第1章萌芽
wodesuzhushigetusihua。
meitianchuleqingqingaiai，xinlijiuzhuangbuxiabiededongxi。
yinweita，wozaixitongjiebeiqitatongzichaoxiao，yejicicidiandi。
我很生气。
wojueding，jitayezhaodiankuchi。
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zicongbangdinglezheigedanaokongkongdesuzhuhou，wojiumeizaiyouyitianshuxinrizi。
wofaburangsuzhudushuderenwu。
tazhuantouqukan‘tataotazhui，tachachinanfei’delianaixiaoshuo。
worangsuzhuduozhangwoxieshenghuojineng。
tashuonengzhaodaonanrenyifuyeshiyizhongnengli。
我很无助。
wodesuzhu，tahaoxiangtianshengtongjueshidiao。
jintianhaiyinweinanrendetaiduxinrudaojiao。
mingtianjiunengyinweiyiliangjulianjiadetianyanmi，yuzhongxinduiweilaichongmanhuanxiang。
我实在不懂。
她完成我一个任务。
wojianglijitadedongxi，bubineixienanrensuibianhongtadeliangjuhuazhiqianduolema？
taweishenmejiufeiyaozuoneigetusihuani？
wojuedingjitayidianjiaoxun，dangzuotashanghaiwojingshendebaochou。
wodaizhesuzhuchuanhuileqilingniandai。
这个年代苦。
zhiyaoaiqingbuyaomianbaodeluzi，shixingbutongde。
zheigeshihou，tamendeweirenkeshitichule“funvnengdingbanbiantian”dekouhao。
wojiubuxinle，suzhunandaohainengbubeihuanjingyingxiang？
qinaidesuzhu，niwandanle。
hewoyiqizaizheilihaohaogaizaoba！
【qinaidesuzhu，huanyingtiyan70niandaishenghuo。】
【zaizheili，nijiangyishidaoziliziqiangyouduomezhongyao，qidainidezhuanbian，hennidetong~】
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wojisuzhuanpaideshenfenshixiaxiangdezhiqing。
xianzaizhengshikaikenbeidahuangdehaoshihou。
erzhongdiqiaqiayoushiyigehenkaoyanrendehuodong。
jiwohaohaodizailaodonglitiyanrenshengba！
kandechulai，dilidesuzhuhenjinghuang。
tajiazhesangzigangyaozhiwenwo。
beiwoyigedianjijidaduanle。
【buxujiaoqing，guaiguaiganhuoer。】
danwomeixiangdaodeshi，zuoweinongxuededaxuesheng。
suzhusitibuqinjiusuanle，juranhaiwugubufen！
zheibushilianainao，zheishimeizhangnaoya。
tadaodishizenmeshunlibiyede？
suzhujichudejieshiwoyebunengjieshou。
“aiya，womendoushizaiqimokaoshizhouzhiqianbeibeishula？wohenshaoquyumiaode，qitashijianwonanpengyouyaowopeitaa。”
哦，很好。
wotaochuxiaobenzijishangxiayitiao。
【qiangzhisuzhucanjiabingshangan77niangaokao】
zhuanyekeyeganshui？wobuyunxu。
danshijishizaiwoyanjiakanguanxia，suzhulaoshilemeiliangtian，youjiwozhengchuyaoezile。
1973nianyihou，quanguodalituiguangzhongzhizajiaoshuidao。
wojuedezheiyesuanshejidaosuzhudezhuanyezhishile。
shijianbuxing，lilunzonggaixingba。
woyiwei，tanengpingjie50nianhoudezhishihedajiayiqizuodazuoqiang。
sheizhi，tayoujiwowanshangjingdianzhongxiandexima。
“wojiushuoaiqingshizuimeihaodeba，nikanjiuxiangwohewodenanpengyou。”
“buguanfashengleleshenmedoubunengbawomenfenkai，womenbulibuqiqingbijinjian。wozhuandegongfenjitafenyidianyouzenmele？”
suzhushouzhizhetou，hongzheliankanxiangchuangwai，kanyangzitashiyouxingfule。
danwokuaiqisile，wohentiebuchenggang。
zheishuolaiyeguaiwodefuqin！
rangtabangmangbasuzhuhewochuansongguolai，meixiangdaojingranbasuzhunanpengyouyiqishaodaiguolaile。
suzhulaizheililianggeyue，bushiyingzheigebushiyingneige，weiyishiyingdejiushizheilideaiqing。
呵。
zaiyigedifanghaibushouyigedifangdeguiju，kanlaisuzhuhaishimeixueguai。
我电她。
【suzhu，duilishibuhuiyunxunizheizhongxingweide，beifaxiannimenliangzheigeyuedoushibuhuijigongfende。】
suzhuzaidianjizhongduiwochizhiyibi。
tafoudingwo，shuobuhuiyourenfaxian，gengbuhuiyourenjubao。
wowenweishenme，tahuidashuoyinweiaiqingshiweidade。
zheiliangzhezhijianhaoxiangbingmeiyoubirandelianxi。
suzhuhenzixin，danwoshiwusuobunengdexitong。
buhuiyourenjubao？meiguanxi，neiwolaijubao！
worangshijiawandaduizhidaolesuzhuhezhaozishilianaideqingkuang，liangrendangtianjiubeijiaoquleduizhangbangongshitanhua。
neigenanrenguoranhewoyuxiangdeyiyang，meizerenmeidandang。kangbuzhuduizhangdezhuiwen，neishuihaizaimaoreqini，tajiusanjuliangjudiquanjiaodaile。
buzhiruci，tabasuoyoudewentidoutuidaolewoqinaidesuzhutoushang。
“duizhangwocuole，shitazhudongzhaoshangwodea，duizhangninengbunengbuyaobazheijianshixiangshangfanying......”
