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tianchidebiaoqingshunjianbiandefengfuqilai。
kanzhewo，sichaofeichao，sinufeinu，huianmoming。
xujiu，tazhuazhexianhedeshoudouranyisong。
xianhegangyaoluodi，jiubeitayishennianbaoguo，fuyubankong。
“benjunshuodaozuodao。guniannian，nixinghunxinzengyumingyuechenggongzhiri，bianshiwofangqingyuelikaizhishi。”
wodiantou，buqukanqingyuegugubeiqideyan：“hao。”
jiexialaidejiri，tianchimeiridouhuiqianlai。
tahuitiwojiechubingdong，ranhouyilijianzaiwoxinkoucichuyigexindekulong，jiezheyinxueerchu，huirushenhunzhu。
meici，xinmaixuechouqujieshu，fumingyuedouhuixianshen。
tadezhuangkuang，yiribiyirihao，chunbaidelianshangjianjianduolehongrun，heimouzhizhong，boguangliuzhuan，yanjiaoyinyueranshangmeiqi。
erwodeqingkuang，zeyuelaiyuezao。
lianseyuelaiyuebai，cengjingchuidankepodejifu，xiangganbiedeshupi，yidiandiantiezaigenguzhishang，eshangouerluchudebenmingtuteng，yejianjiankuhuang，woyishiyoujindengku。
zhouzaoetu，shibushibiangantan——
“zezeze，zheitianchikezhenbushigedongxia，zheimeqifuyigecaowawa！”
“neikebushi，laofusuiranshaleshangqianxianren，dancongbuwannongganqing，tianchikechi！”
“kehen，kee，exin！yiwokan，tianchizheisicaiyinggaibeishouyalaizheishifangbingyu！”
……
我被关押的第九日。
zheiyiri，fumingyuebingfeicongshenhunzhuneixianshen，ershihetianchixieshouerlai。
tachuanzheyishenfensezhangqun，xiyaoyingyingyiwo，miansehongrun，wuxukaikou，wodounengganjuedaotadexingfen。
kekandaowo，tayouyouxiechouchu。
“tianchi，zheikecaozhendeyuanyijiangxinghunxinzengyuwoma？ruotashuahuazhao……”
天炽眼中寒芒乍现，
“fangxin，ruotashuahuazhao，qingyuejiuhuobule。”
tianchiweiwojiechubingdong，wozhenggerenxiangyituangankudelanmugen，wulidaozaidishang。
“guniannian，xianzaigainile，benjunyaonidexinghunxin。”
wohuiandeyanjingxuxuzhuanluozaitianchishenshang，youkanxiangfumingyue，ranhouhuanhuandiantou，wozhichengzhezijijiannanzuoleqilai。
wojiangshouzhizaimeixinyidian，jiezhehuachujinjifazhen，zuiliniannianyouci。
“……yiwohunxin……shouyuqixin。”
dangzuihouyigeziluoxia，wodeshentizaicikuaisukujie。
xueroutuiqu，jinguganhe，weiduwomeixinchu，yituanlvguanghuanhuanfuxian。
fumingyueyixi，shunshibaichulejieshoudezitai：“zheijiushixinghuncaodexinghunxinma？”
woyiwufakaikoushuohua，zhinengkongzhixinghunxinhuanhuanchaozhefumingyuedexinkouerqu。
zuihou，rongrutadexinzang。
“唔……”
fumingyuechenggongronghexinghunxindeliliang，shufudibishangleyanjing。
liangjiu，tahuoranzhengyan，taishouyihui，shenliyongdong。
“shixiong，wowanquanhuifule！bujinwanquanhuifu，wodeshenli，gengqiangdale！”
tianchijidongjiangtalouruhuaili，
“taihaolemingyue！nidejiankang，bianshisongjiwozuihaodexinhunheli。”
liangrenlangqingqieyi，haobukuaile，zhouzaoshennian，tuwuxiangqi——
“恶心！”
“qipianxiaocaodechoudongxi！laji！budehaosi！”
……
tianchimuguangyileng，taishou，jiangwoliuzaidishangde‘canhai’shunjianhuifeiyanmie。
guniannian，zaichiyandiandailesanwanniandexinghuncao，beimochudeganganjingjing。
fangfotiandijian，congweiyouguo“ta”dehenji。
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tianchibuzhidao，zaitakanbujiandedifang，woyizhizainingshizheta。
gunianniankongzhixinghunxintuolishentideyishunjian，yimotawufakuijiandeshenhunzhili，jinsuizhexinghunxinpiaozailekongzhong。
taqianzhefumingyuelikaishifangbingyuzhishi，woyegensuizheta，piaochulezheifangdiyu。
