woshiyile，laogongyanzhengbawochongchenglegongzhu。tahuiweiwobohaomeiyizhixia，jidewosuoyouxihao，
yelihuijiangwobingliangdeshuangjiaowuzaihuaili。tashisuoyourenyanzhongdeershisixiaohaolaogong，
kewoquezaitashenyechenshuishi，zaitakoudailimochuleyikebushuyuwodeya。zhidaowokanjianlewodexunrenqishi，
shangmiandelianxirenquebushita，wocaimingbai，zheifenlingrenzhixideai，bushimitang，shisuolian。youxiezhenxiang，
buruyongyuanbeiyiwang。01“niannian，hetang。”yanzhengduanzhewan，tangchiyijingdidaolewodezuibian。
tadecelianzaixiyangxiaxiandegewaiwenrou，bilianggaoting，yanlideshenqingxiangshiyaobawonibi。
woxiayishidiyipiantou，guntangdejitangsazailetadeshoubeishang，shunjianhongleyipian。“duibuqi，
wobushiguyide。”wohuangmangcheguozhijin，kezhijianhaimeipengdaota，tajiumengdisuohuileshou，kuaidexiangchudian。
kongqianjingleyimiao。tataiqitou，yanlideneidiantangshangdetongchushunjianbeigengnongdetengxiqudai：“shiwobuhao，
hedaonile。gangxingguolai，kendinghaibuxiguan。”tadeshengyindichenyoucixing，daizheanfurenxindeliliang。
kewodexinzangqueleiguyiyangkuangtiao。wobuxiguande，bushitaweiwohetang。ershitadechupeng。chehuo，shiyi。
zheishiwoxinglaihou，yanzhenggaosuwodequanbu。tashuotashiwodezhangfu，womenjiehunsannian，enaibuyi。
bingfanglibaimanleangguidebupinhexianhua，chuangtoujushangshiwomenqinmidehezhao，
zhaopianlidewoxiaodexianggebuanshishidehaizi。suoyourendoushuowojiajileaiqing，yanzhengaiwoaidaoleguzili。
kewodeshenti，quexiangyouzijideyishi，fengkuangdikangjuzhetadekaojin。“niannian，biepa。
”tazhongxinlaqiwodeshou，zheicidedongzuohenman，xiangshipajingraoyizhidanxiaodetuzi，
“yishengshuoniyouxieyingjifanying，shizhengchangde。dengnichuyuanhuijia，wendaoshuxideqixi，jiuhuimanmanxiangqilaile。
”tadezhangxinhennuan，kewoquejuedexiangbeibingkuaibaoguo。wokanzheta，nulixiangcongzheizhangyingjundelianshang，
zhaochuyidianshuyu“zhangfu”deshuxigan，dannaozilichuleyipiankongbai，jiushijianruidewengming。wanshang，
hushichawanfang，yanzhengquxishu。wotangzaichuangshang，fanlaifuqu，zenmeyeshuibuzhe。
shuyutadeneizhangpeihuchuangjiuzaibuyuanchu，shangmianyoutadailaidewaitao。neishiyijianheisedeyangrongdayi，
zhiganhenhao，lingkouchuqueyouyisijihukanbujiande，dandandekouhongyin。bushiwodeyanse。wochuangtoujudebaoli，
tangzheyizhizhannanse。woguishishenchadizuoleqilai，jiaojianzhandi，bingdewoyiduosuo。woguangzhejiao，xianggexiaotou，
yibubunuodaoneizhangchuangbian。xintiaokuaideyaoming。wobuzhidaozijizaizuoshenme，yebuzhidaoxiangzhaoshenme。huoxu，
wozhishixiangcongzheixieshuyutadewupinli，zhaodaoyidiannengrangwoanxinde，guanyu“women”dezhengju。
wobashoushenjinledayikoudai。binglengde，yingzhide，bushiyaochi，yebushidahuoji。wobataniezaizhijian，
jiezhechuangwaitoujinlaideyueguang，tankaishouxin。neishiyikeya。yikedaixuede，beirenconggenbushengshengqiaoduandejiuchi。
yiguliangyicongjiaodibanzhichongtianlinggai，wochadianjianjiaochusheng。yushideshuishengtingle。womengdibayazuanjinshouxin，