woqinaidesuzhudairuomujichengmujieshe，jiuzheimekanzhetadenanpengyoubayipenyouyipendezangshuipozaitashenshang，ranhouweiqubabadanyidianerdoubudaifanbode。
nishuoa！jieshia！zhengluna！！
nilengzaizheiliganshenme！！
【qingsuzhuzaisanfenzhongneixiangduizhangchanshuzhenshiwanzhengdeshiqingjingguo，fouzesuzhujiangshoudaodianjichengfa】
ranhou，wokanjiansuzhuyanleiwangwangdizhanglezhangzui，zuizhonghanleirenlexialai。
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wobunenglijie......suzhutadaodiyaoganshenme！
zheijianshizuihouyikouchusuzhubenyuesuoyougongfenbingxiaofanweitongbaopipingshouchang，danshichulebangongshidemen，suzhuzheihuizhidaoshangquzhiwenle。
“nigangcaiweishenmeyaoneimeshuo？”
“duibuqi，wozheiyeshibeibiwunai，woxiangcanjiajinniandegongnongbingdaxueshengpingxuan，womenzheiyang......”
zheinanrenhaitingruxide，zheimekuaijiushiyingzijidexinshenfenle。
danshi，tazheijuhuayichulai，wojiuzhidaowanle。
gongnongbingdaxuesheng，duomejijizhengmiandeyigeliyoua，wodesuzhuyouyaofahuitadezhuanzhangle。
suzhutingwanhou，guoranduitoudingyigeyouyigedemaozibuzaiyile。dedaoliyoudetamanyile，talijiele，tayuanliangle！
woqidezhenggexitongdouyaohongwenle。
【suzhu，shijieshangbuzhiyouaiqing。qingsuzhuzhengyankanshijie！】
youshizheiyang！youshizheiyang！
nanrenqingpiaopiaodeliangjuhua，suzhujiunengyuanliangtamenduitazuochudeyiqieshanghai。
woganghesuzhubangdingdeshihou，suzhuyeshizheiyangyifuweiquqiuquandewonangyang。
suzhubiyehoubenlaizhaodaoleyifenbucuodegongzuo，danshizheigenanrenyijuhua，jiunengrangtafangqiqiantu，buyuanwanlidiqumoshengdechengshizhongxinfazhan。
gongzuoyuehuanyuexinku，gongziyuelaiyuelianjia，pianpiansuzhubujinnengrenshoushenzhihailezaiqizhong。
dangranyeyouqitaqingkuang，danduiwolaishuohaiburumeiyou，wozhihenzijizhangleyanjing。
meimeichaojia，suzhuchulefudizuoxiaodaoqianqiuheyiwai，jiushizaiwurenchuduziemo。
wowenguosuzhu，nandaotayishengdouyaoweizheaiqingzhuan？tashuoshengmingchengkegui，aiqingjiagenggao。
danshiwogengxiwangsuzhushitameishuowandehoubanju：ruoweiziyougu，liangzhejiekepao。
suzhu，nibunengzhixiangwosushuonizaoshouleduoshaotongku，shoudaoduoshaoshanghai，quebuzuochurenhegaibian。
【qingsuzhuanzhaoyaoqiu，haohaotourushengchanlaodong，fouzejianghuishoudaodianjichengfa，chengfaduixiang：zhaozishi】
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suzhuzhongyulaoshile，takaishiyingzhetoupiganqizhiqiantuituodesuoyoushi。
tiaoshui、kanchai、shoudaogu，wokanzhesuzhushuaijinnikengli，hunshenlangbei；wokanzhesuzhugeshangziji，xianxuelinli。
suzhucongyikaishibengkuidaku，daohoumianzhujianjieshouxianshi。
takaishicanyushengchan，canyujianshe，danshiwojuedebudui。
