第二章我比谁都想死
wozhensha，zhende，wodanzhidaoxiaoyanshaqizhengdaohoubuchuyizhuxiangjiunengshiyi，wojiuyinggaipayeyaopadaotakanbujiandedifangdengsi。
xianzaiwoxiongqianbaodexiangdelerouliuside，shengwukeliantangzaichuangshang，chuangbianshangshixiaoyandedieniang，lianshangguamanlekuijiu。
「xiaoxi，shentiruhe？」xiaomukanwoxinglai，zhuazhuwodeshoudanxindao。
「我怎么还没死？」
kongqiyouyishunjiandejijing，xiaofuxiaomulianshangchuxianleleisiguiliedebiaoqing，yibuxiaoxinjiushuochulezhenxinhuale。
woganmanghuiguoshen，zhuangzuorouruodeyangzi，qiqiaiaidewuzhezui：
「fuqin，muqin，wozheishizenmele？」
zhuanglongzuoyashiwozheisancibeishaqizhengdaodejuece，xushiduifangyeyoukuijiu，meimeizheimeshuoyezhishirangduifangduiwogengjialianxi，zhizibutiwodaodishizenmebeishangde。
wohudixiangqizaitashisuishengchenyiweixianfengdaogudexiuxiandaorencongtianerjiang，zhimingrangtazuozijidetudiquwanshanzhizukunlunxuxiulian。
woyuxiaoyancongxiaoyiqizhangda，daxiaojiuaimuta，ciquyibiebuzhiherixiangfeng，zaijiashangzheixiaozicongxiaojiubudaijianwo，napawojiuchantademingshengbeifangyuanwulineichuanlegebian，tadouhaobuzaiyi，suoyiwocaiweijiganshizu。
dangriwobiankudesiquhuolai，jiuzhexianrendezhangshansibusashou，dangshirenxiaoyandaoshiyilianmiantanshibuguanjideyangzi，xianrenwunai，liaoxiayiju“nieyuan”，biandaizhewohexiaoyanyiqixiuxianqule。
zheiyixiulianbianshiliunian，zairanhouchenghunwunian，woqueyoushizhizhonghaoxiangdoucanbutouxiaoyandexin。
「xiaoxi，xiaoxi...！」
sixumantianfeidewoturanbeizhuangdeliangyanyiheixianghoudaoqu，yuanbenzhizhudeshangkouhaoxiangsikai，shentoulecaigangbaozhahaodeshabu。huailiyikenaodaigonglaigongqu，ai，zuoniea。
wofulefutadebei，hongdao：「xiaoyan，nizaibuqilai，nijiuzhenmeiniangzile。」
haizailuangongdenaodaijiangzhusuijimengditaiqi，wumubandetongkongdengdelaoda。
“padapada”，yanleichengchuandegunluo，jianbengchengzhu，qinruyiliaodaizheweishidenuanyi。
「wobuyaonisi，wobuyaonisi。」
xiaoyan，nidaodiyaoruheni？shawodeshini，jiuwodeyeshini，burangwosidehaishini，zhenzhenshangbeiziqianleni，zheibeiziouxinlixueyeyaochanghai。
womianseyouxienankan，yishizhijianbuzhidaogaizenmemianduishiyidexiaoyan。
zheizhongchangjingrujinjianguosanci，zaoyijianguaibuguaidewoshenzhihaiyouxingzhiquxinshangqitarenlianshangyiyangdebiaoqing。
meicitongwanjiushiyi，shiyijiushiyiba，jiulianxingziyeyucongqiandabuyiyang，bujinkujijihaitebienianren，ruobushiwoyutachenghunzhijitonglelingmai，wohaizhenhuihuaiyitashibushibeirenduoshele。
「wozheibushihaimeisi。」woyuqidandandishuodao，chouhuilebeixiaoyanbaozhudegebo，「shinijiulewo？」
xiaoyankandaowochouhuigebobuqingyuandebieqizui，tingdaowowenta，youlimakaixinqilai，danxiayimiaobiaoqingyoukaishijiujie，huotuotuoyimiaosanbian。
「haozaixiaoxifudamingda，xinzangtianshengyuputongrenbuyiban，pianyicunzuoyou，burankezhenshihuitianfashu。」
kanqifenbutaiduidexiaofuganjinjieshidao，wochoulechouzuijiao，dongle，xiayicizaibeiciyidingyaozaipianyicun。