hongdeyixia,naohaibeijingdeyipiankongbai。
shenzhiranchadianyabuzhuhoulongdexuexing,nanyizhixin:“……nishuoshenme?”
kehaimeidengdaofuyandanjieshi,buyuanchudesunjingxiquejianruicuicu:“yandange,nibushidayingyaopeiwoqujibaiwobadema?womengaizoule。”
fuyandanlimatuikai,zhiliuxiayiju:“wowandianzaiqukanni。”
tamenyixingren,congcongshangchelikai。
shenzhiranzaiyicibeipaoxia,tayiweizijiyijingxiguan,kexinkoudetengquezenmeyabuzhu。
jicongconghuidaobingfang,tazhandouzhedaochuzhitengyao,ganyanxiaqu。
yaohenku,kudaoyanleichadianrenbuzhu。
zheishi,bingfangmenturanbeituikai。
shishenkuanquerfufan,shoulihaijiazheyizhixileyibandeyan。
“你来干什么?”
shenzhiranfangxiayaoping,zhiqiyaozhanqilai。
tazaiyebuhuishadao,renweitazheige‘haogege’shilaiguanxinta。
gaodadenanrenzoujin,qiangrendeyanweizuanjinbiyi,jiaotanaohaiyizhencitong。
quetingduifangbieniudikaikou:“……niyekandaole,jingxishizhendexihuanfuyandan,nibarenrangjitaba。”
huaruliren,mengdiyoutongxiangshenzhiran。
tengtongrangshenzhiranyouqiwuli,tachaofengxiaolesheng:“ge,nihaijide,15suizhiqian,woshinizuitengaidemeimeima?”
沈宽沉默。
shenzhiranquejuedemeiyisijile:“wozhendebuzhidaowodaodizuocuoleshenme,shibushiwosile,nimencaihuiganxin?”
“你发什么疯?”
shenkuangaoshenghechi,yangaitadenaoxiuchengnu。
“womeifafeng,zhishirunimensuoyuan,sunjingxibushiyaowodeyiqiema?nigaosuta,gongxi,henkuaizheiyiqiedoushitadele。”
“nizheihuashenmeyisi?”
shenzhiranbunaifan,shenshouzhixiangmenkou:“nidanfanyouyimiaozunzhongwo,jiubugaizaibingfangneixiyan,qingnilikai。”
shenkuanlianseyizhenqingyizhenhong,daodihaishizhuanshenlikai。
shenzhirankanzhetatachufangmen,kanzhezheigeyijingzhaobuhuibandianguanaidegege,zuizhonghaishimeirenzhuhongzheyancishuo——
“ruguonengxuanze,woyidianyebuxiangdangshenzhiran。”
shenkuanjiaobuyidun,suihoulikaidegengkuai。
dengdaowaimianmeiyoushengyin,shenzhiranzaiyerenbuzhu,chongjinxishujiandakoudakououxue。
yikou,liangkou……oubujindexinsuan,tubuwandebiequ。
手机不断传来声音。
taqiangchengzhenaqishouji,shifuyandanfalaideduanxin。
neixieduanxinrutongshenjingcuoluan,yihuieryaohetafenshou,yihuieryouyaoqiutabuyaolikai。
buyongxiang,tadouzhidaoneidoushisunjingxideshoubi。
mingmingyijingjuedingfangqizheiduanganqing,kekanzhezheixie,naohaiqueyizhenzhenteng,xiangbeirennazhejuziyaojukai。
真的太疼了。
tazaiyezhanbuzhu,daodihunleguoqu。
hunchenjian,yebuzhidaoguoleduojiu。
dengdaoshenzhiranxinglaideshihou,faxianzijitangzailejizhengdebingchuangshang。
jutongxiangshiyaojiangtadeshenzihuohuopichengliangban。
hushixunwen:“nidejiarenni?”
shenzhiranlengzhu,banxiangcaikusekaikou:“wo……meiyoujiaren。”
hushilianmindidijitayizhangzhi。
shenzhiranchengzhezuoqilai,jieguohou,yingmushi‘bingweitongzhishu’jigedazi。
yuanlaitakuaisilea,nanguaizheimetong……
danxianzai,tatongdaolianyanleidoumeiyoule。
hushidoukanbuxiaqu,burenxinquan:“yaobu,wojinidazhitongzhenba?”
“……谢谢了。”
dawanzhitongzhenhou,shenzhiranchengzheqiangbi,yibuyibuxianggepanshanlaorenzouxiangmenwai,buliao,quezaizoulangshangyujianlefuyandan。
fuyandanshouzhongnazhehenxianyandejiezhihezi,kedengtakandaoshenzhiranshi,quehuangmangjiangneijiezhihezisaijinlezijikoudai。
suihoutazouguolai,xiangshenmeyemeifashengban,guanqiefuzheshenzhiran:“niliansezenmezheimecangbai,nalibushufu?”
shenzhirantaiyankanxiangzheigezijicengjingzuiaidenanren,tayanlihaizheshuxideguanxin,ketabuzhidao,zheiguanxindaodidaibiaoshenme?
是愧疚还是爱?
“yaoshiwosile,nizhendehaihuixintengma?”
shenzhiranhualuo,fuyandanlikecumei,buzantongdao:“bieshuoqihua,kuaigenwohuiqu。”
“yijiarenyoushenmejieshidabukaide?”
shenzhiranmeiyouliqizhengzha,yilubeiladaolesunjingxibingfangwai,liangrengangyitingxia,jiutinglimiansunjingxizaishuo——
“ma,woheyandandehunli,zhiranjiehuilaicanjiama?”