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hezhouyinghuaizaiyiqidediwunian，wozirenweiyijingronghualezheizuobingshan。
yiqiemeihaodehuiyizaizhouyinghuaichulianzhushazhihuiguoshidouhuaweipaomo。
liangrenjiubiezhongfeng，tianmixujiu。erwoshenhuanaizheng，mingbujiuyi。
huorenshiyongyuanzhengbuguosirende。
zhushazhiyibushiwo，neiwobiyaochengweitadebaiyueguang，rangtadaizhehuihenhuozhe。
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zouchumenzhenshi，kanzheshoulinazhedehuayandan。worenranbuyuanxiangxinzijideleyixianai。
wozuozaimenzhenshimenkoudeyizishangbuduanhuixiangqigangcaiyishengshuodehua。
“yixianaiwanqi，qingkuangburongleguan。”
“yishengwohainenghuoduojiu？”
“tongjishanglaishuo，buhualiaoshengcunqi3～6geyue，hualiaozhihoushengcunqi6～12geyue。jijizhiliao，youkenenghuiduobanniandeshengcunqi。”
“zheimenianqing，buyaotaibeiguan，huiquhaohaohejialirenshangliangshangliang。”
zuoyoutaobuguoyisi，wobuxiangzaizuihaodenianjiyizuilangbeidexingxianglikaizheigeshijie。
原谅我放弃了化疗。
wonaqishouji，dakaitongxunlu。shouzhibuduanfanfudihuadong，buzhidaogaiyishenmefangshihezhouyinghuaiwoshengbingdezheigeshishi。
weixindeliaotiankuangdanchulinqingyedexiaoxi。
woshunshoudiankai，yingruyanliandeshiyigenanrendebeiyingyijisumi。
neidaobeiyingbuguanyinnizaiduoshaoderenqunzhongwodounenggouyiyanrenchulai，genghekuangzhuanmenduizhetapaini。
wodelaogongzaiwoquezhenaizhengwanqidezheiyitianhetadechulianqingrenzaikafeiguanlizhuiyiwangxi。
kanzhesumijiaoxiudexiaorong，wodexinzangyinyinzuotong。
zhidaoazhouyinghuaidemingzicongshoujipingmudanchulai，wodemuguangcaicongtadebeiyinghuiguoshenlai。
“qingyu，wojintianwanshangyoudianshi，jiubuhuijiachifanle，ruguowoshidianhuimeiyoudaojia，nijiuxianxiuxi，buyongdengwo。”
qianyanwanyuzaicikecoubuchengyigewanzhengdejuzi。
“好......”
huayingangluo，jiuchuanlaiguaduandeshengyin。
xushi5nianweijian，tamenbuxianglangfeisihaodeshijianji“buxianggan”deren。
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zhouyinghuaibiwodaliangsui，wohetarenshengbenshiliangtiaoyongyuandoubuhuixiangjiaodepingxingxian。
yongyuanbaochizhewokanzhetadebeiying，momogensuitadebufaqianjin。
shiqingdezhuanjichuxianzaidaershujia，neishidetahesumiganggangfenshou。
zhouyinghuaihesumishixuexiaogongrendejintongyunv，youguanyuliangrenfenshoudeyuanyincengchubuqiong。
wobujingyijiantingdaozhouyinghuaidepengyoushuoguozhouyinghuaihesumifenshoubingbushiyinweiganqingwenti，ershiliangrenduishiyezhuiqiudebutong。
sumiyixinxiangyaoquguowaigongzuo，danzhouyinghuaixiudaoleguoneihulianwangdeshangji。
liangrensheiyeburangshei，jiucifenshou。
dandangshinianqingqishengdewo，bingburenweiliangrenzhishiyinweiduirenshengzhuiqiudebutongerfenshou。
bijingdangjinshijiejiaotongrucibianli，yiguoliandeanliyebuzaishaoshu。
yaoshixiangnianduifangle，yizhangjipiaojiukeyijiejuedeshiqing，feiyaonaodaofenshoudedibu，neijiushuomingtamenbingmeiyouduoxihuanduifang。
zaizhidaotamenfenshoudeneiyike，wochenshuiliangniandechunxinyouzhongxintiaodongqilai。
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hetazhengshirenshishizaichenyixundeyanchanghui，tazuozaiwodezuoshoubian。
henzaowobiandaoyanchanghuidexianchang，kanduolezaiyanchanghuiyourentoubierenyingyuanbangdexiaoxi，woshisidouyaoshouhuhaowodeyingyuanbang。