daoyu：「tijiaonizuitongdejiyi，fouzewufalihun。」quanxifatingshang，xitongyinbinglengxiangqi。
jiangxueciyixiyinpao，mianwubiaoqingdikanzheyunchi——tacengjingdezhangfu，rujinde“jiyiheiyi”。
tadiaochuhunlineitiandequanxiyingxiang：taguididaijie，shengyinfazhan：「woyuanyongyusheng，
huannibuzaimengjianneichanghuo。」qingganzhenshidu98.7%。taquetaishoufangchujiankong：shenyeshiyanshi，
taguiqiubingruonvzi：「bangwopiantashiyao……zhiyoutanenghuoxialai。」quanchanghuaran。
xitongpanding：qingganqizha，yishiyongjiuboli。tabeituorujiyiheiyuqiansihou：「nimingmingzhidaozhenxiang！」
talengxiaozhuanshen，dishengyiju：「tashuoyaolihun，qishishiyaoniming。」
meirenzhidao——zheichanglihunshenpan，shitaweitashexiadezuihouyichangxi。tabushizaichengfata，
shizaidengta，yongzuitongdefangshi，
batacongyiwangdiyulilahuilai……1tongyishenpan·tayaowosilanguangxiangdaozi，shualayixia，
henhenpizaiwolianshang。wozhanzaizheigejiao“yuanyuzhoulihunban”dequanxifatingzhengzhongjian，
ganjuezijixiangtoudaizaideshengkou。sizhoukongdangdang，zhiyoubinglengdeshujuliuxiangsheyiyangniudong，
lengderengutoufenglidoufazhan。“huanyinglaidao《yuanyuzhoulihunban》。qingtijiao‘zuitongjiyi’，
xitongjiangpandingqingganzhenshixing。”xitongtishiyinlengdenengdiaoxiabingzhazi。
wozuoyandejixieyitongbushoukongzhidishanlexiahongguang，xiangkebinside、landiaodexingxing。mianqianzhanzhedeshijiangxueci。
wodeqianweihunqi，xianzaideyuanyuzhoulunlijianchaguan。talengdexiangyigeaijianmoshiwudebingshanshouban，
yinbaizhangqunguodeyisibugou，liantoufasidoutouzhejurenqianlideguizheng。tazhijianzaixukongqingqingyidian，
shengyinpingdexiangtiaosiledezhixian：“shenqinglihun。qidong‘tongyizhongxian’。”wohoulonggandefajin，xiangxiao，
quemeixiaochulai。xing，jiangxueci，nizhenxing。lianlihundouyaolidezheimesaibopengke，yishiganlamanshiba？
womamudidiaochujiyi。hunlineitiandequanxiyingxiangpadiyishengzhakai，fuzaibankong。yingxiangli，wodanxiguidi，
shouliniezheliuguangyicaidejiezhi，shoudoudexiangdelepajinsen。woshuo：“jiangxueci，woyuanyiyusheng，
huannibuzaimengjianneichanghuo。”quanchangjingdekepa，zhishengxiashujuliudongdexiweizayin。
xitongbileyisheng：“nanfangqingganzhenshidu98.7%，nvfangjiyicunyi。
”jiangxuecizuijiaojiqiqingweidicheleyixia，lianlengxiaodoushengle。tataishou，
gancuililuodishuaileyiduanjiankongchulai——shengengbanye，woguiguisuisuidiliujinshiyanshijinqu，
genyigebingyanyan、liansecangbaidexiangzhidenvrendishengdigu。neinvrendelian，shiwoshizongduoniandechulian，
liuzhijin。jiankongshangdeshijianchuoxiangdingziyiyangdingsizaineili：womenhunliqian48xiaoshi。huamianli，
wozuanzheyiguanyoulandeguiyideyaoji，guizaidishang，jihushiaiqiuzheta：“bangwopiantashiyao……qiunile，
zhiyoutanenghuoxialai……”fatinglishunjianwengdiyishengzhakaileguo。wonaoziyegenzhewengyisheng，
xiangbeirenlunzhetiechuihenhenzaleyixiahounaoshao。xitongtishiyinzaicibinglengdixiangqi，
