第三章最大的安慰
bushiwobugouaizhangyu,yebushiwoshoubulebeizhangyudailelvmaozi,ershizhangyudezhongzhongzuoweirangwoyouxienanshou。
yaozhidaozaizheizhiqian,zhangyuhewoyizhidoushibicishenai,woyegenbenmeiyouchajuedaozhangyuzaoyijingtoutoubeipanle,woruguobushihuaiyunle,zhangyugenbenbukenenghewotanpaide,erhuilaihewotanpaideyuanyinjingranshirangwojiepan。
buguozaidajieshangwobuxianghezhangyufanlian,gengbuxiangdangzhongtichufenshou,wozhishiqingzhangyuquchileyidunfan。
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zaibinguandefangjianli,zhangyubaozhewo,lianshangzhongxindaishanglexiaorong,tapazaiwodehuailigaosuwo,zhiyaowobazheijianshiqingkangxialaile,dengdaobiyezhihoutajiuhuirangtadeqingrenjiwoanpaiyigegongzuozhijieyuexinguowan。
woshuoneigenanrenjiranruciyoubenshi,weishenmehaihuirangnishouweiquni?talianzijidelaopodougaobudingba?
zhangyuzhongyugaosulewoshihua,yuanlaineinanrenyeshiyigechiruanfandenanren,nanrendelaoposhiyigenvfuhao,yongyouzheyijiashangshigongsi。
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erqiedangtayidannadaoleshangshigongsidegufenzhihou,jiuhuihaobuyouyudehenvfuhaolihun,congcihezhangyushenghuozaiyiqi。
tingdaozhangyumiaohuineizhongmeihaodeqingjing,wozhanzaiyipanghenshilengjing,dengdaozhangyushuowanlezhihou,wocaiqingpiaopiaodewenleyiju。
“那我呢?”
wodezheijuhua,zhijiebazhangyujiwendelengzhule,tadaidaidekanzhewo,yijuhuadoushuobuchulai。
zhangyudeweilaiguihualiconglaidoumeiyouwo,tazheicihuilaiqiuwo,zhibuguoshiweilerangwobeiguoeryi。
zaiwoyanliwenrourushuidezhangyuxuejie,turanjianjiunule,tabianleyifulianseyongshouzhizhewodebizidashengshuoliujiangwogenzheninengyoushenmechuxi,ninengjiwoxiangyaodeshenghuoma?
daxuesinian,nijiwomaiguoyicihuazhuangpinlema?niqingwoqulvyoudujialema?nizhidaorencanbaoyushishenmeweidaoma?
zheixienidoubuzhidaoba,liujiang,shuoshihuawocengjingtingxihuannide,danshiheneixieyouzhidenanrenyibi,nishenmedoubushi,nibieguaiwotaixianshi,zheigeshijiejiushizheiyang,zhizuijinmi。
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wojialihenqiong,wobuxiangyibeizidoubeirenkanbuqi,yebuxiangyibeizidouguokurizi。
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xuejienixiangguomeiyou?wolazhezhangyukanzhetadeyanjing,renzhendexunwen。
erzhangyuzeshichenjinzaiwodayingzuojiepannandexiyuezhizhong,huitouwenwoshenmeyisi?
woshuomeiyoubiedeyisi,wojiushihuaiyineigeruanfannandaodihuibuhuiquni,huaiyitanengbunengnadaogongsidegufen?
ruguonadaolegufenzhihou,tahuibuhuiquzhaogengnianqinggengpiaoliangdenvren?
dangwoshuochuzheixiehuadeshihou,woqingxidecongzhangyuxuejiedeyanzhongkandaoleyisijinghuangshicuo,henmingxian,woshuodehuahenyoushashangli,zhangyuxuejieduiyuneigeruanfannanyeshixinxinbuzu。
liujiangnibuyaowenzheimeduohaobuhao?wowulunweilaigenshei,wodouhuixuanzeyigejiatingtiaojianyouwuzhiyouyuede。
jiusuanruanfannanbuyaowo,wohainenggouzhaobieren,erwohenizaiyiqigenbenbukeneng,nijiayetaiqiongle,wojiayetaiqiongle,womenlianggerenlianheqilaineijiuzhinengqiongyibeizile。
tingdaozhangyuxuejiezheimeshuo,wochedideshiwangle,wozhidaowozheiyibeizidoubukenengliuzhutadexinle。
woshiyigepiqihenjuederen,conglaibuhuixiangnvrendishengxiaqidequaiqiu,jiranzhangyuxuejieyaozou,neimewojiufangtaziyou。
jitianzhihou,jihuquanxuexiaodouzhidaowobazhangyuxuejiededuzigaodale。
zhangyuxuejieneikeshicengjingdefengyunrenwu,shixuexiaodexiaohua,shiwushunanrenxinzhongdemeng,ercishizaichuanyanzhong,taquebeiwochedizhengfule,huaishangwodehaizi,erqiejijiangfengzichenghun。
woduiyuwaimiandefengyanfengyuconglaibuhuiying,jibuquerenyebujujue,wozhishichenmozhe。
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guanyuzhangyuxuejiedeyiqiedouhuibeifengcunzaiwodejiyili,erwodeweilaijianghuiyikaowodeshuangshoudapin,wojueduibuhuiquzouwailuxielu。
wobenyiweizheicixiaoxichuanchulai,fengkaiyidinghuihenhenwo,kendinghuiyigeyuebuliwo,nazhidaofengkaijingranmeishenmefanying,diertianhaijiwodailefan。
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fengkaidezheifanhuarangwoganjueyanjiaoyouxieshirun,yuanlaiwohefengkaizhijiandeyouqingconglaidouzai。
woshuoxiongdi,wozhiqiancuoguainile,yuanlainiyizhidouhenzhenshiwomenzhijiandeyouqing。
woshuoniyewanglezhangyuxuejieba,jianglaizhaoyigegenghaodenvhai,yinidezhangxianghenengli,daoleshehuishangweibijiuhuihundehencha,zaijiashangnijialitiaojianbucuo。