亲哥国外去世
我哥在国外过世了。
bamadadianhuatongzhiwodeshihou，beitongyujue。
woxinruandayingtamenjishiwandesangzangfeihemeigeyuewuqiandeyanglaofei。
erdangwozhunbeijieshouxianshideshihou——
wogejingran“zhashihaihun”le。
01
“xiaojiaoa，nige······zaimeiguochushile，tabuzailea······”
mamajiwodadianhua，kudebeitong。
santianhou，woyinweihukouwentibanbuxialaiqianzheng，zhinengsongtamenerlaoqulejichang。
wogedeshenticongxiaojiubuhao。
xiaoshihou，womazongshijiangdanhuangliujigege，shuonvhaizichidanhuanghuibianpang，chidanbaipifuhao。
gegemeicizongshichidehentongkudeyangzi，woshichanghenxintengta。
shangledaxue，gegeyeshisantianliangtoudejinyiyuan，suiranwohegegexianggeliangdi，danshi，mamajiwodadianhuadeshihou，zongshiruoyousiwudetidaogegequleyiyuanyouhualeduoshaoqian。
gualedianhua，wojiubagangxialaidejiangxuejinhezhuxuejinjibamazhuanhuiquleyiban。
daxuebiye，woshunlidezhaodaolegongzuo。
gegequeyinweishentideyuanyin，yizhidaiyezaijiali，meiyougongsiyuanyiyaota。
wojitamenzhuanhuiqudeqian，wobazongshihuijiwozhuanhuilaiyidian，keshiwoconglaimeishouguo。
zheimeduonian，bamaduiwo，haisuanshiguanxinde。
wolijietamen，gegedebing，rangtamenbitonglingrenkanqilaicanglaolexuduo。
gezheicichuguozhibing，haishiduokuilejialiqinqidejieshao。
jushuoshizhaolegehenhaodeyisheng，youzhiyudekeneng。
gegecongguowaijiwodayueyangdianhuadeshihou，yuqiwenruan，wenwoguodehaobuhao，qiangoubugouhua。
napawodeyinxingkajitadawanyiyaofeizhishengxiayiqiankuai，woyiranhuitawohaiyouqian，zheigeyuegangfalejiangjin。
houlai，gegedadianhuadecishuyuelaiyueshao。
甚至几个月一次。
bamayezhishishuogegedebingqingbuwending，yishengshuoyaoxiuyang。
zheicigegeyiwaideguoshi，bamajiuxiangshishiqulezhuxinguyiyang。
shangfeijiqianhongtongtongdeyanjingrangwodexinjiuzheteng。
“ma，nimenanxindequ，qiandeshiqing，buyongdanxin。”
guowaidesangzangfeiyonggaodeheren，bamaduiwoshuodeshihou，luchuweiweinankandemoyang。
wowenpengyoujieleshiwan，zaitamenluodizhiqian，zhuanleguoqu。
gegeyigerenzaiwaidaidetaijiule，yinggaixiangjialeba。
huilegongsi，tongshikanjianwopibeidemoyang，mangwenwozenmele。
woxiaozheyaotou，“meishi，jiushizuotianjiabanyoudianleile，jintianqidewanleyixie。”
shoujishang，pengyoufalaileyitiaoxiaoxi，“wanshangyiqijucan，woyougepengyoujieshaojini。”
xiangqibamazouzhiqian，qiandingningwanzhufu，gegequshidexiaoxibuyaogaosurenheren。
woxunsuhuifudao，“hao，fawodizhishijian。”
meicipengyoujieshaoduixiangdejudouhencuandehenjishi，diyicishizaiwoshiyedeshihou，diercishiwogeyaochuguozhibing，disancijiushijintian。
wodezhongshendashi，lianwobamadoubuzenmeguowen，pengyoudaoshicaoxindejin。
xiabandaodajucancantingdeshihou，pengyouyuanyuandechongwozhaoshou，“jiaojiao，zheili！”
pengyoushenbian，zuozheyigeshenchuanxinzhongshiwaitaodenanren，daizheyinsibiandeyanjing，qizhiqingleng。
