第一章
1983nian，yiminju。
fuwuchuangkouqian，gongzuorenyuanyouyudekanzheyanqiandehuoliunian。
“huoxiansheng，ninquedingyaoyiminma？ruanxiaojieshenfenteshu，zuzhishangshijuebuyunxutachuguode，ninzheiyigaizhang，zheibeizihetajiuzaiyebunengjianmianle。”
huoliunianhaobuyouyu，zhijienaqigongzhangzaizijideyiminshenqingshushanggaixialezhang。
tajiushiyaohetayongbuxiangjian！
gongzuorenyuanjianciyebuhaozaishuoxieshenme，zhishijietagaihaozhangdeziliaodao，“huoxiansheng，shiwutianhoushouxujiuhuibanhao，qingninnaixindengdai。”
huoliuniandiandiantou，zhuanshenjiuwangmenwaizouqu，shenhouqueturanchuanlaigongzuorenyuanxixisuosuodeyilunsheng。
“huoxianshengheruanxiaojieshichaojialema？jiusuanchaojiayebugainaoneimedaa？tamendeenaizaijingchengkeshichulemingde。”
“kebushi，wojianeikouzijiushizairuanxiaojieshouxiabanshide，meicidoutingtashuo，ruanxiaojiejianzhichongfuruming，huoxianshengxihuanzhonghua，tajiumeitianpairenmaixiahuadianzuixinxiandehuaduo；huoxianshengxihuananjing，tajiujianleyidongeshifenggededudong，huoxianshengchuquguangjiexiaoshiyixiaoshi，ruanxiaojiejiujidedengbaoxunzhao，rujinhuoxianshengjiuzheiyangmanzhetazou，tabudefafenga……”
tingzhezhongrendeyilunsheng，huoliunianchelechechun，yanlidezichaoqueyuelaiyuenong。
shia，suoyourendouzhidaoruanyanfeiyouduoaita。
neishitashiwengongtuandeshouxi，erruanyanfeishijingchengdaxiaojie。
suoyourendoushuotagaolengyoujuligan，bujinnanse，sishenghuoshanggengshichulemingdeguadanliangbo，suoyounanrendoubixulitasanmizhiyuan。
zhidaoneichanglianyiwanhui，tayushanglehuoliunian。
taduitayijianzhongqing，kaishifengkuangdezhuiqiuta，zhubaoshoushibuyaoqiandesong，mantianyanhuaranfangsantiansanyezhaogaozhetadeaiyi，shenzhiweiletasuikouyijuxiangchitingchanduoniandelizigao，tamaozhebaofengxuedabanyekaichepaobiansanzuocheng，hunshenshitou，quepengzhehairehuhudegaodiansongdaotamianqian。
erzhenzhengrangtaxiadingjuexinjieshoutade，shitafumuqushineitian。
yuanzaishengwaibangongdeta，ningyuansheqisuoyouyeyaobuguyiqieganhuilai。
gandaotamianqianshi，tamanshenlangbei，yandibumanhongxuesi，quexintengdejiangtalanruhuaizhong。
“liunian，bieku，nihaiyouwo，wohuiyongyuanpeizainishenbian。”
huoliuniankanzhetayanlideshenqing，xinzangloutiaolejipai。
就她了。
huoliunianzaixinlizheiyangduizijishuodao。
kejiushizheimeyigezhongyutaderen，quezaisangeyueqianshoubuzhuyouhuo，hecongxiangxialaitoubentazhaogongzuodebiaodisihunzaileyiqi。
weitajianzhudedudongbieshudeshafashang，chufang，hunchuangshang，daochudouyoutamenhuanaiguodehenji。
ruanjiabeijingteshu，yincizuzhiyueshu，ruanjiashangxiadoubunengchuguo。
包括阮言妃。
zhiyaotachuguo，tazheibeizidouzhaobudaota！
huoliunianshouhaoshoushangdeyiminziliao，jingzhichaojiashudayuanzouqu。
gangyituikaimen，yigushinanhuadeweidaozhichongtadebijian。
huoliunianqialeqiashouxincaiguzuozhendingdezoulejinqu。
zhengzaiqiangshangguazhuangshideliangrentingjiandongxianghou，lianmangzhuanshenkanxiangta。
ruanyanfeizhengleyishun，erhouyanmoushunjianwenrou，zouguolaiwozhutadeshou。
“liunian，zenmechuanzheimeshao，lengbuleng，nibushishuochuquguangjielema，zenmezheimekuaijiuhuilaile，wohaizaijinizhunbeijingxini。”
惊喜？
huoliuniantaimoukanxiangruanyanfei，muguangquebuzijindetingdunzaitadebozishang。
