sannianqianneigeyuye，wojidetebieqingchu。yudianzizazaichuanghushang，pilipala，xiangyaobaboliqiaosui。woma，
queqiedishuoshiwohouma，linmeijuan，bawoduzaiwoneijianxiaodezhuanbukaishendezawujianli。didijianghaotangzaiyiyuan，
dengzheqianjiuming，yangqimianzhaokouzaitacangbaidexiaolianshang，neihuamianzaiwonaozilihuibuqu。“jiangyu，
”linmeijuanshengyinjianli，yaguoleyusheng，“shenjiazheimenqin，nibixudingshangqu！xiaoyapaole，
tabunengjiajiyigehuosirenshouyibeizi！xianzaizhiyouninengjiunididi！shenjiashuole，
zhiyaonikenjiaguoquzhaoguneigezhiwurenshenxiuwen，qianlikedaozhang！nibadegongsiyenengchuankouqi！
”tatuzhexianhongzhijiayoudeshouzhijihuchuodaowobijian，“biewangleshisheigongnichichuangongninianshu！
haozikeshiniqindidi！”qindidizheisangezi，xiangshaohongdeluotie，tangdewoxinzangyisuo。jianghaocaishisui，
baixuebing。wobaneigexiaogongsizaojiushigekongqiao，nengjiededoujiebianle。
wokanzhelinmeijuanneizhangbaoyangdeyi、cikequexiemansuanjidelian，youxiangqiyiyuanlididiweiruoqifudexiongkou。
kongqiliyougumeiwei，hunzazhelinmeijuanshenshangcibidexiangshuiwei，mendewochuanbuguoqi。chuangwaideyugengdale。
meiyoubiedelu。wodianletou，shengyingansedexiangshazhimoca：“qian…shenmeshihounengdao？”“qianlezi，mashang！
”linmeijuanlianshangshunjianduiqixiao，bianlianbifanshuhaikuai，haoxianggangcaineigeduoduobirendebushita。
taxunsucongmingpaibaolichouchuyifenhouhoudewenjian，saijinwoshouli。“shenjiashidahu，buhuikuidaini。qule，
haochihaohe，jiudanghuangedifangzhu。neigeshenxiuwen，”tapiepiezui，yilianxianqi，“tingshuotanglekuaiyinianle，
gujiyejiushigebaishe，nibatadangkongqijiuxing。”jiuzheiyang，
wochuanzhecangcugaixiaode、yuanbenshuyulinxiaoyadeangguihunsha，
daitiwoneitingshuoweile“zhuiqiuzhenaiheziyou”erlianyetaodaoguowaide“jiejie”，
jiajinleshenjiazheidongbinglengde、dadenengpaomadebieshu。hunli？meiyouhunli。
zhiyouyifenqianzhewomingzijiangyu、quetiezhelinxiaoyazhaopiandejiehunzheng，
heyizhangzhijiehuajinyiyuanzhanghu、shuejudadezhipiao。dongfangye，diyicijiandaowomingyishangdezhangfu，shenxiuwen。
tatangzaiyizhangjudade、kanzhejiuhenguideyiliaochuangshang，
fangjianlimimanzhedandandexiaodushuiweihegezhongyiqiyunzhuanshidiweidewengming。pifushijiubujianyangguangdecangbai，
wuguanshensui，jishibizheyan，yenengkanchuguxiangjihao，xianggejingxindiaozhuodeyuren，kexihaowushengqi。
shenjialaotaitai，yigemantouyinfa、yanshenruilidelaotaitai，lazhewodeshou，bumanzhouwendeshoubingliang。
“haohaizi，”tatanqi，yanshenluozaishenxiuwenshenshang，manshitongxi，“xiuwenjiubaituonile。
yishengshuo…youxiwang，danxuyaojingxinzhaoliao，xuyaoshenbianrende…nianxiang。”wojiuzheiyangchengleshentaitai。
yigeyoumingwushi、shouzhehuosirendefujiataitai。woderichangjiushiweizheshenxiuwenzhuan。
caxi、**、fanshen、bisi、jilushengmingtizheng。shenjiaqueshimeikuidaiwo，yishiwuyou，yongrenbushao，
dantieshenzhaoliaoshenxiuwendehuo，laotaitaijianchiyaowozheige“qizi”qinliqinwei，shuozheiyang“caiyouchengyi，
cainenghuanxingta”。yongrenwangmashizhuli，tashoujiaomali，jingyanfengfu，dabufenshihoushitajiaowozenmezuo，
