kandaohanyingjunfaguolaidexinxi，woganjueyiguchongtiandenuqicongwojiaodideyongquanxuezhichongnaodingdebaihuixue！
woyibaanzhuchengxindetou，qiangpotakanliaotianjilu：
“chengxin，niqinaidebaobeiyueniqucheshangwan，niyaobuyaodayingni？”
chengxinzhengzhazhe，kukuaiqiu：“qiuqiuni，biezheiyang……”
taguzilizhongjiushiyigebaoshoudenvren，dangzhetademiangentadeqingrenliaotiandiaoqing，tajieshoubule，zhenggerendoubengkuile。
“kandaolema，zheijiushiniqinaidebaobei？nishuoniyiyemeishui，tayidiandoubuguanxinnizenmele，shentichibuchidexiao，mannaozidoushikudanglineidianshi，zaitayanli，nigenhuisuolide**youshenmequbie？”
woyanjiaodeleidouliuchulaile。
bushiyinweichengxindebeipanershangxin，ershitizijigandaobuzhi。
woshiruozhenbaodenvren，jingranrucizuojianziji，xinganqingyuanzuobierenfaxieyuwangdegongju？！
zheiyike，wojuedezijijiushiyigexiaochou，shiquantianxiazuikebeizuikexiaozuikeliandexiaochou！
wohualejishiwanbaniqujinmen，fangchanzhengshangzhixienidemingzi，jinixiyizuofandalijiawu，shengbinglecunbubulidezhaogu，gongziquandoushangjiao，buhejiubuxiyanbugenrengaoaimei，shenzhinishuoshangbantaileijianbangbushufu，wo**zixue**bangnijianya……
shuoshipengzaishoulipashuaile，hanzaizuilipahuale，yebuweiguoba？
zhouweirenshidepengyoudouxiaomawoshichongqikuangmo，shuowoshitamenxifuzuilishuode“bierenjiadelaogong”……
我为你做的还少吗？
kewozuihoudedaoleshenme？
nidequeshizaizuojianniziji，dannigengshizaiwuruwoa！
wodeyipianzhenqing，douweigoulema？
wojuedezijijiushiyigedashabi，shitiandixiazuiyuchunzuishibaizuikebeidechaojiwudidashabi！
woshuangshouqiazhulechengxindebozi，kanzhetawufahuxi，kanzhetawulidezhengzha……
wodemuguangbingleng，meiyourenheganqing。
woyiweizijikeyihenlizhidechulizheijianshi，jiuxiangshushangshuode，jibianbuaile，yebuyinggaiyouhen。
但我真的做不到。
beizijizuizaihuzuiqinjinzuixinrenderenbeipan，neizhongziwei，chulehen，haishihen。
weijingtarenku，moquantarenshan。
ruguobushijingchongshangnaodehanyingjun“jishi”faxinxiguolai，wobuzhidaozijihuibuhuizhendeqiasichengxin。
“咳咳咳……”
wosongkaileshou，chengxintandaozaidishang，juliedekesouzhe，wangxiangwodeyanshenliyouleyisikongju。
youneimeyishunjian，taganjuezijiyaosile。
neigecengfashihuiyibeizizhaoguta、baorongta、duitahaodenanren，jingranduitaqileshaxin？！
她真的有点怕了。
我打开程心的手机。
dagaishiyinweitayizhimeiyouhuifu，hanyingjunyoufaleyitiaoxinxiguolai：haoba，zhidaonifangbukai，womenhaishiqujiudianba。
wolenglengdepielechengxinyiyan。
zheigenvrenyouyanbujin，zuibayingdehen，xiangcongtazuiliqiaochuhuatainanle。
jiranruci，neijiuconghanyingjunzuilitaohuaba。
wokaishishezhiyuyanxianjing，youmudexingdeyoudaohanyingjun“zibao”，yicilaishoujigengduodezhengju。
chengxin：shijianguodezhenkuai，nihaijidewomenshicongshenmeshihoukaishidema？
hanyingjun：dangranjide，qianniandongtianzaiduibu，wozhijindoujideniyujuhaiyingdeyangzi，mireneryou**。
……
shuozhende，woyoudiangaoguhanyingjunle。
zheigegouzasuigenbenbuyongwotaohua，tazijijiubaochuhenduoyouyongdexinxi。
