tazhanzaimenkou,meixinjincu:“weishenmebadongxidourengle?”
suyunchuqingqianxiaozhe:“jiule,yegaihuanle。”
“zaishuo,nineimexihuansuya,xianglaibujiujiuyaojiehunle,zheilizaiyouwodehenjibuheshi。”
“ni,gaiganganjingjingquyingjiexinrensheng。”
tingzhesuyunchudehua,jiangqingyanhoulonggengleshun。
“你到底怎么了?”
“meizenme,zhishi……”
suyunchutingdunleshun,luchushenhoudexinglixiang,“zhishi,woyaobanzoule。”
jiangqingyanmousechenleyixia:“fangzizhaohaole?”
“ng,juliyoueryuanhenjin,tongqingengfangbian。”
suyunchushuozhe,chaojiangqingyanzoulai,benxiangbaobaota,youjuedebuheshi,zuihouzhishitaishoupailepaitajianbang。
“再见。”
shuozhe,tajiuyueguojiangqingyanwangwaizou。
nanrenlazhuta:“wosongni。”
“bule。”suyunchujujuedeguoduan。
jiangqingyanconglaimeijianguotazheiyangjiandingdeyan,yishijian,xinlishuobuchushenmeziwei。
只能目送着她离开。
suyunchutuozhexiangziyibubuwangqianzou,buduandigaosuzijibuyaohuitou。
kexingdaobanlu,tahaishirenbuzhuhuiletou。
quemeixiangdaojiangqingyanhaizhanzaimenkou。
tayanzhongbuyousuanse,yongshangxieleiyi。
yingzheyangguang,suyunchujichugehenwenroudexiao。
“阿衍,要幸福。”
哪怕没有我。
……
去到新房。
suyunchuzuozaijijingkongkuangdewuzizhong,sisuozhegaizenmegaosufumuzijihejiangqingyanlihundeshi。
xiaoxihaimeifachuqu,queshixianjiedaolemuqindeduanxin。
“ningning,mayijingcongneilibanchulaile。”
kanzhezheixingzi,suyunchudunzhu。
muqincongneigetamenshenghuoleshijiniandefangzilibanzou,jiudaibiaozhe,neiliyebuzaishitakeyiyikaodejiale……
fumulihun,tashiquleyigejia。
hejiangqingyanlihun,tayoushiquleyigejia。
zheigeshijieshang,zaiyemeiyouyigedifang,keyizuotashenhoudezhichengle。
jiyalehaojiudeqingxuzaiyeyizhibuzhu,suyunchupazaichuangshang,wuzhudikuqilai。
dididechuoqishengzaizhengjianwuzilihuidang。
zhidaocike,suyunchucaizhongyumingbaineijuhua——
youxieshi,zhinengyigerenzuo;youxieguan,zhinengyigerenguo;youxielua,zhinengyigerenzou……
第七章不要后悔
fanbaidetianguangtouguochuangliandefengxizhaozailesuyunchudeyanjieshang。
taweiweizhoumei,taishouzhezhu。
jintianshiqingjiadedijitianle?
suyunchujibuqing,zhijidezheijitiantaxiangshixianrulezhaoze,manmanxiaxian。
banshang,tamanmanzuoqishen,yibalakailechuanglian。
出太阳了。
suyunchumizheyanzhengzhengkanzhe。
huoxu,tayegaikaishixinshenghuole。
xuezhequshiying,meiyoujiangqingyandeshenghuo。
jiandanshoushilexiahou,suyunchuchumenzailubianlanleliangchuzuche。
tayilushangdouxinbuzaiyan,zhidaochetingzaitahejiangqingyangongtongdejiamenkoushi,caifaxianzijishuocuoledizhi。
“shifu,wodaohangcuole,ninnengzaisongwoquyigedifangma?”
