jiehunsanzhouniandezhuguangwancan，luyunchuanjiangbohaodediwangxietuirou，zixidizhanlejiangzhi，songdaowozuibian。
“wanwan，changchangzheige，”tayanlidexiaoyiwenroudenengnisiren，“jinianrikuaile。”wozhangkaizui，
hanzhuneikuaixianmeidexierou，xinzangbeijudadexingfugantianman，jiuzaiwozhunbeikaikoushuo“laogongnizhenhao”deshunjian，
yigebinglengdejixieyin，haowuzhengzhaodizaiwonaozhongzhaxiang。【ding——fanpaifuchouxitongjihuo。】wolengzhule。
jinjiezhe，dierjuhua，xiangyibacuilebingdedao，henhentongjinlewodexinzang。【renwumubiao：luyunchuan。
zuiming：sannianqian‘7·14’tedachehuozhumou，shahaisuzhusuwanquanjia。】2wojiangzaiyuandi，
hunshendexueyefangfozaishunjianninggu。luyunchuankanwoliansebudui，danyoudifushangwodeetou：“zenmele，
wanwan？bushufuma？”tadeshouwennuanganzao，yirujiwangdinengrangwogandaoanxin。kexianzai，
zheiwenduquexiangluotieyiyangtangdewofadou。sharenxiongshou？wodezhangfu，
zheigeailewosannian、chonglewosanniandenanren，shihaisiwofumuhegegedechouren？bu，bukeneng！
zheitaihuangmiule！【xinshourenwufabu：qingsuzhuzaishifenzhongnei，jiangzhuoshangde‘a-7’haoshenjingdusu，
touruluyunchuandetangzhong。】【renwushibai，jiangyuyiyijidianjichengfa。】wodemuguangmengditouxiangcanzhuoyijiao，
neilibuzhiheshi，duoleyigebuqiyande、zhijiagaidaxiaodejinshuping。xitongzaibiwo。
tayongzuizhijie、zuicanrendefangshi，biwolikezuochuxuanze。“meishenme，kenengyoudianleile。
”woqiangchengzhejichuyigeweixiao，duanqitamianqianneiwanwoqinshoubaolesangexiaoshidesongrongjitang，“tangkuailiangle，
wobangnireyixia。”zheishiwoweiyinengxiangdaodetuoyanshijiandebanfa。woduanzhetangzoujinchufang，
shentikongzhibuzhudizhandou。wodakaishuilongtou，yonglengshuiyibianbiandichongzhezijidelian，shiturangzijilengjingxialai。
shihuanjue，yidingshihuanjue。wotaiaitale，yetaixiangnianwodejiarenle，
suoyicaichanshenglezheizhongkepadeyixiang。【daojishikaishi，59，58……】naohaizhongbinglengdedaojishi，
xiangsishendecuimingfu。wokanzheneiwanreqitengtengdejitang，youkanleyiyanneigejingjingtangzaijiaoluolidejinshuping，
xianrulejudadejuewang。wozuobudao。wozenmekenengduizheigenanrenxiadu？【……10，9，
8……】shijianzaifeisuliushi，wodexinzangjihuyaotiaochuxiongqiang。chengfa……dianjichengfahuishishenmeyang？
wobuzhidao，danwobennengdigandaokongju。【……3，2……】zaizuihouyimiao，wozhuaqizhuoshangdeyanguan，
henhendiwangtanglisaleyidaba，ranhouduanzhe“re”haodetangzoulechuqu。“laogong，tanglaile。
”wojiangwanfangzaitamianqian，xinzangtidaolesangziyan。luyunchuannaqishaozi，heleyikou，
meitoushunjianjiuningchengleyituan。“pu——”tamengditulechulai，“wanwan，nizheishi……xianghousiwoma？
”tasuiranzaikaiwanxiao，dankanxiangwodeyanshen，quedaishangleyisibuyichajuedetanjiu。
womianqiangxiaolexiao：“a？shima？kenengshiwoganggangzoushen，fangcuole……”【jinggao：renwushibai。
yijidianjichengfa，jijiangzhixing。】meidengwoshuowan，yigukongbudedianliumengdicongwodedanaoshenchuzhakai，
shunjianchuanbiansizhibaihai！wohunshenjuliediyizhan，yanqianyihei，zhenggerenbushoukongzhidixiangqiandaoqu。
“wanwan！”zaishiquyishidezuihouyike，woluoruleyigeshuxide、wennuandehuaibao。
luyunchuanbaozhewo，shengyinlichongmanleqiansuoweiyoudejinghuang。3wozaiyiyuanxinglai。luyunchuanzhengzuozaichuangbian，