rutongbudao：“nitijiaodejiyiyuetong，xitongyueaini。”wocao。zheishenmediyujilangeng。
wojihubayayaosui：“neibushizhende！neinvdeshi——”“nanfangxubuchongdiyishijiaojiyi。
”xitonggenbenburongwobianjie，qiangzhimingling。wozhandouzhejiazailejiyi。huamianzaicizhongbo，danzheiyici，
shiwodeshijiao——woguizhe，kukuaiqiudeduixiang，genbenbushiliuzhijin！
neizhishiyigequanxitouyingchulaide、mohubuqingde、shuyujiangxuecideyishicanying！wodeshengyinsiyadelihai，
chongmanlejuewang：“xueci，nidexinwo……zhiyouzheigebanfanengrangnixingguolai……qiuni，
shishiyao……”zhendeliuzhijinzaojiusile！neiwanwojiande，
shijiangxuecizijiyinweichuangshangersuichengzhadeyishicanying！taxiaoshihouzaoyuhuozai，jiyisuidexiangbeizahuaidepintu，
shiwoyonglesannian，buxidaijia，yong“jiyibianzhishu”yidiandianjitasaihuixitongshenchude！neiguanyao，
shijiutade！bushitamadehaita！wogangyaosihouzheshuochuzhenxiang，
xitongturanbaofachucierzhijidejingbao——“jiancedaojiyicuangaihenji！nanfangpandingwei‘qingganqizhazhe’！
”wohunshenmengdiyijiang，xiangshibeigaoyadianliushunjianjichuan。zuoyandejixieyitongfengkuangshanshuohongguang，
shiyebiandeyipianmohu。yishibeiqiangxingbolideganjuejianruiwubi，
xiangyourennazhexiudundecuodaoyixiaxiaguawodenaosui。womengditaitou，sisidingzhujiangxueci。tajiuzhanzaineili，
lengyankanzhewozaoshouzheiyiqie，lianjiemaodoumeiyouzhandongyixia。
“nimingmingzhidaozhenxiang……”wosangziyadejihumaoyan，meiyigezidoudaizhexuesi，
“weishenme……weishenmeyaozheiyangduiwo？”tazhongyudongle，zhuanguoshen，yinbaidequnbaihuachuyidaobinglengdehuxian。
tadechunjiaowanqiyigejiqiandehudu，qingpiaopiaodi，rengxiayijuhua：“tashuoyaolihun，qishishiyaoniming。
”**。shixianchedibeiheiantunshizhiqian，wojiuzhitingjianlezheiyiju。xiangpanjue，youxiangzuzhou。
2jiyiheiyu·fenxinyihuodiaojinjiyiheiyushishenmeganjue？meiyouguang，meiyoushengyin，
shenzhimeiyoushijiandegainian。zhiyouyizhongbuduanxiazhuide、lingrenzhixideshizhonggan。
xiangshibeirengjinleshujuhaiyangdezuishenchu，liansiweidoubiandezhanchou、huanman，kuaiyaoninggu。“wantuole，
zheicizhengle。”woshitudongyidongshouzhi，quedebudaorenhehuiying。
detishizaijueduidejijingzhongzhongfu：【jinggao：yishitiwanzhengdu71%...70%...chixubolizhong。
jinzhiyiqiewaibulianjie。】de，yuanyuzhouzhongshenjinsaitaocan。haishiqiannvyoujianzhushenfaguanqinshoujiwopande。
jiuyinweineiduanbeiqiatouquwei、eyicuangaiguodejiankongluxiang。
yanqianwufakongzhidishanhuizheneiyaomingdehuamian——quanxifatingshang，youlandeguangxianqiegezhemeigerendebiaoqing。
jiangxuecizhanzaineili，yinbaidezhangqunxiangguozheyicengyongdongdehanshuang。tazhijianyidian，
neiduanrangwobaikoumobiandejiankongjiuzazailesuoyourenmianqian。shenyedeshiyanshi，wobeiweidiguizaidishang，
duizheyigemianrongcangbaibingruodenvren。
“bangwopiantashiyao……zhiyoutanenghuoxialai……”wodeshengyinneimesiya，neimebeiwei，dijinlenituli。
neinvren，shiliuzhijin。wode“chulian”。zhishao，zaixitongdejilulishizheimexiede。quanchanghuaran，
