第一章出狱
晋城，女子监狱。
jiangyuyanshuangyanwushen，sanniandejianyushenghuozaoyijiangtashenshangdelingqimomie。
“chuqujiuyaogaiguozixin，kebiezaifancuo。”
jiangyuyanchenmo，huanlaideshijianyuzhangyijigunbang。
“qie！haizhendangzijishidaxiaojiele。”
biyidemuguangdaliang，jiangyuyanyijiubuyu。
jianbangdetengtongshitamamu，jijieruqiu，tayishenboboyishan，zhanzailengfengzhongyaoyaoyuzhui。
chenzhongdedamendakai，zaoyiyourenzaiwaidenghou。
“nan......nanbin。”
xujiuweishuohua，jiangyuyanshengyinsiya。
shaonanbin，tadeqingmeizhuma，anlianlebaniandenanren，yishiqinshoujiangtasongjinjianyuderen。
“biejiaowomingzi，nihaibupei。”
shaonanbinzhijueexin，jiangyuyandixiatou，shouzhichanzaiyiqixiandejucu。
jianyusannian，tazuixidezhangfayibianchengqier，liuhaigoukensidepaizainaomen，yishandazhebuding，huoxianggeqigai。
lianjiaxueshou，shenzileiruo，danbubiande，tawuguanyijiujingzhihaokan，pifubiruyuqianyaobaishangxuduo，bingtaixueruo。
shaonanbinzhikanyiyan，yandishanshuozhebumingqingxu。
jiangyuyanganliedezuichundongledong，shengyinhenxiao。
“duibuqi......”
sheizhitadedaoqianhuanlaishaonanbingengshendefennu，henhendiyibazhangyonglishanzaitadelianjia。
jiangyuyanzaijianyulichibubaochuanbunuan，shentitaiguoxuruo，yibazhangjiubatashanzaidishang。
jiebaidelianjialikefuxianchutonghongdebazhangyin，yinzigaiguotazhengzhengbanbianlian。
cengjingneigeshebudepengtayixia，shuaiyijiaodouyaodanxintabantiandenanren，xianzaiyehuihaobuyouyudidongshoudatale。
shaonanbinyandishizangbuzhudiyane，sangyinyinleng。
“duibuqi？niyiweiyijuduibuqijiukeyimibuzijideguocuo，jiunengrangyunrousuxingma？”
jiangyuyantingdaoshuximingzi，jinzhangdiwen。
“yunrou......tahaimeiyouxingma？”
“bainisuoci，yunroudaoxianzaihaimeixing，zaibingfanglitanglesannian，suoyijiangyuyan，niququsannianlaoyuzhizaisuanshenme，woyaonihoubanbeizidoujiyunroupeizui。”
jiangyuyanyanlishanshuozheleihua，tazhendemeixiangdaoshiqinghuifazhanchengzheiyang。
“duibuqi......duibuqi......wozhendebushiguyide......”
jiangyuyanguizaidishang，zitaiqiurao，zaijianyudesannianli，tajingchangbeiqiufanduda，kaishihaihuifankang，houlaitamenzhihuibianbenjiali，suoyitaxueguailehenduo，gengxuehuilefuruan。
sannianqian，wenyunrouzaizhaojiangyuyandelushangchulechehuo，zhaotadeyuanyinshitaheyenanrensihun。
shaonanbinqichubuxinjiangyuyanhuizuobeipantadeshi，zhidaochehuodiertian，tayishanbuzheng，buzhijiandiandetupianbeichuandaowangshang，shaonanbinbianxinle。
wulunjiangyuyandangshizenmejieshi，tadoubuxin，bingqiejiangwenyunrouchehuohunmideshiguaizuiyutatoushang。
wenyunrouchushengshi，youdaoshisuantashengpingyoudazai，xuyaozhaogetongniantongyuetongrishengqiebazixuexingpipeidenvhai，yangzaishenbiandangzai。
erjiangyuyan，jiushiwenjiazhaolaiweiwenyunroudangzaidenvhai。
wenyunrouchushi，jiangyuyanhouguozuican。
wenmulianheshaonanbin，liangrenhehuojiangtasongjinjianyu。
