diyibufen：xieziyuhuiyidesuipiandiyizhang“linzhou，nidangzhenrucijueqing？”vipbingfangnei，
xiaodushuideqiweiqinglengercibi，xindianjianhuyifachuguilvde“didi”sheng，
xiangzaiweiyiduanbinsideganqingdaoshujishi。xuqingranbanchengzheshenti，sanniandechenshuirangtashoudezhishengxiayibagutou，
kuandadebinghaofukongkongdangdangdiguazaishenshang。tadeshengyinsiya、cuiruo，meiyigezidoudaizhezhandou，
fangfoyipengjiuhuisuilie。tademuqinlilanfuzheta，yishuangtonghongdeyanjingxiangdaoziyiyangwanzaiwoshenshang，
haobuyanshitadehenyi：“chusheng！qingranweinitangzaizheilisannian，nidaohao，zaiwaimianfengshengshuiqi，
xianzaitaxingle，nihaiyoulianlaitifenshou？nideliangxinbeigouchilema！”womianwubiaoqingdizhanzaibingchuangsanbuzhiwai，
zheishiyigejingguojisuande、jinengqingxijiaoliuyoubuzhiyuchanshengzhitijiechudeanquanjuli。duiyulilanderuma，
wodeneibuchuliqijiangqipandingwei“wuyiyide、youguoduqingxuhuayinfadeyinpinxinxi”，zidongyuyiguolv。
wozhishikanzhexuqingran，neigezaiwoshujukuzhongbiaozhuwei“qianqi”denvren。“xuqingrannvshi，
”woyongzuigongshihuadeyuqikaikou，shengyinpingwendexiangaibobao，
“genjusannianqianwomengongtongqianshude《hunyinguanxizhongzhijicaichanfengexieyi》，
niwozhijiandesuoyouzerenyuyiwujunyizhongjie。nixianzaixinglai，huifujiankang，wohengaoxing。jincieryi。
”“xieyi？”xuqingrandeyanzhongyongchudakedeleizhu，shunzhetacangbaidelianjiahualuo，“womenzhijianzhiyouhunshu，
nalaidexieyi！linzhou，nikanzhewodeyanjing！niwangle……niwanglewomenzainanshandaxuechengdeyuye，
fenzhechideneibangekaohongshuma？”“kaohongshu”zheigeguanjianci，
rangwodehexinchuliqichuanlaiyizhenxiweide、wufajiexidecitong。
unidentifiedemotionalecho]……woxiayishidizhoulezhoumei，
zheizhongchaochuzhangkongdeganjuerangwobuyue。“guoqudeshi，meiyouyiyi。”woqiangxingyaxianeiguyichangdeshujuliu，
“wojintianlai，shijinzuihoudeyiwu，querenniyisuxingqieshenzhiqingxing。zheizhangkaliyouyiqianwan，
zuoweinihouxudekangfufeiyong，mimashinideshengri。congci，womenliangbuxiangqian。
”wojiangyizhangheisedeyinxingkafangzaichuangtoujushang，jinshuyubolipengzhuang，fachuyishengqingcuierbinglengdeshengxiang。
“wobuyaonidechouqian！”lilanmengdidadiaoneizhangka，lishengjianjiao，“nijiwogun！
womenjiajiusuanshizaguomaitie，yeyangdeqiqingran！nizheigebaiyanlang，gun！”xuqingranmeiyoukuhan，
tazhishisisididingzhewo，fangfoyaokanchuanwozheifupinangzhixia，shifouhaizangzhetashuxideneigelinghun。
tazuichunxidong，yongjinquanshenliqiwendao：“niqiuhundeshihou，jiezhidiaozaidishang，
nixianggeshaguayiyangzhaolebantian……niyewanglema？”xitongrizhidejinggaoshunjianbianchenglehongse，
[fatalerror:corelogicconflict!]。
neigucitongbiandejianrui，wowufazaizaizheilidaixiaqu。“haohaoxiuyang。”wodiuxiazheisigezi，zhuanshenjiuzou，