shuangyanbumanxuesi，xiabashangyemaochuleqingsedehucha，jianwozhengyan，talikewozhuwodeshou，
shengyinshaya：“nizhongyuxingle！yishengshuonizhishidixuetang，hesiwole。”wokanzhetayanzhongdeguanqie，
xinzhongwuweizachen。zuowanneichangdianjidetongku，haicanliuzaishentidemeiyigexibaoli，tixingzhewo，
neige“xitong”shizhenshicunzaide。“duibuqi，laogong，rangnidanxinle。”wozhengzhazhexiangzuoqilai。
talikefuzhuwo，xixindizaiwobeihoudianshangzhentou。“shagua，shuoshenmeduibuqi。
”tafumozhewodelianjia，yanshenshensui，“wanwan，nizuijinshibushiyoushenmexinshi？congzuowankaishi，
nijiuhenbuduijing。”tayanzhongdehuaiyi，shicixiangwodediyibadao。womenjiehunsannian，enaiwujian，
bicizhijianjihumeiyourenhemimi。woderenheyidianweixiaodeqingxubianhua，doutaobuguotadeyanjing。erxianzai，
wodenaozili，zangzheyigetiandade、yaotamingdemimi。“wo……womeishi，kenengjiushizuijingongzuotaileile。
”wobugankantadeyanjing，zhinengzhaolegebiejiaodejiekou。tachenmolepianke，meiyouzaizhuiwen，
zhishiqishenbangwodaoleyibeiwenshui。
【linshirenwufabu：qiequluyunchuanshoujizhongdeshangyewenjian‘beijixingjihua’。
】【renwujiangli：guanyu‘7·14’chehuodechubuzhengju。】xitongdeshengyinzaicixiangqi，
daizheburongzhihuidemingling。tazaiyong“zhengju”zuoweiyouer，yinyouwojixuzhixingrenwu。wozuanjinlequantou。
bu，wobunengxin。zaimeiyouquezaodezhengjuqian，wojuebuxiangxinluyunchuanshixiongshou。
danshi……wanyishizhendeni？ruguotashi，neiwozheisanniandeai，qibushichengleyigetiandadexiaohua？
wozenmeduideqiwocansidejiaren？zheigeniantou，xiangyikeduzhongzi，zaiwoxinlifengkuangdishenggenfaya。
woxiangzhidaozhenxiang。napaneigezhenxiang，huijiangwochedicuihui。wanshang，huidaojia，luyunchuanquxizaole。
tadeshouji，jiufangzaichuangtoujushang。wodexin，kuangtiaobuzhi。wozhidaotadeshoujimima，shiwodeshengri。
wonaqishouji，zhijianzaipingmushangzhandou。jiesuo，diankaiwenjianguanliqi，sousuo“beijixingjihua”。
yigejiamidewenjianbaotiaolechulai。wobeihouquanshilenghan，jiuzaiwozhunbeidiankaiwenjiandeshihou，yushidemen，
“kada”yisheng，kaile。wohedeshouyidou，shoujichadiandiaozaidishang。wohuangmangjiangshoujisaihuiyuanwei，
jiazhuangzaizhenglichuangpu。luyunchuancazhetoufazoulechulai，takanlewoyiyan，yanshenyoushen。tashenmeyemeishuo，
jingzhizoudaochuangtou，naqileshouji。tameiyoukanshouji，ershikanzhewo，ranhou，dangzhewodemian，
shurulejiesuomima。yimiao，liangmiao……pingmu，meiyouliangqi。mimacuowu。wodexin，
shunjianchendaolegudi。tagaimimale。jiuzaijintian。tabuzaixinwole。
womenzhijianneizuoyongaihexinrenjianliqilaidejiangubaolei，congzuowankaishi，
yijingchuxianleyidaowufamibudeliehen。erzheidaoliehen，zhengshiwoqinshouqiaokaide。4luyunchuandeshuli，
xiangyizhangwuxingdewang，jiangwoyueshouyuejin。tabuzaiduiwofenxianggongzuoshangdeshi，huijiadeshijianyeyuelaiyuewan，
shenzhiyoushihou，tahuiyigerenzaishufangdaidaoshenye。womendejia，haishineigejia，dancengjingdewennuanhetianmi，
zhengzaiyidiandiandixiaoshi。erxitong，zexiangyigezuigaomingdelieshou，
naixindidengdaizhewobeizheifenshulizhemodaobengkui。【suzhu，zhiyaoniwanchengrenwu，jiunengdedaozhenxiang。
】tazaiwonaozhong，rifuyirididiyu。wokuaiyaofengle。woyibianyaochengshouzheshiquzhangfuxinrendetongku，