wenyunroutangzaibingchuangshangyitian，jiangyuyanjiuyaozaijianyujieshoududayitian，titachengshoubingtongzhemo。
youwenjiafumuheshaonanbinxiademingling，jiangyuyanzaijianyushoujinfeirenzhemo。
xianzaideta，zaoyimeilewangrideshencai。
shaonanbinmuguangyichen，yuqichaofeng。
“zheixiehua，nihaishiguizaiyunroubingchuangqianshuoba。”
jiangyuyanxizhebizi，yanjingfahong，buzhidaoshikudehaishilengde，yifuxiuziduan，luchudeshouwanshiyiquanquandeqinghen。
“qilai，genwoquyiyuan。”
“去医院干什么？”
“去给允柔赎罪。”
jiangyuyanbuyuan，shaonanbinbianlazhutadeshouwan，yonglijiangtacongdishangzhuaiqi。
xuebaixishoudeshouwan，zaijiayidaohonghen。
jiangyuyanzuozaidishangbantuozheqianxing，taganjuezijidewanguyaoguzhele，haotenghaoteng。
“我去，我去。”
jiangyuyansiyadikaikou，shaonanbincaifangkaita。
“zaotinghuabujiuhaole。”
jiangyuyanxunsumoguoyanjiao，“quyiyuanzhiqian，nengbunengxianrangwoqukankanwomama。”
muqinsuchunlingyouxinzangbing，zicongnverruyuhoubingqingjiufanfanfufufazuo，xianyiweizaidanxi，jiangyuyandanxinjianbushangzuihouyimian。
shaonanbinrengaomada，jiangyuyanyangwangzheta，zhijiantadezuichunweidong，lenglengtuchubinglengerzi。
“休想。”
“qiuqiuni，nirangwoqukankantayiyanba，kanwanwojiuquwenyunrouneili。”
shaonanbinbulihui，bingqieweixiedao。
“jiangyuyan，nimuqindeyiliaofeishiwochude，ruguonibuxiangtaduanlezhiliao，nijiulaolaoshishigenwoquyiyuan，guizaiyunrouchuangqian。”
“bu，bunengduan......woqu，wogui......”
tingdaoyaodaolemuqindezhiliao，jiangyuyanzhangxinchengdidongzuomalidizhanqilai，zhangqideyingyangbuliangshitatouyunyanhua，xianxiezaicishuaidao。
“biezaizheijiwozhuang，ganjinjiwogunshanglai。”
shaonanbinbiyichaonong，budongshengsebiekaimuguang。
医院高级病房。
mengangdakai，haimeikanqinglimianzhuangkuang，jiangyuyanjiubeirenconghoubeituileyizhang，dieguizaidishang，etouchaoxia。
“砰——”
fachuyidaobuxiaodedongjing，yangailetanaomenkedideshengyin。
jiangyuyandanaokongbai，haimeiqishen，shaonanbinyizhijiaocaizaitadehoubei，rangtabaochixiaguiqingzuidezishi。
“nijiuzheiyangjiyunrouguizhe，guizaitadebingchuangqian，jitadaoqian。”
jiangyuyanmeixinningqi，renzhetengtongfachuxixiaodeshengyin。
“对不起。”
“meichifanma？zheimexiaosheitingdejian。”
shaonanbinshuodemeicuo，jiangyuyanyijingliangtianmeichifanle，houlonggengshigansesiya。
“对不起，允柔。”
jiangyuyantigaoyindiao，shaonanbinhaishibumanyi。
caidaotahoubeidejiaotaiqi，shangqiandunzaitashenbian，shouzhihenlidiqiazhutadexiaba，qiangpotataiqitou。
“nizhengkaiyanjinghaohaokankan，yunroubeinihaichengshenmeyangzi，yinweiniheyenanrensihui，tadaoxianzaihaimeixing！”
tijicishi，shaonanbinmiqideyanmoufanzhehanguang。
jiangyuyanyaotoubianjie，“womeiyou，wozhendemeiyou......”
“nihaizaisahuang，wodouqinyankanjianle。”
shaonanbinshuaikaitadexiaba，tadeshentizaicicuiruodipazaidishang。
“啊！”
nanrenyijiaotizaitadexiaotui，jiangyuyantengdezhimaolenghan，toufabeirenzhuaiqi，tatongdezhijiao。
“给我跪好来。”