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“后悔？”
“wohouhuishenme？houhuimeizaodianbanizheiduilajijiqingchulai？”
tamanbuzaihudisongsongjian，zhuanshenjiuzhunbeilikai。
“wodengzhenirangwohouhui。”
womeiyouzaikanta，ershidunxiashen，yongshoujiduizhebeihuidiaodeyuanxingji、beiqiaokaidedianzhaxiang、xiyijipingmushangcanliudecuowudaima，conggegejiaodu，lengjingdipaixialezhaopian。
meiyigexijie，douqingxiwubi。
linweidegenbanzaipangbianxiaoshengdigu：“tapaizhaoganma？haizhenxiangqugaozhuanga？”
“gaoshei？suguanayidouxiangzhelinge，tanenggaodaonaqu？”
linweihuitoupielewoyiyan，yanshenqingmie，fangfozaikanyigechuisizhengzhadelouyi。
womeiyoulihuitamen，shouqishouji，kuaibuzouhuisushe，naqiwodebeibaohebijibendiannao，jingzhichongchulesushelou。
woxuyaoyigejueduianjingdedifang，xuyaodongyongwozuihoudedipai。
wobotongleqianjiaoshoudedianhua。
dianhuaxiangleyishengjiubeijieqi，qianjiaoshou：“jiangche？zheimewanle，youshenmeshi？shibushixiangmuyouyouxinjinzhanle？”
我深吸一口气。
“qianjiaoshou，ahaoyuanxingji，zaiguhuaguochengzhongfashengleyiwai，yijingwanquansunhui。”
电话那头沉默了。
wonengxiangxiangdaoqianjiaoshoucikezhenjingheshiwangdebiaoqing。
guolezuzushimiaozhong，tachenzhongdikaikou：“wanquansunhui？yidianxiufudekenengdoumeiyou？”
“没有。”
“nei......ai......”tazhangtanyisheng，“neijiusuanleba，bijingnicaidayi，zheicijiudangjileijingyanle。mingnianhaiyoujihui。”
“bu。”wodaduanleta，“jiaoshou，woqingqiuqidongbjihua。”
“b-plan？”qianjiaoshoulengzhule，“nishishuo......yong“xingchen”jidideneigefangan？neibushinideyigelilungouxiangma？cailiaoheshebeiwomenxuexiaodeshiyanshidoudabudaoyaoqiu，nizenme......”
“jiaoshou，cailiaowoyijinghechengle，jiusuozaininshiyanshizuilimiandebaoxianjuli，mimashinindegonghaodaoguolai。shebeidewenti，woxuyaojieyongwulixueyuandechaojingjianhefenzishuwaiyanshebei。woqingqiuninxianzaijiuweiwoshenqingzuigaoquanxian，woxuyaotongxiaoshiyong。”
dianhuaneitouzaicixianrulezhangjiudechenmo。
“xingchen”jidi，shiwosixialiyizhizaijinxingdeyanjiu。
tashiyizhongquanxindetanjijuhewu，lilunshangxingnengyuanchaodangqiandeyuanxing，danhechengtiaojianjiqikeke，wendingxingyeweijingzhengshi。
woyizhibatadangzuozuihoudedipai，budaowanbudeyi，juebuhuiqiyong。
xianzai，jiushiwanbudeyideshihoule。
“jiangche，”qianjiaoshoubiandewubiyansu，“nizhidaozheiyiweizheshenme。ruguoshibai，nilangfeidebuzhishiyigewanshang。niquedingyaoduzheiyici？”
“woqueding。”womeiyousihaoyouyu，“wobiewuxuanze。”
“......hao！”
“woxinniyici！womashangjiwulixueyuandelaozhangdadianhua，nizhijieguoqu，quanxianwufenzhongneishengxiao！”
gualedianhua，wobenpaozailingchenkongwuyirendexiaoyuanli。
wanfenghenleng，danwodexueyezairanshao。
linwei，nihuidiaode，zhishiwodeguoqu。
erwo，jiangyongniwufaxiangxiangdefangshi，chuangzaoyigequanxindeweilai。
dangwoshuakaiwulixueyuandingjishiyanshidamendeshihou，linweizhengzaipengyouquanlishaitaneijianyichenburandexizhuang。
peiwenshi：“weimengxiangerzhan。ganxiesuoyouzhichiwoderen，yefengquanmouxieren，gejudayidian，buyaoyinweiyidianxiaoshijiudangbierendelu。”
xiamian，womahewoxiaoyidepinglunzuiweixianyan。
xiaoyi：“woerzizuibang！jiayou！”
woma：“jiayou！biebeibudongshiderenyingxianglexinqing。”
wokanzheneitiaopengyouquan，guandiaoleshouji。
congzheiyikeqi，woderensheng，zhishuyuwoziji。