bufameiyouyisiyihaodeliulian。shenhou，shixuqingranyayibuzhude、chedibengkuidetongku，
yijililanneijujihuyaojiangwodingsizaiyuandidezuzhou：“linzhou，nihuihouhuide！niyidinghuihouhuide！
”womeiyouhuitou。houhui？neishishenme？buguoshirenleidanaozhongyizhonghaowujiazhiderongyuqingganbale。
dierzhangwozuojinlaosilaisidehouzuo，dingjipigedeqiweihewanmeidegeyinshunjianjiangbingfanglidexuanxiaogejuezaiwai。
chenei，zhiyouwopingwendexintiaohehuxisheng。“xiansheng，huiyundingbieshuma？”sijigongjingdiwen。“ng。
”wobishangyan，shituzhongqiyinweigangcaide“shujuyichang”eryouxiechizhidesiwei。chezipingwendihuarucheliu。
wozhengkaiyan，wuyishidikanxiangxuanguazaihoushijingshangdeyigeguajian。neishiyigeshougongbianzhidepinganjie，
yangshilaojiu，hongsedeshengziyijingxidefabai，yuzheiliangchedeshehuaneishigegeburu。
zheishisannianqianneiliangjiucheshangweiyibeiwobaoliuxialaidedongxi。weishenmebaoliu？wodeluojiwufajieshi，
huoxuzhishiyinweitayizhiguazaineili，yichutaxuyaoewaixiayigezhiling，suoyiwohulvele。
woguishishenchadishenchushou，zhijianchupengdaoneigepinganjie。jiuzaineiyishunjian，chechuangwai，
haowuzhengzhaodikaishixiaqileyu。doudadeyudianzazaibolishang，fachupilipaladeshengxiang。
pmemoryplaybacksequence...]wodedanao“weng”deyisheng，
yanqiandeyiqieshunjianbeichouli，querdaizhide，shiyipianchaoshierwennuandeheian。……neishiqinianqiandedongtian，
tongyangshiyigezheiyangnaorendeyuye。wohexuqingranbeikunzailenanshandaxuechengwaiyitiaolaojiudexiangzili，
toudingshishangpushenchude、zhaizhaideyupeng，mianqiangnengzhezhuyipianxiaoxiaodeganzaodimian。yushuishunzhepengdingdebianyuan，
xiangyidaozhulianbanchuiluo。“douguaini，feiyaolawochulaiguangyeshi，zheixiahaole，chengluotangjile。
”xuqingranduozhejiao，zuilibaoyuanzhe，yishuangyanjingqueliangdexiangzangzhexingxing，zaiweiruodeludengxiashanshanfaguang。
woyouxiejiongpodinaonaotou，dangshidewo，haishigeyiqiongerbaidedaxuesheng，doulisuoyoudeqianjiaqilai，
zhigoumaiyigekaohongshu。“nizaizheidengzhe，biedong。
”wobashenshangweiyihaisuanganshuangdewaitaotuoxialaipizaitashenshang，ranhouyitouzhajinleyumuli。jifenzhonghou，
wopengzheyigeguntangdekaohongshupaolehuilai，xiangpengzheshenmejueshizhenbao。“kuaichi，rehude。
”wobahongshudijita，zijizezaiyipangjiazhuangzhenglishitoudetoufa，qiaoqiaoyanleyankoushui。
hongshubeikaodewaipijiaohei，neiliquejinhuangliuyou。xuqingranxiaoxinyiyidibaikai，
yiguxiangtiande、daizheyanhuoqiderelangpumianerlai。tameiyouzijichi，
ershijianggengda、gengtiandeneiyibandidaolewodezuibian，xiaodemeiyanwanwan：“yirenyiban，caibuhuisan。
”wolengzhule，kanzhetabeidongdeyouxiefahongdebijianheneishuangqingchejiandideyanjing，
xinzangxiangshibeiyizhiwennuandeshouzuanzhu，mengdiloutiaoleyipai。wozhangkaizui，yaoxianeikoutiannuodehongshu，