wogenzhexue。rizixiangshanglefatiaodezhong，kuzaodizouzhe。weiyinengrangwotoukouqide，shimeitianwanshangjiudianzhihou。
wohuiguandiaofangjianlidabufenciyandedeng，zhiliuyizhanhunandebideng，
ranhouzuozaishenxiuwenchuangbianneizhangkuandadedanrenshafashang，nachushouji。
dakaiyigelansede、tubiaoshizhixiaoqiedeapp——**。diankaineigebeizhuwei“w”delianxiren。
wshiwowanglianlesanniandeduixiang。sannianqian，wozaiyigelengmenwenxueluntanshangrenshideta。tahuabuduo，
danmeicifayandouyizhenjianxue，jianjiedudao。yiciguanyumoubenhuisexiaoshuodezhenglunhou，womensixiajiale**。
liaowenxue，liaoyinle，liaogezishenghuolisuosuidefannaoheouerdexiaoquexing。tabuzhidaowodezhenshichujing，
zhizhidaowojialikunnan，yougeshengbingdedidiyaozhaogu。wobuzhidaotajutizuoshenme，zhizhidaotahenmang，
jingchangmanshijiefei，chuli“jiazushengyi”，yalihenda。womenshenzhimeijianguomian，lianshipindoumeiyouguo。
tashuotaneibianxinhaozongshibuhao，shexiangtouyehuaile。woyemeiqiangqiu，zheizhonggezhepingmudepeiban，
chenglewohuianshenghuoliweiyideguang。wohuigaosuta，
cuo；huibaoyuanhugongdegongzuohaolei（wozhigaosutawozaizuohugong）；huifenxianglubiankandaodeyiduoqiguaidexiaohua。
tahuinaixinditing，ranhoujiwojiangtazaimougeyiguotaxiangdejianwen，huozhetuijianyishoulengmendanhaotingdege。
gengduodeshihou，wobashenxiuwendangchengyigejudade、buhuixiemideshudong。“wei，shenxiuwen，
”woyibianjita**shoubei，yibiandishengxutao，fanzhengtayetingbujian。
“wojintianchadianbawangmaaodecantangdafanle，hesiwole，neitangyikanjiuhengui。”tadeshoubeijirouyuncheng，
shouganwenre，yidianbuxiangtangleyinianduoderen，pifuzhuangtaihaoderangwojidu。“nizhidaoma，
wjintianshuotakuaihuiguole。suiran…haishimeishuoshenmeshihounengjianmian。”wotanlekouqi，
shouzhiwuyishidihuaguotaxiuzhangdeshouzhi。tadezhijianxiujiandehenganjing。“youshihoujuedetingmeiyiside，
gengeyingzitanlianai。keyoushebude，chuleni，”wopieleyanchuangshanganjingdenanren，
“dagaiyezhiyoutayuanyitingwoshuozheixiefeihuale。”wozichaodixiaolexiao，naqiwenredemaojin，
qingqingcashitalunkuofenmingdecelian。hunandeguangxianxia，tanongmidejiemaozaiyanxiatouxiayixiaopianyinying。
“wangmajintiantoutouwenwo，tiantianduizhenizheimege‘shuimeiren’，youmeiyoudongguoxin。”wochixiaoyisheng，
shouxiadongzuomeiting，“kaishenmewanxiao，duizhegehuosirendongxin？woyoubushitonghuagushilidegongzhu。
buguoshuozhende，”wocoujinleyidian，zixiduanxiangtadelian，“niyaoshigezhengchangren，guangpingzheizhanglian，
gujiyetinghuohaixiaoguniangde。”tadehuxihenqing，henjunyun。wojitayehaobeijiao，“shuiba，
wode‘shuimeiren’laogong，woyaoqugenwode‘wangzi’liaotianle。”zheizhongfenliedeshenghuo，chixulezhengzhengsannian。
zhidaoneiyitian。neitiantianqitebiehao，yangguangtouguojudadeluodichuang，babingfangzhaodeliangtangtangde。
wangmayoushiqingjiahuilelaojia，ruodadefangjianjiushengwoheshenxiuwen。woxiangwangchangyiyang，jitazuotuibu**。
yibianan，yibiandaizheerjigenwfayuyinbaoyuanshenjiayigeyuanfangqinqijintianyoupaolaizhishouhuajiao，fandeyaosi。
