shanggaozhongzhihou，woshenqingdezhuxuejinhewokaoshichengjiyouyizhengdaodejiangxuejingouwohuale，suoyizaiwodejianchixia，nainaizhongyushaozhonglejimudi。
tajianchishuo，wojianglaihaiyaoshangdaxue，tingshuodaxueshengmeigeyueshenghuofeiyaoyiqianwubaikuaiqian，tayeyaoanzheigebiaozhunjiwozanqian。
wotingzhetingzhejiushixiaole，wonietadejianbang：「nainai，wohuabuleneimeduo。erqiewodaoshihouyechengnianle，wonengzijidagongzhuanqian，zaijiashangzhuxuejinhejiangxuejin，jueduibuyonggenniyaoshenghuofei。」
nainaiguzhidiyaotou，duiwoshuo：「nvwawabunengqiongyang，nixihuanmaidejiuyongzijiadeqianmai，nainaibuxiangrangnidaoshihoubeirenkanbuqi，youqiyushangneizhongjinisuibianhuadianqian、jiuyaohenigaoduixiangderen……」
womingbaitadeneixiehua，wozhidaotadaxindiweiwohao，suoyizhishiguaiqiaodidianlediantou。
meixiangdaonainaishuozheshuozhejiutingxiale，tazhangtanyisheng，shenshouqingqinglazhulewodeshou。
tachuizhetou，toushangdebaifarubianbukunandezhuwang，jiuchanzhutabengaihelemeimandeyisheng。
「wodejingjing，yinggaishishoubulepiande。yinweijialinan，jingjingzaojiudongshile，zaojiu——」tagengyanqilai，「zaojiudongshile……」
「nainai，」wokanbudetaku，yishunjianyeleiruyuxia，wojinjinbaozhuta，「buyuanniya，zhendeyidiandoubuguainiya……」
「yaobushinainai，wocaimeiyoujintian，wocaihuobudaojintian……」
neitianwohenainaibaotoutongkuleyichang，youchangkuai，youxinsuan。
danruguodakuyichangjiunengjiejuewenti，neizheishishangjiumeineimeduodeweiquheyihanle。
wohewohoulaidezhangfu，jiushigaozhongrenshidetongbantongxue。
danwoliangbingmeiyouzaolian，tajiayezainongcun，tiaojianbiwoqianghenduo，tameiyouqiaobuqiwo，fandaozaiwoliangzuotongzhuoshule、wojitajianglewodeshizhihou，yuefatongqinghejingpeiwo。
wohetayuedingguoyijianshiqing：「wohenijiangwodeshi，buxiwangnikelianwo，gengbuxiwangjianglaiyouyitianwozuoleshenmerangnishiwangdeshi，erniduiwoshuo『guaibude』。」
tajizhulezheijuhua，zaihenjiuhenjiuyihou，woliangchaodaobukekaijiaokuaiyaonaolihundechengdu，tayemeishuoguo「niyigediemabuyaobeininainaiyangdaderen，guaibudepiqizheimeying」。
suoyiwoliangkekebanbande，daoshixieshoubingjinguohaoleyibeizi。
wohetashengleyigenver，wojitaqumingjiao「qingmiao」，jiuxiangnainaidaijiwodezhuozhuangdexiwang。
qingmiaodeyanjing，zhangdehenxiangwonainaide。
wohoulaijizhangfushuo，wojiudangqingmiaoshiwonainaituoshenglaide，woyidinghuihenainaiyangyuwoyiyang，baqingmiaohaohaodiyangda。
nainaijilewohenhaodeyisheng，shenzhishihenkuailedeyisheng。
ruruowobamahoulaibuzuoneiyangdeshidehua。
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gaosanneinian，womangdebukekaijiao。
chenglidelaoshijianduoshiguang，tamenjiwomenshuoqibeijingheshanghai，shuoqiqinghua、beida、tongjiheshangjiao。
gaosanzuihoudehanjia，wojianleyanglaoshi。
tayijiushihenwenhedemoyang——danwoxiangwodemama，yidingshimeiyouzheifenwenrunruyudeqizhide。
