第一章
hexiafuchenyanqinshoudilaideniunaihou，shenzhaoyizhijuedeyanpiyuelaiyuechen，yishizhujianchoulishenti。
buzhidaoguoleduojiu，taganjuezijidaoleyigemoshengdedifang，zhitingjianerpanyinyinchuanlaiyigeshuxideshengyin。
“chenyan，nifenglema？nizhenyaomanzheshenzhaoyibatadeshenzhaixialaijiyeqian？”
shizhouxubai，fuchenyandefaxiao。
“zhiyoutanengpeixingchenggong。”fuchenyandeshengyinlengjingdekepa，“qianqianweizaidanxi，dengbulele。”
“zhiyushenzhaoyi……wohuibuchangtade，tabushixiwangwoqutama？shoushuhouwohuigentaqiuhun，zheibeizidoubuhuilihun。”
boliqiminmengdizazaidishang，zhouxubaijihushizaihou：“shendoumeile，nibuchangzheixieyoushenmeyong！wozhenbumingbai，yeqianjiujingjinixialeshenmeyao？dangniandizhen，niweilejiutashuangtuicanji，shiqujichengquan，taquezhuantoujiugenbiedenanrenpaole！neiduanrizi，shishenzhaoyipeizheni，zhaoguni，weilejinizhazhen，tanazijidangshiyanpin，zhademantuiqingzi！weileqiuyi，tazaimingyimenkouguileyigeyue！”
“xianzaiyeqianhuilaile，jiannidongshanzaiqileyoubazheni，dezhishenzhaoyihuailenidehaizihouyoukuyounao，nikantayikujiutoutoujishenzhaoyiweileduotaiyao，rangshenzhaoyiliudiaolenimendediyigehaizi，shenzhaoyizhijindouyiweishizijibuxiaoxinmeibaohuhaohaizi，yiyulezhengzhengsangeyue！”
“xianrujin，nijuranhaiyaobatadeshenzhaixialaijiyeqian？！”
“goule！”fuchenyanzhouranbagaoyinliang，“wozhidaoshenzhaoyiaiwo，aidaokeyifuchuyiqie，eryeqianweirenzisizili，tanmuxurong，danwojiushiaiyeqian，falefengyiyangdeaita！”
“neishenzhaoyini？tasuanshenme！”
“tashenmeyebusuan！woxinyiyijue，jintiansheilaiquanwodoumeiyong，tadeshenwobixuzhai！”
zheijuhualuoxiadeyike，shenzhaoyigandaoshoushudaohuakailetadepifu。
mazuishixianrandiguletadenaiyaoxing，meiyicuntengtongdouqingxikegan。
danbiqishentishangdetong，gengtongdeshixiongqianglineikezhengzaibeilingchidexin。
她爱了傅沉砚十年。
congshiliusuidaoershiliusui，tadeqingchun、tadeaiyi、tadequanbu，doujileta。
takanzhetaaiyeqian，kanzhetaweiyeqianfengmo，kanzhetabeiyeqianpaoqihouyijuebuzhen。
tapeitaaoguocanfeihouzuiheianderizi，renshoutadebaozao、yinyu，shenzhizaitashikongshibeitatuidaozaidi，zhuangdexigaiyuqing，ketacongweibaoyuanguoyiju，zhishimomopaqilai，jixuzhaoguta。
tayiwei，zongyouyitian，tahuihuitoukankanta。
keyuanlai……zaitayanli，tashenmeyebusuan。
shiniana，zhengzhengshinian，napatamenyiqijinglizheimeduo，tahaishizhiaiyeqian。
yinweiyeqianyijuhua，tajiuhenxindaoliuletamendehaizi！
yinweiyeqianxuyaoshen，tajiumanzheta，jiangtadeshenzhaijita！
buzhidaoguoleduojiu，shenzhaoyigandaoyoushenmedongxicongtineibeishengshengboli——
shitadeshen，yeshitashinianlaiquanbudeaiyi！
zaixinglaishi，manshixiaodushuiweicideyanjingfasuan，
“醒了？”
dichendenanshengcongmenkouchuanlai，shenzhaoyihunshenyijiang，huanhuantaimou。
fuchenyanzhanzaimenkou，nizheguang，xiuzhangdeshenyingbeilachuyidaolengjundejianying。
tamaibuzoujin，heisexizhuangkubaoguozhebizhidezhangtui，meiyibudouxiangshicaizaitadexinshang。
tazaichuangbianzuoxia，shenshoufushangtadelian，zhifucaguotayanjiaodelei，meitouweizhou：“henteng？”
shenzhaoyikanzheta，xinzangxiangshibeiyizhiwuxingdeshouhenhenzuanjin，tengdetajihuzhixi。
tazenmehaineng……zheimewenroudiwentatengbuteng？
tazenmenengzaiqinshouwanzoutadeshen、dadiaotadehaizizhihou，hainengruowuqishidizuozaitamianqian，yongzheizhongguanqiedeyanshenkanzheta？
“wo……zenmele？”takaikou，shengyinshayadebuxianghua。
fuchenyanshensebubian，yuqiwenrou：“nituranlanweiyanfazuo，yijingdongwanshoushule。”
阑尾炎？
shenzhaoyixiaole，xiaodeyanleizhibuzhudiwangxiadiao。
talianyigexiangyangdehuangyandoulandebian。
jiantayanleidiaoderucixiong，zenmecayecabuwan，tameichajuedaoshenmeyiyang，zhiyiweitashitengdelihai，lianmangshuoqujitazhaoyishenglai，biancongconglikai。
kezheiyiqu，taquezaiyemeifufan。
sangexiaoshihou，hushituimenjinlaijitahuanyao，xiaoshengyilunzhe——
“fuzongduiye**kezhenhao，zuowanbujinshouleyizhengye，ganggangtingshuoye**xinglexiangchichengxineijialaozihaodezhou，youganjinqinzikaichequmaile，waimianhaixiazhebaoyuni……”
tingjianzheifanhua，shenzhaoyimeirenzhu，leishuizaiciduokuangerchu。
yuanlai，zheijiushitayiqubuhuideyuanyin。
tashenzhidudingtaaita，buhuishengtadeqi，suoyilianfagexinxijieshidebiaomiangongfudoubuyuanzuo。
fuchenyan，woshenzhaoyishishenmehenjianderenma，nipingshenmejuede，wohuiainiaidaohaowudixian。
shenzhaoyikanzhechuangwai，yanleiyijingliuganle。
buzhidaoguoleduojiu，hushiliqu，tacaimochushouji，zhijianzaipingmushangtingdunleyimiao，suijibotongleyigehaoma。
dianhuajietong，neitouchuanlaiyidaodichenyonglandenansheng，“shen**？”
shenzhaoyishenxiyikouqi，shengyinhenqing，quehenqingxi：“xiefengzhou，niyoumeiyouxingqu……quwo？”
电话那头静了一瞬。
“nidacuodianhuale？wobushifuchenyan。”
“wozhidao。”shenzhaoyizuanjinshouji，zhijianfabai，“wowendejiushini。”
“wobuxiangjiajifuchenyanle。”
xiefengzhousihulailexingzhi，yudiaomanyouyoude：“e？neinipingshenmejuede……wohuiquni？”
shenzhaoyibilebiyan，shengyinpingjing：“jiuping，nishifuchenyandesiduitou。”
“jiuping——”tadunledun，yiziyijudao，“nibangongzhuoshangbaizhedeneizhangcelianzhaopian，shiwo。”