jiangyuanqiangpozijilengjingxialai。
xianzaiyuehuangluan，zhihuirangzijichujingyueweixian。
naozili，buduanhuiyiqizheixietianduizheigeshijiedelejie。
dazhidelejieshi，zheigeshijiederen，jihumeiyigerendoushishenming……bu，moshendexinfengzhe。
danmoshenyouhenduohenduo，shanminshengshenzhishiqizhongzhiyi，qiezheijitiantongguoxinwen，kandaobushaoxintuzhijianyinweixinyangbutongerfashengchongtude。
haiyou，gangcaizheigenianzhanghuanyuanshuodeshi‘shanminxinfengyishi’，bingbushizuncheng‘shanminshengshen’，zhengmingtadexinyangbingfeishishanmin。
“zenme，zheigewentihenbuhaohuidama？”
nianzhanghuanyuanyoukaikoule，yuqiyiweishenzhang。
“bushi，wozhishizaihuiyidangshidechangmian。”
“e？caiganggangfashengbuchaoguoyigexiaoshi，jiuyijingyiwanglema？”
“wozhishizaihuiyigengjutidexijie。”
“nizhixuyaoshihuashishuo，jiangdangshideqingkuangshuochulaijiukeyi，bingbuxuyaoneimexijie。”
“wodangranshihuashishuo，danyougengqingxidexijienandaoduinimendiaochabugengqingxima？haiyou……”
jiangyuanlianshangfuxianfennu，dashengdao：“zheicisideshiwodebabamama，wonaoziyizhihenluan，woxuyaohuixiangyixiayoushenmewenti？”
“erqienizheimeduoduobirenzhiwenwo，nishibawodangzuofanrenlema？！”
mianduijiangyuandefennudahe，nianzhanghuanyuanshizhongmianwubiaoqingdiguanchazhejiangyuan，pangbianneigenianqinghuanyuanshouwoquantouzaizuibianqingkeyisheng，sizaitixingnianzhanghuanyuan。
hude，nianzhanghuanyuanxiaorongzhujiancanlan，yuqibiandeyichangwenhe：“xiaohuozibuyaojidong。”
“womenyexiangjinkuainongqingchudangshifashengleshenme，suoyixunwenyouxiezhejile。”
“nidangranbushifanren，haole，nishuoba，nikeyimanmanxiang。”
shuowanyoushidianranleyizhiyan，yanwuliaoraozhong，shenchendeshuangyanshizhongbulijiangyuandelian。
“jintianwanshangdeshihou，wobamaliaodaolewomingtiandeshengri。”
“wobabashuozheishiwoshibasuichengnianshengri，xiangyaoyanqingqinpenghaoyoulaijialiyiqiweiwoqingzhu。”
“danwomamabutongyi，tazeguaiwobabashuolaitaiduorenfancainanzuo，hainanshoushiweisheng，ruguofeiyaoyanqing，neijiuqufandian。”
“wobabajuedezaijialiyanqinghuigengxianxinyi，tamenjiuweizheidianxiaoshizhengchaoqilai。”
jiangyuanshuozhe，neigenianqinghuanyuanyibianjiluzhe。
nianzhanghuanyuanmeizaishuohua，fangfozairenzhenqingting。
jiangyuanshensedichenlexialai，aishangzailianshangfuxian：“zaizhihou，babamamajiwojuxingxinfengyishi。”
“danshiwomamaqueyizhizaishuo，huoxuwokeyixinfengbeitianshen，xinfengbeitianshencainengciyuwogengqiangdadeliliang。”
“wobabadunshijiushengqile，hewomamadachaoleqilai，yanyuzhongshenzhigongjiwomamatabeipanleshanminshengshen，shuotashibushiyiduan。”
“wancandeshihoujiuyijingchaoguojiale，zheicichaojiarangwofeichangdexinfan，wogengxihuanhemudejiating。”
“danwoyouchabushanghua，yushiwojiupaolechulai，zhunbeichidiankaochuanhedianpijiu，dengtamenlengjinglezaihuiqu。”
“keshi……keshisheixiangdao……”
shuodaozheili，jiangyuanyijingmanlianbeishang，shengyindoudaizhexiegengyan。
nianzhanghuanyuanmeitoubuzhiheshizhouleqilai，qiamieleshouzhongdeyandi，ningshijiangyuanxujiu，niutoudishengzainianqinghuanyuanerbiandiyuleliangju。
henkuainianqinghuanyuanqishenchaowaimianzouqu。
nianzhanghuanyuanyebushuohua，dianranledisanzhiyan，manmanchouzhe。
tabushuohua，jiangyuanzirangengbukenengshuohua。
duoshuoduocuo，qifenjianjianyayi。
daidenianzhanghuanyuandisanzhiyankuaichouwandeshihou，nianqinghuanyuanhuilaile，muguangdandansaoguozaineibeishangdejiangyuan，fushenzainianzhanghuanyuanerbianshuoleshenme。
“xiaohuozi，buduia。”
nianzhanghuanyuanyanshenjianjianbingleng，dandandao：“womenganggangququerenleyixia。”
“ruguonidemamagaixinbeitianshen，neimeweihenijialimeiyoubeitianshendexinfengpin？”