shandianbansuohuichuangshang，yongbeizibazijiguodeyanyanshishi，zhiluchuyishuangjingkongdeyanjing。
yanzhengcazhetoufazouchulai，tashenshangdeyupaosongsongkuakuadixizhe，luchuyipianjieshidexiongtang，
shangmianyoujidaoyijingjiejiadezhuahen，henxin。tajianwomeishui，zouguolai，xiguanxingdixiangmowodetou。“zenmele？
zuoemengle？”wokanzhetakaojin，wendaotashenshangneiguhewoyongdemuyuluyiyangdeqingxiang，
weiliqueyizhenfanjiangdaohai。wozuanjinleshoulideneikeya，luodewozhangxinshengteng。“mei……jiushitouhaiyoudianteng。
”wochuixiayan，buganrangtakanjianwoyanlidekongju。tatanlekouqi，zuozaiwochuangbian，
shengyinlimanshizize：“douguaiwo，neitianjiubugairangniyigerenkaichechumen。”tashuodeneimezhencheng，
neimeaohui。kewonaozili，quezhiyouyigeniantouzaifengkuangpanxuan。zheikeyashisheide？
tadayishangdekouhongyinshisheide？tashenshangdezhuahen，youshisheiliuxiade？wotangzaichuangshang，zhuangzuoshuizhe，
zhidaoshenbianchuanlaitajunyundehuxisheng。wocaiganqiaoqiaozhengkaiyan，lenghanyijingjinshilewodehoubei。wohuranjuede，
woshiqudekenengbuzhishijiyi。haiyouzhenxiang。02diertian，yanzhenggongsiyoujishi，yizaojiuzoule。linzouqian，
taqiandingningwanzhufu，rangwodengtahuilai，buyaoluanpao。neiwenroudeyuqi，
tingqilaigengxiangshiyizhongburongzhihuidejinggao。taqianjiaogangzou，wohoujiaojiucongchuangshangdanleqilai。
neikeyabeiwoyongzhijinbaozhe，zangzaizhentoudixia，xiangyikedingshizhadan。wobixugaoqingchu，
zheidaodishizenmehuishi。shiyi，rangwoxiangyigegangchushengdeyinger，duizheigeshijieyiwusuozhi。
yanzhengjiushiwoweiyidefumu，kexianzai，zheigenfumushangpamanledushe。wobuganbaojing，womeiyourenhezhengju，
shenzhilianwozijishisheidoushuobuqingchu。zaibierenyanli，wozhishigezaichehuohouhusiluanxiangdebingren。
wodakaichuangtoujudebao，xiangzhaozhaoyoumeiyoushenmexiansuo。baoshixiangnaierde，limiandongxihenqiquan，
shouji、qianbao、kouhong、qidian……yiqiedoufuheyigebeijingxinjiaoyangdefutaitaixingxiang。shoujiyoumima，
shiwodeshengri，yanzhenggaosuwode。wojiekaisuo，pingmuliangqi，bizhishiwoheyanzhengzaihaibiandehezhao，
woxiaodecanlan，taditouwenwodecelian，suiyuejinghao。kewodingzheneizhangxiaolian，zhijuedemosheng。wodiankaixiangce，
limianquanshiwomendeenairichang。congxueshandaohaidao，congzhuguangwancandaorichangxiangyong，
meiyizhangzhaopiandouzaisushuozhewomendexingfu。kekandeyueduo，woxinlidehanyijiuyuezhong。taiwanmeile。
wanmeidexiangyigejingxindajiandewutaiju。meiyizhangzhaopian，wodexiaorong，wodejiaodu，
douxiangshijingguolejingmidejisuan。wozhandouzheshou，diankaiweixin。zhidingdeshiyanzheng，liaotianjilutiandefani。
wangxiafan，daduoshixiewoburenshide，mingziqianmiandoujialeadeweishang。wodeshejiaoquan，ganjingdekepa。
meiyouguimi，meiyoupengyou，shenzhimeiyoujiarendelianxifangshi。yanzhengshuo，wofumuzaowang，shigeguer。
shitajilewoyigejia。duomeganrendeshuoci。woguandiaoweixin，shouzhizaipingmushanghuluanhuadong，
