yishihuilongdeshunjian，wozhengbeijudadeshenglanghecimudebaiguangyanmei。
“……ganxiewoshiqudeairen，linchen。”
yidaowenrouyoubeishangdenvsheng，touguomaikefeng，qingxidiciruwodeermo。womengdizhengkaiyan，faxianzijizhengzhanzaiyigebanjiangdianlidehoutaitongdao，shenshangchuanzhebuheshendezhulixizhuang。
zhengqianfangdejuxingpingmushang，xiayanranyixibaiseyuweiqun，meidexiangyueguangxiadeshennv。tashoupengjinfengjiangbei，leiguangyingying，zhengfabiaozhetadeyinghouganyan。
“meiyouta，jiumeiyoujintiandewo。tabatadexinjilewo，rangwonengjixuzhanzaizheilihuxi、ganshouzheigeshijie。linchen，nizaitianshangkandaolema？wozuodaole……”
taixiazhangshengleidong，wushushanguangdengjujiaozaitaneizhangxieman“shenqing”yu“aisi”delianshang。
wodedanaoyipiankongbai，suijibeiyiguhuangmiudaojizhidejutongsilie。
linchen。neishiwodemingzi。
santianqian，woganggangsizaileshoushutaishang，qinshouqianxialexinzangjuanzengxieyi，jiangwoweiyijiankangdexinzang，jilehuanyouyanzhongxinzangbingdeqizi——xiayanran。
我死了。
kewoxianzai，zhengyiyigemoshengzhulideshenfen，huozhe，kanzhewodeqizi，yongwodesiwang，weitadeyinghouzhilu，pushangzuihouyikuaijinguangshanshandedianjiaoshi。
“suzhe，fashenmedai！yanranjiemashangxialaile，xiangbinzhunbeihao！”yigejianruideshengyinzaiwoerbianxiangqi。
wodixiatou，kandaoxiongkouguazhedegongzuopaishangxiezhelianggezi：suzhe。
jiyidesuipianfengkuangyongru。zheigejiaosuzhedenianqingren，shixiayanranxinzhaodeshenghuozhuli，yinweizhangqiaoyeheyingyangbuliang，zaihoutaizhunbeishicusile。ranhou，wochengleta。
wozhongshengle。zhongshengzailewoqizidezhulishenshang。
pingmushang，xiayanranyijingjieshuleganyan，zhengyouyaditizhequnbaizouxiatai。suoyourendouchaotayongqu，xianshangzhuheyufengcheng。
只有一个男人例外。
tazuozaidiyipaizuizhongxindeweizhi，meiyouqishen，zhishiyongyizhongdaizheqiangliezhanyouyuheaiyidemuguang，laolaodisuozaixiayanranshenshang。neimuguang，wozaishuxibuguo。yinweiyinianqian，woyeshizheiyangkanzhetade。
nanrenjiaoguyanzhi，xiayanrankouzhongneige“ruxiongzhangyiban”deqingmeizhuma，yeshitaweiyide“baiyueguang”。
xiayanranchuanguorenqun，jingzhizoudaotamianqian。zaijingtoudesijiao，talianshangdebeishangshunjiantunqu，querdaizhideshiyizhongyayibuzhude、shenglizhedewumei。tachaotadilegeyanse，guyanzhizuijiaodexiaoyigengshenle。
wodexueye，cuncunbingleng。
woziyiweishidexisheng，woyiweinenghuanlaitayishianwendeshengming，yuanlai，congtoudaoweidouzhishiyigexiaohua。
wochengletadexunzhang，chengleta“shenqingrenshe”zuiwanmeidezhujiao。ertazhenzhengdeairen，zhengzuozaitaixia，xinshangzhetayongwodeminghuanlaidewushangrongguang。
huidaobaomucheshang，xiayanranlikeshuaidiaolejiaoshangshilimidegaogenxie，lianshangneifuchuchukeliandebeishangyexiaoshidewuyingwuzong。
“leisile。”takaozaiguyanzhidejianshang，shengyindaizheyisiyonglandesajiao，“yanzhi，wogangcaiyandezenmeyang？”
