第1章 1

songhechengweishangyexinguineitian,shiwopeizaitashenbiandedibanian。

neixiecengjingmawotiangouchunhuoderen,fenfengaikou。

zhidaosonghetingshuosuzhaozhaohuiguodexiaoxi,dapolejiubei。

neiyikewojiumingbaile,tacengshuocishengbuhuifuwo,ketaxiangqudeyongyuanyebuhuishiwo。

suoxing,woyexiangchengquanleta,liangbuxiangqian。

直到我死的那天。

songheyibuyikoushou,guishangsanqiantaijie,zhiqiuwonengzaixinglaikantayiyan。

……

dangwonazhezhenduanshuzoujinyanhuitingshi,songheyiyanbiankandaolewo。

tajuqijiubeiduishenpangderendishengbaoqian,youkuaibuchaozhewozoulai。

“yueyue,zenmelaidezheimewan?”

woxiayishiniejinleshoulidebao,baolizhengzhuangzhewogangnadaobujiudezhenduanshu。

脑癌晚期。

jintianshiqingzhusonghegongsishangshidewanyan,wozhidaotadengzheiyitiandengletaijiu,bianzhishiwojinleshouqingqingyaoleyaotou。

“有点事。”

“songzongjiranzheimechanzhezijinvpengyou,neizenmebuzaodianbarenjiajiqujinmen。”

“womenkedoudengzhenimendexijiuni。”

diaoxiaoshengcongyipangxiangqi,lingwaiderenyegenzhefuhedao。

“lin**nikebuzhidao,ganggangsongzongkeshiyizhidingzheyanhuitingmenkouni。”

“shengpameiyoukandaoni。”

qitarenwenyanyegenzhedaqu,niyiyanwoyiyudicuicuzhesonghe。

songheweiweiditou,wangzhewodemuguangwenroupinghe。

“zheibeizi,wojueduibuhuigufuyueyue。”

……

buhuigufu,queyemeishuohuiquwo。

wogensonghezaiyiqibanianle。

banianqian,songjiapochan,songfuzisha,songmuzhongbing,gensongheqingmeizhumadesuzhaozhaoyexuanzechuguobierbujian。

shiwopeizhesonghe,bangtazhenzuoqilai,youyibubudongshanzaiqichengweilingchengdeshangyexingui。

baniandeshijian,dajiacongyuanbendedudingwodebudaosonghedexin,bianchenglezantanwoyusongheganqingshenhou。

meiyourenzhidao,banianshijianli。

songhecongweishuoguoaiwo,gengjiameitiguoquwo。

tasihubushixihuanwo,zhishixuehuilezhuangzuoxihuanwo。

pianguolesongmu,pianguolingchengdesuoyouren,shenzhixianxiepianguolewo。

danyixiangdaobaolineizhangzhenduanshu,wobianxindibianfanqizhenzhentengtong。

rujinwomingbujiuyi,songhezhidaolehuizenmeyangni?

woqipandikanxiangsonghe,turanzaichangyirenwuyijiantiqi。

“shuoqilai,tingshuosujiada**zuijinhaoxianghuiguole。”

“xianzaisujiayounan,tahuiguopayeshiweilelianyin……”

huashangweishuowan,“pada”yisheng。

jiubeidesuilieshengjingdesuoyourenchaozhezheilikanqu。

songheshoulidejiubeishuaizaidishang。

fenglidejiubeisuipianfeijianerqi,huashanglewodetui,yinhongdexianhonghuanhuanliulexialai。

talenglejimiaohou,caizaizhongrendemuguangxiafanyingguolai。

tacongcongjiangwobaoqidaidaoxiuxishi,youzhaolaiyiyaoxiangbangwobaozha。

wokanzheyilianjinzhangdesonghe,kanzhekanzheyanleihuranluolexialai。

songhebeiwoheleyitiao,lianmangzhuazhuwodeshouzhuiwendao。

“yueyue,taitenglema?”

“guaiwomeinawenjiubei,hainishoushangle。”

疼?

我当然疼,我好疼。

woleiyanmohudikanzheyanqianguanhuaibeizhidesonghe,yishijianfenbuqingdaodishishentinayichutengdegengjialihai。

“songhe,nihaishiwangbuletaduima?”

zheigeta,buyongduoshuowomendouqingchushishei。

songhefanshouzhuazhuwodeshou,wunaidishuodao。

“yueyue,wozhendezhishimeinawenjiubei。”

“woxinlixianzaizhendezhiyouniyigeren。”

我望着宋鹤的眼睛。

zheishuangyanjingwocengkanguowushuci,wenrou、pingheyouwunai,xiangshiyouyizhongmolinengrangnibuyouzizhuxinrentadehua。

woxiangwobenyinggaizixifenbianchutayoumeiyouyisixinxude。

kewoyoujuedemeibiyao,fenchulaileyouzenmeyangni?zuihouhaibushiyaofeixinquanshuoqipianziji。

wotuikaitadeshou,caleyanleishuodao。

“好,我相信你。”

“jintiandewanyannishizhujiao,nixianchuquzhaodaitamenba。”

“woyoudianleilexiangxiuxi。”

songhekanlewojiyan,zuihouhaishikuaibulikailexiuxishi。

zaimenguanshangdeyishunjian,bielexujiudeyanleiyourenbuzhuluolexialai。

wopiantoukanxiangyipangdezhenduanshu。

zaisonghenayiyaoxiangdeshihou,wobianjiangzhenduanshufangzailetadezuobian。

zhiyaosongheshaoweizhuyi,jiunenggoufaxianzheizhangzhenduanshu。

faxianwohuanlenaoai,mingbujiuyi。

kepianpianliansonghezijidoubucengyishidao,tashuohuangdeshihouzongshihuixiayishikanxiangyoubian。

suoyineizhangfangzaizuobiandezhenduanshu,zhudingmeibanfabeitazhuyidao。

mingyunxiangshigenwokaileyigejudadewanxiao。

zaiwozuiwuzhudezheiyitian,rangwofaxianzheigecankudeshishi。