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womalinzhongqianzuidadeyuanwang，jiushikanwoheshennianwanhun。
kehunlijinxingyiban，tadezhumajiudalaidianhua，shuogoudiule。
yushi，taquxiaowomendedishicihunli。
我心如死灰，
“niyijingweitapaoqilewojiuci，haiyaozailaiyicima？”
tabokaiwodeshou，yuqilimanshijuejue。
“goushijiaxuandeming，wobunengxiushoupangguan，nimaxianzaihaiyouqi，kejiaxuanbunengdeng。”
tajueranlikai，womayongyuandebishangleyanjing。
meinengsongchudezuchuanyuzhuo，chengletadezhongshenyihan。
wobaweicigenwoduanjueguanxi。
wobeitongyujue，baozhewomaguhuikulesantiansanye。
keshennianquepeizhechenjiaxuanjitadegouqingsheng。
“gouderenshengzhiyouyici，bunengliuyouyihan。”
keshi，woderenshengyezhiyouyici。
cuoguolezheici，wojiushenmedoubuxiangyaole。
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congbinyiguanhuilai，shennianzhenghechenjiaxuanzuoyouhufa，peizheyangyandiushidegou，zaicanzhuoshangchuilazhu。
santianqianhaiyinweigouzoudiu，erchuixiongdunzudechenjiaxuan，cikezaishenniandepeibanxiameifeisewu。
shuolaihaoxiao，meimeiheshennianjubanhunli，chenjiaxuandegoudouhuizoudiu。
整整十次。
congwoheshennianjiehundaoxianzai。
minzhengjudemenjiandoukuaibeitaping，kejiehunzhenghaimeidaoshou。
xushikuiqian，tadayingwoxianjubanhunli。
keshicihunli，shichangdejingxinchoubei，jiebaidehunshaguazaiyijuliluohui，qingjianfaleyoushou，jiudiandingleyoutui。
meicisiyigangshuochu“qingjiaohuanjiezhi”，chenjiaxuandedianhuazhunhuixiangqi，ershennianyezonghuihaobuyouyudipaoxiawo，liuxiamantangbinkeduiwolengchaorefeng。
neishi，tahaihuigujiwodeganshou，meicifenranlichang，huilaidouhuijiwoyigehelidejieshi。
然后再周而复始。
kemeicidehunlijinxingyiban，jiuzhongzhizaichenjiaxuanhetadegouzhijian。
jiuerjiuzhi，tayecongqichudegulvbianchenglelisuodangran。
buzaifeixinjieshi，jieqichenjiaxuandedianhuameiyouyisiyouyu。
napawomashangbujiuyurenshidemama，lazhetadeshoukenqiu，“jiuzheiyici，rangwoanxindezou。”
tayezhishizhouzhemeichouchugebo，“goushijiaxuandeming，wobaozheng，zheishizuihouyici。”
jianwoshenqingluomodezoujinketing，shennianchenzheliankanxiangwo，
“nibuzaiyiyuanzhaogunima，paohuilaizuoshenme？”
“shengleneimezhongdebing，chudianyiwaishenbianliangerendoumeiyou。”
yuanlai，tayezhidaowomazhongbingwochuang，shenbianlibukairen，keneikansiguanqiedeyanshenlimeiyouyisiwendu，shouhaizaitijinmaocashizhezuijiaodenaiyou。
我喉头哽咽。
qiangrenzhuxinxu，molebalian。
“womazoule，yihoudoubuxuyaorenpeile。”
jiansekaikou，benyiweitahuiweicigandaonanguo，napazhishiduanzandechenmo，yezuyibiaomingtaduizheiduanganqinghaishangcunyisiwendu。
sheizhi，tazhishibuxiedelengchi，