xunideqiongdingdoukuaibeishenglangxianfan。“qingganqizha”debiaoqiankuangdangyisheng，jiuzheimebeihansizaiwoshenshang，
lianshensudetongdaodoumeijiwoliu。jiangxuecishishenmebiaoqing？meiyoubiaoqing。tashenzhilinseyuzaiduokanwoyiyan，
fangfowozhishiyigexuyaobeilikegeshihuadecuowudaima，duokanyiyandouxianzang。“nitijiaodejiyiyuetong，
xitongyueaini。”——qutamadepoxitong！taaidegenbenbushishenmezhenshiqinggan，
ershibeiniuqu、beifangdadetongchu！zaiheiyuli，shijianshiquleyiyi。kenengzhiguoquleduanduanjifenzhong，
yekenengyijingliushilejigeshiji。zhidaoyiduanweiruodejihubuzhuobudaode、duanduanxuxudexinhao，
xiangyoulingyiyangzuanlejinlai。
【...chi......neng......tingdaoma......】shiliuzhijindeshengyin！？budui！
zheibukeneng！tazhishiyigehuanying，yigewodangnianweileanfuxueciposuiyishierchuangzaodejiyihuanchongdai，
yigegongjuxingdeai，tazenmekenengtupoheiyudefanghuoqiang？
......shuowo......shirongyushuju......】tadeshengyinjiazazheqiangliededianliuzayin，
破碎得让人心疼。
【danyouxiedongxi......tamenmeizhaodao......wozangqilaile......】“zangleshenme？
”woyongjinquanbudeyishili，pinmingqubuzhuoneilvweiruodexinhao，xiangshizainishuishizhuazhuzuihouyigendaocao。
【nide......jiyi。zhenshide......neixie。】yishunjian，
xiangshishengxiudechilunbeiqiangxingqiaodong，wobeimengdituorulesannianqiandehuiyili。chongtiandehuoguang，
kongqizhongmimanzheshaojiaodeqiwei。jiangxuecianjingditangzaifeixuli，xiangshishuizhele，neimeanjing，
queyouneimecuiruo。yishengyaozhetou，shuotanaoyuyanzhongshousun，jiyizhiliposui，kenengyongyuandouxingbuguolai，
jiusuanjiaoxingxingle，yebuzaishiyuanlaideneigetale。qutamadekeneng！laozibuxin！
wobazijichediguanjinleshiyanshi，xianggefengziyiyangmeirimeiyediyanjiu“jiyihuisushu”。
bierenxiufudeshibinglengdeshuju，wotamadexiufudeshihuoshengshengderenxin！
meiyiciqianrutahunluanbukandeyishihai，douxiangshibeirengjinlejingshenjiaorouji，
tadekongju、tadetongku、tabeidahuotunshishidejuewang……quandoubaifenbaidifankuidaowoshenshang。teng？
routidetengtongdoushixiaoshi。zuikepadeshineizhongzhaobudaotahexinyishisuipiandewubianxuwu，
neizhongwulunzenmenulidouxiangshizaiwujinheianzhongxiazhuideganjue，zhendenengbarenbifeng。pengyoumawolianainao，
shuoweileyigekenengyongyuandoubuhuizairenshinideren，bazijigaochengzheiyang，zhidema？zhibuzhidewobuzhidao，
wozhizhidao，ruguolianwodoubuqushi，neitajiuzhendemeile。
neigehuiyinweiwoyijulanxiaohuajiuxiaodechuidi、yanliyouguangdejiangxueci，jiuchedixiaoshizaizheigeshijieshangle。
yushi，wochuangzaole“liuzhijin”。
wojitashurulewenrou、bingruo、yilaiderengesheding——zheixiequanshijiyuwoduixueciqianyishidechuaice，
takenengkewang、shenzhikenenganzijidudetezhi。woxiangyongzheigejingxindazaodehuanyingzuoweimaodian，
xiyintaneixiesanluode、mimangdeyishisuipianmanmankaolong、zhongzu。
woshenzhixizhidaojiliuzhijinshezhilehuidanzouxuecizuiaidegangqinqu，
