01shiyizhimiwojiaosunian，jinnianershibasui，zhiyeshichahuashi，tezhangshizaizijishengridangtianzhunshishiyi。
biewuhui，zheibushishenmelangmanchaonengli，ershisannianqiankaishi，meinianshengridouzhunshishangyandehuangdanju。
yixuemingchenghenhuren——“jianxiexingjiyiduanliezheng”。tongsudianshuo，jiushimeinianwoduizheshengridangaoxuwanyuan，
daodiertiantaiyangshai**zhijiandejiyi，huixiangliezhiheibanshangdefenbizi，beiyizhiwuxingdashoumodeyiganerjing，
liandianfenbihuidoubusheng。jinnian，zheichuximazaicizhunshishangyan。wozaikingsizedachuangshangxinglai，
naodailixiangshisaijinleyigezhengzaishigongdezuanjingpingtai，tutuditeng。
yangguangtouguoneishanhualewolianggeyuegaofeidingzhidezheguanglianfengxi，jingzhunditoushezaiwodeyanpishang，
fangfozaishuo：“qichuangle，shiyishaonv，xinyitiandekunhuozaidengzhenini！
”woxiguanxingdishenshoumoxiangchuangtouju——yibeiwenduqiahaodewenshuiguoranzaineilidengzhe，
pangbianshiliangpianxiaoqiaodebaiseyaopian，xiangyiduianjingde、chongmanmituandeshuangbaotai。wodezhangfu，chenmo，
zongshizheimetitieruwei。tashixinliyisheng，yingjundekeyizhijiedabaosongqupaicaijingzazhifengmian，
wenroudenengrangbaozaodemaokedongwuzhudongfandupi，
qingxuwendingdexiangyikuaizaihengwenhengshihuanjingxiabaocunleqiannianderuishijixiebiao。
duifuwozheizhong“jijiexingjiyizhangai”huanzhe，tazhuanyederangrenxiangjitabanfa“nianduzuijiahugong”jiangbei。
“xingle？”chenmoduanzhezaocantuopanzoujinlai，xiaorongwennuandenengronghuagelinglandaodebingchuan，“touhaitengma？
xianbayaochile。”tachuanzheyuntiedemeiyouyisizhezhoudebaichenshan，xiukouwandaoxiaobei，
luchuneikuainengmaixiawobangegongzuoshideshoubiao。yiqiedouwanmeidexiangaishengchengdelixiangzhangfuxuanchuanpian。
wojieguoshuibei，muguangquexiangbeishenmewuxingdedongxiqianyinzhe，
luozailezijiyoushoushizhidezhijiafengli——neiliqianzheyisijixiweide、anhongsedehenji。
bushiwojintiantudedoushasezhijiayou，gengxiangshi……ninggudefupenziguojiang？huozhe，
mouzhongbuneimelingrenyukuaideyeti。woyibianxiaokouheshui，yibianzhuangsiwuyidiyongmuzhiqukouneidianaiyandehenji。
xinlifengkuangtucao：zuowandeshiyiqingjienandaoshiwohechenmojinxingleyichangjiliedeyidalimianroujiangdazhan？
zheishiyidejubenyetaibujiangjiuweishengleba！“zuowan…womeizuoshenme…e，tebiechugedeshiba？
”wozhaoliwendao，nulirangzijideshengyintingqilaidaizhegangshuixingdemengdongheyisiqiadaohaochudekuijiu。
chenmobaneigebaipanjingzhidexiangmiqilincantingchupindejiandanfangzaiwomianqiandechuangtoujushang，
dongzuoyouyadexiangzaibowuguanlixuanguaminghua。tajibukewenditanlekouqi，
neitanxilichongmanleshashibiyabeijushide、wenroudewunai：“haihao。jiushi…qingxushaoweiyoudianjidong，
buxiaoxindafanleyibeihongjiu。meiguanxi，baobei，ditanyijingrangzhuanyebaojiechuliguole，
yidianhenjidoubuhuiliuxia。”youshidafanhongjiu。lianxusannianshengrishiyiye，
wodoujingzhundi、zhizhedidafanlehongjiu。wodouhuaiyizijishangbeizishibushigebeihongjiuyansidedaomeidan，
zheibeiziyaolaifuchou。02yinmijinggaochenmoxiangwangchangyiyang，zaiwoetouliuxiayigeqingwen，