neili，youzheyidapiandewenhen。
tayanjiemaoweiweizhanlezhan，jielirenzhuxinzangdecitong。
jiantameiyouhuida，yipangdejiangchengfengxiaozhezouleguolai。
“biaoge，ruanjiezhenshitaiainile，yigechushijinianridouweinibandezheimelongzhong……”
jiangchengfengguyitingdunleyixia，youzhizheyipangshafashangduimaojiandeliwu。
“nikan，zheixiekedoushiruanjieweinizhunbeideliwue。”
huoliunianshunzhejiangchengfengdeshoukanqu，quexiankandaoliwuduixianeituanyunkaideshuiji。
neiyishun，tazhijuewuleihongding，fangcaigangjinmendeweidaoherujindehenji，douchediyinzhengletafangcaicaidaodeyigeshishi。
爱他？
ruanyanfeisuoweideaita，jiushiyibianjitazhunbeiliwu，yibianhejiangchengfengzaishafashanghuanai，shenzhijiqingdaoranshiyidapianshafa？
zuanxinwanguzhitong，buguoruci。
ruanyanfeimeizhuyidaohuoliuniandeyichang，zhishijiangzaozhunbeihaodeshouliandaizaitashouwanshang，yuqiwenroudejihunengnichushuilai，“liunian，chushijinianrikuaile，wohaizhunbeilezhuguangwancan，doushicongxiyangyunguolaideshicai。”
huoliunianhunshenzhandou，yaoleyaotou，“wobuchile，wo……bushufu。”
rujindeta，ruanyanfeidaizaiyiqidemeiyimiaodoushizhemo。
tayikaishijiushuoguode，tayouganqingjiepi，bunengjieshouxiaci。
yaomejiubuyaolaizhaoreta，jiranzhaorele，weishenmeyouyaofuta？
ruanyanfeitingdaotashuobushufu，shunjianrulindadi。
xianshidadianhuajiaolaihaojigejiatingyishengjitajiancha，jianchawanhoumeiwentihaishibufangxin，paishuxiaqumaileyidaduibuqixuedebupin，youqinshoujitapaoleniunai，hongzhetashuijue。
zhetenglesiwugexiaoshihou，huoliunianzhongyubeitahongshui，
shenye，huoliunianturanbeikexing，zhengxiangchuqujieshui。
kejiuzaidakaifangmendeshunjian，quezhenggerenshunjianjiangzaileyuandi。
gebifangjiandamenchangkai，jiaojiedeyueguangtouguochuangzhaoshechuchuangshangzhengchiluojiuchandeliangren。
“jintianneitiaoshoulianguisile，wochanlenihaojiunidoumeiyoujiwo。biaogeshenmedoumeizuo，nijiubabadebahaodongxiquandousongdaoletamianqian。”
jiqingguohou，jiangchengfenglouzhutaxianxideyaoshen，hualimanmandoushisuanwei。
ruanyanfeicumei，chouchushenlai，zuozaichuangbian。
“nishibushimeirenqingnideshenfen？woshuoguowozhiailiunianyigeren。”
“niyaoshixianghewoweichizheizhongguanxi，zhinengzaiandi，yaoshibeitafaxianle，nizhidaoxiachang。”
jiangchengfenglianshangyibai，paqichiluodeshenzicongbeihoubaozhutaweiqudao：“wozhidaoniaibiaoge，danwoyeainia，wojiuchichicu，yebukeyima。”
ruanyanfeimeishuohua，zhishiwanyaocongchoutilinachuyitiaohehuoliuniantongkuanbutongsedeshoulian。
“biezuochuzheifuweiqudeyangzi，woyejinimaileyitiao，dannizhinengbeidilidai，yaoshibeitafaxian，womendeguanxilikejieshu。”
jiangchengfenglianshangyixi，lianmangnaguoshoulianzaizijimanshiqingziwenhendebozishangbihua。
“xiexieruanjie！wojiuzhidaonixinlihaishiyouwode！buguonijiuzheimepabiaogelikaima！”
tajihumeiyourenheyouyu，“shi，wobunengmeiyouta，yaoshitalikai，wohuifeng。”
huayinluoxia，jiangchengfengpuxiangtayoukaishilexiayichangtafa。
chuangpubeitadedongzuozhuangdezhiyazuoxiang，erpanchuanlairuanyanfeijieerliansandeshenyinsheng，zhanzaiyuanchudehuoliunianleiruyuxia。
tahongzheyankanzheqiangshangjiehunzhaoliruanyanfeidelian。
ruanyanfei，shiwutianhou，wodengzhenifeng。