“meiwenti,niyaoqunaer?”sijiwen。
可苏允初却愣住了。
taturanjiuxiangbuqilaizijizhudedifangjiaoshenmele。
xujiu,suyunchuqingshengshuo:“qurenminyiyuanba。”
jiuzaisijidazhuanfangxiangpandeneiyike,yiliangheichehechuzuchecajianerguo。
suyunchuyizheng,shixiankongzhibuzhudigenzhekanguoqu。
tarende,neishijiangqingyandeche。
ercengjingzhuanshuyuzijidefujiashishang,zuozhesuya。
xinhenhentengleyixia,tagangzou,tajiudaizhesuyahuijialema?
chuzuchejianjianshiyuan,yiguaiwan,suyunchuzaikanbudaotamendeshenying。
人民医院。
心理诊疗室。
suyunchutangzaizhenliaochuangshang,wangzhetianhuabanshangdapiandapiandebai,mianwubiaoqing。
ruocikejiangqingyanzaizheier,yidingbuganxiangxin,yanqianzheigehaowushengqideren,huishisuyunchu!
kexi,zheijiushixianzaideta。
“nidezhuangkuangweishenmeyouyanzhongle?”xinliyishengkanzhegangzuochulaidejiancebiao,meitouweicu。
suyunchuzuoqishenkanta:“youduoyanzhong?”
“zaizheiyangfazhanxiaqu,nihenkuaijiuhui……”
shuodaozheier,xinliyishengtingdunleshun,sihuyouxieshuobuxiaqu。
xinlijibingheqitabingbutong,xiangbiqishentishangdesunshang,gengduodeshixinlidejiya。
henduorenchengshoubule,huixuanzejiduandefangshi。
jishiyijingkanguan,dancikekanzhesuyunchu,tahaishiyouxieburen。
suyunchuquehaoxiangcongtadechenmolikanchuleshenme。
“neihaiyoubanfazhiliaoma?”
xinliyishengdianlediantou:“buyaosuoyoushidouyigerenkang,xuehuibiaoda,rangzijikaixinqilai,zheibishenmeyaodouzhongyao。”
学会表达。
suyunchuqingnanzhezheigeci,zouchulexinlikededamen。
tashenbianpengyoubuduo,geyougedemangliu。
yishijiannengxiangdaode,jingranzhiyouqinren。
suyunchumochushouji,zhijianzaipingmuchiyilehenjiu,haishixuanzejizijimuqindaquledianhua。
dianhuajietongdeyishun,tashuobuchushisonglekouqihaishiqita。
“ma,woheayan……lihunle。”
suyunchuyiweitamahuiwenyuanyin,dantangmuzhishuolejijuhua:“juedingledeshijiuquzuo,buyaohouhui。”
“mazheibeizijiushigulvtaiduo,lindaolecaiweizijihuoleyihui。”
“nver,mabuxiwangnidaomazheigenianji,caihouhui。”
meiyouzhiwen,meiyouzeguai,zhiyoujiandandexiwang。
guaduandianhuahou,suyunchutouyiciganjuedaoleqingsong。
tadexiaorongyeyoulejifenzhenxin,buzaiquanshixuwei。
kezheiyangdexiao,zhiyouyishun,jiuzaixiayimiaoshashijiangying。
jibuwai,fukekeshimenkou。
suyawanzhejiangqingyancongzhongzouchu,yilianxiaoyi:“ayan,yishengshuowoshentihenhao,womenkeyizhunbeiyaohaizile!”
第八章初见
zheijuhuaxiangyibaliren,geduanlesuyunchudeshenjing。
taganggangzhaodaodekuaile,qingkejian,yanxiaoyunsan。
suyunchurenbuzhuzichao,yaoshikuaileneimerongyizhaodao,shijieshangzenmehaihuiyouneimeduorenyiyu?
zheishi,jiangqingyanyekandaoleta。
tachoulibeisuyawanzhudeshoubei,zoushangqian:“nizenmelaiyiyuanle?naerbushufu?”
suyunchumeihuida,zhishikanzheyanqianzheigenanren。
mingmingneimewenrou,mingminghuayuneimeguanqie。
ketashizenmezuodao,zaizijibanlidejitianhou,jiujuedinghexinrenyaohaizile?