“jiaojiao，wojinijieshaoyixia，woxiangmuzudeshige，meiguohuilaideyixueyanjiusheng，shenlan。”
美国的医学研究生？
02
xianzaimeiguodouliuxingzheiyangshendele？
woziyaliezui，xiaodehennankan。
shenlanyiliandexianqi，jiazhuangbujingyideheleyikoucha。
“nihao，wojiaoqiaojiaojiao。”wozhudongshenchushou，“jintianjiabanyoudianmang，laichilebaoqian。”
shenlantaiqishouzhi，qingqingdipengleyixiawodezhijian。
“duile，jiaojiao，wojidenigebushizaimeiguozhibingma？shigezhenghaozaimeiguohenlihaideyiyuanshixiguo，shuobudingkeyijieshaodaogenghaodeyisheng。”pengyoureluodejieshao，lajinwoheshenlandejuli。
wodiantou，nulideyanxiaquhoutoudechashui，renzhubitoudesuanyi，“meishi，haishibumafanle。”
“shenmebing？”shenlankailekou。
wohuangran，“yemeishenme，haoxiangshishenjingshenmexibaoliu？”
“神经母细胞瘤。”
“ng。”wodandandeyinglesheng。
shenlanquexiangshilailexingqu，“huanbingduojiule？”
“haoduonianle，houlaimeibanfalecaiqudeguowaizhiliao。”
buzhishenlanshenshangdaodiyoushenmemoli，wohaishiyiwuyishidehuidale。
“haoduonian？”shenlansihuhenchayi。
“haolehaole，bushuozheijianshiqingle，womendiancai，diancaia！”pengyouganjinchahuahuanjiewoheshenlanzhijiangangadeqifen。
wanfanguohou，wozaipengyoudebipoxia，liuleshenlandeweixin。
kanzheneigeweixiaobiaoqingdetouxiang，wolianbeizhudoulandejia。
huijiawojiuganjinjibamafaxinxi，luodilejiwodagedianhuabaogepingan。
jiejidehaiwolianxidaodedangdidehuarenliuxuesheng。
wozuozaichuangtoufadai，yizhenqiaomenshengjiangwodesixuzhuilehuilai。
是房东阿姨。
“jiaojiao，bushiayiguyizheigeshihoulaizhaoni，daraonixiuxi，jiushinidefangzuyijingtuolelianggexingqile，nengbunengxianjiaole？”
fangdongayiderenhenheshan，woganjinnashoujijiangfangzuzhuanleguoqu。
“shoudaoleshoudaole，jiushia，jiaojiao，wozheigefangzia，mashangyaomaidiaole，nihainengzhuyigexingqi，duoyudefangzuheweiyuejinwojinizhuanhuiqule。”
fangdongayishanshandixiaoxiao，huameishuoliangjujiulikaile。
guanshangmen，yanleipadayishengjiuluolexialai。
gegebuzaile，bamayebuzaishenbian，qianleyi**zhai，fangziyeyaomeile。
tangzaichuangshangdeshoujigedengyisheng。
“buhaoyisi，daraole，suiranhenmaomei，danwohaishiyaojieshiqingchu，shenjingmuxibaoliuhuanbingzhecunhuoqihenduan，nigededeyinggaibushizheigebing，jianyihuangeyiyuan。”
kanzheigeweixiaotouxiangbianchengle“zhengzaishuruzhong”，wobunaifandehuidao，“ng，henmaofan，xiexie。”
zaidaozaichuangshang，zaicizhengyandeshihou，tianyijingdaliangle。
shoujishangyijiushenmedongjingdoumeiyou。
shoushihaodongxi，biaomeihuranjiwofaguolaiyizhangwaiwangshangdezhaopian，shigehensimidepa，tupiandezhengzhongyangzhanzheyigezhichuanzhekuchadenanren。
neizhanglian，heranhewogedeyimoyiyang。
“jie，nikanzheigezhaopian，zhongjianneigexiangbuxiangqiaorangege？”
wojiangtupianfangdawushubei，zheigerenwuluncongnagejiaodulaikan，douhewogewusijiaodexiangxiang。
可是他已经死了啊！