zhengshuodaojidongchu，woxiguanxingditaiyanqukanshenxiuwendelian。yangguangluozaitalianshang，pifubaidejinhutouming。
jiuzaineiyishunjian，woqingqingchuchudikandao，tafugaizaixiayanjianshangde、neipaiyouzhangyoumidejiemao，
jiqiqingweidi、danjueduizhenshidi，zhandongleyixia！wodexinmengdiyitiao，xiangbeishenmedongxihenhenzuanzhu，
erjilideyinleshengdoumohule。woxiayishiditingzhuleshoulidedongzuo，pingzhuhuxi，
yanjingyizhabuzhadidingzhetadeyanjing。shijianyifenyimiaoguoqu。wufenzhong，shifenzhong。tadeyanjingbidejinjinde，
xiongkousuizhehuxihuanmanqifu，yiqieruchang。gangcaineiyixia，kuaidexiangshiwodehuanjue。“nandao…shiwoyanhuale？
”wonannanziyu，shouxinyoudianmaohan。taixiangtaxingguolaile？chuxianhuanjuele？keneiyixiadezhandong，
zhenshideheren。womanmanshenchushouzhi，youyuzhe，xiangpengpengtadeyanpi，querenyixia。
jiuzaiwodezhijiankuaiyaochupengdaotapifushi，menwaizoulangturanchuanlaikeyiyadiqueyirannengtingqingdeshuohuasheng。
shishenxiuwenneigedaijinsiyanjing、yilianjingyingxiangdejiatingyisheng，chenyisheng。lingyigeshengyin，dichenpingwen，
shishenjiadeguanjia，zhongshu。“…shaoyede‘fujian’jihua，xuyaoshidangdiaozhengqiangdule。tangtaijiu，
jirouzhuangtaiweichidezaihao，yejingbuqixiayibudesunhao。”chenyishengdeshengyintouzheyanjin。xiayibu？fujian？
zhiwurenfujian？woxiangbeidongzhuyiyang，jiangzaiyuandi，shenchudeshouxuanzaibankong，zhijianbingliang。
yiguhanyicongjiaodiban“cheng”dicuanshangtouding。zhongshudeshengyinjiezhexiangqi，
daizheyizhongxiyiweichangdegongjing：“shi，chenyisheng。wohuijiangnindejianyizhuandajishaoye。lingwai，
shaofurenneibian…sihuyousuochajuele？jintiankantashensebutaidui。”shaoye？zhuandajishaoye？！
xueyehongdeyishengchongshangwodedanao，erduoliwengwengzuoxiang。houmiantamenzaishuoleshenme，woyigeziyetingbujianle。
naozilizhiyouzhongshuneiju“zhuandajishaoye”zaifengkuanghuixiang。shenxiuwenshizhuangde！tagenbenmeibing！tashixingzhede！
zheisannian，tayizhizaizhuang！erwo，xianggeshaziyiyang，meitianjitacaxi、**、weishi，
zaitaerbianxuxutaotao，bawosuoyoudexinshi，baokuoduiwdeganqing，
douhaowubaoliudidaojizheigejiazhuangchenshuidepianziting！judadezhenjingguohou，shipaishandaohaidefennuhequru。
woganjuequanshendexueyedouzairanshao，shentikongzhibuzhudifadou。pianzi！chetoucheweidepianzi！shenjiasuoyouren，
laotaitai、zhongshu、chenyisheng、wangma…tamendouzhidao！tamenheqihuolaipianwo！
bawodangchengyigebuzhiqingde、mianfeidegaojihugong！yigegongtamenquledexizi！womengdishouhuishou，
liangqiangzhehoutuiyibu，zhuangzaipangbiandeyiqijiashang，fachu“kuangdang”yishengmenxiang。menwaidetanhuashengjiaranerzhi。
jimiaozhongsijibandechenmohou，menwaichuanlaizhongshupingjingwubodeshengyin：“shaofuren？ninmeishiba？
”wosisiyaozhuxiachun，zhidaozuilichangdaoyisixuexingwei，caimianqiangyaxiahoulongkoudenuhou。bunengchongdong。
xianzaichongchuquzhiwen，meiyourenheyiyi。woxuyaozhengju，xuyaodangmiansikaizheigepianju！woshenxiyikouqi，
