeibangjiadeshihou，weichidediyifanying，shihuaiyiwo。
「wanwanshentibuhao，nizijirexiadeshiduan，zijijiejueba。」
linsiqian，wohouhuile，ruguozhonglai，wozaiyebuyaoaita。
zaiyizhengyan，wohuidaoleheweichijiehundedisannian。
「zhenshishenmeamaoagoudouganlaizichengshizongcaifuren，xiaosiwole。」jiansuankebodeshengyinchuanlai。
jiezhe，woshoulidebaowenhejiubeiqiangguoqu，zhijiekouzailewodetoushang。
dunlesangexiaoshidewujitangzhijiejiaoxialai。
maozheyouhuadetangzhishunjianhumanlewodetou。
woxiayishiquwulian，haihaotangshuishiwende。
zhouweixiangqihongxiao，huazhejingzhizhuangrongdeqiantaikanzhewoqingmiedigenbaoanshuo：「yihoubuyaosheidoufangjinlai，caimishushuole，zongcaidezhuiqiuzhetaiduole，meiyigedoufangjinlai，zongcaihaigongbugongzuole。」
baoanmanliantaohaodipinpindiantou。
wobokainianzailianshangdetoufa，bukezhixindikanzheyanqiandeyimu。
wojingranzhongshengle，huidaoleheweichijiehundedisannian，neishihoushiwozuiaiweichideshihou，tashuoshenmewodoutongyi。
woxiang，fanzhengwomendoujiehunle，weilaideriziwohuiyizhipeibanzaitashenbian，wohuijitagengduogengduodeai，rangtamanmanjieshouwo。
suoyi，zaitashengrizheiyitian，woqinzidunlejitangjitasonglai。
danshiwomeixiangdao，yejiushizheiyitian，wofaxianweichijingranbacaiwananpaidaoshenbian，chengletadesirenmishu。
caiwandaxuebuhaohaoxuexi，zhizhidaotanlianai，meibiyejiugenzhefuerdaipaoguowaiqule，shuailebeijialianpaichikudeweichi，danshisheixiangdaoweichicaishihaomenshijiadeshaoye。
caiwan，renruqiming，zhangdewenwan，quezongshisajiaobankeai。
meicidouyongmomoliuleineiyizhao，hongdeweichimeicidouxintengbuyi，youjimaicheyoujimaifang，lianyifuxiezibaobaodouqinliqinweiditiaoxuan。
tamenhuiyiqiguojie、yiqisanbu、yiqilvyou、yiqiyouyong、yiqipaowenquan，hetamenxiangbi，wocaixianggeshangbudetaimiandexiaosan。
suoyiwobengkui，wonuhou，woxiesidili，zaijiashangzhiyaojiandaocaiwan，tajiubushishuailejiushikule，rangweichiyiweiwozaiqifuta，gengjiayuanhenwo。
diyicitingshuoweichizaiwaimianjicaiwanmailefangzideshihou，wodaizhelvshituanduiqushoufangzi，jiaoxiaozhezheishiwomenfuqigongtongcaichan，youquanshouhui。
jieguobeiganlaideweichikanjian，zhijiejiesanlelvshituandui，zhuaizhewohuijiabawoguanjinledixiashidejiujiaosantiansanye，woelejiuhejiu，zuihouweichuxuecaibeifangchulai。
dierciweichibawoxinmaidepaochesongjicaiwan，xiaoshoudalaidianhuashuochebeiweizongtizouledeshihou，wohaijidongdiyiweiweichiqujiwotichele，jieguodiertian，caiwanjiukaizhewodinglehenjiudepaochelaijiweichisongwenjian。
wobei**dehenbudeshalecaiwan，naqiyuandingdechutoujiuchongguoqubachezadexibalan，woningkehuileta，yebukenengrangcaiwandedao。
jieguocaiwanbeisuipianhualegexiaokouzi，weichiyinzhelianbarenbaozoule。
erliujiwodeshi，weiqiyizhoudejianjin，wozaidixiashigouyancanchuandeshihou，weichizhengwenroudibacaiwandetuifangzaizijidexigaishangshangyao。
yiqiedezhongzhongdouruzoumadengbanchuxianzaiwonaohai，rangwoyoutongkuyoujuewangdeaiqing，wozaiyebuxiangyaole。
kanzhezhouweidezuilian，wolengjingdicaganlianshangdeshuizi，nachudianhuabotongleyigedianhua。
budaoyifenzhong，zongcaisirendiantijiupaoxialaiyigeren，bushiweichi，ershiweishubuduozunjingwoderen，weichidezhulilinhe。
linhekanjianwolangbeideyangzi，jingyadebuzhisuocuo，zaizhongrenmianqiangongjingdihanleju：「furen，ninzenmelaile？」
qiantaiqingmiedezuilianhaimeiyoushouhui，jiubeiganguolaideshouxizhixingzhulihedaole。
baoangengshibukezhixindikanzheyanqianzongcaihongrenbeigongquximianduidewo。
woangzhetou，shuaidiaoneiyishenlangbei，duilinheshuo，「yigegongsideqiantaijiushimenmian，ruguoweichizhidaotagongsidemenmianzheiyangdeyimaoquren，buheshijiusuiyipandinglelaifangzhedeshenfen，neiliujikehudejiangshizuizaogaodetiyan。」
linhekanzhezhouweirendizhetoubugankanta，yijingdazhicaidaolefashengleshenme。
「furen，wohuidiaojiankong，jueduijininyigejiaodai。ninsuiwoquzongcaineilihuanshenyifuba！」
wolengmodikanzhe，naqibao，「buyongle，wozoule。」
wobingbuxiangzaizhengchaoshenme，meiyouyiyi，jiuxiangshangyishi，kanjianleweichiyouyoushenmeyongni，tayiranmeiyouweiwotaohuigongdao，ershidaizhecaiwanzhijieconglangbeidewoshenbianlikai，zheiyanggengrangqiantaihebaoanzuoshilewojiushigetiangou，genbenbushishenmezongcaifuren。
zheiyishi，wozaiyebuxiangsheqiwodezunyanle。