huiyongxuecixiguandezishichengsan……woxianggezuibeiweidegongjiang，yidiandiandamozhezheigetishen，
zhiqiuneigezhenzhengdezhengzhunengkanyiyan，nengyouyidiandiandefanying。danwowangle，aiyeshihuixuehuaide。
liuzhijinkaishi“yueyu”。tabuzaiwanquanzunxunwoshedingdechengxu。tahuituranwenwo：“nikanzhewodeshihou，
zhendezaikanwoma？”huozhe，yongneizhongdaizheweimiaoqingxudeyuqiwen：“ruguowohetatongshidiaojinshujuliu，
nihuixianjiushei？”xitongdejingbaoxiangguowushuci：【jinggao：huanxiangchanshengyichangziwoyishi，jianyilijishanchu。
】womeicidouhaobuyouyudidianle【hulve】。shenzhikebeidixiangzhe：liuzheba，
wanyi……wanyixuecidemouyibufenyishi，jiufuzaitashenshangni？xianzaixianglai，**shitiandadefengci。
zheinashixuecideyisi，fenmingshixuecijiwoshexiadeyigeju！yigeyinworuweng、rangwowanjiebufudeju！
heiyuli，liuzhijinchuanlaidexinhaoyuelaiyueruo，jihuyaoxiaosan。
..faxianwole......shujuku......lujin......】mingziduanzaibinglengdekongqili，
xinhaochedizhongduan。lujin！neigecengjingdeyuanyuzhoulunlijujuzhang，zhuiqiuxuecibuchengyinaishenghen，
houlaichengleqianfuzaixitonganwanglideheikemieba！tapianzhidijianxinqingganshirenleiwenmingdebug，
yizhiwangxianggaotade“wutongyuanyuzhou”！tayezaiqiangzheixiejiyi？taxiangganshenme？！
jihujiuzailiuzhijinxinhaoxiaoshidetongshi，yiduanbeishendujiami、biaojiwei【jinranxieyi·zhongzhang】dedaima，
xiangshibeitadexishengsuojihuo，mengdizaiwohexinyishililiangqi，rutongheianzhongranqidezuihouyicuhuomiao。
【xieyishuoming：ranshaoquanbujiyishuju，zhuanhuaweiyicixingnengliangchongji，keduanzansiliexitongpingzhang，chongjihexin。
daijia：yishitidagailvchedixiaosan。】“woshaojinjiyi，zhiweihuanniyiyanqingxing。
”zheijubuzhidaocongnagejijiaogalakanlaidefeizhuliujinju，cikexiangcuiledudezhenyiyanghenhenzhajinwonaozili。
yuanlaizaizheidengzhewoni。jiangxuecigaochuzheimedazhenzhang，lihunshenpan，gongkaichuxing，
bawocaijinnili……genbenbushiweilegenwopieqingguanxi。tashiyaobiwo！biwozoudaojuelu，
biwoxuanzezheitiaozihuidelu！yongwozuitongdefangshi，quzhuangkaitaneishanyinweichuangshangerchedifengsuodexinmen！
“niubia，jiangxueci。”woduizhewubianwujideheianheiyu，shuqilegenbenbucunzaidemuzhi，
“**zhenshiboyilundashizhongdedashi。”yongwodeming，dunideqingxing。zheihunlide，zhenshiyaolelaomingle。
meishijianyouyule。yishiwanzhengduyijingdiechuanle60%。zaidiaoxiaqu，xiangranshaodoumeidongxikeshaole。
lujinneisunzikendingyezaianchudingzhe，
zhibudingjiudengzhewozibaohoujianxianchengde“tongkushuju”quxunliantaneitaomieshiaini。gantaniangde！
wodiaodongqisuoyouhainengkongzhideyishiliu，xiangduichaihuoyiyang，
lidetianmi、shiyanshilidejianao、liuzhijindekunhuo、zheisannianlimeiyimiaodesinianyutongku……suoyoudeyiqie，
quandouduizaiyiqi。neixiejiyisuipianshanshuozhebutongdeguangcai，tiandexiangmitang，kudexiangdanzhi，xianzai，
douyaobeiyibahuoshaodeganganjingjing。“xinga，bushiyaotongma？jini！doujini！laozibuguole！
