第3章何以为家
yibasanpingkongchengzaiwodetoushang，daduanlewodesixu。
erjiejiezijilinshilebangeshenzi，zhengtiwoxiangshufangneideqinbeizhiqiuqing。
“jiangjun，zheiyupashiyaoxiayizhengtian，xiaochiguranyoucuo，ninjiudangkeliantayixiangshenzibuhao，yihouzaifaba。”
qinbeizhiditoufuan，zhimorandedaleyiju，“nihuiqu。”
erjiejiehewoyiyangzhidaoqinbeizhidepiqi，tamingbaizijimeiyouzhuanyuandenengli，wotoutouchelechetadeyixiu，chengqiyigeqingsongdexiaoshiyitabuyaodanxin。
danshiwoqishikanbuqingtadelian，yanqianxiangmengshangleyicengshuiwu。
wozaizheipianshuiwuzhongnulidezhayan，zhongyukandaojintouyipianqihei，jinjiezheshitianxuandizhuandexuanyunzhigan，wofangfobeichouganleliqi，zaiyezhichibuzhu，daolexiaqu。
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我做了个梦。
mengdaojinrujiangjunfuqianfashengdeshiqing。
wochushengzaiyihupinkunongjia，liusuideshihou，tingshuoqiangbeideguojunzhongyubumanzuyujishinianlaizaitongshuishangdeyazha，paishichensonglaiyizhizhanshu，yaoqiuhunnanguogerangshierzuochengchi，womendeguojunningsibuqu，yushizailianggeguojiadejiaojiechu，zhanhuoyichujifa。
zheiyizhan，liangguodouyoubusibuxiudeniantou，dadegewaijilie，manzhang。
womendeshilisuiruoyuqiangbei，dancengjingshoudaodezhongzhongquruyuyapochudifandan，shangzhiguojunzhongchen，xiazhibaixingguanbing，quandoutizheyikouqi，banbuyebukentuirang。
jingniandezhanzhengbeihou，zongshaobuleyunyunzhongshengfuzhongqianxing，chixudaliangdezhengbingshouliang，daozhiliangnianhouminjiankaishitudihuangxian，shibuguofu。
zheigeshihou，niangqinshengxialetahediedieqipanduoniandedidi。
erwoziranshiconglaidoububeiqipandeneiyige。
womeidunfanchideyuelaiyueshao，kedidihaishimeiliudaozhousui。
diediekaishixujiu，yongbenjiubuchongyudeliangshihuanrifuyiridemingdingdazui，niangqinququanta，tajiuyongjinwuyanhuiyudamaniangqin，ranhoushimawo，dawo，zuihouzhongyuduiniangqinyedongqishoulai。
niangqinbuganfankang，tazhinengbasuoyoudecuodoutuidaowodeshenshang。
wobudongshi，suoyimeizhaoguhaodidimeiliuzhuta。
woshigenvhai，suoyidiediecaiduitaburucongqian。
qishizailiusuiqian，diediesuiranxianqiwoshigeyatoupianzijianglaiwuyong，ketaoueryehuidaiwoqujishishangwan，jiwomaitangchi，guoshengrideshihouhaihuicheliangpi**yansedesuihuabu，rangniangqinjiwozuoxinqunzi。
danshizicongzhanzhengkaishihou，wozaiyechuanbudaoxinyifule，tangmeile，liangshimeile，didiyemeile，yiqiedoubianle。
yingyangbuliang，edemianhuangjishou，manshenqingzi，xinshangfujiuhen。
xiaoxiaodewoditouzhanzaiyiwangwujidehuangwutianyeshang，shouzuwucuo，wobuzhidaogaizenmezuocainengrangganhedenitulizhangchumaisui，daihuijiajidiediehuanjiuhe。
taiqitou，niangqindebazhangyouluoxialai，diedieyechaoqimugun，henhendedengzhewo。
wodunzaiyuandi，wuzhuzhiji，haotaodaku。
keluozaiwolianshangdehaoxiangbushihuoshaohuoliaobandetengtong，ershiwennuanganzaodeshouzhang，qingroushuhuandefumo，yaoyuanquejiandingdeshengyin，zaiyibianyibianhuhuanwodemingzi。
“chichibuku，chichibupa，wodainihuijia......”
wojingkongwanfen，pinmingyaozhetou。
“wobuxianghuijia，wobuyaohuijia！”
haozaifumozhewodeneizhishou，likedapolemenglisuiyueyukongjiandebilei，yongliwozhulewodeshou。
“chichibiepa，neilibushijia，jiangjunfucaishinidejia......”