wuyijiandiankaileyigeyinzangdewenjianjia。limianzhiyouyigeapp，tubiaoshizhilansedehudie，jiao“dieyu”。
wocongmeijianguozheigeapp。wodianlejinqu，jiemianhenjianjie，xianggerijiruanjian。zuixindeyipianriji，
riqishiwochuchehuodeqianyitian。wodianlejinqu，zhiyouduanduanyijuhua。“tafengle。wobixutao。
”xinzangxiangshibeiyizhiwuxingdeshouzuanjin，wojihuwufahuxi。jinjiezhe，dierpianrijidanlechulai，
xiangshitiqianshezhihaodedingshifasong。“ruguonikandaolezheitiaoxinxi，shuomingwoyijing‘shiyi’le。
buyaoxiangxinyanzhengshuoderenheyijuhua，tashimogui。quxxlu221haodechuwuju，mimashinidejiri。
huoxiaqu。”wodejiri？wonaozhonghongdeyisheng，hunshendexueyedouchongdaoletouding。zheibushiriji，
zheishi……zheishiwozijiliujizijidejiumingxiansuo！womengdicongchuangshangzhanqilai，
judadekongjuhexuanyunrangwochadianshuaidao。wofuzheqiang，dakoudakoudichuanzheqi。yanzhengshuodechehuo，
genbenbushiyiwai。taxiangrangwo“shiyi”，rangwobianchengyigezhishuyutade，wanquankekongdewawa。
wobixuquneigechuwuju，wobixuzhidaozhenxiang。wohuanshangyifu，nashangbao，jihushichongchulebingfang。
yiyuanzoulanglimimanzhexiaodushuideweidao，heyanzhengshenshangdeweidaoyimoyiyang，wendewozhenzhenzuoou。
wobuganzuodianti，wopayudaota。woconganquantongdao，yikouqipaoxialebalou。paodaoyiyuanmenkou，
yangguangcidewozhengbukaiyan。wolanleliangchuzuche，baochuleneigedizhi。“shifu，mafankuaiyidian。
”wodeshengyindouzaifadou。sijiconghoushijinglikanlewoyiyan：“guniang，niliansezenmezheimebai？
shibushibushufu？”woyaoyaotou，balianmaijinshouzhangli。wobushibushufu，woshihaipa。
wopawojijiangkandaodezhenxiang，huibishiyibenshengengcanku。
xxlu221haoshiyijia24xiaoshizizhuchuwuzhongxin。wozhaodaoleneigechuwuju，
jumenshangbinglengdejinshuzhigan，rangwodezhijiandouzaifaliang。mimashi……wodejiri。kewodejirishinatian？
wokanzhemimasuo，naoziliyipianhunluan。huran，woxiangqileneipianriji。“mimashinidejiri。
”zheishiyigeshuangguan。tabushizhiwodeshengri，ershizhi……wo“siqu”deneiyitian。wochuchehuodeneitian！
wozhandouzheshou，zaimimasuoshanganxialeneichuanshuzi。“kada”yisheng，jumendankaile。
limianzhiyouyigeniupizhidai，henhou。woshenshouquna，zhijianquepengdaoleyigebinglengjianyingdedongxi。
shiyigexiaoxiaodeluyinbi。wobataheniupizhidaiyiqinalechulai，xinzangkuangtiao。
wopobujidaididakaileniupizhidai。limianbushixin，yebushizhaopian。ershiyitahouhoude……bingli。
zuishangmianyizhang，shiwodemingzi——chinian。zhenduanjieguoneiyilan，qingqingchuchudixiezhesangezi：zhongduyiyuzheng。
erxiamian，haiyouyifendnajiandingbaogao。wo，heyanzheng，meiyourenhexueyuanguanxi。
kejiandingyangbenlaiyuanneiyilan，quexiezhe：xiongmeiguanxijianding。xiongmei？wonazheneifenbaogao，
shoudoudexiangqiufenglideluoye。suoyi，yanzhengyizhizaipianwo。womenbushifuqi。neiwomen……daodishishei？
woanxialeluyinbidebofangjian。yizhenzizidedianliushenghou，yigeshaya、jingkongdenvshengxiangleqilai，
那是我自己的声音。
