第1章
窒息是什么感觉？
koubixiangbeiyishuangdashouwuzhu，wufahuxi，danaoyipiankongbai。
luzhiranpinmingzhengzha，quezhizhuadaoyipiantulao，zhenggerenbeiwujindeshenyuanhenhentuozhuaixiaqu。
“luzhiran，ninaogoulemeiyou？shuningwenroushanliang，zenmekenengtuinixiashui？”
“woyijingweishuningqingfenglegaoming，shengzhihenkuaijiudao，nibianshixunsimihuoyemeiyong。”
lengmodeshengyinzhongzhongzazailuzhiranxinjian，jiangtalahuilexianshi。
她真的......
回到了十年前！
嫁进侯府的第三年。
chuzhengsanniandefujunchuyianzhongyuhuilaile，quedaihuilaiyigemeiqie。
taaijilezheinvzi，jingshiyongtasuoyoudejungongweiqiqingfenggaoming。
zheizhonghuangtangdeshiqing，tazennengtongyi？
nujizhixia，tapaoquyuneinvzililun，quebeiduifangtuirushuizhong，xianxieyansi。
chuyianqueyagenbuxin，rendingshitazidaoziyan，xuyiwumie。
sannianqian，tamenxinhunzhiri，xipingchuanlaijibao，qiangdilaifan，chuyianhaobuyouyupiexiaxinhunqizi，zhudongqingyingchuzhan。
taxinshidandandiduiluzhiranshuo：“woyaolixiazhangong，zhongzhenjiaye，weinizhengyigegaomingfuren！”
tadequelixialezhangong，yezhenghuileyigegaomingfuren，zhibuguobushiweileta。
gangjinglileluoshui，luzhiranxiaolianyipiancangbai，zhenggerendoutouzheyigubukanyizhedejiaoruo。
tamouguangjingjingdikanzheyanqianzhiren，chunjiaogouqiyimojiqiao，“weiqieqingfenggaoming，zhennaihuatianxiazhidaji。”
chuyiandelianshangshanguoyimoyunnu，“woyijiangshuningtaiweipingqi，tabushiqie，nixiuyaozheibanwuruta。”
luzhirandemouguangweidong，“fuqinmuqinyetongyile？”
chuyiandeyandiluchuyimojiaoaozhise，“tamenzirantongyi。shuningbingfeiyibannvzi，tanaiyishuzhuojuedeyinv。”
“nianqian，daqiyuqiangdizaixipingbianjingbaofazhanshi，bishiqiafengxipingdahan，baofahuangzai，baixingkeliwushou，junzhongyexianxieduanlebuji，haifaleguguaiyibing，duokuishuningnachuzhiyifangzi，zheicairangshibingmenhaoqilai，yijujituiqiangdi。”
“talixiadagong，huangshangzantanaijingshinvshenyi，yaorangtadaotaiyiyuanrenzhi，womendouyitaweirong。”
luzhiranweiweichuixiayanjian，yanqulemoudideqingxu。
guoran，yuqianshiyimoyiyang。
houfuchujia，yishixisandai，meiluozhijinzhishengyijukongqiao。
yizhaozhidu，chuyianyijingwufaxijue。kedangchaozhiduzhonghaiyouyitiaojihui，ruozisunhoudaiyouzhongdagongjizhe，kejixushixijuewei。
chuyianhaoburongyidelaidehehejungong，buxiangzhejixuxijue，zhenxingjiazu，fanerjiyigeqieshiqingfenggaoming，xuanpinghouhefurenyikaishigenbenbutongyi。
danzhaoshuninglixiadagong，dehuangshangdalijiajiang，xuanpinghoukandaoletaweilaidayouzaohua，zheicaizhuanbiantaidu，moxulechuyiandeqingfeng。
cijuhuibuhuirangluzhiranzheigezhengqichujingganganankan？
他们从不考虑。
chuyiandemouseyipianwenrou，“zheixietian，tahaiweimuqinshizhen，zhihaolemuqinduoniandepiantoutong，tagongbukemei。”
