jingzisuiliedeshengyinhaihuidangzaierbian，woheshenduyijingzhanzaiyishanxindemenhou。
zheilixiangyijianbeifeiqilehenjiudexiufushi，kongqilimimanzhehuichenhejiaoshuihunhedeguaiwei。
yizhangjudadegongzuotaishang，zaluandibaifangzheposuidecipian、tunsedelaozhaopianhegezhongjiaobushangmingzidegongju。
wodemuguangbeiqiangshangdeyizhangdongxixiyinle。
neishiyizhangbeitudinggudingdefanhuangjianbao，biaotiyongjiacudeheitizixiezhe：“zhimingbianjuchenmozhuiloushenwang，jingfangchubupaichutashakeneng。”
chenmo。zheigemingzixiangyibacuiledudebingzhui，henhencijinwodexinzang。
woxiayishidihoutuiyibu，quezhuangdaoleshenhoudegongzuotai。
taijiao，yibenbeishaodezhishengjiyederijibencanhaixia，yazhelingyizhangzhi。
wozhandouzhechouchulai，neishangmianshijixingcongmangxiexiadeziji，moshuiyinweijinghuangeryunkai：“wotingjianloushangchuanlaijiliededadousheng，meiduojiu，jiukandaoyigechuanzheheisefengyidenvrencongloutishangchongxialai……tashoulisisizuanzheyidiegaozhi，xiangshijubendeyuangao。”
heisefengyi……woquanshendexueyeshunjianninggule。
neishiwozuichangchuandekuanshi，yijulizhijinhaiguazheyijian。
yigekepadeniantouxiangtengmanyiyangchanzhuwodedanao。
我真的杀了他吗？
wopinminghuiyi，naohailiquezhiyouhetajiliezhengchaodesuipian，hetazuihouneishuangchongmanshiwangheyuanhendeyanjing。
可之后呢？
之后发生了什么？
shiwozaikuijiuhejiujingdemabixia，zhudongyiwanglezuiguanjiandebufen，haishi……yourenzaiwohunluandejiyilidongleshoujiao？
jiuzaiwokuaiyaobeizheijudadekonghuangtunshishi，shendudeshengyinjiangwolalehuilai。
tabuzhidaoshenmeshihouyijingdaishangleyifubaishoutao，zhengwanyaojiangzhuoshangdesuicipianyiyijianqi，xiaoxinyiyidizaigongzuotaidekongchupinhe。
tadedongzuochenwenershulian，neizhongzhuanyedu，juebuxiangyigelinshiqiyideyouxiwanjia。
“ni……”wosangzigandefateng，“nizenmehuizuozheige？”
tatouyebutai，yuqipingdandexiangzaishuojintiandetianqi：“zhiyexiguan。”
职业习惯？
yigexinliyishenghuiyouwenwuxiufudezhiyexiguan？
wosisidingzhetadeshou，tazhengjiangyikuaikuaisuipianyansihefengdipinjiechengyigegupodecipan。
kewominruidifaxian，tashizhongkongzhecipanzuizhongxindeyikuaicanque，neilibengaishishaozhizhedeluokuanqianming。
他在刻意回避什么。
woxinniandianzhuan，chentabubei，yibalakaitafangzaidishangdegongjubao。
baolimeiyoushoushudaohetingzhenqi，zhiyouyiduizhuanyedexiufugongju。
erzaigongjudejiacengli，yizhangfahuangdejiuzhaopianherantangzaineili。
zhaopianshang，lianggeyiqifengfadenianqingrenbingjianzhanzaiyizuogumiaoqian，qizhongyige，shibixianzainianqingxuduodeshendu。
erlingyige……shichenmo。
zhaopianbeimianyouyixingjuanxiudetizi：“tongmenxiufushixi，erlingyiwu”。
woxiangbeileipizhongyiyang，juzhezhaopianchongdaotamianqian，shengyinyinzhenjingerniuqu：“nidaodishishei？！”
shenduzhongyutingxialeshouzhongdedongzuo，tataiqitou，muguangpingjingdikanzhewo，zhongyusixialeweizhuang：“woshichenmodeshixiong。tasiqianyizhou，jiwojilaiyigejiamibaoguo，limianzhiyouyijuhua：‘ruguowochushi，batajiaojiyigenengzhenzhengkandongjubenderen’。wohaimeilaidejilianxishangta，jiukandaoletazhuiloudexinwen。”
我的大脑一片空白。
chenmocongweiduiwotiqiguotahaiyouzheimeyiweishixiong。
suoyi，shenducongyikaishichuxianzaiwodezhensuo，jiubushishenmeqiaohe。
tadaizhemingquedemude，yibubujiangwoyindaozheili。
jiuzaizheishi，fangjianlibinglengdejixieyinzaicixiangqi：“disanguan，jiyixiufu。qingzaishiwufenzhongneixiufucipan，fouze，shenjingduqijiangchongmanzhenggefangjian。”
wokanxiangneigecanquedecipan，fanguoqizhongzuidadeyikuaisuipian，beimiankezheyixingweiwanchengdejubenjieju：“dangzhuchirenchengweiwanjia，danghuangyanbeipinhuiyuanmao……zhenxiangjichukou。”
我瞬间明白了。
zheibujinjinshixiufuyigecipan，gengshixiufuyiduanbeiyanmaidejiyi。
woqiangpozijibishangyan，huidaoneigefengyujiaojiadeyewan。
wohechenmozaitajiali，yinweijubenshumingquandewenti，baofaleyoushiyilaizuijiliedezhengzhi。
wojidewoshuaimenerchu，dan……men，zhendeshiwoguanshangdema？
womingmingjide，wochongxialoushi，huitoukanleyiyanshierloudechuanghu，tajiadechuanglianbeifengchuidefengkuangwudong。
keneishiyidongquanfengbichuanghudegongyulou，shierlou，nalilaidefengnengchuidongneicengdechuanglian？
“nibuxuyaowolaipinwanta。”shendudeshengyinzaierbianxiangqi，tajiangzuihouyikuai，yejiushizhongxinneikuaidaiyouqianmingdecipiandidaowomianqian，“nixuyaojueding，yaobuyaoxiangxinzijideshou。”
wozhandouzhejieguoneikuaibinglengdecipian，xiangshibeicuimianleyiyang，jiangtaqianrulezuihoudekongque。
“咔哒。”
瓷盘完整了。
panmianshangchengxianchudetuan，genbenbushishenmeshanshuihuaniao，ershiyigechumujingxindejianying——yishuangshou，congbeihou，jiangyigerenyingmengdituichulechuangwai。
erneizhituirendeshoushang，herandaizheyimeiwocongbulishendeyinsehutoujiezhi。
“bu……”wohunshendeliqibeichougan，shuangtuiyiruanguidaozaidi，leishuijuedierxia，“shiwo……wozhende……tuileta？”
shenduhuanhuanzaiwomianqiandunxia，shengyindichendexiangdidichuanlaidehuixiang，yiziyijudizaojinwodeermo：“kenizhidaoma？chenmodeshijianbaogaoxianshi，zaitazhuilouzhiqian，lugujiuyijingzaoshoulezhimingzhongji。linke，nituitadeshihou，tayijing……sile。”
整个世界瞬间静止。
wotanzuozaibinglengdedibanshang，danaoyipiankongbai，zhiyoushoushangneimeiyinsedehutoujiezhi，zaixiufushicanbaidedengguangxia，fanzheyizhenyouyizhenyinlengdehanguang。