zaikantupiandefabiaoriqi，jingranshijintian！
03
“bukeneng！”wofourendiaobiaomeidehuazhihou，gantanyuxianzaijiyindeshenqi。
shijieshangzhendehuiyoulianggerenzhangdeneimexiang。
buhuixiangduiyuchuguoqianwogeneigebingyanyandeyangzi，woyexiwangwogeshijianjiankangkangde。
zhidaoxiawu，wozhongyujiedaolewomadeyueyangdianhua。
tingtadeshengyin，shayazhiji，“jiaojiaoa，mamaxinlinanguoa，juededuibuqini。”
“gegeta······”
womaxilexibizi，“nigedeshiqingwohenibadouanpaihaole，jiushini，maturanjuede，zheimeduonianxinkunile。”
“meishi，zhiyaogegenengrutuweian，wobujuedexinku。”wonulirenzhuleyaodiaoxialaideyanlei。
womadunledun，“jiushia，jiaojiao，zheiqianbutaigou，haichayixie·······”
还差？
wozonggongjitamendaleshiwuwana！
“hai······chaduoshaoqian？”wodeshengyinyouxiezhandou，“woshishikan。”
“十万。”
“shiwan！”wotuokouerchu，“ma，nixianranrangwowangnalizhaoshiwankuaiqian？wojinimendadeqiandouyijingshiwonengjiedaodequanbule。”
womasihuyouxiebunaifanle，daduanlewodehua，“neijiuzaiqujie，nirenxinkanzhenigejiutangzaitamenyiyuandetaipingjianma？nigemeiliangxindeyatou，nigehuozhedeshihouduinihaibugouhaoma？”
dianhuapengdeyishengguaduan，wowuzhetou，shiwan，woqunalizhaoshiwankuai？
wohuranxiangqilaishenme，baiduleyixia“shenjingmuxibaoliu”，daduohuidadoushizhinenghuosangeyuebanniande。
zidawoyoujiyikaishi，wogedeshentijiubutaihao。
qijinyijingershiqinianle，wogechulezheigebingzhiwai，haoxiangcongtadeshenshangdoukanbudaoshenmeyanzhongdefuzuoyong。
turan，yigekepadecaicezaiwodexindimanyan，wobeizijiheleyitiao。
shoujigedengyisheng，biaomeiyoujiwofalezhangtupian，haishineigepatidetu。
tupianzhongyang，shiyigebaozhebingkuaidenanrenzhengshituyueruyongchi，shenqingkuazhang。
“jie，nizhendejuedezheigerenbuxiangqiaorangema？”
“wojideqiaorangedejiaohuaiyouyichutangshang，shixiaoshihouwoshishoutangde，nikan，tupianliderenyeyou。”
woanzhaobiaomeishuodefangdalezheigenanrendejiaohuai，queshiyouyichutangshangdehenji，danshishangmianwenleyizhihenxiaodebianfutuan。
wogezuitaoyandejiushibianfu，tashuozheizhongshengwu，manshenbingdu，lingrenexin。
jiyizhongdegege，zongshiduiwonuannuandexiao，meiyouxuesedelianhechunban。
“woshuolebushiwoge，nigexiaoyatou，shibushifuermosishangshenle？”wohuifuguoqu。
biaomeizehuilewoyigediaopidebiaoqing。
xiwanzao，pengyoujiwodashipinwenwoheshenlanliaoderuhe。
wochongzhepengyouyaotou，“wobuxihuanta，shanglaijiuzhiyiwogedebingqing，neimeduonian，sheinengbiwoqingchu？”
“neikebuyiyangding，shigezaitamenneigelingyuhaishihenlihaide，jushuotahaicanyuyanfaleyikuanxinyao，jiulebushaoshenjingmuxibaoliudehuanzheni！”
“tajiushiyanjiuzheigede？”wochayi。
“shia，buranwozenmehuijieshaojini？nibuzhidaoshigeshiyaoyouduoqiangshou。”
guaduanshipinzhihou，woduizheshenlandeweixintouxiangfalebantiandedai。
guolehaojiu，wofaleyitiaoxinxichuqu，“nihao，daraoyixia。”