第一章陌生女人
我母亲这辈子很苦。
tingwofuqinshuowomuqinnianqingdeshihouzhangdeshifenpiaoliang，shilibacunderendouzhidaowomuqin，suanshiyinweipiaoliangerchumingle，neishihouzhuiwomuqinderenhenduo，haobukuazhangdeshuogenxianzaidexiaomingxingyiyang，zoudaonalidouyourendashanweiguan。
houlaiyebuzhidaofashengleshenme，womuqinjuranaishangleyigeshifenputongdexiaohuozi，erqieliangrenhaishunlidejiehunle，zheigexiaohuozijiushiwofuqin。
lianggewanquanbudagangderenzaiyiqile，shuojubuhaotingde，youdianxianhuachaniufendeyisi，wairenwanquanbuzhidaowomuqintusha，buguocunzilimianderenshuohuawanzhuandian，doushuowofuqinzoulebabeizidayunle，dequeshizoudayunle，lianwofuqinzijidouzheimeshuo。
kesheiyemeixiangdaowomuqinhuaitaishiyue，zaishengwoneitianwanshang，wofuqintingdaowowawadakuzhihou，manxinhuanxidegangpaojinfangjian，wofuqinjiushayanle。
chuangshangmanshixianxue，erwomuqinbujianle。
cunzilimiandejieshengpomanlianshabaitanzuozaidishang，yishoulouzhewawadakudewo，lingwaiyishouzhizhepangbiandakaidechuanghu，zhizhiwuwude，hedewanquanshuobuchuhualaile。
wofuqinjimangyikan，faxianchuanglianbeishenmedongxizhuapole，hendadezhuayin，yitiaozhangzhangdaizhexuejidetuohencongchuangshangyanshenerxia，yizhicongdakaidechuanghushangtuolechuqu。
meicuo，womuqinshengwoshixueguoduo，xuexingweiyinlaileshanlimianjiedeyeshou，zhangzhexuependakoujiubawomuqintuozoule，erwomuqinzhishiwangzhewo，yongshoucheduanlehaimeilaidejijianduandeqidai，shengpachaodaowodemeiyoujiaoyisheng。
wofuqinmanyantonghong，adedajiaoleyisheng，zhuaqijialimiandechutoujiuzhuilechuqu，zhuileyiye，zaishanlimianzhaoleyiye，zuihouwofuqinhaoxiangdiulehunyiyang，tuozheyitiaoxuelinlindechangzihuilaile。
zheichangzishiwomuqinde，shineixieyeshouchishengxiade。
neitianwofuqinkule，kudesixinliefei，zhenggecunzilimianderendoutingdedaowofuqindekusheng，zheishijiewochushengdejieshengpogaosuwode。
woshiqulewomuqin，zaiwochushengbudaoyitianjiuyongyuanshiqule，wohenneixieshanlimiandeyeshou，houlaiwoshangxiaoxuekaishi，meitianwanshangfangxuejiutoutounazhechutoushangshan，woxiangzhaodaoneizhichilewomuqindeyeshou，woyaoshaletaweiwomuqinbaochou。
yuwoyixinbaochoubutongdeshi，wofuqinzicongneiyiyeguohou，jingchangyigerenduozaifangjianlimian，bushiwofuqinyinweishoudaodajierzibaoziqi，ershitabiandeshifenhaoxuele，chulenonghuozhiwai，meiciwojinqujiaotachifantadouzaikanshu，kanshudeshenqingsidongfeidongdeyangzi，woyiweitazaimabiziji。
zhenghao，tameitianduozaifangjianlimian，zhenghaojilewoshangshandejihui。
kehaojingbuzhang，zhidaowoshiersuideshihou，woxiangwangchangyiyangnazhechutoutoutoushangshandeshizhongyubeiwofuqinkandaole，wofuqinpaoguolaijiuhenhendeshuailewoyibazhang，“nigebuxiaozi，niniangqule，niyexianggenniniangyiqiqu？”
wokuzheshuo，“woxiangwoma，woyaoweiwomabaochou！”
wofuqinyanjingtonghongdekanzhewo，yishigengyan。
doushineixieyeshouchushenggande，wohensuoyouyeshou，shuozhewojiudiuxiachutoupaolehuiqu，congneizhihou，womeitianwanshangfangxuehuijiadediyijianshihaishinazhechutoushangshan，fuqinbaitianzuowannonghuo，qiyudeshijianyijiushidaizaifangjianlimianbuchulaile，erqiegengjiabianbenjialile，talianfandoubuzuo，zhengtianjiudaizaifangjianlimian，ouerkanwoyiyan，yeshibuganmianduiwodepiankaishixian。
woduiwofuqinshiwangle，muqinzoulezheimeduonian，tabudanbujimuqinbaochou，haizuzhiwojimuqinbaochou，tarangwoshiwang。
zheiyangdeta，muqindangnianzenmehuijiajita？？woqingyuanzijibuchusheng，yebuyaowomuqindangnianjiajita！
congcizhihou，womeiyouhewofuqinzaiduoshuoguoyijuduoyudehua，woyeyiweiwofuqinhuiyibeizidaizaifangjianlimiantaobiyibeizi，danzhidaoyouyitianzaoshang，taxingchongchongdepaolechuqu。
wolengzhule，duiwobuguanbugudesantianhou，tacaihuilaile，yilianhongguangmanmian，haoxiangxiaosadeduguolesantianyukuaideriziside，erqieshenbianhaidaihuilaiyigepiaoliangdenvren，nianjihenxiao，kenengjiushibajiusui。