woxuyaosuzhugaibiande，bujinjinshitadexingwei，wogengxiwangnengniuzhuandeshisuzhudesixiang。
tongsuanburutiansuan，zaiwojiaojinnaozhimingsikuxiangdeshihou，woqinaidesuzhuyudaoledawenti。
conggaiqiushoudeqianjigeyuekaishi，jiumeixiayule，zhengpiandiganliechuleyidaoyouyidaokouzi。
jiexialaideshijianli，laodongkaohechengweilezuiyansudewenti。
shouchengbuhao，anlaofenpei，suzhudiyiciyonggongfenzhihuanlaileyiwanqingtangguashuidecaomizhouzhihou，tazhongyuyishidaomianbaodezhongyaoxingle，huozheshuoshengmingdezhongyaoxing。
aiqingzaixianrukunjingshiyiwushichu，shenzhihaihuiyaoniyicicifangxuegeroudifanbu。
“shuyun，nizuijinzenmebulaizhaowo？woshangcibushidouhenijieshiqingchulema！zenmehaohaodeyoushengqile？”
“nihaiyoumeiyouduodegongfen，zaiyunwoyidian。”
neigenanrenyoutianbuzhichidelaile，zaimianbaobugoufuzudeqingkuangxia，aiqingjiushiyipansansha。
zicongsuzhulaoshiganqihuolezhihou，tadegongfengoutayirenwenbaohaishimeiyouwentide。danjishisuzhuzaijieshengyejinbuzhusanfanwucidibeirendajie。
wobenyiweizheiyicisuzhuyouyaolianainaofuti，kangkaidibanyansancaitongzile，danshizheiyicitarangwohenjingya。
她说：“不。”
bu？suzhujingranshuodeshibu！laoshishuo，zuoweixitong，wohenzhenjing。
suzhuzhenderouyankejiandizaixianshide、poqiedeshengcunyalixiachengzhangle。
wozhidaozaizheiduanshijianli，suzhubuzhiyicidixiangguofangqi，taobilaodong，taobixianshi。
danshimanmandi，tabuzaixiangzhiqianyiyangyuantianyouren，tahuichuquguancha、jiaoliu，heqitarenzaigoutongzhongzhongxinhuanfaxindejingshensecai。
wokanzhetaheduiliqitanvxingdejiaoliu，lisao，wangshen，haiyouzhuduohetamenyiyangqinqinkenkenlaozuodeshidainvxing。
suzhuzuikaishihenyihuo，tawen：“nimenzheiyangbujuedeleima，zheixiecuhuoleihuowomenzenmefudandeqini？”
“dangranlei。keshicongqianzaijiushehui，womennvrenshenzhidoumeiyouzheigejihui。”
“xianzaixinshehuile，womenpanxingxingpanyueliang，haoburongyidengdaoleyigetonggongtongchoudepingdengjihui，zenmenengyinweikuheleijiuqingyanfangqi？”
tamenjisuzhujiangxinzhongguochengliqianbaixingshoudaodekunan，jiangzhanluanshishehuidedongdang，jiangnvxingmeiyoushengcunzibenshidegukuwuyi......
tamenshuo：“xiaotongzhi，niqiaoneibiaoyushangxiede。maozhuxikeshihenzaojiushuole，funvnengdingbanbiantiana！”
woyidiandiankanzhesuzhuzaidahuanjinglixuehuileduoting、duokan、duoshuo、duozuo。
zhenggerenyecongsiqichenchendekuteng，zhujianbiandexiangnitulizhangchudexinyayiyang，huanfashengji。
wojuedesuzhuyinggaishixiangmingbaile：zuaigerenjinbuheshehuifazhandeyiqiedouyaotongtongkaobianzhan。
tazhongyubingqilezijineigetusihuayiyangdexingzi，rengdiaolezijineigezhizhuangzheaiqingdenaozi。
tashuo：“chenzishi，shijieshangbushizhiyouaiqingzheiyizhongdongxi，zhengkaiyanjingkanshijieba！”