第三章

第三章

再后来,我怀孕。

dangwohaizaiyouyuzheihaizidequliushi,gufurenzaicichuxian。

poyugumudeshiya,wochenggongjiaruhaomen,yechenglebierenkouzhongxinjishangweidelaonv。

hunlidangtian,guxujingpaoxialewo。

houlaiwocaizhidao,taquzhaoxiangbukaideyeranle。

zhizhidiandian,xiluochaofeng,chaoshuiyibanzaxiangwo,yigemeirenchengyaodeluodanxinniang。

wanshang,tazuixunxundeliangqiangerlai,qiazhewodebozi,lengshengchaofeng:

“gushaofuren,yiqiedourunisuoyuan,xianzaimanyilema?”

suiji,tadeshoufushangwodefubu,wozhishihaipadifadou。

“guxujing,ruguowoshuowocongmeiwangxiangguozheixie,ni——”xinma?

taguoranchixiaoyisheng,senranlengyidehuazuzhouyiyang,guanchuanzaiwoerbianxinjian。

“luoqingqiu,buzeshouduanderenhuibudehaosi,nishi,zheigeniezhongyeshi。”

shuowan,tajiushuaimenerqu。

neiyiwan,tazaijiubacheyemaizui。

woyiyeweimian,yileiximian。

4

tulaideyizhenexinganzhicuanhoujian,wozaimengyanzhongxinglai,wuzhezuichongxiangweishengjian。

kudanzhihunzhexueshui,zaijiebaideguanxitaijianzhediandianxinghong。

wochuanxizhetaitou,jingzizhongdenvren,shouxuecangbai,yifubingtai。

“zenmeliansezheimebuhao?”

wohuadaozuibian,youjuedewuhuakeshuo,guoranwopopodehuatiyouzhuandaotaguanxinde。

每次来都是如此。

“gujiajiadayeda,zonggaiyougenanhaicaishi,wodangchuneimekanhaoni,xianzaizhenshirangwoshiwang,lianzijilaogongdoukanbuzhu。”

furenshuohuashibingbubizhehaizi,wozhishiwushengloujinlesuozaiwohuailidenver。

xiaozhiyichuanzhefensedepengpengqun,zhazheshuangmawei,moyanggengduoshixianglewo。

congxiaomeiyoufuaideta,bibiedehaizidouminganmiantian。

cishiyezhishizhazheshiluludeyuanyankanwo,woxinzhongyitong,xiangqizhiqianhenduogeyewan,nvhaizongshitongyanwujiyounanyanshanggandewenwo:

“mama,babajinwanyebuhuilaima?taweishenmejiushibuxihuannannanni?”

“shinannanzuocuoleshenmema?”

“bushi,nannanmeiyoucuo。”

“neitaweishenmelaoshibuhuijiani?shiguainannanshengbinglema?”

nverhuanyouxiaochuan,jiashangzaochan,congxiaoyaojiubuting。

woyibianbianlianxiqinwentademianpang,yibianqingqingpaifu。

wushugeguxujingbuzaideshenye,womenhuxiangcashizhebicideyanlei,jibicianweidaqi。

zaihoulai,haizidalexie,yebiandegengtiexindongshi。

guanyufuqindewentiyuelaiyueshao,zhidaotanainaipinfandelaicuisheng,haiziyouleiyanmenglongdeguaizijibushinanhai。

jideyouyicimengyan,nannanbeihexing,dakuzhepaolaibaowo。

“mama,biebuyaowo,wohuiguai,yehuiaididide,bierangbabaganwozou!”

neitian,wojinjinbaozhetahongleyibianyouyibian,bujuezijiyeleiliumanmian。

“mamazhiyounannan,meiyoudidi,yeyongyuanbuhuibuyaoni。”

nverdedaolaibenjiushiyiwai,guxujingrendingtashiyichangcuowu,kenannanqueshishangtiancijiwodeliwu,woweiyidexuemaiqinren。

zicongyuanzhangmamabingshizhihou,nannanjiuchenglewozhichengdaoxianzaidezhizhu。

zhishiwomeixiangdao,mingyunjingrancankudao,lianwoweiyidenver,yeyaoshouzou。

5

dezhinannanbeibangjiashi,wozhijuetianhundian。

danwobunengchushi,woqiangchengzhendingyubangfeizhouxuan。

buganbaojing,yeyishicoubuchutianjiashujin,wozhinengzhaoguxujing。

wofengleyiyang,dazheyizhibutongdedianhua。

meirenzhidaoguxujingzainali。

dangniangonggongqushi,daosiyezaimaiyuanpopocengjingduizijichuliandedaya。

guxujingxinzhongduipopo、duiwodouyouhen,renmingguantian,cishiwomenquemeiyigenenglianxideshangta。