yijingsile……tashidingtiwogegeshenfendemogui……tajiaozhouke……tashalewoquanjia……”luyindaozheili，
jiaranerzhi。wozhanzaichuwujuqian，ruzhuibingku。zhouke……zheigemoshengdemingzi，quexiangyibayaochi，
shunjiandakailewojiyidezhamen。wushuxuexing、posuidehuamianyongruwodenaohai。dahuo，jianjiao，
daozaixuebolidefumu，haiyouyigeshaonian，tashoulinazhedao，daojianhaizaidixue。tazhuanguotou，
duiwoluchuleyigeguiyideweixiao。neizhanglian，heyanzheng，yimoyiyang。“a——！”wojianjiaoyisheng，
shoulidedongxisanluoyidi。yuanlai，woshiqudebushijiyi。ershiwoderensheng。wobushiyanzhengdeqizichinian，
woshi……woshizhoukemiemenanli，weiyidexingcunzhe。erta，xianzaishiwode“zhangfu”。
03wobuzhidaozijishizenmehuidaobingfangde。shoujiaobingliang，linghunxiangbeichoulileshenti，zhishengxiayijukongqiao。
bingli、dnabaogao、luyinbi，beiwosisidisaizaibaoli，neilizangzhewobeitouzouderensheng。wojiaoxuanan，
bujiaochinian。zhouke，neigexianzaijiaoyanzhengdenanren，shiwojiadeyangzi。tabiwodawusui，chenmoguayan，
xiangyitanshenbujiandidehushui。fumuchuyutongqingshouyangleta，duitashirujichu，shenzhibiduiwohaiyaohao。
kezheifenshanyi，queyangchuleyitiaodushe。wojiqilaile。neitianwanshang，jialiranqiledahuo。wobeinongyanqiangxing，
kanjianzhoukenazheyibashuiguodao，zhanzaiwofumudewoshimenkou，shenshangzhanmanlexue。takanjianwo，meiyoujinghuang，
fanerduiwoxiao。tashuo：“anan，yihou，jiuzhiyouwomenlianggerenle。”neishiwozuihouyicijiandao“zhouke”。
houlai，dahuopumie，jingchazaifeixulizhaodaolesanjushaojiaodeshiti。
suoyourendouyiweiwomenyijiasikoudousizailehuozaili。sheinengxiangdao，zhoukedaizhewohuolexialai，
bingqieyong“yanzheng”zheigexinshenfen，bawoqiujinzailetashenbian。tajiwobianzaoleyigexindemingzi，
yiduanxinderensheng。tachenglewodezhangfu，rifuyiridijiwoguanshuwomenyouduomexiangai。
zhiyuneifenzhongduyiyuzhengdezhenduanshu……womingbaile。chehuoqiandewo，kenengyijingchajuedaoleshenme。
wodefankanghehuaiyi，zaitayanli，douchengle“bing”。tayongyaowuhexinlianshi，yidiandiancuihuiwodeyizhi，
rangwoxiangxinzijibingle，zhinengyilaita。erzheicide“chehuo”，kongpashitazuihoudeshouduan。
tayaorangwochediwangjiguoqu，chengweitawanmeide“qizi”chinian。duomekepa，duomeedudejihua。
wozuozaibingchuangshang，hunshenfadou。xianzai，wojiqileyiqie，danwogaizenmeban？baojing？
wozenmezhengmingtashizhouke？dangniandeanzizaoyidingxingweiyiwaihuozai。woyige“siren”，
turantiaochulaizhirenyigeshiyeyouchengdeqiyejiashisharenfan？sheihuixin？tamenzhihuijuede，
woshiyigejingshenshichangdefengzi。zhouke，bu，yanzheng……tataicongmingle。tabayiqiedousuanjidetianyiwufeng。
“zhiya——”bingfangdemenbeituikaile。wohedeyigejiling，shoulideshuibei“kuangdang”yishengdiaozaidishang，
shuaidefensui。yanzhengtizheyigebaowentong，zhanzaimenkou。takanzhedishangdesuipian，youkanlekanwoshabaidelian，
meitouweiweicuqi。“zenmele？yijingyizhade。”tazouguolai，henzirandidunxiashen，
kaishishoushidishangdebolisuipian。tadeshouzhixiuzhang，gujiefenming，dongzuoyouyaercongrong。jiushizheishuangshou，