ganjuecongshejianyizhinuandaolexinli。yushenghenda，shijiehenchao，danwomenfenxiangzhetongyigekaohongshu，
zaineigexiaoxiaodewuyanxia，fangfoyongyoulequanshijie。taxiaokouxiaokoudichizhe，hurantaitouwenwo：“linzhou，
yihouwomenhuizenmeyang？”wokanzheyumuzhongmohudechengshinihong，renzhendishuo：“yihou，wohuinulizhuanqian，
jinimaidafangzi，maipiaoliangchezi，maihaoduohaochide，kaohongshuwomenmailiangge，yirenyige。”tatingwan，
queyaoleyaotou，bazuihouyikouhongshuweijiwo，qingshengshuo：“wobuyao，wojiuxihuanfenzhechi。yinweiwozhidao，
niyidinghuibazuitiandeneikuaijiwo。”……“xiansheng？xiansheng？
”sijidehuhuanjiangwocongneiduanmoshengdeshujuliuzhongjingxing。womengdihuiguoshen，
faxianzijibuzhiheshiyijingjinjinzuanzhuleneigepinganjie，zhijieyinweiguoduyonglierfabai。wodelianshang，
bingliangyipian。wotaishouyimo，zhijianjingzhanranleshirundehenji。
identifyemotionalsource.]wokanzhechuangwaifeisudaotuidejiejing，
diyiciduizijineiyinyiweiaode、jueduilixingdeluoji，chanshenglehuaiyi。ruguojiyizhendekeyibeichediqingchu，
neixianzai……zaiwoxinzangliliucuandezheiguzhuorede、suansede、jihuyaojiangwoyanmeideshujuhongliu，youshishenme？
dierbufen：shenhaixiadejiaoyidisanzhangyundingbieshuzuoluozaichengshidezuigaochu，judadeluodichuangwai，
shicuicanruyinhedewanjiadenghuo。renheyizhandengbeihou，huoxudouyouyigewennuandegushi。erzheili，
zhiyoubinglengde、bowuguanbandesiji。wozoujinjiamen，ganyingdengguangzhuyiliangqi，rouhequehaowuwendu。
zhinengguanjia“tianshu”yongdianzihechengyinbaogao：“xiansheng，huanyinghuilai。shineihengwen22sheshidu，
shidu55%，kongqizhiliangyou。wancanyibeihao，shifouxianzaixiangyong？”“bubi。”wojingzhizouxiangshufang，
naozhonghaizaihuixiangzheneiduanbuqingzilaide“shujuliu”。neiduanguanyukaohongshudejiyi，xijieqingxidekepa，
fangfowoqinshenjingli。kewodeluojigaosuwo，zheibukeneng。wodeguoqu，yinggaishiyipianbeigeshihuahoudekongbai。
wozuozaidiannaoqian，shizhirufei。zuoweirujinkejilingyudejutou，woyongyoushijiedingjideziyuanhesuanli。
“tianshu，qidongaresxieyi，duiwojinxingshendunaojijiekousaomiao，
jianceshifoucunzaijiyizhiruhuoshujucuan्रुdehenji。”“zhilingshoudao，aresxieyiqidong。
”yidaorouhedelanguangcongpingmushangfangshechu，saomiaowodeyanqiuhetaiyangxue。jifenzhonghou，
yifenxiangjindebaogaochengxianzaipingmushang。【saomiaobaogao：weifaxianwaibuzhiruhenji。weifaxianshujucuangai。
hexinjiyiqucunzaiyichusjijiamishujuzhenkong，zhuangtai：wending。
jinggao：jiancedaobianyuanquyucunzaidalianggaoqiangduqinggancanliusuipian，luojishangyuhexinjiyiqudezhenkongzhuangtaixiangbei。
jianyijinxinggeshihuaqingli。】qinggancanliu……suipian？jiuxiangbeishanchudewenjian，suiranzhutibujianle，