guyanzhichongnidinielenietadelian，shengyinwenroudenengdichushuilai：“wanmei。woganbaozheng，mingtiandetoutiaoquandoushi‘xinjinyinghoubuwangwangfu，hanleizhixie’。nizheige‘chiqingguafu’derenshe，suanshichedilizhule。”
“neihaibushinicehuadehao？”xiayanrangegedixiaoleqilai，shengyinqingcui，xiangfengling，yexiangcuiledudebingren，“jiushikexilelinchen，tadaosidouyiwei，woshizhendeaita。”
wozuozaijiashizuohoudegebanpang，hunshenjiangying，ruzhuibingku。
guyanzhinaqineizuochendiandiandejiangbei，fangzaixiayanranshouli。“biexiangtale，yigesireneryi。xianzai，niyouletadexinzang，youletadequanbuyichan，haiyoulesuoyourendoutongqingdewanmeirenshe。congjinyihou，zaiyemeirennengzuaiwomenle。”
“ng。”xiayanranbawanzhejiangbei，yanshenlishanshuozhetanlanerxingfendeguang，“weilezheiyitian，womenmouhualeneimejiu，zongsuan……zhidele。”
谋划？
zheilianggezi，xiangyidaojinglei，zaiwonaohaizhongzhaxiang。
wodesi，bushiyiwai？wodexinzangbing，bushitianshengde？
wokanzhehoushijinglineiduijinjinxiangyongdenannv，tamenzaiwoqinshouweixiayanrantiaoxuande、zuishushidebaomucheli，qingzhuzheyichangyongwodeshengminghuanlaideshengdashengli。
wofangzaixishangdeshuangshou，sisidizuanchenglequantou，zhijiashenshendixianjinzhangxin，zhidaoqiachuxuelai。
夏嫣然，顾言之。
wobaxinjileni，niqueyongtalaiaibieren，caizhewodeshigu，xiangshouronghua。
diyukongdangdang，moguizairenjian。
neime，congjintianqi，wosuzhe，jiushicongdiyupahuilai，xiangnimensuomingdeegui。
dingzhe“suzhe”zheigeshenfen，woshunlidijinrulexiayanrandesirenbieshu。
zheilideyiqie，doucengshiwoqinshoubuzhide。qiangshangguazhedechouxianghua，shiwozaipaimaihuishangweitapaixiade；huayuanlizhongzhedelanseyaoji，shiwozhuanmenconghelankongyunlaide；shenzhitajiaoshangneishuangrouruandeyangrongtuoxie，doushiwopaobianlequanchengcaizhaodaode、zuishihetajiaomadexiandingkuan。
rujin，woyiyigebeiweizhulideshenfen，zhanzaizheizuoxiemanwoaiyidefangzili，kanzhelingyigenanrentangerhuangzhidichenglezheilidezhuren。
guyanzhimeiyoulikai，tashenzhiyouzheilidezhiwenmima。
“suzhe，qudixiajiujiaokaiyiping82niandelafei。”xiayanranyonglanditangzaishafashang，fenfudao，yuqizirandefangfoshihuanyitiaogou。
wodixiatou，yanquyandideshayi，gongshundiyinglesheng：“haode，yanranjie。”
jiujiaodeyaochi，guazaixuanguandechuwujuli。wozouguoqu，dakaijumen，yiyanjiukandaoleyigeshuxidezongseyaoping，beisuiyididiuzaijiaoluo。
neishiwo“bingfa”qian，xiayanranmeitianqinshouweiwochide“huxinpian”。
tashuozheishituoleguowaideguanxicaimaidaodetexiaoyao，nenghuanjiewodexinji。woduicishenxinbuyi，meitiandouguaiguaichixia。
woqiaoqiaojiangyaopingzuanjinshouxin，ranhouqujiujiaonalejiu。
huidaoketing，xiayanranheguyanzhizhengpangruowurendiqinwen。womubuxieshidiweitamendaoshangjiu，ranhoutuidaoyipang，xianggeyinxingdepuren。
“weilewomendexinshenghuo，ganbei。”guyanzhijubei。
“yeweilelinchenneike……qiangzhuangdexinzang。”xiayanranmeiyanrusi，buchongleyiju。
liangrenxiangshierxiao，jiubeipengzhuang，fachuqingcuideshengxiang。
那声音，像丧钟。