cengjingwozhedao，zhanmanlewofumudexianxue。wokanzhetadebeiying，weiliyizhenfanyong，jihuyaotuchulai。
“kenengshi……meixiuxihao。”woqiazhezijidezhangxin，qiangpozijilengjingxialai。xianzai，wobunenghuang。
zaitamianqian，woyiranshineigedanchun、yilaitade“chinian”。tashoushihaosuipian，
babaowentongfangzaizhuoshang：“jinidunlenizuixihuandegezitang，chenrehe。”tadakaigaizi，
xiangqishunjianmimanlezhenggebingfang。wokanzheneiwannongbaidetang，zhijuedeyizhenexin。wozuixihuande？bu，
zheibushiwoxihuande。zheishitawei“chinian”zheigerenshe，shedingdexihao。wozhenzhengdexihao，tagenbenbuzhidao。
huoxu，tayebuzaihu。“zenmebuhe？”tabatangtuidaowomianqian，yanshenlidaizheyisitanjiu。
“wo……woxianzaimeiweikou。”wojichuyigebikuhainankandexiao，“nigongsibumangma？
buyongyizhipeizhewode。”woxiangzhikaita。woxuyaoshijian，xuyaokongjian，qusikaoxiayibugaizenmezou。
tashenshendikanlewoyiyan，neiyanshenxiangxguang，sihuyaochuantouwodepinang，kanjinwodelinghunshenchu。
“gongsideshinayounizhongyao。”tahuranxiaole，shenshoumolemowodetoufa，“niannian，nijintianyoudianqiguai。
”wodexinshunjiantidaolesangziyan。“you……youma？”“ng。”tadiandiantou，zhilezhiwodejiao，
“nijintianchumenle。”woditouyikan，caifaxianzijicongmanghuilai，wanglehuanxie。jiaoshangchuande，
bushibingfanglidetuoxie，ershiyishuangbaisedeyundongxie，xiedihaizhanzheyidianwaimiandenitu。wodexue，
shunjianlianglebanjie。“wo……wojiushijuedemen，zailouxiahuayuanzoulezou。”woqiangzuozhendingdijieshi。“shima？
”talazhangleyudiao，naqizhuoshangdeyigepingguo，yongshuiguodaomanmandixuezhepi，“kewogangcaiwenguohushile，
tamenshuo，yizhenggexiawudoumeikanjianni。”daorenhuaguoguopi，fachu“shasha”deshengxiang，xiangdushezaituxin。
wokanzhetashoulidedao，huxidoutingzhile。neibadao，hewojiyili，tashasiwofumudeneiba，
jihuyimoyiyang。taxuehaopingguo，qiechengyixiaokuaiyixiaokuai，yongyaqianzhaqiyikuai，didaowozuibian。“niannian，
gaosuwo，niqunale？”tadeyuqiyiranwenrou，keyanshenquelengdexiangbing。wozhidao，taqileyixin。
woshule。zaitadishuibuloudezhangkongxia，worenheyidianyichang，douzuyirangwowanjiebufu。
04wodanaofeisuyunzhuan，jihushibennengdi，yankuangyihong，leishuijiudiaolexialai。
“wo……woqulewomendiyiciyuehuideneigegongyuan。”wogengyanzhe，shengyinlidaizheweiquhebuan，
“wojiushixiang……xiangzhaohuiyidianjiyi。nishibushishengqile？duibuqi，wobugailuanpaode。”woyibianshuo，
yibianxiaoxinyiyidiguanchazhetadebiaoqing。shiruo，shitazuixihuankandaode。guoran，tingdaowodehua，
talianshangdebinglengshunjianronghuale。tarengdiaoshoulidedao，bawoyongjinhuaili，lidaodadejihuyaoniesuiwodegutou。
“shagua，wozenmehuishengnideqi。”tazaiwoerbiantanxi，“wozhishidanxinni。nishentihaimeihao，
yigerenchuqu，wanyizaichushizenmeban？”tadexiongtanghenwennuan，shenshangyoudandandeyancaowei。
ke**zaitahuaili，zhijuedexiangbeiyitiaojumangchanzhu，hunshenjiangying，dongdanbude。
