第一章
laogonghebaiyueguangshuangshuangchehuoqushi。
jiwoliuxiayiduisishengzi。
一晃十八年过去。
wofeixinjielijiangsishengzifuyangzhangda，gengshisongtamenkaoshangqinghua。
ketamenkaoshangqinghuaneitian。
qushiduoniandelaogonghebaiyueguangquehuilaile。
baiyueguangbaozhelaogongxiaoyiyingying。
“duokuinidexixinzaipei，cairangwodeyiduierzikaoshangqinghua。”
“meiyouni，womenlianghaibunengzaiwaimianxiaoyaokuaihuoneijiu......”
houlailaogongtichulihunyaoqubaiyueguang，yijiasikouzhongxintuanju。
而我不哭不闹。
zhishiguaneryixiao：“haoa！”
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“ma！ma！kaoshangle！kaoshangle！！”
wozhengzaizhunbeiwanfan，jiutingdaolianggeerzizaishufanglidashengdehan。
“ma！wohehegegedoukaoshangqinghuale！”
lianggeerzicongshufangpaochulai，mengdebaozhuwo。
woxinweidekanzhebiwogaochuyitoudeerzi。
“nimenlianggezhenbang，shimamadejiaoao。”
老公去世多年。
zuoweidanqinmama，woduzizhaogulianggehaizishibanian。
rujinkandaotamenkaoshangyiliudaxue，wobietiduogaoxingle。
dangnianwodelaogonghetadebaiyueguangjiangyingshuangshuangqushi，jiwoliuxiayiduishuangshengzi。
wobugusuoyourenfandui，zhiyijianglaogonghejiangyingdesishengziliuxialaiyang。
yihuangshibanian，lianggehaizizhuanyanjiuzhangdale。
haizaiwofeixinjielidepeiyuxia，kaoshangleqinghua。
rujinlianggehaizibeiwopeiyuchengcai，wobietiyougaoxingle。
“ma，zheimeduonianduokuinixinkuyangyuwomen......”
“shiama，meiniduiwomendexixinjiaodao，nayouxianzaidewomen......”
lianggeerziyixiangxiaoshun，xintengwoduitamenzheimeduoniandexinkupeiyu，jiangzhedengtamenbiyeyihouzhaodaohaogongzuoyidingrangwoyiyangtiannian。
kanzhetamendexiaoxin，woxianglexiang，guoliangtianshitamendeshengri。
lianggehaiziyiqiandeshengri，wodoushizaijiudiandingbaoxiang。
zheiciburulianshengxueyanyiqiban，zhenghaorenaorenao。
wozaishilizuihaodefandiandingleyigeyanhuiting。
yucitongshi，wojianglianggehaizikaoshangqinghuadeshifadaolejiazuqun。
xiaoxiyifachuquhou，qunlishunjian99+
“songlinghesongchenhaizhenshizhengqi......”
“yaoshiqifengzhidaotalianggeerzizheimeyouchuxi，quanxiayouzhiyidinghuimingmude。”
wosaoleyiyanqunlidexiaoxi，suijibianjiangyanhuitingdediweifadaolequnli。
zuowanzheiyiqiehou，woguanbileshoujixiaoxi。
jingjingdengdaishengriyandedaolai......