quezaiyingpanshenchuliuxialewufachedimoqudehenji。jintianzaiyiyuanhecheliganshoudaodecitong，
jiushizheixiesuipianbeiyiwaijihuodejieguo。womeiyouxialingqingli。
yinweiyigegengzhongyaodewentifuxianzaiwonaozhong：neipianbeijiamideshujuzhenkongli，jiujingshishenme？
wodiaoqulesannianlaiwosuoyoudejiamiwenjian。zhongyu，zaiyigeyiwufapoyidesuanfamingmingdewenjianjiashenchu，
wozhaodaoleyifenbeibiaojiwei“zuigaoquanxian”dexieyi。《jiyizichan**xieyi》。
dangzheijigeziyingruyanlianshi，woquanshendemeiyigexibaodoufangfofachulejingbao。wodiankaita，
binglengdedianziwenzi，kaishixiangwojieshineigebeiwoqinshoumaizangdeguoqu。erwodesixu，
yesuizhibeilahuileneigediyubandeqidian。disizhangsannianqian。jizhenshiwaidezhanglang，dengguangbaideciyan，
jiangrendeyingziladeyouxiyouzhang。“bingrennaobuzaoshouzhongchuang，suiranzanshibaozhulexingming，
dan……yijingjinruleshenduzhiwurenzhuangtai。”yishengzhaixiakouzhao，lianshangshigongshihuadetongqing，
“taxinglaidekenengxing……hendi。houxudeweichizhiliaohekangfuhuli，feiyongfeichanggaoang，nimenjiashu，
yaoyouxinlizhunbei。”neiyike，woganjuezhenggeshijiedeshengyindouxiaoshile。wofengleyiyangdikaishichouqian。
womaidiaolewomenyiqizanqianmaixiadexiaofangzi，neigewomenqinshoubuzhi，qiangshanghaitiezhetaxihuandeqiangzhidedifang。
qian，zhigouiculiyigeyuedefeiyong。wofangxiasuoyoudezunyan，quqiubianlesuoyounengchengwei“qinqi”deren。
tamendaduotanzheqi，quanwofangqi，shuowojiusuantianjinquyibeizi，yezhishituozheyifumeiyoulinghundequqiao。
zuihou，tamenkeqidisaijiwojiqiankuaiqian，xiangdafayigeqigai。woxiangyinxingdaikuan，kewoyiwusuoyou，
meiyourenhediyawu，beikehujinglikeqidiqinglechulai。
woshenzhixiangguoqujiechuneixiechirenbutugutoude**，kewokanzhebingchuangshangxuqingranneizhanganjingdeshuilian，
youfangqile。wozhidao，taruguoxingzhe，juebuhuiyunxuwozoushangneitiaobuguilu。duanduanyigeyue，
wocongyigeduiweilaichongmanxiwangdeqingnian，bianchengleyigebeixianshibirujuejingdekunshou。neitianwanshang，
wozuozaiyiyuanloutideguaijiao，kanzheshoulidecuifeidan，shangmiandeshuzixiangyizuowoyongyuanyefanbuguoqudedashan。
juewang，rutongbinglengdehaishui，meiguolewodetouding，rangwowufahuxi。jiuzaizheishi，
wopangbianyigetongyangqiaocuidenanren，youyoudikailekou。“xiaoxiongdi，xiangjiunilimianderenma？”womeiyoulita。
taqueziguzidishuo：“wozhidaoyougedifang，tamenbuyaoqian，buyaodiya，shenmedoubuyao……”tadunledun，
shengyinyadejidi，xiangmoguidesiyu，“……tamenzhiyaoni‘zuibaogui’dedongxi。”wodexinzangmengdiyitiao，
taiqitou。tacongkoudailimochuyizhangchunheisede、meiyourenheziyangdekapian，
saidaowoshouli：“yongnideshoujisaoyixia。jizhu，yidanzoujinneishanmen，jiuzaiyehuibuletoule。”shuowan，
tabiantuozhepibeidejiaobu，xiaoshizailezhanglangjintou。wohuidaoxuqingrandebingchuangqian，wozhetabinglengdeshou。
