第三章
再后来,我怀孕。
dangwohaizaiyouyuzheihaizidequliushi,gufurenzaicichuxian。
poyugumudeshiya,wochenggongjiaruhaomen,yechenglebierenkouzhongxinjishangweidelaonv。
hunlidangtian,guxujingpaoxialewo。
houlaiwocaizhidao,taquzhaoxiangbukaideyeranle。
zhizhidiandian,xiluochaofeng,chaoshuiyibanzaxiangwo,yigemeirenchengyaodeluodanxinniang。
wanshang,tazuixunxundeliangqiangerlai,qiazhewodebozi,lengshengchaofeng:
“gushaofuren,yiqiedourunisuoyuan,xianzaimanyilema?”
suiji,tadeshoufushangwodefubu,wozhishihaipadifadou。
“guxujing,ruguowoshuowocongmeiwangxiangguozheixie,ni——”xinma?
taguoranchixiaoyisheng,senranlengyidehuazuzhouyiyang,guanchuanzaiwoerbianxinjian。
“luoqingqiu,buzeshouduanderenhuibudehaosi,nishi,zheigeniezhongyeshi。”
shuowan,tajiushuaimenerqu。
neiyiwan,tazaijiubacheyemaizui。
woyiyeweimian,yileiximian。
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tulaideyizhenexinganzhicuanhoujian,wozaimengyanzhongxinglai,wuzhezuichongxiangweishengjian。
kudanzhihunzhexueshui,zaijiebaideguanxitaijianzhediandianxinghong。
wochuanxizhetaitou,jingzizhongdenvren,shouxuecangbai,yifubingtai。
“zenmeliansezheimebuhao?”
wohuadaozuibian,youjuedewuhuakeshuo,guoranwopopodehuatiyouzhuandaotaguanxinde。
每次来都是如此。
“gujiajiadayeda,zonggaiyougenanhaicaishi,wodangchuneimekanhaoni,xianzaizhenshirangwoshiwang,lianzijilaogongdoukanbuzhu。”
furenshuohuashibingbubizhehaizi,wozhishiwushengloujinlesuozaiwohuailidenver。
xiaozhiyichuanzhefensedepengpengqun,zhazheshuangmawei,moyanggengduoshixianglewo。
congxiaomeiyoufuaideta,bibiedehaizidouminganmiantian。
cishiyezhishizhazheshiluludeyuanyankanwo,woxinzhongyitong,xiangqizhiqianhenduogeyewan,nvhaizongshitongyanwujiyounanyanshanggandewenwo:
“mama,babajinwanyebuhuilaima?taweishenmejiushibuxihuannannanni?”
“shinannanzuocuoleshenmema?”
“bushi,nannanmeiyoucuo。”
“neitaweishenmelaoshibuhuijiani?shiguainannanshengbinglema?”
nverhuanyouxiaochuan,jiashangzaochan,congxiaoyaojiubuting。
woyibianbianlianxiqinwentademianpang,yibianqingqingpaifu。
wushugeguxujingbuzaideshenye,womenhuxiangcashizhebicideyanlei,jibicianweidaqi。
zaihoulai,haizidalexie,yebiandegengtiexindongshi。
guanyufuqindewentiyuelaiyueshao,zhidaotanainaipinfandelaicuisheng,haiziyouleiyanmenglongdeguaizijibushinanhai。
jideyouyicimengyan,nannanbeihexing,dakuzhepaolaibaowo。
“mama,biebuyaowo,wohuiguai,yehuiaididide,bierangbabaganwozou!”
neitian,wojinjinbaozhetahongleyibianyouyibian,bujuezijiyeleiliumanmian。
“mamazhiyounannan,meiyoudidi,yeyongyuanbuhuibuyaoni。”
nverdedaolaibenjiushiyiwai,guxujingrendingtashiyichangcuowu,kenannanqueshishangtiancijiwodeliwu,woweiyidexuemaiqinren。
zicongyuanzhangmamabingshizhihou,nannanjiuchenglewozhichengdaoxianzaidezhizhu。
zhishiwomeixiangdao,mingyunjingrancankudao,lianwoweiyidenver,yeyaoshouzou。
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dezhinannanbeibangjiashi,wozhijuetianhundian。
danwobunengchushi,woqiangchengzhendingyubangfeizhouxuan。
buganbaojing,yeyishicoubuchutianjiashujin,wozhinengzhaoguxujing。
wofengleyiyang,dazheyizhibutongdedianhua。
meirenzhidaoguxujingzainali。
dangniangonggongqushi,daosiyezaimaiyuanpopocengjingduizijichuliandedaya。
guxujingxinzhongduipopo、duiwodouyouhen,renmingguantian,cishiwomenquemeiyigenenglianxideshangta。