zaixiyikouqi，nulirangzijideshengyintingqilaizhengchang：“mei…meishi，zhongshu，buxiaoxinpengdaoledongxi。
”wowanyaofuqibeizhuangwaidejiazi，shouhaizaidou。“haode，shaofurenxiaoxinxie。
”zhongshudejiaobushenghetanhuashengjianjianyuanqu。fangjianlizhishengxiawohechuangshangneige“chenshui”depianzi。
wozhanzaiyuandi，xiongkoujulieqifu，sisidingzheshenxiuwenneizhangyijiuwanmei、cikequerangwojuedewubixuweidelian。
tazenmenengzhuangdezheimexiang？sannian！yiqianduogeriye！tazenmerendezhu？！fennuxiangyanjiangzaixueguanlibenyong，
danyigegengbingleng、gengjianruideniantou，haowuyuzhaodicichuanlewodenuhuo——w！
wozheisannianhaowubaoliuqingsudeduixiang！
zhe“zhiwuren”shenxiuwenshuodeguanyuwdediandiandidi、wodejiujie、wodesinian……ruguoshenxiuwenshixingzhede，
neitaqibushiquandouzhidao？tatangzaineili，
tingzhezijideqiziduizhelingyigenanren（suiranshiwangshangde）qingzhuganqing，shishenmexinqing？kanxima？
zheigexiangfarangwobiantishenghan，yizhenfanwei。buxing。wobixulengjing。woxuyaojueduidezhengju。
yigejihuazaiwohunluandenaozilixunsuchengxing。shenxiuwenjiranzhuangshui，
neitajiuxuyao“duchu”deshijianlaihuifujingli，chulitazuowei“shaoye”gaichulideshiqing。
tabukenengshishikekedouyourendingzhe。jihuizaidiertianxiawulaile。
laotaitaibeijiweilaojiemeijiequchengwaidesimiaochizhaixiaozhujitian。zhongshuqinzikaichehusong，
chenyishengjushuoyougezhongyaodeyixuehuiyi。wangmahaimeihuilai。ruodadebieshu，anjingdeheren，
zhishengxiajigefuzewaiweiqingjiedeyongren。woduanzhewenshuipenhemaojin，xiangwangchangyiyangzoujinshenxiuwendefangjian。
taanjingditangzhe，yangguangsazaitalianshang，meihaodexiangyifuhua。womianwubiaoqingdifangxiapen，ningganmaojin，
kaishijitacalian。dongzuoyirujiwangdiqingrou，danzhiyouwozijizhidao，
meiyifenliqidouyongzaiyazhizijibuyaobazheimaojinhenhenzazaitalianshang。“jintiantianqibucuo，”wokaikou，
shengyinkeyifangdepingwen，shenzhidaishangleyisiwozijidoujuedeexindewenrou，“laotaitaiqujingxinyuanle，
yaozhujitian。zhongshuyebuzai。”wozixiguanchatadelian，youqishiyanjingzhouweidexiweibianhua。haowufanying。
tadehuxipingwenyouzhang，lianjiemaodoumeidongyixia。zhuangdekezhenxiang。wolengxiaoyisheng，shoushangcashidedongzuomeiting，
huafengquedouranyizhuan，daizheci：“wangmagenwoshuo，niyiqianshentikehaole，shixiaolanqiuduidezhuli？
zhennanxiangxiang，yigehuobengluantiaoderen，zenmenengyitangjiushisannian，zhuangdegenzhendeyiyang。shenxiuwen，
nileibuleia？”tadehuxi，sihujiqiqingweididunleyixia，kuaidaorangrenyiweishicuojue。zuijiaodejirou，
bengjinleyishun。woxintoukuangtiao，duduile！woqiangyazhejidong，fuxiashen，coudaotaerbian，
yongzhiyouwomenlianggerennengtingdaodeqisheng，yiziyiju，qingxidishuodao：“tingzhe，wozhidaonimeibing。
zuowanzaimenwai，wodoutingjianle。chenyisheng，zhongshu…haiyou‘shaoye’。”zuihoulianggezi，woyaodegewaizhong。
zheiyici，tadefanyingzaiyewufayanshi。wokandaotafangzaibeiziwaideshouzhi，mengdiquansuoleyixia！
zhijieyinweiyonglierfanbai！yanpixiadeyanzhu，zaijuliedizhuandong！suirantahaishimeizhengkaiyan，