shijianzuidudao,buguowenrou。
suyunchubujinxiangqiwuxiaxiaoshuolidezheijuhua,jingyejuededuileshifen。
jiangqingyanbuzhitazaixiangshenme,zhishikanzhesuyunchulaishidelu,shitutanjiuxieshenme。
zheishi,beirengzaiyuandidesuyazouguolai,shangxiadaliangzhesuyunchu:“nishi?”
tingdaociwen,suyunchueyidexiangtingjiangqingyanzenmehuida。
ershiduoniandeqingmeizhuma,haishijiehunbaniandeqianqi,yihuoshiqita。
danzuihou,kanzhejiangqingyanyouxieweinandeshense,tazhongjiuhaishiburenxin。
“wojiaosuyunchu,shiayandepengyou。”
“nishitanvpengyouba?henbanpei。”
suyunchujinliangjiangtahejiangqingyandeguanxishuodeqingbai。
suyaxiangshixinle,tadianlediantou:“wojiaosuya,dengwoheayanjiehunjinijiqingjian。daoshihouyidingyaolaia!”
结婚,请柬啊。
suyunchuxinlizaiku,mianshangqueyijiuxiaozhedaying:“hao。”
zuihou,xushijiangqingyanxinruan,takanxiangsuya:“nixianquchelidengwo。”
suyazhoulexiamei,danzuihouhaishilikaile。
yiyuanzoulangli,xiaodushuideweidaononglie。
jiangqingyankanzheshenziyouxiedanbodesuyunchu:“youeryuanshuonizuijinjitianmeiqushangban,nizhendemeishima?”
“我能有什么事?”
suyunchufanwenzhe,kanzhejiangqingyanbeiyezhudeshenqing,youyicixinruan。
zaijiangqingyanmianqian,taconglaizuobudaohenxin。
suyunchuchuixiayanjie,dingzhejiangqingyanyishangdeniukou,shengyinweiya:“ayan,haiyoujitianjiushiwoshengrile,neitiannizhendehuilaipeiwoguoma?”
她二十八岁的生日。
tabuzhidaohuibuhuixiangcengjingzuoguowushubiandemengliyiyang,zijideshengmingyehuizaizheiyitianzhongjie。
buguanruhe,suyunchuxiangrenxingyici。
congqianershiduonian,tameigeshengridoushihejiangqingyanyiqiduguode。
zheiyici,tayehaishixianghetayiqiduguo。
jiangqingyanmeiyoujujue:“hao。”
tingdaozheigedaan,suyunchuquexiaobuchulai。
zuihou,zhishichenmoderaoguotalikai。
jiangqingyanzhanzaiyuandi,chuizaishencedeshouyijin。
tayishunbushundikanzhesuyunchudebeiying,huranjuedetahaoxiangnalibianle。
zouchuyiyuandeneiyike,waimiantianseyinchen。
suyunchuzoujinrenchaozhong,danbodeshenyinghenkuaibianbeiyanmei。
……
zhuanyan,rilishangderiqiyizhangzhangbeisidiao,dinggezai28ri。
今天是她的生日。
suyunchuyidazao,jiuhuanshanglecongqiancongbuhuichangshidehongsezhangqun。
shenzhihaijizijihualeyigejingzhidezhuangrong,yangaileneixiecuiruo,siji,piaoliangyouhuoli,jiuxiangjiangqingyanxihuandesuyayiyang。
tahaitedidingleyigecaomeidangao,zuoleyizhuozijiangqingyanxihuandecai。
ranhoujitafalexiaoxi,dengdaizhetadedaolai。
raner,shiyidian,shierdian,xiawuyidian,liangdian……yizhidaowanshangshierdiandezhongshengqiaoxiang。
江清晏都没有出现。
他,失约了。
jijingzaiheiyezhonggewaikongbu。
suyunchunaguozhuozishangdeshouji,jixiedebochulejiangqingyandedianhua。
banfenzhonghou,dianhuajietong。
limianchuanlaideshiyigenvrendeshengyin:“tangxiaojie,ayanshuile,ninyoushenmeshima?”