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一梦天荒。
zhengkaiyan，toudingshixitunsedefenbaichuangzhang，youyigushuxidezaojiaoxiangwei。
zheilishiwoguoquzhudexiaowofang。
wozheiyijueshuidehuntianheidi，mengyezuodezhiliposui，zhengzhazhecongchuangshangzuoqishen，kandaochuangwaiminghuanghuangderitou，dagaiyijingshidiertianshangwule。
qianyuanliyuanyuanchuanlaiyinyuededushusheng，fanchendewofangjianliananjingjingde，jiandandejichuchenshehaihesannianqianyimoyiyang，shenmedoumeishao，daoshichuangbiandedishangtianleyituanluanqibazaodexieyin，woguangzhejiaoshenguoqubiyibi，zhaowodejiaodaleyibanhaiduo。
“nibiexialai，haohaotangzhe！”
erjiejiedazhepanbo，toufabianchengyigeqiguaixingzhuangdedatuanzi，duanlegetuopanzoujinlai，tuopanshangyiwanshenhesedeyao，yiwanyingbaideqingzhou。
wozhenshiejile，duanqizhouyikouqihelegeganjing。
erjiejiekuxiaobude，bayaowanfangzaizhuoshang，zuodaowochuangbian。
“guoyihuierzijibayaohele，wanshangjiangjunjixiaowuqinglelangzhonglaizhuayao，niyaoshiyoushenmebushufu，yeranglangzhongshunbianjinikankan。”
“xiaowuhaishibuhaoma？”
“taneidaxiaodemaobing，conglaijiumeihaolisuoguo。”
wochangranshishen，nannandehuanleju，“erjiejie......”
tatiwolongzheerbianshuideluanpengpengdetoufa，yingleyisheng。
“nibuwenwozheisannianqulenali，weishenmelikaima？”
erjiejierengzhizhuanzhuzhehewodetoufazuodouzheng，youyoudedadao，“rujinzheishidao，nichuquneimejiu，nenghuozhehuilaiyishiwanxing，hekuhaiyaowenyuanyouni。”
woxindiyouxienanguo，shuobuchuhua。
erjiejietanlekouqi，“nidoubuzhidao，nigangbujiandeneijitian，jiangjundoukuaiyaofengle。”
“tayiweinipaochuquwanchuleshi，houlaijijingzhanzhuan，caiwendelurenshuokandaoniqudukoule，keshineiwandukouzoulexuduochuan，meiyisouchuanyouyouxuduotingkaodedifang，chuanjiaduiniyemeishenmeyinxiang，jiangjunzhinengyigedifangyigedifangdezhao。”
“buguohaihao，suirandanwulexieshijian，haishibanihaohaodizhaohuilaile，nigexiaobaiyanlang，zaiwaimianzheijinianchilebushaokuba。”
wobiziyisuan，pudaotahuailidaku。
erjiejieqingqingdepaizhewodebei，yuzhongxinzhang。
“wulunfashengshenme，yihoudoubuyaozaizheiyangrenxingle，jiangjundaini，hedaiwomenshibutongde，niduijiangjunyebingfeitongwomenyiyangshizuoxiongzhang，zheishiduonandedehaoshi，haihuluanzhetengshenme。”
wobatoumaizaierjiejiejianshang，neiliyeyouposhidanrangrenanxindezaojiaoxiangqi。
“niweishenmezongtitashuohua，nijiubupatashigehuairenma。”
woshengyinmenmende，erjiejiefanyingleyihuiercaitingmingbaiwoshuodehua。
taxiaowoshuihutule，jiangjunzenmehuishihuairen。
shia，qinbeizhineimehaoderen，zenmehuishihuairen。
怎么偏偏是坏人。
怎么偏偏我爱上他。
wodaodinengbunengshuofuziji，gezhewosuotonghendezhanzheng，hekenengshishoufangrendeduiqitawugushengmingdeshanghai，quzhengshizheifenqianluhuianbumingdeganqing。
haishishuo，shijubenbuhuiyinweiwohuozheqinbeizhihuozherenheyigedanbodegetiergaibian，wokeyizaizheiyanglianshengsidounengqingzhideshijianli，yunxuzijidesixinchengzhen。
wobingfeiweicengchangshiguo，danxianshiyijinggaosuwo，woyongyuandoumeiyoubanfahushizijidexin，tazaichunyanloudesannian，beiririyeyedesiniankukujiuchan，tengtongxiangyaochiren，queyerangwoqingxidetingdaoneigebuduanfanwenzijideshengyin。
wonandaobuganfangxiasuoyouguji，quzuncongbennengdexuanzetoushenyurongrushengmingdeaiyi，napaqianfangzhiyousiluyitiao，neipasihouxiashibacengdiyu？
我不敢吗？
我真的不敢吗？