luzhirantaimou，muguangyutazhishi，neimouguangqinglinglingde，daizhefengruizhiyi。
“zheisannianlai，wohuafeizhongjinqinglejianglaoyuyiweimuqinzhenzhi，youqinzixuele**shoufa，yibujiedai，riyesihou，zheicairangmuqindepiantoutongdaweihaozhuan，erjin，daoquanbuchengletadegonglao。”
chuyianshenseyizhi，xuanjiyouduolejifenlengyi。
“nishichujiaerxi，sihoupomunaishinifenneizhishi，bubizheibankeyiyaogong。”
tadefuchuzaitamendeyanlidoushilisuoyingdang。
luzhiranxintouyizhenexin。
“wosihoupomunaifenneizhishi，tasihoupomujiushitiandadegonglao？jiujingshisheizaikeyiyaogong？”
chuyianyiye，lianshangshanguoyimobeiwunidenuyi。
“niheshibiandezheibanjiansuankebo？shuningjiucongbuhuixiangnizheibanzisixiaai。tashiwojianguozuiwenroushanliangdenvzi，nibujitawanfenzhiyi。”
luzhiranyandiyongchuyiguxiongyongdehenyi。
温柔善良？
zhaoshuningfenmingjiushiyitiaozuiedudedushe！
qianshi，taliyongyishu，bujinxiayaorangzijibeishangbuzhendemingsheng，haixiaduyidiandiancanshizijideshenti。
dangzijishouzhongzuihouyifenchanyeyeluoruzhaoshuningzhishoushi，taqinziduanlaileyiwanduyao，guanjinletadehoulong。
“haojiejie，nihuozaishishangyeshishouzui，jiuanxinquba。nideneixiechanye，wohuitinihaohaodali。”
yanqideshunjian，tayanjingdengdehenda，jiangzhaoshuningneizhengningdeyidezuilianlaolaoyinkedaolexindi......
luzhiranhuxijiculejifen，tafuzhexinkou，yaxianeiguxinji。
yahuancuifuhenshiqifen，“dashaoye，ninzenmenengzheimeduifuren？ninzhibuzhidao，furentaweilenin......”
“cuifu！bubiduoyan。”
chuyianmanlianbuyue，“zhuzishuohua，heshilundaoyigeyahuanchazui？nijiushizheimeguanshuxiarende？shanghuchushenjiushimeiguiju。”
luzhirandeshengmunaishanghuchushen，zigushangjiashenfendijian，qianshitabianyinzheigeshenfenchuchushourengoubing，airenyitou。
luzhiranlenglengfanwen，“buzhizhaoshiyoushishenmemingmenwangzuchushen？”
tabirenherendouqingchu，zhaoshuninggenbenjiushigelailubumingdegunv。
zhenyaolunqichushen，tabizijihaiburu。
chuyianyouxienao，“shuningdeshenfenyelundedaonilaizhiyi？buguantachushenruhe，taxianzaidoushihuangshangqindiandediyiweinvtaiyi，nisuangeshenmedongxi？”
budengluzhirankaikou，tajiushifenbunaifandidao：“wojinrizhishilaigaozhiniyishengbale，niruoxiangwojiniliuyisizhengqidetimian，jiujiwoanfenxie，moyaozhaoshuningdemafan，ruoburan，jiuxiuguaiwoduinibukeqi。”
liaoxiahenhua，chuyianbianfuxiuerqu。
cuifubiemen，“furen，ninweishenmebugaosudashaoye？xipingneichangdazhanbujinjinshineizhaoyinianglixialegong，nindegonglaoyebandianbubitashao！”
danyanyeqidemolei，“duia，neizhaoyiniangbuguoshinachuleyizhangzhiyidefangzi，keshijiurendeyaocai，haiyoujunzhongdeliangcaobuji，doushininpaileshangduisongqudea！ruomeiyouzheixiebuji，guangyoufangziyoushenmeyong？”