dangran，gengduodeshilaji，zhuru“genwozuoshufuma”、“yihoubudaixiaoyusanhaobuhao”zhileide，zhijiebeiwowushidiaole。
zhiyaozhengmingtamenlianggehunneichuguijiukeyile。
至于过程——
wobuguanxinyebuxiangzhidao，yinweizhidaodeyueduoyueexin。
hanyingjunshichengxindezhijielingdao。
tamenlianggezaiyiqiyinianduole，dangshichengyingjungangjiehunbujiu，chengxinhaicengqucanjialetadehunli……
congjicengdeshengchangangweiyizhidaojiguanli，liangrenhuxiangfuchi，nishengyijiwoshengyiji，xianzainandeshizhuren，nvdeshiguanlihouqindegujiganbu。
chengxinzaiyixianchengshiduanlianguo，huidaoluochengzheizuosanxianxiaocheng，bunengshuojiangweidaji，danyoushihaishihenmingxiande，buguanshigongzuonenglihaishiweirenchushi，tadouyourenyouyu。
zaijicenggongzuodeshihou，tabahenshaoyourennengguanlimingbaideziliaodengsuosuidegongzuo，dalidejingjingyoutiao，dedaolelingdaodekending。
youyici，shangjilingdaobumenjubanleyiciyanjiangdasai。
danweiderenweikongbizhibuji，nengduojiuduo，nengtuijiutui，sheidoubuyuanyijiezheigechilibutaohaodegongzuo。
jieguo，dalingdaofahuale，jiranmeiyourenzhudongchengdan，neijiuyingxingtanpaiba。
dangshichengxinzaidanweilidejiaoseyoudianleisi“chubeiganbu”，zhengchuyukaochaqi，yushizheigechashijiuluodaoletashenshang。
haoqiaobuqiaodeshi，wobazaituixiuqianshimoudanweiguanxuanchuankoude，zheizhongkoujingdeyanjiangduilaoyezilaishuoxiaocaiyidie，xinshounianlai。
tahualelianggeduoxiaoshi，xieleyipianshengqingbingmaodeyanjianggao。
quanwenjinkouzhutiguandian，congchengxindaxuexuexishengyakaishi，huigulezaiyixianchengshifendoudapindegongzuojingli，zaidaoxinxijiaxiangzhiyuanjiaxiangjianshe，zuihouluodiandaoshenweirenmujianshangdeshuangzhongzeren……
zheipianyanjianggaozhiliangguoying，benshenjiufeichangchucai。
zaijiashangchengxinchengshuwenzhong、youyadafangdeqizhixingxiang，qitacanjiayanjiangderendoushi**，chuncuishiweilezouguochang，suoyoudeyiqiedouchengletashengmingqueqidebeijingban。
meiyoushenmeyiwai，chengxinyingdelemantanghecai，xiongdidanweidoulaidaohe，lingdaolianshangfeichangyouguang，tadeshitugejuyixiazidakaile。
danrangwoxiangbumingbaideshi，tadeshituyijingpuhaole，zhiyaoanbujiubandegongzuojiukeyi，weishenmehaiyaomaozheimedadefengxianhunneichuguini？
生理需求？
不可能！
chengxinconglaidoubushiyigeyouyuwangderen，talianwodouweibubao，nahaiyoushenmeyulini？
内心空虚？
大概有一点。
wobaitianmanggongzuo，wanshanghuilaidaihaizi，haizishuilehaiyaogaofuyezhengwaikuaibutiejiayong。
zidahaizichushengyihou，woduichengxinjingshenshangdeguanhuaiqueshibiyiqianshaole。
dancongliaotianneironglaikan，zheiduigounannvgengduodeshiyizhongshiyeshangdehuobanguanxi，wofuzechuligongzuo，nifuzedadianguanxi，nixianshengqian，ranhoutuiwoyiba……
zhiyunannvneidianshi，doushichengnianren，gequsuoxubale。
wozhengzaisikaozhe，hanyingjunyoufaguolaiyitiaoxinxi：baobeier，fangbianshipinma？
wokanleyiyanchengxin，huifuleyigezi：ng。
xinxigangfachuqu，duifangdeshipinqingqiujiufasongguolaile。