yinianshengkong，wobuyuantingzhupianke。
zhengruwoduitianchisuoshuoneiyang，tazhuwohuaxing，wohuitaxuerou，taraoqingyuexingming，wojitaxinghunxin。
womenzhijian，bukuibuqian。
jiwukuiqian，neiwolidebianyeguoduan。
ran，jiuzaiwojijiangpiaoyuanzhishi——
fumingyueturandao：“shixiong！haiyoujiriwojiuyaojiajinila，neiwobianshichiyandiandenvzhurenle，duiba？”
wodourandunzaigaokong，huitouchaozhefumingyuekanqu。
taneizhangbaijingwuxiadelianshang，luchuleyigeeyimanmandexiaorong。
tianchimanlianchongni：“dangran。”
“neishixiongnishuo，woxianzaiyoumeiyouquanli，zuoyigechiyandiannvzhurencainengzuodejueding？”
“当然有。”
“neihao！shixiong，woyaoyigerensi！”
woxintouyizhen，ruowoyoushiti，ruowoyouyanjing，cike，woyidingshihenhendengzhefumingyuede。
kewomeiyou，wozhinengyonglinghunnuhou。
付明月，你敢！
tianchixianranhewoxiangdaoyiqiqule，tayanlifuxianchuleyishunchouchu。
jinjinzhishiyishuneryi，kuaidaolingrenzashe，bianshunjianxiaoshibujian。
tianchitaishoumolemofumingyuedenaodai：“mingyue，zaichiyandian，nixiangrangsheisi，jiurangsheisi。”
fumingyuegaoxingdipaishou：woyaoneizhixianhe！shixiong，wokeshichiyandiandenvzhuren，keshizaineichushengxinli，wojingbibuguoyikecao！
suishuoshixiongnishiguyirangtazhidao，niyaoneikecaodexinghunxin，rangtafancuoqianwangshifangbingyu，ruci，cainengzhengdaguangmingjiangtazhuona，bingyiciweixieneikecao。
keshi，tahaishirangwohenbushuang！
gengbieshuo，tajingranjineicao**jiayi！
shixiong，nishuota，gaibugaisi？
qingyueguguqianjiaolaizhaowo，houjiaojiubeizhuadao，wozaojiucaidaolezheishitianchidejimou。
fumingyueqianmianjiju，bingweirangwoxinqilianyi，weiduzuihouyiju，rangwoqidaoziyaliezui！
wosisidingzhetianchi，henbudejiangtadezuifengqilai！
wodebuman，tianchibunengganyingfenhao，tayilianqingsong，
“mingyueshuodedui，neizhichusheng，dequegaisi。”
takanxiangyuanchu：“lairen，jiangqingyuesongqumingyuededianzhong，rentachuzhi。”
qingmiaodanxie，haobuzaiyi。
tianchi，nizenmeneng！nizenmegan！beixinqiyi！
chiyandianshangkong，wozainuhou。
chiyandianli，wurenchajue。
rengjiuzhongshang，beidahuiyuanxingdeqingyue，yixianhedexingtai，beirensongdaolefumingyuedemianqian。
tazuozaidiannei，yiliandechunjiewuxia，shouli，quenazheyigendaocimanmanguahunbian。
“lairen，jiangzheichushengdaodiaoqilai！”
xianhebeidiaoqi，fumingyuenazheguahunbian，yixiayouyixiabiandazaitadeshenshang。
meiyiciluoxia，bujinjinshentishousun，jiulianlinghun，yehuizhanli！
xianhechuizhetou，weifayiyan，ranyanli，quesiyouyisiyuyue。
fumingyuemeiyoucuoguozheisiyuyue，tadaleile，jiangguahunbiandiuqiyuyice。
“chusheng，niweishenmekaixin，nixiangshuoshenme？”
xianhemeiyouliqikaikou，tabianshusongleyisishenlijita。
“niannian……haihaoba？”
fumingyueyileng，suiji，fengkuangdaxiaoqilai。
tadexiaowanfenzhengningniuqu：“yuanlai，niyiweiwozheibanchengfani，shiyinweinaonu？yinweineikecaomeiyoujiwoxinghunxin？
hahahahaha，nicuole！neicaochunbenrusi，jingweileyizhichusheng，jiangxinghunxinxinganqingyuanzengyulewo！
neikecaosile！erwo——yongchuibuxiu！”
xianhemuguangdourandaizhi，juewangdaolejixian：“……zenhui？”
fumingyuejixudaxiao：“jirannimenganqingzheibanhao，neiwobiansongnixingshenjumie，songniqupeita！”
fumingyuetaishouqiazhulexianhedebozi，yigenyigen，badiaoletadeyumao。
zuihou，tashengkouchuletadeneidan，yuzhangzhongniesui，zaijiangxianhedeshiti，rulajiyibandiuzaidianwai。
“lairen，jiwodunleta。jinwan，woyaohexianhedabutang。”