tayeshuo，woxianzaidechengjihezhuangtai，zhiyaonengbaochizhu，yidingnengqudachengshidehaoxuexiao。
suoyizhihouyizhidaogaokaojieshu，wodouzaimeihuiguojia，jiushixiangzheyiguzuoqi，banengxuededouxuezhashi。
suoyiwomeifajue，jiushizaineibannian，nainaideshentizhuangkuangjizhuanerxia。
dantahaishizhiyibaneiershimudidouzhongle，shenzhihaiduoyanglewuzhiyang。
tashuoyaojiwozangouqianquniandaxue，tashuoyidingyaomeigeyuedoujiwoyiqianwubaikuaiqian。
tajiushineiyangleidaode，beirenfaxiandeshihou，tashenzhishihundaozailedazhongwudedutaiyangxiadeyangyudili。
neishiwogaokaodediertian，wohoulaicaizhidao，woxiawujinkaochangdeyike，tabeixiangqinmensongjinleyiyuan。
danshitabutingdafudequan，sihuodoubuzhuyuan，zenmequandoubukenhuaqianzhibing。
tahaibuzhunbierengaosuwo，zhihoutingyigebiaoshenjiangshu，wocaizhidaotaneitianshuo：「wozenmedounengaodaojingjingquniandaxue！tazouyuanle，wocaigansilei！」
ranhoutazhidalegebutongbuyangdezhen，dangtianjiuyouhuijiaganhuole。
zaiwohuijiahou，haitiantianzuohaochidejiwo。
yizhidaowochulechengjitianbaohaozhiyuan、quedingbeiluqu，dengzheshouluqutongzhishudeshihou，tashenzhiqinshouzaileweiyiyizhihuidamingdedagongji，jiwoaotangchaocai。
yizhiyuzaidiertianwochichitingbudaojijiaosheng，fanshenyihuodeshihou，caifaxiannainaidehuxishengwoyetingbudaole。
woneishinaoziwengmingyisheng，shouhejiaojianglebantiandoudongbule，woyilianshengdihuhuanta：「nainai！nainai……」
woxiangyaoxingtayoupaliqitaida，zhiganpinminghuangdongtadegebo——
keshiyizhidaofujindeshuboshenniangmenbatataishangchesongquyiyuan，tadoumeiyingwoyiju：「jingjing，shuixinglema？」
tajiujiudibishangleyanjing。
「nainaijiniregemomo，jinimoshangzhuyoulechi！」
「nainaibareshuishaoshang，nidenghuierqilailexilianyong！」
「nainaidaoxiaomaipulijininabaolapian，zheishiqianjitianjindexinhuo，jingjingxianchi，nainaizaijipangrenmai！」
没了。
都没了。
hetaqianyiyedayingwo，dengwodeluqutongzhishudaole、yaojiwobaodeyidunjiaozi，yemeile。
zaiwochengniandezheiyigeyue，zaiwojijiangyeyaoyounengligaibiantadeshenghuodezheiyigeyue，taqiwoerqule。
yidingdiannianxiangyemeiliujiwo，liujiwodezhiyouyiyuanchachulaidemimimamadebingyin。
xin、nao、zangqi、sizhi。
dafujingqidiwenwo：「ninainaipingchangdoumeijiaohuanguonalitengdema？」
她没有。
她没有啊。
takaichundeshihou，haijiazheliangtoulvzi，yigerenlidi——
那该是何等的剧痛。
keyanglaoshiqueshuo，neihuierluguoshi，haijingchangtingdaotazaihaomaidichangqinqianghelaoge。
neigehenlao、henlaoderen，neigelianshizihongse、shourucushilidelaoren，taconglaimeijiaoguo「teng」，liansideshihou，lianshangdouzhidaizhecixiangdeweixiao。
xuduoxuduorendouhewoyiyangbuganxiangxin，shuo：「neigelaotaitaipingshibushikanzhetebiejingshenma？zenmeturanjiumeile。」
cubujifangdi，woshenzhihuixianglehaojiu，caixiangqitazuihouduiwoshuodehua——
xiangcunqingliangdeyueguangtouguochuang，laledengdekangshanghaishiliangtangtangde。