shenye，wochentamenshushui，liujinleshufang。zheilicengshiwodejindi，xiayanranshuobuxihuanyanwei。kexianzai，shuzhuodeyanhuigangli，queduimanleshuyuguyanzhideyantou。
wodakaiwodejiudiannao，mimameibian，haishixiayanrandeshengri。
woxunsuqinruleshizhongxinyiyuandeneibuxitong。zuoweidingjichengxuyuan，zheidui“qianshi”dewolaishuoyirufanzhang。wodiaochule“linchen”desuoyouyiliaojilu。
xinzanggongnengshuaijie，bingyinbuming。zheishizuizhongdezhenduan。
yiqiekanqilaidoutianyiwufeng。
danwozhidao，wentijiuchuzaineiping“huxinpian”shang。
wojiangyaopingdezhaopianfajileyigezaiguowaizuoyaowuyanjiudepengyou，rangtabangmangfenxichengfen。
zuowanzheiyiqie，wotingdaolemenwaichuanlaixisuidejiaobusheng。wolikeqingchusuoyouhenji，huifulediannaozhuomian。
shixiayanran。tachuanzhezhensishuipao，zoulejinlai。
“suzhe？zheimewanlehaibushui，zaiganshenme？”takandaowo，youxiejingya。
“duibuqiyanranjie，wokandaoshufangdedengmeiguan，jiujinlaikankan。”wolikeqishen，dizhetou，yifuhuangkongdeyangzi。
xiayanranmeiyouhuaiyi，zhishizoudaoshuzhuoqian，sihuzaizhaoshenmedongxi。
“duile，”taxiangshihuranxiangqileshenme，zhuantouduiwoshuo，“nimingtianquyitangrenaiyiyuan，zhaoyigejiaoliuweideyisheng，bangwoquyifentijianbaogao。”
仁爱医院。刘伟。
wodetongkongmengdiyisuo。liuwei，zhengshiwo“qianshi”dezhuzhiyisheng。
“haode，yanranjie。”woyaxiaxintoudejulang，pingjingdihuida。
diertian，woanzhaofenfulaidaoyiyuan。zailiuweiyishengdebangongshiwai，womeiyoulikeqiaomen。wodakaileshoujideluyingongneng，qiaoqiaotiezailemenfengbian。
limianchuanlaileliuweiyadiledeshengyin，tasihuzaidadianhua。
“……guxianshengninfangxin，shiqingdouchulidehenganjing。linchendesi，zaiyixueshangzhaobudaorenhepozhan……dui，neizhongyaodechengfenfeichangteshu，daixiejikuai，shijiangenbenchabuchulai……”
“……weikuandeshi？ninkanshenmeshihoufangbian……haohaohao，womingbai，wojueduishoukouruping！xia**mashangjiushigutaitaile，woyihouhaiyaoyangzhangninerweini……”
bangongshili，shimoguizaidiyu。
bangongshiwai，wozhanzaiyuandi，hunshendexueyefangfodouninggule。
yuanlai，wodezhuzhiyisheng，neigemeitianduiwoxuhanwennuan、rangwojijipeihezhiliaodebaiyitianshi，yeshimoushawodexiongshouzhiyi。
tamenlianheqilai，yongzuizhuanyedeyixuezhishi，weiwobianzhileyizhangtongwangsiwangde、haowupozhandejuwang。
woshouqishouji，zhuanshenlikai。meiyouqunaneifensuoweide“tijianbaogao”。
zoudaoyiyuandezhanglangjintou，yangguangtouguobolichuangzhaojinlai，hennuan，danwoqueganjuebudaoyisiwendu。
**zaiqiangshang，huanhuandihuazuodaodishang。judadebeishanghefennu，xianghaixiaoyiyangjiangwoyanmei。wowuzhulian，jianbangbushoukongzhidijuliezhandou。
我不是在哭。
我是在笑。
xiaowolinchen，yanxiaxinmang，aishangleyigeshexiedufu。
xiaowolinchen，yinlangrushi，bamingjiaojilezuixiangrangwosideren。
liangjiu，wotaiqitou，caganlelianshangbuzhiheshiliuxiadeleishui。
yanshenzhong，zaiwuyisiruanruo。zhishengxia，chegudehanyiyufengkuangdeshaji。
xiayanran，guyanzhi，liuwei。
nimendeshenpanri，daole。