第4章

yexu,zheishitashenweinanpengyou,duizijidezerenba,woxiang。

wogenzheluchuanzoudeshihou,linjiaojiaozaiwomenshenhou,jihendikanzhewomen。

tajiwofaweixin,“jiejie,biezhengzhale,niheluchuanshimeiyoukenengde。”

“yunyuna,niyiqianduotinghuaa,mamabushishuolema,butongyiniheluchuanzaiyiqi,nimenmashangfenshou。”

“luchuanneijiahuopeibushangwomenyunyun,womenyunyunzhidegenghaode。”

“wei,yunyun,tingdaomeiyou?”

wonazhehuatong,“ng”leyisheng。

“mamaxiangnile,xiawuhuilaikankanmama,haoma?”

pengyouquanlilinjiaojiaozaixuanyaotaxindedeyinlehuimenpiao。

luchuandedianhuayijingdaguolaile。

dianhuaxiangdaozuihouyimiaoshi,woqiamieledianhua。

对不起啊陆川。

zheishiwodiyiciguatadianhua。

keshi……wokuaisuhuanhaoyifu,mamashuo,fancaikuailiangle,rangwozaodianguoqu。

wochuilechuiyan,xiangxiangxianzaigenluchuanshuobuqu,tayidinghuiqidemawobushiren。

luchuanshuodedui,wolianbange“bu”zidoubuhuishuo。

keshiwopa,woshuolezhihou,wohelinjiadeqingyi,jiuzoudaotouleba。

……

woheluchuandeduihuakuangtingliuzaitaduiwoshuozuihoude“gun”shang。

wokanjianlinjiaojiaozaipengyouquanfatamendezhaopian,haitianmidishuoleyiju,“ouyu”。

“duibuqi,womeiqushiwobudui……”

luchuanjiwoshuailegeluyin。

“womeixihuanluchuan……”

我的声音。

我哑口无言。

zuihouzhinengqiqiubandiduitashuo,“wozhidaowocuole,danshiruguoyaofenshou,ninengbunenggenwoshuoyixia。”

陆川让我滚。

wozhishidingzhepingmufadai,woshenmeshihoushuobuxihuanluchuanleni?

wozhishizaigenmamabianjie。

“bushiweileluchuankaolaizheigechengshide,gangdaozheigechengshideshihou,womeixihuanluchuan……”

mamaxinweidixiaoxiao,shuo,“wojiupanihemeimeiyiyang,weilelianaishenmedoubuyaole。”

keshitahuafengyizhuan,youshuo,“douguaiwoheniba,meijitazugoudeai,suoyiwomenjueding,tayaoshenme,jiujitashenmeba。”

“yunyun,**meihenibuyiyang,tahenkelian。”

wonazhechabei,yishijianbuzhidaoshuoshenme,zhinengjixiedidiantou。

“wogentafenkailebuganghaoma,nizhiqianyebutongyiwomenzaiyiqide。”woqiangyanhuanxiao。

“nidoushuoleshizhiqian!luchuanduiniduohaoaxianzai,nishuofenshoujiufenshou,ninaozishibushiyoushenmedabing。”

田田对我大吼。

“nizijini?nixihuanletaneimejiu?nishedema?”

我把头移开。

我……舍不得。

“tiantian,”wojiaozheshouzhi,“womeixiangguoheluchuantianzhangdijiu。shenmeshihoufenkaidouyiyang。”

luchuanturancongpangbiandekafeizuozhanqilai,lenglengditaituijiuzou。

“linyunyun!nizhenshimeijiule!wogenluchuanshuoneiluyinbushinibenyi,jiaotalaikafeiguantingnijieshide。”

我愣住了。

fanyingguolaideshihou,woyijingpaoshangquzhuiluchuan,zhuazhutadeyixiuburangtazou。

“放开。”

woconglaimeikandaoluchuanneimelengdeyanshen。

然后……我放开了。

danyizhigenzailuchuanhoumian,zhidaotazhuantouduiwohou,“linyunyunwomenmeiguanxile,nigenzhe**ma?”

“wo,wozhidao。”wodizhetoukaishidiaoyanlei。