第九章生日快乐
congwusuikaishidaoxianzai,suyunchuhejiangqingyanxiangshijinershinian。
tayiweitamenyinggaishichulefumuzuilejiebicideren。
kecike,suyunchuzhijuedehaomosheng。
“mei,meishenme,nimenxiuxiba。”
shuozhe,tajiuyaoguaduanhua。
raner,suyadeshengyinquexianyibuxiangqi:“tangxiaojie,niheayanbuzhishipengyouba?”
suyunchuxuanzaiguaduanjianshangdeshouzhizaianbuxiaqu:“wobumingbaisuxiaojiezheihuashishenmeyisi。”
suyayigaichujianshidewenwan,yanyujianrui:“wozhidaoayanyouyigebudebuqudeqianqi。ruguomeicaicuo,zheigerenjiushitangxiaojieni。”
“woxiwangtangxiaojienengmingbai,woheayanshizhenxinxiangai,ruguoniyeaiayan,jiubuyaodaraowomendexingfushenghuo,wotiayanxiexieni。”
congxiaodaoda,suyunchudiyicibeizheiyangzema。
tajinwozheshouji,renbuzhutixing:“ruguobushiwotongyilihun,niyiweinimennengzheiyangguangmingzhengdadezaiyiqi?”
“suxiaojie,woyexiangtixingniyiju,jishinihejiangqingyanshizhenai,danpohuailewomenhunyinderenshini。”
“zongshiwobugaizaizheishihoudazheitongdianhua,neishenweidisanzhechazudeni,youyoushenmezigelaizhizewo?”
shuowanzheiju,suyunchujiuguaduanledianhua。
zheishitashaoyoudejiyanlise,quemeixiangdaohuishizaisuyashenshang。
zongshibuyuan,weiqu,danqishi,tashizhendexiangzhufutamende。
tazishizhizhongxiangyaode,buguoshijiangqingyanpeizijiguoyigeshengribale!
夜色冷凄。
suyunchukanzhezhuoshangyijingronghualededangao,momonaqilazhuchaleshangqu。
然后点燃。
huoguangyingchenzhelianpang,suyunchuquexubuchuyuan,zhiyouyijuzichao。
“kana,suyunchu,nizhihuibayiqiegaodeyituanzao!”
xiangshitaoli,suyunchumeiyoushoushizheixiecanju。
zhishituozheyixiangjiuhuilewoshi。
chashangfangyingjideneiyike,jiehunshideshipintoupingzaibaiqiangshang。
yishenxizhuangdejiangqingyanneimeshuaiqi,yeshisuyunchuzuixihuandemoyang。
pijiusuanku,zheishisuyunchudiyicihe。
tahaijide,liangrenhunyanshang,jiangqingyanweileburangtahejiu,yigerenjiangsuoyoudejingjiudoukanglexialai。
pingchangneimewenrundeyigeren,queweileyibeijiuhebinkebianbodemianhongerchi。
kezheiyanghaodejiangqingyan,bujianle。
suyunchuyikouyikouguanzhejiu,bingliangdeyetihuajinhoulong,zuihouhuazuoguntangdeleicongyanjiaoyichu。
jiuzheiyang,yipingyiping,buzhishiguang。
zheiwan,suyunchujiuweidezuolechangmeng。
mengli,fanfuzhongfudeshineijiushidejiangqingyan,qinkouduitashuo:“wobuaini。”
霎时,梦醒。
yanqianturanchuxiandejiangqingyanquerangsuyunchuyiwei,haizaimengzhong。
jiangqingyankanzhedishangdaowaidekongjiuping,zhoumeikanzhesuyunchu:“shenmeshihouxuehuihejiude?”
yishunjian,suyunchuqingxingleguolai。
“jiangqingyan,nilaile。”
“nilaiwanle,wodeshengri……yijingguole。”