yibianyaodiyuzhexitongjichudeyouhuo。zhongyu，zaiyigewojiazhuangshushuideyewan，wotingjianluyunchuanzaiyangtaishang，
yadileshengyindadianhua。“……chayixiatazuijindexingzong……dui，suoyou……buyaorangtafaxian。
”tazaichawo。zheigerenzhi，xiangyibadundao，fanfuqiegezhewodexinzang。wozaiyewufarenshoule。
woxuyaoyigedaan。wojiayipeihelexitong。woliyongyicigongsituanjiandejihui，jiazhuanghezui，
zaitadejiulifangleanmianyao。zaitachenshuihou，woyongtadezhiwen，jiekaileneibujiamidegongzuoshouji。
wozhaodaole“beijixingjihua”。neishiyifenguanyuxinnengyuankaifadeshangyejihuashu，
limianshejiledaliangdejishucanshuheshichangfenxi，kanqilaimeiyourenhewenti。wojiangwenjiandabao，
fasongdaolexitongzhidingdeyouxiang。【renwuwancheng。jianglifafangzhong……】henkuai，
wodeshoujishoudaoleyifenjiamiwenjian。wozhandouzhediankai。limian，
shiyifensannianqiandejingfangneibudiaochabaogaodeyingyinjian。baogaoshang，qingqingchuchudixiezhe，
“7·14”tedachehuo，zhaoshicheliangdesiji，zaishifaqianyigexiaoshi，tadegerenzhanghuli，
shoudaoleyibiwushiwandejukuan。erhuikuanren，zhixiangleyigehaiwaidekongqiaogongsi。baogaodezuihou，
fushangleyifenguquanchuantoudiaochatu，neijiakongqiaogongsidezuizhongshouyiren，heranjiushi——luyunchuan。
wenjiantianyiwufeng。shijian、jine、renwu，suoyoudeyiqiedouduideshang。baizhiheizi，tiezhengrushan。
wotanzuozaidishang，hunshenbingleng。woyiweiwohuiyousixinliefeidetongku，huihaotaodaku。danmeiyou。
wozhishijuedehenanjing，anjingdenengtingdaozijixinzangyicuncunsuiliedeshengyin。yuanlai，wozheisannian，
yizhishuizaichourendezhenbian。yuanlai，tasuoyoudewenrouhechongai，
douzhishijianlizaiwojiarenshiguzhishangde、weishandebiaoyan。
【zhuxianrenwufabu：qiequluyunchuangongsihexinjishudaima，bingjiangqijiaojiqijingzhengduishou‘tianqijituan’。
】【renwumubiao：rangluyunchuanshenbaiminglie，yiwusuoyou。】xitongdeshengyinzaicixiangqi。zheiyici，
womeiyouzaifankang。wodeyanli，zaiyemeiyouleai，zhishengxiawubianwujidehen。luyunchuan，
nihuilewodequanshijie。neime，woyeyaoqinshou，huidiaonidequanshijie。
5wokaishibanyanyigewanmeideshuangmianjiandie。zailuyunchuanmianqian，wobianhuileneigewenroutitiedeqizi。
wohuizhudongxiangtadaoqian，chengrenzijizuijinqingxubuhao，jiangwomenzhijiandeliehen，yongxujiadewenqingzanshimihe。
tasihuyejieshoulewode“huigai”，duiwodefangbei，jianjiansongxielexialai。
womenyouhuidaolexiangjingrubinderizi，zhishibicixinlidouqingchu，youxiedongxi，zaiyehuibuqule。
erzaitakanbujiandedifang，wozebianchengleyigelengkudefuchouzhe。woanzhaoxitongdezhiling，yibubudi，
qiequtagongsidejimi。woliyongqizideshenfen，ziyoudichurutadeshufang。
woyongxitongtigongjiwodeweixingqietingqiheshexiangtou，jiankongzhetadeyijuyidong。woshenzhi，
zaitameitianhedekafeili，jiaruleweiliangde、nengrangrenjingshenbujideyaowu。wokanzhetarijianqiaocui，
kanzhetayandidepibeiyuelaiyuezhong，kanzhetazaiyicicizhongyaodehuiyishangchucuo。wodexinzhong，
meiyousihaodekuaiyi，zhiyouyipianmamudebingleng。wojiuxiangyigemeiyoulinghundemuou，beixitongcaokongzhe，
zaiwohetacengjingdeaichaozhishang，tiaozheyizhisiwangzhiwu。meiyiciqinwen，douxiangshizaiqinwenyizuofenmu。
