第五章 不要自欺欺人

“她怎么了?”

mishuhuangmanghuida,“mei,meizenme,wozheilidedaodexiaoxizhishifurenyundaole,buguohenkuaijiuxingguolaile……”

“ranhouni?”qinjinyanzijidoumeichajuedao,tazaiwenzheihuadeshihou,sangyindaodiyouduojicu。

“ranhou……ranhou,diertianwozaizhaorenguoquchadeshihou,furenjiu,jiubujianle……”mishujianqinjinyandeshenseyuelaiyueleng,jihudouzhesangyinshuozhe,“danshiwozheiliyizhizaizhaorencha……furenconglikaiyiyuanhou,yemeiyouhuiguobishuihaoting,wo……”

tazenmehuibuzhidaotameihuiquguo?

congtanadaoneibenlihunzhengzhihou,tajiuchedidecongtadeshijielixiaoshile。

qishitazijiyizhixiangbumingbai,taweishenmeyaoquzhaota,xiangyaozhidaotadexiaoxi。

“jixucha。”qinjinyanlengchendao,“haiyou,yiyuanneibianzixichacha,tadaodishizenmeyihuishi。”

buguantaxiangyaowanshenmeshouduan,yebuguantashibushiyouzaiwanshenmeyuqinguzong,tazhishixiangyaozhidao,ta……xianzaidaodizainali,buxiangrangtazheimebumingbubaidejiulikaileeryi……

qinjinyanlihunledexiaoxishikuaijiubeineiqunpengyouzhidaole。

zheiwunianli,qinjinyandoushizenmeguode,tamentailejiebuguole,zhishilihunhoudeqinjinyanhetamenxiangxiangzhongdexiangchataidale。

yinweizicongqinjinyanlihunhou,tabiandeyufadechenmoguayanqilai,shenzhiyigerenzuozaiyicehaizongshifadai,yanshenpiaohudelihai。

chenmobokanleyiyanzuozaiyiceyizhihemenjiudehaoyou,taduanzhejiubeizuoleguoqu,wenta,“woshuo,nizheishizenmeyihuishiera?”

qinjinyanfangxiashoulidejiubei,shensedanmo,“shenmezenmeyihuishi?”

chenmoboqieleyisheng,“zenmeyihuishinizijibuzhidao?ruguoniyaoshizhendexihuandehua,neimenijiubarenzhongxinzhuihuilaia,nishuonitiantianzheimehemenjiu,jiaoshenmeshier?”

qinjinyanchixiaochusheng,“nijuede,woxihuanjianzhishu?”

chenmobosongjian,tagangcaikeshishenmemingzidoumeiti,zheihuakeshitazijishuochulaide。

“buhuide,zheibeizi,wodoubukenengxihuanneigenvren!neigenvrenshouduan……”

“bieshuozheixiehualaiziqiqirenle,tadangchudeshouduansuiranshiyouxierangrenkanbushang,keshijinyan,nizijimenxinziwenyixia,ruguoyaoshimeiyoudangniandeneiyichudehua,nihuibuhuixihuanshangta?”

qinjinyanminchun,meishuohua。

yejiuzaichenmoboyiweiqinjinyanbuhuizaikaikoudeshihou,tatingdaotashuo,“buhui。”

“wuluntazenmeyang,woqinjinyandoubuhuiaishangneigemeixindenvren。”

“ni……”chenmobobuzhidaoshibushijianzhishuzuolebiedeshenmetabuzhidaodeshiqing,yezhihaozuoba,buzaiduoshuo,“nibuhouhuijiuxing。”

“houhui?”houhuihejianzhishulihun?bu,buhuide。

taqinjinyanzheibeizimeizuoguohouhuideshiqing,ziran,hejianzhishulihun,tayeconglaimeihouhui。

xinkoudedusairangtayufafanzao。

tadaoleyibeijiu,jiuzaichenmobocuoedeshensexia,yikouguanru。

jianzhishuneiyangdenvren,diulebiandiule,taqinjinyanbuhouhui,buhuihouhui!

suoyi,tachedidezaitashijielixiaoshilezuihao。

zheiyang,tayebuyongzaifanxinle,yebuyongzaiweiruheduotaergezhongzhaoliyoule,tashihentade,meicuo,tahenta,henneige……nvren!