第一章

zheishiyigejijingdelingchen,zhongbiaodeshengyinxiangqi。wodingzhezhuomianshangronghuazhedelansedangao,shangmianchazheyigenyijingranjindelazhu,wodeshengriyejiuzaizheiyangdejiranzhongluomule。

womanmanzouxiangzhuozi,naqineibeiyiwangdedangao,qingqingyaoleyikou。ranhou,haobuyouyudijiangzhenggedangaorengjinlelajitongli。

shenye,tahuidaojiali。wocongchuangshangtaiqitou,kanzhetazouleguolai。“huilaile。”

我对她说。

tayanshendanmo,zhoumeibuyue。“chulehejiu,ninengzuodianzhengjingshima?”

她质问道。

wojuqishouzhongdejiubei,xiaoleqilai。

“hejiujiushizhengjingshia。”

我回答道。

suihou,woyaoyaohuanghuangdizoudaotashenbian,naqijiubei,songdaotazuibian。

“jiushigehaodongxi,lai,niyeheyikouba。”

我把酒杯递给她。

tamiqishuangyan,qingqingshuaikailewodeshou。

“你该睡觉了。”

tashuodao,liduguoda,jiubeizhongdehongjiuhuangchuleyidaban。

zheimeyishuai,wodaoshiqingxinglexie。wofangxiashouzhongdebeizi,zheicaihuiguotoulaikanzheta。

“jintianshiwoshengri。”woshuo。

tingdaozheihua,tadeyanshenweizhi,yishunyouhuifulezhengchang。tameiyoushuohua,zhishimomodibalingyizhishoushenxiangwo,neizhishoushanghaiwozheyibeijiu。

wozhidao,tayijingmingbailewosuoyoudeexing,keshitameiyouyuanhen,tazhishibuxiangrangwotaitongku。wobishangyanjing,ganshouzhetadewennuan,ranhouweixiaozhebishangleyanjing。

wotuleyikouqi,“jirannibusongwoliwu,neiwojiuzijisongjiniba。”

shuozhe,wocongshafabiandechoutilinachuyifenwenjian,rengdaozhuoshang。

“zheishiwosongjinideliwu。”

tamuguangsaodaowenjiandefengmian,“lihunxieyishu”jigeziyingruyanlian,zheishitameitoucuqi,danshengwen:“niyouxiangwanshenmebaxi?”

“zhiqianwomenliangjialianyin,jiangnibangzaiwoshenbianzheimeduonian,weiqunile。woyizhixiangzhewodechuliannanyou,xianzaiyeyinggaiquzhaotaleba。”

wojianglihunxieyishudidaotashouli,zaitameifanyingguolaizhiqian,qingqingwenshangletadeetou。

buguojimiao,wobianbeitayonglituikaile。

chadianshuaidao,wolianzhemoudao:“womenyijingzoudaolezheiyibu,tingshibaide。kanlai,womenzhendebushihechengweixiangbanyishengderen。”

bailuorandeshengyinyijiuhenleng,“ruguodangnianninengzheimexiang,womenyebuyonghuxiangjiuchandaoxianzai。”

“shiwodecuo。”womianqianggoulegouzuijiao,“zheifenzuiguo,kanlaizhinengyisixiangdile。”

bailuoranzuijiaogouqilengkudexiao,“nishedesima?”

wodunleyixia,shengyinweiweidichenlexie,

“woruoshisile,xiabeizi,buhuizaiaini。”

“等你死了再说。”

bailuoranshouhuimuguang,zhijiezhuanshen,likai。

men“peng”diyisheng,beishuaishang。

她又走了。

zuijiaodehuduzhujianxiaoshi,tarengshineimetaoyanwo。

我苦笑。