第4章
04
zaixinglaihou，wofaxianzijizaipeixuexingdeyichufangchanzhong。
bujushuxidexiangshishijinianqian，wozaipeijiadefangjian。
keshichulewozhiwai，quezaiyemeiyoubieren。
wozhidaoshizijizuocuoleshiqing，yebuganzaisheqiutaiduo。
qishenchumenquleyiyuan，zuolerenliushoushu。
dangwocongshoushushibeituichulaideshihou，xieyanzhouyegandaole。
xieyanzhouzhanzaiwodechuangbian，yexushiyinweiyangguangtaiciyan，wohuanghujianjuranyiweixieyanzhoudeyankuanghongle。
「linbaozhu，niweishenmeyaobawomendehaizidadiao？」
我闭上了眼。
要怎么讲呢？
jiangwotingjianlenihesuyunniandeduihua，zhidaowojiusuanbahaizishengxialai，haizidejieju，yeshiyigesizima？
zuihouwozhishiyashengshuo：「yinweiwobuainile。」
xieyanzhouninanzhongfu：「nibuaiwole？」
tahaixiangshuoshenme，bingfangmenbeituikaile。
suyunnianzoulejinlai，yankuanghonghongde，xieyanzhoudezhuyililimajiubeizhuanyile。
「yunnian，nizenmele？」
suyunniankanlewoyiyan，weiqudao：「nihaihuiguanxinwoma？」
「wohaiyiweinixianzaizhuyilidouzailinbaozhushenshangni。」
xieyanzhoulimafouren：「zenmehuini。」
taxiangshihewozhiqi，yexiangshitanluzhenxin：「wohelinbaozhubuguoshiwanwaneryi。」
「tayishenshichouwei，nalizhidewoxihuan？」
xieyanzhoushuofulezijiside：「nizhidaode，woyikaishijiuzhixihuanni。」
suyunniandeyidekanlewoyiyan，baxieyanzhoulachulebingfang。
我漠然看着。
zhidaodisantian，xieyanzhouturanjiwodadianhua，shuoyouyijushitixuyaowodefenghe。
是一个女人的尸体。
woduanranjujue：「xieyanzhou，nijiranbuaiwo，jiuliwoyuanyidian。」
dianhuaneitoudexieyanzhoudeshengyinduolejifenrouhe，jiuxiangshitaneitianfengchenpupudezhanzaiwomianqian，zhuanzhushenqingdekanzhewo：「baozhu，biepa，yihouwobaohuni。」
我不由心软了几分。
xieyanzhouyoushuo：「wozhidaoshiworangnishangxinle，duibuqibaozhu。」
「danshinibushiyizhixiangyaozhaodaonimamadexialuoma？」
「zheijushitidefengheduiwoheyunnianhenzhongyao，nibangwofengheqilai，wojiugaosunimamadexialuohaobuhao？」
wodunshijidongdecongbingchuangshangxialai，buguhaizailiuxuedexiashen，cangbaizhelian，gandaolewohexieyanzhoucengjingdejia。
zhishifangjianli，zhiyouxieyanzhouhesuyunnian。
suyunniankanjianwo，yuqiyouxiebunai：「langfeishenmeshijian？」
tashengyinbudabuxiaodedunangzhe，ganghaogouwotingjian：「dengxiazhibojianderendouzouguangle，doubuzhidaofengleduoshaoshitile，zaizheiernaqiao。」
wogubushangfanbota，naqigongjujiukaishifengheshiti。
xieyanzhouquenaixinanfuzhe：「queshishilinbaozhudecuo，dengxiaworangtahenidaoqian。」
suyunnianzheicaimanyi：「jiushima，dataibuguojiushigexiaoshoushu，wokanneixienvdedawantaidangtiandounengqulijimudi，jiulinbaozhuhuizhuang。」
fengshitaishangdeshitishiconggaokongzhuiluode，kanbuqingmianrong，**zaiwaidepifushangmimimamadequanshishanghen，rangrenyikan，jiuzhidaoshengqianzaoshoulefeirendedaiyu。
wangxiajixufenghe，wocaifaxian，sizhedezigongbeirentaokongle。
wodouzheshoushuoleyiju：「haocan。」
wobuzhidaodeshi，zaiwoshuowanzheiyijuzhihou，quanqiuzhibojianjinlailewushuguanzhong，wushuchaoxiaokanhaoxidedanmuzaizhibojiangundong。
suyunnianyanshenligengshimanshijidong，manshiduizijimashangyaochengweizhimingzongyidaoyandexiangwang。
takanhaoxisidewenwo：「linbaozhu，nikeyaohaohaofenga，biefuyan，bijing...」
houbanjusuyunnianmeishuochulai，woyemeitingjian，ershizhuanxinzhizhidefengheshiti。
wozhongyufenghehaole，qidaidekanzhexieyanzhou：「womamani？」
xieyanzhouchenmozhekanwo，chichibushuohua。
woyouxiezhejidepuguoquzhuatadeyifu：「womamani？！」
xieyanzhouduokai，bunaideshuodao：「nidadiaowohaizideshihoubushihenjueqingma？xianzaiyouzhuangshenmedaxiaonvni。」
suyunniandeyuqiyedaizhebiyi：「tiantianlishenmexiaonvrenshe，jieguonineigesirenmajiutangzainimianqian，nifanerrenbuchulaile。」
suyunniankanzhewoyuelaiyuecanbaidelianse，lianshangdexiaoyihuanhuankuoda，tazuozhezhangzhangzhijiadeshouzhilezhifengshitaishangdeneijushiti：「nimamaa，bujiuzainaerma？」
wozhanzaiyuandi，ruzaoleiji。
cangbaizhelian，huanhuanniuguotouqu。
kandaomamadeyishunjian，woxiangdaolezijiganggangkandaodewushushangkou，wodieluozaidi，judadetongkuhejuewangrangwoshishengle。
wozhangdalezui，wushengdejianjiao。
bianhanzhemamabianwangfengshitaipaqu。
xieyanzhouwudongyuzhongdezhanzaiyuandi，zhuantouchongnidewensuyunnian：「niannian，xianzaijiemudeshoushilvzenmeyangle？」
「gouniruweizuijiazongyidaoyanjianglema？」
suyunnianyanlimanshiyangmu：「xiexieni，yanzhougege，niduiwozhenhao。」
lingyibiandewo，beiyishuangxiuzhangyoulideshoufuzhule。