第一章

huilaozhaidelushang,wojipeizhaoyangdalehenduodianhua,wuyiliwai,quanbubeiguaduan。

【peizhaoyang,mamashuowanshanghuiquchi,zaodianhuilaihaobuhao?】

【peizhaoyang,ashizuijinjiangwenle,nijideduochuan。】

【youchiwucanma?buyaoyinweitaimangjiubuchifan,niweiyougaitengle……】

zhenggeliaotianduihuakuang,wofachudexiaoxi,douhaosishichendahai,zaiwuhuiying。

jiuhaoxiang,wozheimeduonianduitadeaiyi。

woyecengzaitashangbanzhijixianggeqiziyiyangweitadapeiyiwu,ketazhishixianedituikaiwo,shuoleju:「biepengwo!」

woyecengkulianchuyi,napageshangleshouzhi,rengweitazuohaofancaisongdaogongsi,ketadangzhewodemian,jiangfancaidiujinlelajitong:「yihou,zaibieguolaile!sheizhidaoganbuganjing。」

jiehunsannian,chulepeimucuishengzuiyanzhongdeshihou,tazaimeipengguowo。

woshangqiejidediyicijieshushi,tajiangyizhangwushangxiandeyuntongheikadiuzaichuangtou,yanshenzhongmanshichaofeng:「nijitashenggedasunzi,tajinijigeyi?」

「zheikaninazhe,biezhengyaoezi!」

manqiangaiyiluokong,yuanlaishiyijianrucitongkudeshi。

可我还是好爱他。

无可救药。

nianshaoshi,shaoniandeyanjingyiyishenghui,fangfochengzaizhewushuxingguang,chengleshenyuanliwoweiyideguangliang。

「shenzhiyi,biekule!dabule,yihouwoquni……」

keshi,peizhaoyang,womenzenmejiuzoudaolejinrizheibandibu?

womeiganzijihuilaozhai,wozhendehenpa。

papeimugaogaozaishangdeyanshen;patawenwo,peizhaoyangweihemeiqu;patashuo,weishenmezheimeduonianwohetahaishimeiyouhaizi……

woqugongsideshihou,limishujiangwolanzaimenwai,meitouweizhou,biaoqingnanyan:「peizongzhengzaichuligongwu,ninhaidedengyideng。」

jihushitahuayingangluo,wojiutingjiantabangongshichuanlaidenvzidexiaosheng。

「zhaoyang,womenyihuierquchishenme?」

「随便。」

wotuikailimishu,shenxiyikouqi,tuikailemen。

shafashang,peizhaoyangyishenjiancaidetidexizhuang,chendezhenggerenyaoshoutuizhang。

tayikaozaishafashang,bimuyangshen,yizhishouanzhetaiyangxue,henpibeideyangzi。

taduimian……zuozheliqingnian,tahuiguole。

tadechulian,tadebaiyueguang……

zhuozishang,shiyidatawenjian。

wosonglekouqi,zoushangqianqu。

wokanzheliqingnian,xiaolexiao,danneixiao,yinggaishuobushangduohaokan。

peizhaoyangkanlewoyiyan,meiyanlingli,manlianbuyue:「nilaizuoshenme?」

qishi,neiyishunjian,wozhendexiangdaolehenduodafu。

xiangwenta,mingmingkandaolexiaoxi,weishenmebuhuifu。

xiangwenta,weishenmeyaoguaduandianhua。

xiangwenta,ruguoliqingnianhuilaile,wosuanshenme?

haixiangshuo,kebukeyipeiwoqulaozhai,wozhendehaopa……

keshihuadaozuibian,wozhishixiaozheshuo:「peizhaoyang,nihaimeichiwancanma?niweitengbutenga?」

huoxu,neiyishunjian,tengdeshiwo。