taceguoshenzi，lianchongzhewo，wobubikanta，douzhidaotaxiaodeyouduotian。
tawenwo：「jingjingjiugaigebodanzi，dongbudong？」
woshuoyouyidian，tajiubazijidebeizifenguolai，gaizailewodedanzishang。
吾儿寒乎？
吾儿欲食乎？
tahuishuodehuaneiyangshao，shijinianjian，laiquzhiyouzheijiju。
kejiushizheiyangdejijuhua，chengzailewoshaonianshiweiyidewenqing，bingyindaowozhangchenglehetayiyangchengzhidejiazhang。
ranhoutaturancongzhentoudixiamochulaiyigexiaohebao——yikanjiushitazijifengde，tanuodaolewodezhentouxiabian。
「jingjing，yidianlinghuaqian，naqumaihaochide。yaoduochiroue……」
houhoudeyitalingsuiqian，jiaqilaibuguowushikuai。
neizhiqiantajiguowoyigecunzhe，libianyouliangwankuaiqian。tashuoquanshijiwoshangxueyongde，baokuowobazhiqianlailiuxiadeqian，tashizhendeshuodaozuodaole。
danwomeixiangdao，tazhijizijiliulewushikuaideshenghuofei。
ebu，tahaijizijiliuleyishendezhongbing。
ertaweiyideyoulv，zhishipasizaiwoyuanxingqiuxuezhiqian，pawonanguo……
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wobawenxunganlaideshihou，nainaiyijingxiazangle。
wozuoweizheigejiadehukoubenshangdezuihouyigeren，genzhexiangqinmencaobanlenainaidesangshi。
talaideshihou，kuderenmogouyang，dabadeyandijixiangqinmen。
shoulingdeshenye，taguizaiwopangbian，wenwo：「jingjinga，tingshuonikaoshangbeijingdedaxuele？」
woshizhenmeixiangdao，zainainaishiguweihanderizi，zaitadelingtangli，tajingranyouliantiyaodaiwozoudehua。
zheihuashinianqianshuo，douyijingwanle，genghekuangxianzai。
wolengxiaozhewenta：「zenme？xiangrangnierzirengezaibeijingnianshudejiejiema？」
neiyishunjian，tadebiaoqinghenqiguai。
zhuangmozuoyangdekuqiangyemeiyoule，tayimotuledabandeyoutou，shanxiaozhehuiwo：「nichenayishentibuxing，yizhimeihuaishang。」
「baba，」neishiwozuihouyicijiaota「baba」，「nizhendehuogaiduanzijuesun。」
tanumuyuandeng，xiayishitaiqishouyaoshanwodelian。
danwolimazhixiangnainaideyizhao，woliuzheleizhiwenta：「dangzhenainai，nizhendeyouliandawozheibazhangma？nibuyangmuqin、buyaonver，nizhendeyoulianjiewoqujiniyanglaoma？」
woshenshenzhidao，daodeshufubuletazheizhongren。
danlingtanglihaiyouhenduorentingjianwodezheixiehua，mianzihuishufuzhutadebaolixingwei。
tazaiyicijicongcongdilikaile，shuozhihouyoushijianlezaihewoliao。
wozhidaotayouhecunganbushangliangguotiwohukoudeshi，danwoyijingchengnianle，wojianchiluohuzainainaijia。
wobuzaihusuoweide「nongcunhukou」「chenglihukou」。
chulenainaijia，womeiyoubiedejiale，zheilijiushiwodejia。
zheigexiaocunzi、zheigexiaoyuanzi，wozaizhihoumeiyiciditianbiao、dengjishi，douhenjiaoaodixiexiazheigedizhi。
wozuiaiderenzhangmianyuci，ruguowodoubuliuzaizheili，neitahunpoguixiang，jiulianjiadouzhaobudaole。
ganzouwobazhihou，womayelaisaoraoguowo。
tashenglegeerzi，tajiafulitanghuang，chibaolefanjiukaishigumingdiaoyu，shizhenxiang「jitaerzirengezaibeijingnianshudejiejie」。