zaixinglaishi,bijianshicibidexiaodushuiwei,haiyouxindiantufachudedisheng,
wonengganjuedaozijishenshangchamandadaxiaoxiaodeguanzi,
我大限将至。
“linvshi,aixibaoyijingkuosanzhiquanshen,baoqian...”
jiejiezhiqiandezhuzhiyishengdeshuohuashengzaiwoshenpangxiangqi,
“qingwenninhaiyoujiarenma?xuyaowobangnintongzhitamenlaiyiyuanma?ninzaiqushiqianyinggaihaiyouweijiaodaideshi。”
家人?
不,
我没有家人了。
congjiangyanbeichenjiajiakunzhudeneiyikeqi,
congbengainenghuoxialaidejiejiequshihou,wobianzaiyemeiyoujiarenle,
kewoxinzhongqueshiyipianjietuozhiyi,
meiguanxi,woyekuaisile,wohenkuaijiubuzaishigushenyirenle。
woyongzuihouyisiliqizuoqishen,
kanxiangyishengdefangxiang:“qingwenwojiejiedeshitini?”
“anzhaoninzhiqianhewojiaodaide,yijinghuohuale,guhuihejiufangzaichuangtoupangbian。”
woshenchushoushitanmozhechuangtou,modaoleneigehaiyouyisiwenredehezi,
“linvshi,nin...”
womeizaiguanyishengweinanyoujiansedeyiwen,
chediaoshenshangsuoyouaishideguanzi,baozheguhuihe,yibuyibumanmanlikaiyiyuan,
woyuelaiyuewuli,hunshenfazhedou,
kewohaishiqiangchengzhezuihouyisiliqipingjiejiyimosuozhezoudaolemuyuan,
zheishiyichulaomuyuan,yijingwurenzaiguanlile,
kebamademuhaimeiyouqianchuqu。
womodaoneigeshuxidemubeihou,baozheguhuihetuolidezuoxialai,
xuezaicicongwokouzhongyichu,kewoxinxiayipianmanzu,
qianshidejiangyanbuyuankanzhechenjiajiasizaiwurenjiaoluo,
ketayinggaiyemeisuandao,jintianwoyehuisizaiwurendemuyuan。
shuolaihaidexiexiechenjiajia,ruguobushita,
woyebuhuineimerongyihejiangyanlilehun,
nengzaisiqianhetaduandiaoyiqieguanxi,yesuanshihaoshile。
kouzhongyichudexueyuelaiyueduo,
我躺在墓前笑了笑,
jiejieshuodedui,zhiyaoyouchenjiajiazai,jiangyanbianyongyuanbushiwodeliangpei,
kewobuting,daotoulaiyinweijiangyanhaisilejiejie,
buguomeiguanxi,wokuaiheyijiarentuanjule。
yanqianhuanhuanshengqiyituanbaiwu,shimingdeshuangyanhuranzaizheiyikekanqinglesuoyoudongxi,
wokanjianlejiejie,kanjianlebama,
tamenwenroudichongwoxiaozhe,chaowoshenchushou,
erbianshitamenshuxiyourouhedexiaosheng:
“anhe,anhe,womenhuijiala!”
回家,
我终于到家了。
lianhesizailechunfenqiandelaomuyuanzhong,liuyefeixia,tingzailianhedaixiaoyibizheyandelianshang。
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jiangyanxinglaihou,toutongyulie,
tazhichengzhezuoqishen,quepiejianchenjiajiahuangluandixiangshizaizangshenmedongxiban,
“zenmele?”jiangyanwendao,
“mei!meishenme!”chenjiajiayanzhongyimoduoshanfeishunjishi。
jiangyantingdunleyixia,“wozenmeturanshuizhele?”
chenjiajiakuaisuzhuandongleyixiayanzhu,“xiaoshu,niganggangyinggaishihezuile,xianzaihaiyounalibushufudema?”
jiangyanzhoulezhoumei,tabenxiangzailikaizhiqianhekoushuide,
quemeixiangdaobeizhongdeshijiu,gengmeixiangdaozheijiudehoujingzheimeda...
离开之前...
等等!
jiangyanxinmengdichenxiaqu,tanaqishoujiyikan,jingranyijingdaolediertian!
遭了!
lianhedejiejiehaizaiyiyuandengzhejiuming!
jiangyanhuangluandiqishenchuanhaoyifunaqizhuangyouzhipiaodebaozhunbeichumen,
kedianshilituranbobaodexinwenrangtayileng,
【jingbeidonglulaomuyuanfaxianyijushiti,siyinbuming,xiangqingzhengzaidiaochazhong】
weishenme,weishenmeneijushitikanqilaineimexiang...
jinjiezhe,dianhuaxiangqi,taxiayishijietong,dianhualichuanlaiyidaobinglengdeshengyin:
“ninhao,womenshijingcha,qingwenshilianhenvshidejiashuma?”
“lianhedeshitijinzaoyujingbeidonglulaomuyuanbeifaxian,nengqingnimenguolailejieyixiaqingkuangma?”
lianhede...shiti?
江衍呆呆愣在原地。