danzhenggeshentidouchengxianchuyizhongjidujinbengdezhuangtai，xiangyizhanglamandegong。goule！zheijiugoule！
womengdizhiqishen，bamaojin“pa”diyishengrengjinshuipenli，jianqiyipianshuihua。
judadequruganhebeiqipiandefennuzhongyuchongpolewosuoyoudelizhidiba。“shenxiuwen！”wozaiyekongzhibuzhu，
shengyinjianruidenenghuapofangjiandejijing，“nihaiyaozhuangdaoshenmeshihou？！kanzhewoxianggeshaziyiyangsihounisannian，
haowanma？tingzhewotiantianzainichuangbianniantaolingyigenanren，shibushitebieyouchengjiugan？nimenshenjia，
bawodangshenmele？mianfeidehugong，haishigongnimenxiaoqiandehouxi？！”woxiongkoujulieqifu，
yanleibuzhengqidiyongleshanglai，danbeiwohenhenbiehuiqu。bunengku！zaizheigepianzimianqianku，taidiurenle！
chuangshangderen，zhongyubuzaizhuangle。neipainongmidejiemao，huanhuandixiankaile。luchuyishuangshensuiruhantandeyanjing。
meiyouchuxingdemimang，zhiyouyipianbinglengde、ruilideqingming，zhizhidikanxiangwo，daizheshenshi，
haiyouyisi…laibujiwanquanshouqidecuoe。tazhongyu“xing”le。simuxiangdui。kongqifangfoninggule，
zhiyouwocuzhongdechuanxisheng。takanzhewo，yanshenfuza，zhenjing、shenshi，haiyouyisibuyichajuedelangbei。
neishuangyanjing，xiangliangkoushenbujiandidehantan，qingxidiyingzhewocikefennudaoniuqudelian。
“ni…”tadeshengyinyouxieshaya，dagaishitaijiumeishuohua，daizheyizhongqitedecixing，“douzhidaole。
”bushiyiwen，shichenshu。tachengzheshenti，jingranzijimanmanzuoleqilai！dongzuosuiranyouxiechihuanjiangying，
danjueduibushiyigewochuangsannianzhiwurennengzuodaode！kanzhetaruci“qingsong”dizuoqi，
wozheisannianrifuyiridexinkuzhaoliaoshunjianchengletiandadexiaohua。fennuxianghuoshanyiyangbaofa。“wozhidao？
wozhidaoshenme？”woshengyinfadou，yibububijinchuangbian，zhizhetadebizi，“wozhidaonishendashaoyehaodehen！
wozhidaonimenshenjiaheqihuolaishuawo！bawopianjinlaidangniuzuoma！
kanzhewomeitianxianggeshaziyiyangduizhege‘huosiren’taoxintaofei，shibushijuedetebieyouyisi？shenxiuwen，
nidaodiweishenmeyaozhuang？！weishenme？！”takaozaichuangtou，weiweicuzhemei，lianseyijiucangbai，
danyanshenyijinghuifuleguanyoudelengjing，shenzhiyouxiedanmo。“weishenme？”tachelechezuijiao，
neixiaorongmeiyouyisiwendu，“weilehuoming。”“huoming？”wojianzhiyaoqixiaole，“nizaishenjiajinyiyushi，
hufenghuanyu，nixuyaozhuangzhiwurenlaihuoming？pianguini！”“jinyiyushi？”tadixiaoyisheng，
daizhenongzhongdechaofeng，“jiangyu，nikandaodeshenjia，buguoshishuimianshangdebingshanyijiao。
yinianqianwojieshoujituanhexinxiangmu，chudongletaiduorendeliyi。yichangjingxincehuade‘yiwai’chehuo，
chadianyaolewodeming。yiyuanliliangcibumingyuanyindeqiangjiuweixiang，rangwozhidao，zhiyaowo‘xingzhe’，
jiuyourenhuixiangjinbanfarangwoyongyuan‘shui’guoqu。”tadunledun，muguangruilidisaoguowo：“zhuangchengzhiwuren，
shiwoweiyinengxiangdaode、zhengqushijianjiuchumuhouheishoudebanfa。zhiyourangsuoyouren，baokuoneixiezangzaianchuderen，
douxiangxinwoyijingshifeirenyige，haowuweixie，wocainengzhenzhenganquan，yecainenganzhongdiaocha。
”“neigenwoyoushenmeguanxi？！”wodaduanta，xinkoududefahuang，“nimenshenjiadeposhi，