ranhouchumenqutadexinlizhensuo，jixutazhengjiu（huozhe，sheizhidaoni，
yexushicaokong）qitalinghundeweidashiye。men“kada”yishengqingxiangguanshang，
jiangzheijianzhuangxiushehua、kongjiankaikuodegongyubianchenglewoyigerendezhentanwutai。wolikexiankaibeizi，
chijiaocaizaibingliangdegaojidalishidibanshang，xiangzhijingjuedemaoyiyangliudaoketing。
wopantuizuozaineizhangguiderangrenshentengdeafuhanyangmaoditanshang，
sisidingzhetazaoshangqingmiaodanxiezhijiwokandeneikuai“anfaxianchang”。ditanbeiqingxidejihuwanmei，
zaitouguochuanghudeyangguangxiafanzherouruandeguangze。jihu。wobusixin，zhenggerenpaxiaqu，
bijianjihuyaotiedaoneixiexinideyangmaoxianweishang。
chuleneiguangguide、daizheningmenghexiaodushuihunheqiweideqingjiejixiangwei，
wodebiqiangsihubuzhuodaoleyisijiqiweiruode、tiannidaofahou，shenzhiyoudianlianjiadeqiwei。
jueduibuxiangchenmojiujulineixiedongzhewuweishudehongjiugaiyoudechunxiang，
daoxiangshi……yeshiditanshangershikuaiqianyipingde、fangmaomoudapaideliezhixiangshuiwei？
woxinlineidiancongxinglaijiukaishipanxuandebuduijing，cikexiangyikebeidiujinwenshuilidepaotengpian，
kaishifengkuangdimaopao、zhalie。buxing，wodequkankanwode“nuoyafangzhou”——yibenzangzaiwoyijuzuidiceng，
yongyijianwomayingsaijiwode、choudehenyouniandaigandejiumaoyibaoguozhederijiben。
congsannianqiandiyicimomingqimiaoshiyikaishi，
wojiutoutouyangchenglezheige“sunianjisunianliuzhitiao”deyuchunyoubiyaodezijiuxiguan。
wonieshouniejiaodiliuhuiwoshi，bakaineijianchoumaoyi，mochuneigefengmianhuazhezhishahuhuxiangrikuiderijiben。
xinzangzaixiongqiangliqiaozhebuandegudian。woshenxiyikouqi，pobujidaidifankai。zuixinyiye，
shiwoshiyiqianzaishuxibuguode、lvedailiaocaodebiji，yongjiacudeliduxiezhe：“sunian！wenzhu！
mingtianxinglaihou，nishige‘shiyi’dexiaokelian！danbiezhenshale！like！mashang！
jianchashufangzuobianchoutizuixiaceng！！qieji！！！”houmiangenzhesangejudade、jihuyaochuopozhibeidegantanhao，
chongfenzhanshilezuotianneigeqingxingdesunianneixindejiaozhuohejinpo。wodexintiaoshunjianbiaodaoleyibaiba。
kanlaizuotiandewo，yijingbushiyugan，
ershidudingjintiandewohuibianchengyizhizaimigongliluanzhuande、shiyidewutoucangying。
woxiangdianyinglideyeyujiandieyiyang，zuozeixinxudiliujinshufang。chenmodeshufangzhengjiedelingrenfazhi，
suoyouwenjianfenmenbieleiyongtongyidewenjianjiazhuanghao，shujianzhaogaoaihesexipailiedexiangdengdaijianyuedeshibing，
lianbitonglidebidouchaozhetongyigefangxiang。kongqizhongpiaofuzhedandandexiaodushuiweidao，zheilibuxiangyigejia，
gengxiangyigewujunshiyanshi。wodingledingshen，lakaizuobianchoutizuixiaceng。limiankongkongdangdang，
zhiyoujibenzhanxinde、liansuliaofengmodoumeichaidexinlixueqikan，fangfozaichaoxiaowodeyishenyigui。gaoshenme？
zuotiandewoshizaishuajintiandewowanma？zheisuanshenme？kuashikongdeezuoju？yigucuobaiganyongshangxintou。
danwoqiangpozijilengjingxialai，huixiangzuotianneigewohuaxiadejudagantanhao。budui，kendingyoudongxi。wobusixin，