“wocuole……”wobalianmaizaitaxiongkou，shengyinmenmende，yanleiqueliudegengxiongle。yibanshiyanxi，
yibanshizhendekongju。taqingqingpaizhewodebei，xiangzaianfuyigeshoujingdehaizi。“haole，bukule。
xiangqunali，yihouwopeini。nixiangjiqishenme，wodougaosuni。”tadeshengyinwenroudenengdichushuilai，
“zhiyaoniguaiguaide，daizaiwoshenbian。”zuihouneijuhua，tashuodehenqing，quexiangyibazhongchui，
henhendizazaiwodexinshang。guaiguaide，daizaitashenbian。zheicaishitadezuizhongmude。wotuikaita，calecayanlei，
jieguotadilaidepingguo，xiaokouxiaokoudichizhe。tiannidezhishuizaikouqianglimanyan，woquechangdaoleyisixuexingwei。
“yanzheng，”wotaiqitou，nulirangzijideyanshenkanqilaiqingcheyouyilai，“nihuibuhuijuedewohenfan？
wangdiaoleyiqie，haiyaonizheimexinkudizhaoguwo。”“shuoshenmeshahua。”tagualeyixiawodebizi，
dongzuoqinni，“zhaoguni，shiwozheibeizizuixingfudeshi。”wokanzhetashenqingdeshuangyan，huranjuede，
zhoukehuoxushigetianshengdeyanyuan。ruguobushineixiexuelinlindejiyi，
wokongpazhendehuichennizaitabianzhidezheichangshenqinghuanmengli。wanshang，tameiyouzaishuipeihuchuang，
ershijiekoushuodishangliang，jishanglewodebingchuang。busuankuanchangdedanrenchuang，yinweilingyigerendejiaru，
xiandegewaiyongji。tacongbeihoubaozhewo，guntangdehuxipenzaiwodehoujing，jiqiwoyishendejipigeda。
“niannian，womenhaojiumeiyouzheiyangle。”tadeshoukaishibuguijuqilai，gezhebobodebinghaofu，
zaiwoshenshangyouzou。wohedehunshenyijiang，xueyedouninggule。
“bie……woshenshanghaiyoushang……”wozhandouzhezhaojiekou。tadedongzuotingzhule。heianzhong，
wonengganjuedaotaluozaiwoshenshangdeshixian，xiangshizhiyiyang，guntangyouweixian。guolehenjiu，tacai“ng”leyisheng，
fanlegeshen，beiduizhewo。woxuanzhedexin，zhongyufangxialeyiban。kewozhidao，zheizhishizanshide。
dengwo“shanghaole”，dengwochuyuanle，wohainengyongshenmeliyoulaijujueta？wocheyeweimian。
shenbiandenanrenhuxijunyun，sihuyijingshuishu。woqiaoqiaodizhuanguotou，jiezheyueguang，miaomozhetadelunkuo。
zheizhanglian，cengjingshiwotongnianemengdegenyuan。kerujin，woqueyaoririyeyeduizheta，
banyanyigeshenaitadeqizi。wodaodigaizenmeban？tao？wonengtaodaonaliqu？woshenwufenwen，jumuwuqin。
zhiyaowotachuzheijiayiyuan，zhoukejiunengqingyidibawozhuahuilai。daoshihou，tabuhuizaizheime“wenrou”le。
baojing？jiuxiangwozhiqianxiangde，meiyouzhengju，yiqiedoushitulao。wohuranxiangqilechuwujulideneizhiluyinbi。
“tajiaozhouke……tashalewoquanjia……”zheishiwozijideshengyin，shiwozuihoudeqiujiu。
huoxu……huoxuwokeyixiangbanfa，rangtaqinkouchengrenzijidezuixing。yigefengkuangdeniantou，
zaiwonaohailizhujianchengxing。woyaorangta，qinkoushuochu“zhouke”zheilianggezi。woyaoluxialai。
zheishiwoweiyide，nenggoujiangtasongjindiyudejihui。05jihuadediyibu，shirangtafangsongjingti。
diertianyizao，woxinglaideshihou，yanzhengyijingbuzaile。chuangtoujushangliuzhetamaihaodezaocan，
haiyazheyizhangzhitiao。“gongsilinshiyouhui，wanshanghuilaipeini。guai。”zijihetaderenyiyang，ganjingliluo，