luyunchuanbushishagua。tahenkuaijiuchajuedaolegongsideyichang。hexinshujupinfanxielu，haojigeguanjianxiangmu，
doubeijingzhengduishou“tianqijituan”qiangzhanlexianji。takaishijinxingneibudiaocha，gongsilifengshengheli。
dantazenmeyexiangbudao，neizhineigui，huishitatongchuanggongzhendeqizi。wochenggongdiqiequdaolehexinjishudaima。
zaiwozhunbeijiangqijiaojitianqijituandeqianyitianwanshang，luyunchuanhezuile。zheishiwomenjiehunsannianlai，
tadiyicihezui。tabaozhewo，jiangtoumaizaiwodejingwo，xiangyigemiludehaizi。“wanwan，”tanannandi，
yibianbiandijiaozhewodemingzi，
buqi……”“wokuaiyaochengbuzhule……gongsikuaiwanle……”“keshiwobunengdaoxia……wodayingguota，
yaozhaoguhaoni……”tadehua，xiangyibazhongchui，henhendizazaiwodexinshang。tadayingguoshei？
dayingguosheiyaozhaoguhaowo？woxinzhongjinglingdazuo，yizhongbuxiangdeyuganlongzhaolewo。wofutatangxia，
zaitachenshuihou，wokaishifengkuangdifanzhaotadedongxi。woyaozhaodaoneige“ta”，daodishishei。zuizhong，
zaitashufangzuishenchudebaoxianjuli，wozhaodaoleyigeshanglesuodehezi。woyongtadeshengri，shikailemima。
hezidakaideshunjian，woruzaoleiji。limian，meiyoujinyinzhubao，meiyoujimiwenjian。zhiyouyizhangzhaopian。
yizhangfanhuangde、sangerendehezhao。zhaopianshang，shinianqingdewo，
haiyouyigehewomeiyanyoujifenxiangside、yangguangshuaiqidenanhai。erzaiwomenzhongjian，
zhanzheyigeqingsede、daizheheikuangyanjingdeshaonian——neishishibasuideluyunchuan。neigeyangguangshuaiqidenanhai，
wodangranrende。tajiaolinchen，shiwodexuezhang，shiwoqingmeizhumadechulian，yeshi……zaineichangchehuozhong，
hewojiarenyiqisangshengde，wodeweihunfu。6wozenmehuibatawangle？wozenmehuibalinchen，
wangdeyiganerjing？wotongkudibaozhutou，yiduanduanposuide、beichenfengdejiyi，xiangchaoshuibanyongruwodenaohai。
chehuo，baozha，huoguang……haiyoulinchenzaizuihouyike，jiangwotuichuchewai，shengsilijiedenahan。yiji，
woxinglaihou，neiduanzhangdayiniande、chongmanleyaowuhexinlizhiliaode、heiandejiyi。shichuangshanghouyingjizhangai。
yishengshuo，wodedanaoweileziwobaohu，xuanzexingdiyiwangleneiduanzuitongkudejiyi，baokuolinchendecunzai。
erluyunchuan，zuoweilinchenzuihaodexiongdi，yeshichehuozhongweiyidexingcunzhezhiyi，yizhipeizaiwoshenbian，
zhaoguwo，anweiwo，zuizhong，womenzoudaoleyiqi。kexitonggaosuwo，tashizhumou！wodedanaoyipianhunluan。
wosisididingzheneizhangzhaopian，yigexijie，xiangshandianyiyangjizhonglewo。zhaopiandebeimian，youyixingxiaozi。
【lc&ycforever】lc，shilinchen。yc，shishei？
luyunchuandemingzisuoxieshi**c。womengdixiangqilai，xitongmeicifaburenwushi，tadeyuandaimajiemian，
guoyishunjiandekaifazheshuming——【aiguardian:ver.lc】lc……linchen！
yigekongbudaojizhideniantou，zaiwoxinzhongchengxing。zheigexitong，bushishenmetianwailaiwu。
tashilinchenliuxiade！linchen，wodechulian，yigejisuanjitiancai。tazaojiugenwoshuoguo，
tazaikaifayigenengshouhuwoyishengdeaichengxu。suoyi，zheigexitong，shilinchende“youling”？tayiwei，
shiluyunchuanhaisilewomen。suoyi，taconglinchende“yiyuan”zhongdansheng，zhiruwodenaozhong，mude，jiushirangwo，
weitadezhurenfuchou？erwo，yigeshiyide、beimengzaigulidekelianchong，
jingranyizhizaibeiyigesiqudewanghuncaokongzhe，qushanghaineigeyizhizaishouhuwoderen？zheigerenzhi，