”wodaizheyizhongpoguanposhuaidehenjing，mengdijihuole【jinranxieyi】。hong——！
ganjuexiangshilinghunbeicubaodirengjinleliziduizhuangji，yigujudade、congneibubaofadesicheganshunjianxijuanerlai。
meiyiduanjiyideranshaodoudailaizuanxinwangudeteng，
bixiufuxueciyishishichengshoudesuoyoufanshijiaqilaihaiyaotongyiwanbei！yanqiankaishibushoukongzhidishanguozoumadeng。
wokanjianzijidiyicitoutouqinta，taerduojianhongdexiangshiyaodichuxuelai。wokanjianhuozaineitian，
tahaobuyouyudibawotuikai，zijiquebeidiaoluoderanshaohenglianghenhenzazhong。wokanjianwojitadaishangjiezhi，
xunideyangguangzheshezaijiezhishang，huangderenyanhua。wokanjianwoguizaitadeyishicanyingqian，
quanshijiepaoqideyegou：“ruguonixingbulai……wojiuyongyuanhuozaizheichangwozijibianzhidehuangyanli……”zheixie，
douyaomeile。liantongwozheigerenyiqi。nengliangjijudaodingfeng，wodeyishitibiandejihuwanquantouming，qingpiaopiaode，
fangfoxiayimiaojiuyaoxiaosan。wopingjiezuihoudeganjue，miaozhunneipianganzhizhongxitongzuicuiruodehexinquyu。
“jiangxueci……”woyaozheya，bazuihouyidiancancundeyishiquandouyashang，
“zheiyaoshihaijiaobuxingni……laozijiushizuogui……yedepahuilaijinidagechaping！”xiayimiao，
wobazijixiangyikerenroupaodanside，henhendifashelechuqu。judadeshujuhongliu，
guoxiezheworanshaodaijindeyiqie、wodesuoyou、wodequanbu，paoxiaozhechongxiangheiyuzhiwai，chongxiangneigeyoutazhuzai，
queyetongshiqiujinzhetade——yuanyuzhouzuihexindequyu！
3zhenxiangnixi·gongshengzhiqiwoganjuezijixiangshibeirengjinleyitaigaosuyunzhuandesuizhiji，beisiche、beiqiege。
danbushishenti，shiwodejiyi。yiduanjiezheyiduan，shanzhebuxiangdeyoulanguangmang，pilipaladiranshao、yinmie。
【jiyifenhui，shujuhongliubaofa】“jinranxieyi……zheimingzi**tieqie。
”woduizheheiyuwujindexukongdunang，shengyinshayadexiangshenglexiudezhouchengzhuandong。zheiguidifangliangeguiyingdoumeiyou，
zhiyouwozijihezijichaojia。“shaolejiuzhenmeile，yunchi。”yigeshengyinzainaozilixiangqi，xiangshiwoma，
youxiangshiwozijixinlineifenmengbidetouying。“bushao，liuzheguonianma？jitadang‘qingganqizha’dezuizheng？
”woyinianlicuileyikou，suiranshayecuibuchulai，chunshujingshenshenglifa。“qidongjiuqidong，
dabulecongtouzailai……ruguohaiyou‘tou’dehua。”*nitijiaodejiyiyuetong，xitongyueaini。
*neibinglengdexitongtishiyinyoutamayinhunbusandizainaozilixunhuanbofang，gengeliezhidaihuozhuboside。xinga，
aiwoshiba？laozijintianrangniaigegou，aidaosi！
wobishangyan——suiranzaizheiguidifangbibubiyangenbenmeiqubie——kaishifengkuangchouqujiyi。diyiduan，
jiushihunli。tachuanzheneishenwotiaodebaiqunzi，xiaodexiangzhitoudaoletangdexiaohuli，yanjingliangjingjingde。
woshoudoudexiangpajinsenwanqi，haoburongyicaibajiezhitaozaitashouzhishang。“jiangxueci，woyuanyiyusheng，
huannibuzaimengjianneichanghuo。”shao！lansedehuomiaochengyixiacuanqilai，tengdewoyinianlideyadoukuaiyaosuile。
zheinashishaojiyi，zheifenmingshizaishaowodehuner！dierduan，shishiyanshi。woguizaidishang，