第三章 最大的安慰

第三章最大的安慰

bushiwobugouaizhangyu,yebushiwoshoubulebeizhangyudailelvmaozi,ershizhangyudezhongzhongzuoweirangwoyouxienanshou。

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buguozaidajieshangwobuxianghezhangyufanlian,gengbuxiangdangzhongtichufenshou,wozhishiqingzhangyuquchileyidunfan。

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woshuoneigenanrenjiranruciyoubenshi,weishenmehaihuirangnishouweiquni?talianzijidelaopodougaobudingba?

zhangyuzhongyugaosulewoshihua,yuanlaineinanrenyeshiyigechiruanfandenanren,nanrendelaoposhiyigenvfuhao,yongyouzheyijiashangshigongsi。

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tingdaozhangyumiaohuineizhongmeihaodeqingjing,wozhanzaiyipanghenshilengjing,dengdaozhangyushuowanlezhihou,wocaiqingpiaopiaodewenleyiju。

“那我呢?”

wodezheijuhua,zhijiebazhangyujiwendelengzhule,tadaidaidekanzhewo,yijuhuadoushuobuchulai。

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daxuesinian,nijiwomaiguoyicihuazhuangpinlema?niqingwoqulvyoudujialema?nizhidaorencanbaoyushishenmeweidaoma?

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ganxinshoukuderenquedebudaozunzhong,erneixieyongyuzhuiqiuxingfuderenzuihoudouxingfule,suoyiwobuganxin,liujiangwoqiuqiuni,ninengbunengfangwoyitiaoshenglu,nengbunengbangbangwo。

wojialihenqiong,wobuxiangyibeizidoubeirenkanbuqi,yebuxiangyibeizidouguokurizi。

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jiranduoqingliubuzhu,neijiuburufangleta,wohuifangzhangyuxuejieyitiaoshenglu,yehuirangtaguoshangzijixiangyaoderizi,zhishiwoduineigechuguinanyouxiebuxiangxin,wohuaiyitagenbenjiushiweileqipianzhangyuxuejiede。

xuejienixiangguomeiyou?wolazhezhangyukanzhetadeyanjing,renzhendexunwen。

erzhangyuzeshichenjinzaiwodayingzuojiepannandexiyuezhizhong,huitouwenwoshenmeyisi?

woshuomeiyoubiedeyisi,wojiushihuaiyineigeruanfannandaodihuibuhuiquni,huaiyitanengbunengnadaogongsidegufen?

ruguonadaolegufenzhihou,tahuibuhuiquzhaogengnianqinggengpiaoliangdenvren?

dangwoshuochuzheixiehuadeshihou,woqingxidecongzhangyuxuejiedeyanzhongkandaoleyisijinghuangshicuo,henmingxian,woshuodehuahenyoushashangli,zhangyuxuejieduiyuneigeruanfannanyeshixinxinbuzu。

liujiangnibuyaowenzheimeduohaobuhao?wowulunweilaigenshei,wodouhuixuanzeyigejiatingtiaojianyouwuzhiyouyuede。

jiusuanruanfannanbuyaowo,wohainenggouzhaobieren,erwohenizaiyiqigenbenbukeneng,nijiayetaiqiongle,wojiayetaiqiongle,womenlianggerenlianheqilaineijiuzhinengqiongyibeizile。

tingdaozhangyuxuejiezheimeshuo,wochedideshiwangle,wozhidaowozheiyibeizidoubukenengliuzhutadexinle。

woshiyigepiqihenjuederen,conglaibuhuixiangnvrendishengxiaqidequaiqiu,jiranzhangyuxuejieyaozou,neimewojiufangtaziyou。

jitianzhihou,jihuquanxuexiaodouzhidaowobazhangyuxuejiededuzigaodale。

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woduiyuwaimiandefengyanfengyuconglaibuhuiying,jibuquerenyebujujue,wozhishichenmozhe。

yongbuleduojiu,wodouhuilikaizheisuoxuexiaole,quyigemeiyourenrenshiwodedifanggongzuo。

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wobenyiweizheicixiaoxichuanchulai,fengkaiyidinghuihenhenwo,kendinghuiyigeyuebuliwo,nazhidaofengkaijingranmeishenmefanying,diertianhaijiwodailefan。

wohenjingya,lazhefengkaituixinzhifudewennibuhenwoa,fengkaishuowoweishenmehenni,zhangyuxuejieyijingchenglenidenvren,xianzaihaihuailenidehaizi,nihaohaoduita,jiushiduiwozuidadeanwei。

fengkaidezheifanhuarangwoganjueyanjiaoyouxieshirun,yuanlaiwohefengkaizhijiandeyouqingconglaidouzai。

woshuoxiongdi,wozhiqiancuoguainile,yuanlainiyizhidouhenzhenshiwomenzhijiandeyouqing。

woshuoniyewanglezhangyuxuejieba,jianglaizhaoyigegenghaodenvhai,yinidezhangxianghenengli,daoleshehuishangweibijiuhuihundehencha,zaijiashangnijialitiaojianbucuo。