第二章痛苦
gangzoujinbieshuyingruyanliandejiushiyigejudadeshuijingdiaodeng，cuicanduomu，jiangyijianjianzhanshizhongdehunshachentuodegengjiayaoyan、yiyishenghui。
taqianzhewodeshougangjinlai，jiuyouyigeshejishilianmangyinglechulai，“luoshao，zheijiushifuren？yetaimeile。”
taqianzhewoyijianjianhunshakanguoqu，woquemeiyouxinqingqukan、quxuan。
luochuanyushejishijiukuanshizhankaijiliedetaolun，woquemeiyouxinsicanyutaolun，renyoufuzhuangzhulinazhepichijiwoliangchicun。
woduizheimanbieshudehunshalifudoubuganxingqu，woganxingqudefanershizheibieshudehouhuayuan，neilihuatuanjincu，haiyougexiaochitang，gengxiangshiyigeduliderenjianxianjing。
ergengrangwoganxingqudeshihuayuanzhonghaiyouyigehoumen，haoxiangmenhoujiushiwodewuxianxiwangyumengxiang。
fangfowoyaoshidakaileneigemen，menhoujiushiwoyizhiqipanyouxiangwangdeziyoudeshijie，yigemeiyouluochuanyutongkuzhemodetiantang。
qishiwowushucixiangguotaoliluochuandeshenbian，kedangwoxiangtaopaodeshihouquebuzhidaoyinggaitaodaonaliqu，jiulianwomadouzongquanwobuyaotaizuole，cuoguolezheimehaodeluochuan，yihoujiuyubudaole。
zheigeshihouwocaizongjuede，shijiezheimeda，woquebuzhidaonalicaishiwodejia，woshenbianmeiyigerendouwubixiwangwonengyuluochuanjiehun，wojiuzheiyangjingjingdezuozaichitangbian，buzhidaozaisikaoshenme。
zhidaoluochuanzoudaolewodeshenbian，tafushizhekanzhewo，“luoluo，zaixiangshenmeni？yilianbukaixindeyangzi。”
luochuanzaiwodeyinxiangliyizhidoushizheiyangdegaogaozaishang、bukeyishidemoyang，woyebuzhidaoweishenmetahuikanshangwo。
woweiqubabadebayixiulashangqu，luchuguangjiebaixidegebo，kebaixiguanghuadegeboshangqueyouyouyigeyuanyuandehongyinzi，waimianhaituqiyiquanchouloudebahen。
wokelianbabadekanzheluochuan，“nikana，luochuan,zheiyanghaizenmechuanhunshaa？”
luochuanzhigougoudekanzhewo，yanshenliyongchuyiguyiweishenzhang，banshanghou，tadunzaiwomianqian。
jiusuanwozaibuxihuanta，yebudebuchengren，luochuandeliandequekanchengwanmei，jiufangfoneizuifushengmingdediaokeshishouxiazuiwanmeideyishupinyiban，rangrenrenbuzhuxiangnisizaitaneiwenrouyoushenqingdeyanmouzhizhong。
yaobuzenmexifangdeshenhuagushizhongemodouyouzhejunmeidelianpang，jingyongyixieguanhuiguhuorendeshouduan。
wobuzhidaotadaodixiangzuoxieshenme，yebuzhidaotaweishenmeyaozheiyangzuo，duiwoshiyishixingqihaishixiangchongwuyibangaoxingjiudounongjixia，bugaoxingjiurengzaiyipang。
wochuixiayanmoubuxiangkanluochuan，yanguangximie，xuelinlindeyanbagewaidererenzhumu，luochuanshenshoujiangwoshenshendeloujinhuaili，jiwoyizhongganjue，tahaoxianghenzaihuwo。
wobujinneixinlengxiao，xiangtazheizhongemozenmekenenghuizaihupangrenni？yidingshitajintiantaiguoyuwenroulejiwozaochenglezheibuqieshijidehuanjuebale。
“luoluo，ruguo…ruguowokeyibangnifendannidetongkujiuhaole，womenyexujiubuhui…”
luochuandehuayurangwobujinlengxiao，yueguangsazaiboguanglinlindechitangshang，wobielebiezui，yanjingyouxiehong，“luochuan，ruguobushini，wozenmekenengyoutongku？mingmingzheixietongkujiushinidaijiwode，nixianzaiquezheimeshuo…”
luochuandeshenziyijiang，wenroudeyidiandianmozhewodetoufa，“dui，doushiwodecuo，neiwomanmanxiangnishuzuihaobuhao？”
wochenmozhemeiyoushuohua，sheihuixiangxinyigeemoturanshuoyaoshuzuidehuani？sheizhidaoshibushixindeyaodounongwodeshouduanyuwanfani？