“qinjiangchengnishibushiyoubing？nimazhongbingwochuang，niqueweilegenwoduqizhoutasi？younizheimedangerzidema？”
“zaizhe，wozoudeshihoutahaihaoduanduande，zenmeshuosijiusile？zhenshisahuangliandoubuhong！”
tawukenaihedetanxi，fangfowoshigeduomewuliqunaoderen。
wobukezhixindeyaoleyaotou。
tanengweichenjiaxuandeyiju“gouzoudiule”huangdelianxiedouchuanfan，queduiwotonghongdeyankuanglengchaorefeng。
yuanlaizaitaxinli，gouzhuayinbixuemaiqinqinggengzhideshenxin，chenjiaxuandezhiyanpianyu，yeyongyuanbiwoguntangdezhenxingengyoufenliang。
jianwobushuohua，chenjiaxuanguolaidayuanchang，
“jiangcheng，zheishibuguaishennian，youshenmenichongzhewolai，shiwodaledianhua，danwulenimendehunli，niyaoguaijiuguaiwo！”
“kewoyebushiyouxinde，lunashiwodeming，shennianshitaiguodanxinwocaichucixiace，jiangchengnibieshengqi，yebienaayideshengsikaiwanxiao，neiyangwohuiguoyibuqu。”
tachuimoucashiyanjiao，zhijianqueyabuzhuzuijiaogouqidehudu。
woyazhusuoyouqingxu，zhandingjietie，“woshuole，womeikaiwanxiao！womatazhendesile！”
chenjiaxuanlengleyimiao，suijizaizijilianshangshuaiqibazhang。
“都是我不好！”
“我不是人！”
“wobugaidaneitongdianhua。”
“wobugaimafanshennian！”
qingcuidexiangshenghuidangbankong，shenniandeyankuanglimahongle，zhuaizhetadabazhangdeshou，zhuantounuchiwo，
“qinjiangcheng，niganma！”
“na**mingzuoyaoxiebugou，hailaiweinanjiaxuan，tayijingzaiweisanfanwucidemafanwoerkuijiunananle，nihaiweileguquanzijidemianzirangtazifa，nifeiyaobarenbidaojuelucaiganxinma！”
bufenqinghongzaobaidezhize，woyishijianwanglehuxi。
可仍旧强撑着辩解，
“womeiyoushuohuang，womatazhendebuzaile，jiuzainizouhoubujiu......”
“够了！”
shenniannumuyuanzheng，shouzhizhewobizidao，
“yongzheizhongxiasanlandeshouduanbihun，qinjiangcheng，wozhenshikancuonile！”
hualuo，zuozaiyizishangdejinmaoturanpuguolai，zhangkouyaozhuwo。
juliedetengtongrangwohuchusheng，shennianquemubuzhuanjingdeanfuchenjiaxuan。
好不容易甩开它。
tayouzhiguzheneizhigouyoumeiyoushoushang，duiwoxueroumohudeshangkoushiruowudu。
chenjiaxuanchongwodeyiyixiao，zhuantounuchijinmao，“budongguiju！”
wokanzheneizhigou，bengairerenlianaidemoyang，cikequetouzhehetazhurenyiyangdejiaozha。
zhishibozishangguazhede18kjinxiangquan，rangwochedidezhengzaiyuandi。
neishiwomashengchijianyongyibeizi，liujiwoheshennianweilaidehaizide。
kecikequeminghuanghuangdiguazaijinmaobozishang。
wozaiyeyabuzhuneixindenuhuo，shenshouxiangbaxiangquanchexialai。
shennianquefenglebanbagouhuzaishenhou，zhijiazaiwoshoubeishangzhuachuxuehen。
“qinjiangcheng，niganma！nizheiyanghuihedaotade！”
“yigepoxiangquan，zhiyunizheimexiaotidazuo？”
“jintianshilunadeshengri，meiyigeshengmingdoupeiyouxiangshouwuzhidequanli，nimeiyouaixinjiusuanle，haifeiyaozaizheizhongrizifafeng，nizenmezheimelengxue！”