songhechengweishangyexinguineitian,shiwopeizaitashenbiandedibanian。
neixiecengjingmawotiangouchunhuoderen,fenfengaikou。
zhidaosonghetingshuosuzhaozhaohuiguodexiaoxi,dapolejiubei。
neiyikewojiumingbaile,tacengshuocishengbuhuifuwo,ketaxiangqudeyongyuanyebuhuishiwo。
suoxing,woyexiangchengquanleta,liangbuxiangqian。
直到我死的那天。
songheyibuyikoushou,guishangsanqiantaijie,zhiqiuwonengzaixinglaikantayiyan。
……
dangwonazhezhenduanshuzoujinyanhuitingshi,songheyiyanbiankandaolewo。
tajuqijiubeiduishenpangderendishengbaoqian,youkuaibuchaozhewozoulai。
“yueyue,zenmelaidezheimewan?”
woxiayishiniejinleshoulidebao,baolizhengzhuangzhewogangnadaobujiudezhenduanshu。
脑癌晚期。
jintianshiqingzhusonghegongsishangshidewanyan,wozhidaotadengzheiyitiandengletaijiu,bianzhishiwojinleshouqingqingyaoleyaotou。
“有点事。”
“songzongjiranzheimechanzhezijinvpengyou,neizenmebuzaodianbarenjiajiqujinmen。”
“womenkedoudengzhenimendexijiuni。”
diaoxiaoshengcongyipangxiangqi,lingwaiderenyegenzhefuhedao。
“lin**nikebuzhidao,ganggangsongzongkeshiyizhidingzheyanhuitingmenkouni。”
“shengpameiyoukandaoni。”
qitarenwenyanyegenzhedaqu,niyiyanwoyiyudicuicuzhesonghe。
songheweiweiditou,wangzhewodemuguangwenroupinghe。
“zheibeizi,wojueduibuhuigufuyueyue。”
……
buhuigufu,queyemeishuohuiquwo。
wogensonghezaiyiqibanianle。
banianqian,songjiapochan,songfuzisha,songmuzhongbing,gensongheqingmeizhumadesuzhaozhaoyexuanzechuguobierbujian。
shiwopeizhesonghe,bangtazhenzuoqilai,youyibubudongshanzaiqichengweilingchengdeshangyexingui。
baniandeshijian,dajiacongyuanbendedudingwodebudaosonghedexin,bianchenglezantanwoyusongheganqingshenhou。
meiyourenzhidao,banianshijianli。
songhecongweishuoguoaiwo,gengjiameitiguoquwo。
tasihubushixihuanwo,zhishixuehuilezhuangzuoxihuanwo。
pianguolesongmu,pianguolingchengdesuoyouren,shenzhixianxiepianguolewo。
danyixiangdaobaolineizhangzhenduanshu,wobianxindibianfanqizhenzhentengtong。
rujinwomingbujiuyi,songhezhidaolehuizenmeyangni?
woqipandikanxiangsonghe,turanzaichangyirenwuyijiantiqi。
“shuoqilai,tingshuosujiada**zuijinhaoxianghuiguole。”
“xianzaisujiayounan,tahuiguopayeshiweilelianyin……”
huashangweishuowan,“pada”yisheng。
jiubeidesuilieshengjingdesuoyourenchaozhezheilikanqu。
songheshoulidejiubeishuaizaidishang。
fenglidejiubeisuipianfeijianerqi,huashanglewodetui,yinhongdexianhonghuanhuanliulexialai。
talenglejimiaohou,caizaizhongrendemuguangxiafanyingguolai。
tacongcongjiangwobaoqidaidaoxiuxishi,youzhaolaiyiyaoxiangbangwobaozha。
wokanzheyilianjinzhangdesonghe,kanzhekanzheyanleihuranluolexialai。
songhebeiwoheleyitiao,lianmangzhuazhuwodeshouzhuiwendao。
“yueyue,taitenglema?”
“guaiwomeinawenjiubei,hainishoushangle。”
疼?
我当然疼,我好疼。
woleiyanmohudikanzheyanqianguanhuaibeizhidesonghe,yishijianfenbuqingdaodishishentinayichutengdegengjialihai。
“songhe,nihaishiwangbuletaduima?”
zheigeta,buyongduoshuowomendouqingchushishei。
songhefanshouzhuazhuwodeshou,wunaidishuodao。
“yueyue,wozhendezhishimeinawenjiubei。”
“woxinlixianzaizhendezhiyouniyigeren。”
我望着宋鹤的眼睛。
zheishuangyanjingwocengkanguowushuci,wenrou、pingheyouwunai,xiangshiyouyizhongmolinengrangnibuyouzizhuxinrentadehua。
woxiangwobenyinggaizixifenbianchutayoumeiyouyisixinxude。
kewoyoujuedemeibiyao,fenchulaileyouzenmeyangni?zuihouhaibushiyaofeixinquanshuoqipianziji。
wotuikaitadeshou,caleyanleishuodao。
“好,我相信你。”
“jintiandewanyannishizhujiao,nixianchuquzhaodaitamenba。”
“woyoudianleilexiangxiuxi。”
songhekanlewojiyan,zuihouhaishikuaibulikailexiuxishi。
zaimenguanshangdeyishunjian,bielexujiudeyanleiyourenbuzhuluolexialai。
wopiantoukanxiangyipangdezhenduanshu。
zaisonghenayiyaoxiangdeshihou,wobianjiangzhenduanshufangzailetadezuobian。
zhiyaosongheshaoweizhuyi,jiunenggoufaxianzheizhangzhenduanshu。
faxianwohuanlenaoai,mingbujiuyi。
kepianpianliansonghezijidoubucengyishidao,tashuohuangdeshihouzongshihuixiayishikanxiangyoubian。
suoyineizhangfangzaizuobiandezhenduanshu,zhudingmeibanfabeitazhuyidao。
mingyunxiangshigenwokaileyigejudadewanxiao。
zaiwozuiwuzhudezheiyitian,rangwofaxianzheigecankudeshishi。