jiangyuanyanzhongmanshimimang：“zheiwobuzhidaolea，danzheijiushiwotingdaode，zhiyuwomamaweishenmeturanrangwoxinfengbeitianshen，woyebuqingchu。”
nianzhanghuanyuanyoushoufangzaizhuoshang，shizhiyoujiezoudiqiaojizhezhuomian，yebuzhidaozaisisuozheshenme。
dagaibanfenduozhonghou，tahuranzhanqishenlai，dianlediantou，manlianweixiaodao：“neimehao，xiexienidepeihe。”
“danshiyouyunibabamamazhuilouyuanyinhaimeizhenzhengdiaochaqingxi，lingwaixianzaiyeyijingwanle，jinwannijiushuizaiwomenzheidexiuxishiliba。”
“xiaowang，daitaquxiuxishixiuxi。”
shuowan，nashangzhuoshangdeyanheyudahuoji，zhuanshenlikailexunwenshi。
nianqinghuanyuanshouhaolebijiben，zhanqishenlaidao：“genwolaiba。”
江渊沉默地跟上。
henkuai，duifangjiujiangtadaidaoleyigexiuxishili，limianshishangxiapu，yigeyinshuiji，haiyouyigexishoujian。
henjianlou，danganjingzhengjie。
“nijinwanzaizheilihaohaoxiuxiyixia，womenhenkuaijiuhuichamingde，dengwomenchaming，nijiukeyizoule。”
nianqinghuanyuananweilejiangyuanyiju，pailepaitadejianbang，zhihounazhebijibenzoule。
guanshangmen，jiangyuanxianshiyongyicixingzhibeikuanghelehaojibeishui，zhihouzhijiewangchuangshangyipa，jiangzhengzhangliandoumaijinlezhentouli。
cishiyijingshilingchenliangdianduo，taquehaowushuiyi，naoziliyituanluanma，luanzaozaode。
jintianfashengdeshiqingtaiduotaituranle，yishibanhuihennanlvqingchuzheiyiqiedaodishizenmeyihuishi！
taxuyaohaohaolengjinglengjing，zaizixilvyilvnaozhongfenluandesixu。
zaizheiyangmimihuhuxiaqu，tajuede……
自己会很危险。
bamazhengningdemianmuyouzaiyanqian，lingrenbuhanerli。
neigewangdama，haiyouganggangneilianggehuanyuan，zongganjuetamenduizijidaiyoueyi。
wangdamajiushizijijiagebidelinju，huoxu，shitajiangbamakouzhong‘yiduan’lianggezitoulujihuanyuande。
jianglianmaizaizhentouli，huxiyouxiebuchang，danjiangyuandesiwei，faneryufaqingxi。
yebuzhidaoshibushichuanyueerlaideyuangu，jiangyuanzongganjuezijidesiweiyaobizaidiqiushiminruihenduo。
tongsudejiang，jiushinaoguazihaoxianggengcongmingle。
也可能是错觉。
manmande，jiangyuanjiangjintianfashengdeyiqie，jiehechuanyueerlaiduizheigeshijiedeqianxianlejie，zhenglichulejitiaoxian。
yi，jueduibunengrangrenzhidaozijishi‘yiduan’，fouzejidagailvbisiwuyi。
danzheige‘yiduan’shiruhejiedingde，muqiancaicezuidadekeneng，shibuxinfengzheigeshijiedeshenming，yihuozheshibuzunzhongzheigeshijiedeshenming。
jidedangshibamafakuang，shizaizijishuo’buyuanyixinfeng‘zhihoufadekuang。
zongzhi，jueduibunengrangrenzhidaozijibuxinfengzheigeshijiedeshenming。
er，zheigeshijiedeshenmingdaodishizenmeyihuishi？shizhendemoshenma？kebabapikanchudeneigegenxuanhuanxiaoshuoliyiyangde‘xinghongdaoqi’youshishenmegui？
xinfengzheigeshijiedeshenming，zhendekeyihuodechaozirandeliliangma？
huozheshuo，zheibenjiushiyigechaoziranshijie？
kejibianruci，xinfengfangshishiyonghuorenquxianji，rouzhu、hunxiang，haiyouyeyedeneizang，zheixiedoushitajueduiwufajieshoudexieeyishi。
erqieguizhidaoxinfengzhihouhuifashengshenme，jiangyuanbugandu。
zuiliqideshi，huanyuanjingranduiyeyedeneizangbuguanbuwen！
san，neigeyizhitixingzijidezifudaodishishenme？youshizenmechuxiande？zuoyongshitixingzijibunengxinfengzheigeshijiedeshenming，yebunengshuocuohuama？
ruguoshizheiyang，kanqilaiyinggaishibaohuzijide。
目前还不太确定。
yigongtixingguoliangci，bianzaiyemeiyouchuxianguole。
lvshunlezheisantiaoxian，haiyoulianggezuidadenanguan。
diyigenanguan，bianshizijibianzaodehuangyanloudongbaichu，buzhidaohuibuhuiyouwenti。
buguorenbushizijishade，zhiyaozijiyaosiburenbamakouzhong‘yiduan’，yinggaiwentibuda。
muqiankanlai，zheigeshijieshicunzaiyidingdezhixude，buhuiyinweihuaiyizijishi‘yiduan’jiuzhijienongsiziji。
diergenanguan，yeshizuilingjiangyuantoutengde。
jiashebuxinfengshenmingbianshiyiduan。
那么……
我该怎么活下去？