kandaowofuqinshenbianturanyouzheimeyigenvren，erqiehaidaihuijiale，wofuqinjuranzhaozhibiwodajisuidenvren？？
zheigenvrenzhishilengmodekanlewoyiyan，meiyoushuorenhehua，jiuzhijiekanxianglewofuqin。
wofuqinyiliantaohaodedaizhezheigenvrenhuidaoletadefangjian，erqiehaiguanshanglemen，shiduonianle，wodiyicikandaofuqinxiao，haishiduiqitanvrende，wozhenshilengzhule。
wofuqindanshenleshiernian，turandainvrenhuijiale，yishijiancunzilimianliuyanfeiyule，shuowofuqinbielezheimeduonian，zhongyurenbuzhuyaozhaoxinhuanle，erqiehaizhaodaole，haishuowofuqindezhenshizoudayunle，yunqizenmezheimehao，juranyouzhaodaoleyigemeinv。
woxinzhongfennu，weiwomuqingengjiagandaobuzhi，womuqindangnianzenmehuikanshangta？
womeiyouquguantale，wohaishinazhechutoushangshan，wozhunbeishaleneizhichiwomuqindeyeshouwojiulikaizheili，yinweizheigeyuanbenshuyuwomuqindejiaxianzaizhujinleqitadenvren，zheiliyebushuyuwole。
santian，zheigenvrenzhengzhengdaizaiwofuqinfangjianlimiansantian，caizaizaoshanglikai，woqinyankandaotalikaide。
wofuqincongfangjianlimianzouchulaigengshiyilianpibei，shenzhihaiduizheigenvrenyiyibushedekanzhezheigenvrenzouyuan，sihuyuyanyouzhideyangzi。
wokanbuxiaqulezhuanshenzhunbeihuiwuli，wofuqinjiaozhulewo，womeilita，tazouleguolai，jiangwodeshentizhuanguolai，ranhoudunxialaikanzhewoshuo，“shiersuile，guoleshiernianle，……”
wofuqindeshengyinhenqing，haoxiangzainannanziyu，“nizhangdale，yihouyaodongshilezhidaoma？”
“nixiangganwozouchuqunizhishuo。”wokanzhetashuo。
wofuqinmolemowodeyaotou，“yihouyaotinghua。”
tashuowanzheihuajiuzhuanshenhuidaolefangjianlimian，zheijuhuacongtakouzhongshuochulai，wozenmekenengtingjinqu？xinzhongduitagengjiayuanhen，womeiyoulihuidezhijiehuidaozijifangjianlimian。
kewomeiyouxiangdaozheihuishiwofuqinjiwoshuodezuihouyijuhua，dangtianwanshangwozaishuijuedeshihou，turanyishengzhuangjisheng，haoxiangyigedadongxichongjinwuzilimianlaile。
wolimajingxingle，zhuaqichuangbiandechutoujiudakaimenpaolechuqu。
danchulaideshihou，wokandaolewoyibeiziyewangbuledeyimu，wokandaoleyizhiyanjingmaozhelvguangdeyeshoudiaozheyigemanshenshixuedexueren。
tiantaiheilewokanbuqingzheiyeshoudeyangzi，danzheigexuerenshiwofuqin！
tachilewomuqinrujinyouguolaichiwofuqin！wofafengsidepaoleguoqu。
wofuqinmanshixuesideyanjingkanzhewo，hunshenshixuedeta，lianshangmeiyoutongku，zhiyouxiyue，haoxiangqujianxiangnianhenjiuderendeneizhongxiyue，“shiernianle，lihua，wozhongyulaizhaonile……”
“爸，爸……”
wokuzhedajiao，yongchutouzata，danzheizhiyeshoufalvdeyanjingkanlewoyiyan，jiudiaozhewofuqinjiuchaoshanshangpaoqu，wodajiaoleyisheng，pinmingzhui。
ketapaodetaikuaile，henkuaiwojiuzhuibushangle，kanzhedishangdedaizhexuejidetuohen，wodashengku，bianpaobianku，wozhaoleyiye，zhidaocunzilimianderenzhaoleshanglai，tamenzhaodaolewo，erwokanzhecaoconglimian，yitanjiazazhesuiroudexianxueyijingshayanle。
cunzilimianderendaiwoxiashan，wodaizaikongdangdangdewuzilimiansantiansanye，womuqinshengxiawojiubeiyeshouchile，wofuqinrujinyebeichile，wochengguerle。
santianwomeichimeihe，zhidaoxuexiaolimiandelaoshiguolaizhaowo，caifaxianwoyijinghunmiguoqu，zhihoudeshiwobuzhidao，houlaitingwolaoshishuotasongwoquyiyuanwohunmileyigexingqicaixingguolai。
congyiyuantoutouchulai，wojuedingbudushule，suanshizhijiechuoxuele，yinweiwofuqinzoule，womeiyoushenmeqinqi，wobixuyanghuoziji，wohaiyaoshaleneizhiyeshou！
shitarangwochengweiguerde！woyaorangtaxuezhaixuechang！
zijiyigerencongyiyuanzouhuijia，kanzhezheigecongcikongdangdangdejia，woyanjinghongle，woliuzheyanleituikaizijijiademen，yigedandandeshengyinjiuzaiwuzilimianxiangqi，“ganshenmequle？zheimejiucaihuijia？”
tingdaozheigeshengyinwolengzhule，zhijianwojialimianbuzhidaoshenmeshihouyouyigeshibajiusuidenvrenle，zheigenvrenzuozaiyizishang，yilianlengmodewangzhewo，tashenbianhaiyouyigexinglixiang，haoxiangyaobanguolaizhuyiyang，juranzhengshiwofuqindaihuilaideneigenvren。