第一章
weileyanzhengwodezhenxinteyizhuangpochanjiangwosongqudaheiquantitahaizhai。
wunianyiqianchang，jihuyaolewodeming。
houlaitazhongyuxiangxinwodezhenxinchengnuohuiyuwojiehun，danqueyinweiyuqingmeidaduwojiusuanhuaiyunyenengdaying，juranjiangdazheduzidewotuoquleleitai。
wobeihuoshengshengdadeliuchan，wuzhexiaofuqiutasongwoquyiyuan。
“niyouxitong，youbuhuisi，liudianxuezenmele？wogenmengyaowanwanleziranhuihuiguijiating！”
ketabuzhidao，xitongwunianqianjiuxiufulecuowu。
tianmingzhinvbushiwo，shiqingmei。
erwo，yinweimeiyouwanchengxitongderenwu，jijiangmosha。
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shanguangdengzhixiadeshengyinciqibifu，wogaotingdeduzizhuangouletamendeyanqiu，zheiyichangpiaojiashililaimaidezuihaodeyichang。
shenxiadereliuwushiwukebutixingwohaizibaobuzhule，fuyandaizhelimengyaozuozaiguanzhongxikanzhelangbeidewo，keduishouyiranbuxiangfangguowo。
yiquanzhongzhongdezadaowodeduzishang，wopabuqilai，leiyanmenglongdekanzhefuyan，xiwangtanenghanting。
yipangdelimengyaozhuangzuodanxinwodeyangzi：“yangege，zhujiejiekanqilaizhuangtaibutaihao，yaobuhaishizhaogeyishengjitakanyixia......”
fuyanbinglengdeshengyindasuilewodehuanxiang：“bubi，tayouxitongyoubuhuisi......wodaoyaokankantanengzhuangdaoshenmeshihou。”
limengyaoxiaoleyixia，yeshi，zhiyaotabushuo，fuyanzenmehuizhidaotianmingzhinvshitani？
fuyanyebuhuizhidao，womeiyouzhuang，woshizhendeyaosile。
“yangege......kanqilaihaoxiangshiayaoyingleni！jiejiedoupabuqilaile！”
fuyanchongnidegaosutayihuidaitaqunatadejiangli。
wodeermowengwengzuoxiangquehaishixiayishihuzhuduzi，shiquyishizhiqianwoquehuiyiqilaifuyanzhuangpochannazhenwomeiyitiandouquzuodashoujitazhengqianhaizhai，weilekuanweitawogaosutawoyouxitongbuhuisi。
kebucengxiang，tazhidaohoujingranbuxijiangwosongjinledixiaquanchangdaheiquan。
这一打就是五年。
ketabuzhidaodeshi，xitongzaozaiwunianjiujiangwodetianmingzhinvdexitongjilelimengyao。
erwo，chufeinengwunianneirangfuyanquwo，fouzejiuhuibeimosha。
womeiyitiandingzheyishenlangjiehuijia，queyijiuduitabulibuqi，tayenandedejiwoliulejifenwencun。
kehoulaiwocaizhidao，jiuliandixiaquanchangyeshitadesichan，erzheiyiqie，buguoshiyichangshitan。
jinnianjiushihefuyanjiuchandediwunianle。
可他依旧不爱我。
xinglaihou，gaogaolongqideduzizhongxinbielexiaqu，weiyoushenshangdetengtongyijiu。
diankaifuyandepengyouquan，caikanjianfuyandaizhelimengyaoqupaihunshazhao。
yuanlaizheijiushitadejianglia，yanjingzhangtong。
neiwozheixienianyousuanshenmeni？
xiamianfuyandeqinyoupinglunshuozheicaishifuyanyinggaiqudexinniang。
“bietineigezhujiahanle，yishenjirousheihuixihuan？”
“tidaotawodoutiayanjuedebuzhi！”
meiyouyigerenzhanchulaitiwoshuojuhua。
除了李梦瑶。
“kuaibieshuozhujiejiele，tasipilailiandegenzheyangegeyemeicuo！”
wokuxiao，limengyaojiangwomencengjingdeguowangshuochenglewoyigerendesipilailian。
xiamianguoranshiqingyiseduitadechuipeng。
shuotashanliangpiaoliangyoutongqingxin。
将我贬的一文不值。
erbianchuanlaixitongdeshengyin：juliwunianzhiyue，haichaqitian。