baneixieqikanquandoubanchulai，shouzhishenjinkongdangdangdechoutiqiangtili，xiangmangrenmoxiangyiyangziximosuo。
zhijianhuranchudaoyidianweixiaode、jihunanyichajuedetuqi。jiuzaichoutineicededingbanshang！
wodexintidaolesangziyan，yongzhijiaxiaoxinyiyidikoulekou。yixiaokuaitoumingjiaodaizhanzhededongxi。wopingzhuhuxi，
qingqingbatasilexialai。shiyizhangduizhedexiaoxiaode、bianyuanyouxiemaocaodebianlitie。zhankai。
shangmianshiwozijideziji，danxiedefeikuai、liaocao，daizheyizhongwangmingtianyabandecangcu，
jihuyaocongzhishangfeiqilai：“tazaijiankongni。yaoyouwenti。zhaoshenxinyisheng。kuaipao！！！
”meiyigezidouxiangyijidaizhebingchadezhongchui，henhenzazaiwodelizhishang。jiankong？yao？shenyisheng？kuaipao？
zheiduanduandeshijigezi，yunhandexinxilianghechongjili，biwoguoqusanniansuoyoushiyineirongjiaqilai，
haiyao**yibaibei。03yaopianzhenxiangwotanzuozaibinglengdedibanshang，
houbeideliangyishunzhejizhuiyilupamanlequanshen。neizhangqingpiaopiaodebianlitie，cikezaiwoshoulizhongruoqianjun，
xiangyikuaishaohongdeluotie，tangdewoshouxinfateng。chenmozaijiankongwo？jiankongshenme？
jiankongwomeitianwozaishafashangbianchishupianbianhuagaozidelatamoyang？haishijiankongwodafanhongjiude“jingdianshunjian”？
yaoyouwenti？shenmeyao？tameitianqingchenyongneishuangpiaoliangdekeyiqudangshoumodeshou，
wenroudidaowomianqiande“weishengsupian”？neixiewochilesannian，
shenxinbuyineng“anfuqingxu”、“fuzhushuimian”dexiaoyaopian？shenxinyisheng……woduizheigemingziyouyinxiang。
chenmodetongxing，yigekanqilaiyoudianku、youdianshuli、butaihequndenvyisheng。zaiyicixingyejiuhuishangjianguo，
chenmohoulaicengyongneizhong“woshiweinihao”deyuqi，weiwanditixingwoshaogentajiechu，shuota“guandianbijiaopianji，
butaizhuliu”。zhiyu“kuaipao”……wotaiqitou，
mangrandihuanguzheigezhuangxiujingmei、shiyejijia、cuntucunjindeshizhongxingaodanggongyu。
tacengjingshiwopibeilinghundebifenggang，shichenmoweiwodazaode、diyuwaijiefengyude“anquanbaolei”。cike，
neixieguanghuadedalishiqiangmian、angguidezhinengjiaju、shejiganjiqiangdejiaju，
quefangfodouzhangchulebinglengdeyanjinghewuxingdesuolian，
rangzheilikanqilaixiangyigejingxindazao、shehuawubidejinsilong。lengjing，sunian，lengjing。
woyongliqialezijidedatuiyiba，tengtongrangwohunluandesixushaoweiqingxileyidian。
nixianzaishige“shiyi”huanzhe，shigexuyaobeizhangfu“zhaogu”dexiaokelian。bunengdacaojingshe，jueduibuneng。
wobaneizhangjiumingdebianlitiexiaoxinyiyizhongxinzhanhuichoutidingbandeyuanchu，quebaoweizhifenhaobucha，
ranhoubaqikananyuanyangmafanghuiqu，shenzhidiaozhenglejicijiaodu，liqiuhuifuchenmoneizhongbiantaidezhengjiedu。
zuowanzheiyiqie，wohuidaoketing，jiazhuangbaiwuliaolaidiwozaishafalikandianshi。
yanjingdingzhepingmushangchaonaodezongyijiemu，muguangquexiangzhuanglesaomiaoyidetanzhaodeng，
yibianyouyibiandi、budongshengsedisaoshizhenggeketingkongjian。shexiangtou……huizangzainali？
neigekanqilaiyishuganshizu、youwushushuijingpianzuchengdediaodengli？
neigebaimanlejingzhuangshuji、wojihuconglaimeidongguodeshujiafengxili？
haishineigechenmocongmougeyishuzhanmaihuilaide、yanshendaizhikongdongdebaisetaocirentoubaijianli？