bidezhiluyunchuanshi“xiongshou”，gengrangwogandaobengkui。wodaodi，douzuolexieshenme？！wochongjinwoshi，
kanzhechuangshangyinzuijiuerchenshuideluyunchuan，leishuijuedierxia。woshanghaileta，huaiyileta，beipanleta。
woqinshou，jiangwomensanniandeganqing，tuixianglewanjiebufudeshenyuan。bu，hailaideji。
wohaimeiyoubahexindaimajiaochuqu。wohaiyoujihuimibu。wodakaidiannao，zhandouzheshou，
kaishishitupojieneigemingwei“shouhuzhe”deaixitong。woyaozhaodaotadeyuantou，zhaodaotadeluojiloudong，
ranhou，huidiaota。raner，jiuzaiwojieruxitongdeshunjian，yigubishangyiciqianglieshibeidedianliu，
mengdicongwonaozhongzhakai！【jinggao！jiancedaoruqinxingwei！qidongzuigaojibiefanzhicuoshi！
】【chengfamoshishengji！mubiao：cuihuisuzhuyizhi！】wodeyanqian，buzaishiheian。
ershiwujinde、wohelinchencengjingzuitianmidehuiyi。womenzaiyinghuashuxiadechuwen，
tazaiwoshengrishidanzhejitaweiwochangdeqingge，tazaineichangchehuoqian，danxiguidi，
xiangwoqiuhundehuamian……suoyoumeihaodejiyi，douzaizheiyike，bianchenglezuifenglidedao，yidaodaodi，
lingchizhewodelinghun。xitongdeshengyin，xiangyigeemo，zaiwoerbiandiyu。【kankanta，
zheicaishinideairen。】【nibeipanleta，niaishangleshasitadexiongshou。】【nibupeihuoxiaqu。
】7diyubandedianjihejingshenzhemo，chixulezhengzhengyiye。diertianzaoshang，woxinglaishi，
ganjuezijidelinghundoubeitaokongle。woxiangyigeposuidewawa，tangzaidibanshang，
liandongyigenshouzhideliqidoumeiyou。luyunchuanyijingxingle。tameiyouqushangban，jiuzuozaiwoduimiandeshafashang，
jingjingdikanzhewo。tadeyanshen，henpingjing，pingjingdexiangyitansishui。zaitajiaobian，
sanluozheyidibeiwozuowanhuluanfanchulaidedongxi，baokuoneigedakaide、zhuangzhezhaopiandehezi。
tashenmedouzhidaole。“xingle？”takaikou，shengyinshayadelihai。womeiyoushuohua，zhishiliuzheleikanzheta。
tazhanqishen，yibubudi，zoudaowomianqian，dunxiashen，yuwopingshi。“weishenmeyaozheimezuo，wanwan？
”taqingshengwen，shengyinlimeiyoufennu，zhiyouyizhongshenrugusuidepibeihebeishang，“nixiangyaoshenme，
nikeyizhijiegaosuwo。weishenmeyaoyongzheizhongfangshi？”“wo……”wozhanglezhangzui，queyigezidoushuobuchulai。
wogairuhejieshi？shuowodenaozili，zhuzhewoqiannanyoudefuchouai？tahuixinma？
tazhihuijuedewofengle。kanzhewocangbaidelianheshihunluopodeyangzi，tayanzhongdebeishanggengnongle。tashenchushou，
qingqingcaquwolianshangdeleishui。“suanle，”tadishengshuo，“douguoqule。”tazhanqishen，
congkoudailinachuyimeijiezhi，fangzaiwomianqiandechajishang。neishiyimeikuanshijiandandesuquanjiezhi，
shangmiankezhelianggezimu——lc。shilinchensongwodedinghunjiezhi。chehuohou，woyizhiyiweitayishile。
yuanlai，yizhibeiluyunchuanshouzhe。“woleile，wanwan。”takanzhewo，yiziyijudishuo，
“women……lihunba。”“gongsi，wohuichulihao。fangzi，chezi，douliujini。
”“jiudangshi……wotilinchen，jinidezuihouyidianbuchang。”tashuowan，meiyouzaikanwoyiyan，zhuanshen，
nashangwaitao，zouchulezheigejia。menbeiguanshangdeshengyin，henqing。quexiangyishengsangzhong，qiaosuilewozhenggeshijie。
lihun。tayaohewolihun。wofeijinxinji，doudouzhuanzhuan，zuizhong，haishibatanongdiule。
【ding——jieduanxingrenwuwancheng。luyunchuanyixianruzhongpanqinli、shiyebengta、hunyinshibaidejuejing。