kanzhetadelian，wodenaohailiquanshiwomenguoqudediandiandidi。neigezaiyuyehewofenshiyigehongshudenvhai，
neigezaiwoqiuhunshikudeyitahutudenvhai，neigeshuoyaopeiwoyibeizidenvhai……zheixiejiyi，
shiwozaizheibinglengshijieshang，weiyiyongyoude、zuibaoguidecaifu。wozhandouzheshou，
yongshoujisaomiaoleneizhangheisekapian。pingmushunjianbeiyipianshensuidelansesuozhanju，
yigexuanzhuandexuanwozaizhongyangfuxian，xiafangchuxianyixingzi：【shenhaijiyiyinxing：jiaoyininduoyudeqinggan，
huanquninjixudeweilai。】diwuzhangmeiyoushitidianmian，meiyoukefudianhua。
zaitongguoleyixiliefuzadeluojiyuxinliceshihou，wojinruleyigejiamidexunihuikeshi。
yigeyouwushulanseguangdianzuchengde、kanbuqingmianrongderenxinglunkuochuxianzaiwoduimian。“linzhouxiansheng，wanshanghao。
”tadeshengyinpingjing，budairenheganqing，“womenyijingpinggulenindexuqiu。sanqianwanxinyongdian，
zuyizhifuxuqinggarannvshiweilaishiniandingjideshengmingweichiyukangfufeiyong。xianzai，
womenxuyaoduininsuoyongyoude‘jiyizichan’jinxingguzhi。”“jiyi……zichan？”“shide，
”guangyingrenhuida，“rendemeiyiduanjiyi，youqishichengzaizheqianglieqinggandejiyi，
doushiduyiwuerdebaoguizichan。tamenkeyibeitiqu、fengcun，shenzhi……jiaoyijiyouxuyaoderen。biru，
yigecongweitiyanguoaiqingdefuhao，huozheyigexuyaotedingqingganlaijifalinggandeyishujia。
”wodexueyeshunjianninggule。zheiyijingchaochulewoderenzhi，gengxiangshiyizhongjinjidewushu。
“genjuwomendechubusaomiao，ninshenshangzuibaoguidezichan，jiushiguanyu‘xuqingran’desjihexinjiyi。
tabaohanlenimencongxiangshidaoxiangai，suoyoukegumingxindeshunjian。tadejiazhi，ganghaoshisanqianwanxinyongdian。
”wochenmole，xinzangzaijuliedichouchu。maidiao……guanyuqingrandejiyi？zheiyiweizhe，
wojiangwangjitaliangruxingchendeyanjing，wangjitawennuandexiaorong，wangjitashuoguoaiwo。
wojiangbianchengyige……meiyouguoqudemoshengren。neigeshenaizhetadelinzhou，jiangcongzheigeshijiebeichedimoqu。
“linzhouxiansheng，ninxuyaomingbai，”guangyingrensihukanchuanlewodeyouyu，“ninzhishizanshi‘jicun’。
genjuxieyi，weilaininsuishikeyiyongshibeidejiageshuhui。dangran，qiantishi，nindeyouneigenengli。
”shibeidejiage，sanyi。zheiwuyishiyigerangwojuewangdeshuzi。dantayouxiangyisiduyaobandexiwang，
zhuruwodexindi。yexu……wanyi……woweilaizhendenengzhuandaoneimeduoqianni？
“ninhaiyouyigexiaoshideshijiankaolv。”guangyingrenshuowan，bianjinglizaiyipang，rutongyigenaixindelieshou。
neiyigexiaoshi，shiworenshengzhongzuimanzhangdejianao。wokanzheshoujiliwomenweiyidehezhao，
zhaopianshangdewomenxiaodeneimexingfu。woyibianyouyibiandifumozhetadelian，shitujiangtadeyangzikejinwodegusui。
zuihou，woduizhezhaopian，qingshengshuoleyijuwozijidoutingbuqingdehua：“qingran，wanglewo，ranhou……huoxiaqu。