woxianggeyeyuzhentanyiyangguanchalebantian，yanjingdoukansuanle，boziyekuaijiangle，
chulequerenwojiazhuangxiuqueshihenguizhiwai，piyemeifaxian。kanlaifuermosihuozheboluozheiwanfan，
zhenbushiwodengfanrennengduande。xiawu，wozhaolege“linggankujiexuyaochumencaifeng”dejiekou，
liuchulezheigerangwozhixide“baolei”。woyongshoujisouleyijiawangpinghaibucuo、kanqilaitingkaopudesirenzhensuo，
gualehao，zuozaichongmanxiaodushuiqiweidehouzhenshili，shouxinweiweichuhan。lundaowole。wozoujinzhenshi，
mianduiyiweidaizhelaohuajing、kanqilaijingyanfengfudelaoyisheng，meiyouduoyudehanxuan，
zhijiecongshangyikoudailitaochuyigexiaomifengdai，
limianshijiliwozaoshangtoutoucongyaopinglihuanchulaide、zhunbei“tudiao”de“weishengsu”。“yisheng，mafannin，
bangwokankanzheishishenmeyao？”wodeshengyindaizhezijidoumeichajuedejinbeng。laoyishengtuiletuiyanjing，
jieguomifengdai，quchuyaopianduizheguangzixikanlekan，youyongxiaoguadaoniansuiyidiandian，coujinwenlewenqiwei。
tademeitoujianjianzhouqi，xingchengyigeshenkede“chuan”zi。“guniang，zheiyaonicongnalinonglaide？”tataiqitou，
biaoqingyansudikanzhewo。woxinligedengyixia：“……jiushi，jialirenjide，shuoshiweishengsu。”“hunao！
”laoyishengyuqijiazhong，“zheinalishishenmeweishengsu！zheishiqiangxiaozhenjingjihezhihuanjidefuhewu！
daozhijiyiliyanzhongjiantui、yishimohu、qingxujiduanbuwending、chanshengyilaixing……zheishiyangeguankongdechufangyao，
jueduibunengluanchide！”wodexueye，fangfozaizheiyishunjian，
congfeitengdehuoshankouzhijiediaojinlexiboliyadebingkulongli，chedilengtoule。
04tishenxianjingcongzhensuochulaidelushang，woganjuejiaoxiadeludoushiruande。chengshidexuanxiao、cheliu、renliu，
douxiangshigezheyicengmaoboli，biandemohuerbuzhenshi。
huazaiwonaozilifanfuhuixiang：“qiangxiaozhenjingji……zhihuanji……jiyilijiantui……yishimohu……”suoyi，
wozheisanniande“jianxiexingjiyiduanliezheng”，henkenenggenbenbushibing？
ershichenmorifuyiri、yongzheizhong“duyao”jingxinweiyangchulaidejieguo？
neigewenroude、titiede、bawopengzaishouxinlidezhangfu，neigezaiwo“fabing”shiwuxianbaorongwodenanren，
jingranshiyizhizaijiwoxiadudeguizishou？judadekongjuhegengjudadefennu，xiangliangtiaobinglengdedushe，
jinjinchanraozhuwodexinzang，jihurangwozhixi。danwozhidao，xianzaibushibengkuideshihou。jiexialaidejitian，
wonachulebishengzuiqiangdeyanji。
wozhaochang“chi”xiachenmojide“weishengsu”（meicidouyongshetouqiaomiaodidingzaisaibangzi，
ranhoujiekoushangcesuotudiaochongzou），zhaochangduitaluchuyilaiyouganjidewenrouweixiao，
zhaochangbanyanneigeyoudianmihu、xuyaobeijingxinzhaogu、liletajiukenenghuobuxiaqude“bingqi”。andili，
wode“fanzhenchayuzijiuxingdong”quanmianqidong。
wozaishoujilitoutouxialehaojigetanceyinzangshexiangtouheqietingqideapp。
dangappzaiketinghewoshiquyuxianshichujigekeyidexinhaoyuanhongdianshi，wowozheshoujideshou，lengdexiangbing。
guoran！zheigejia，duiwoeryan，haowuyinsikeyan。
woyoujingxintiaoxuanleyigechenmowanshangzhiban、quedingbuhuituranhuijiadeshiji，zaiciliujinletadeshufang。zheici，