tamenshuowoshigefengzi，yigezhuanmenjixiongzhai「jinghua」deqingjiegong。tamenbuzhidao，woqinglidebushixuewu，
ershilinghundecanhui。gengmeirenzhidao，wocengzaizuiguntangdeaiyizhongbeicuncunkenshi，rujin，wozhongshengguilai，
zhiweijiangneitouyiaiweishideyaowu，liantongtabeihoudezhuren，yibingtuoruwujiandiyu。【1】wojiaosuyan，
zhiyeshilingyixianchangqinglishi。shuodetongsudian，jiushijixiongzhai「quxie」de。dangran，wocongbuxinguishen，
woqinglide，shikexuewufajieshide「qingxucanhui」——qianglieqingxuzaikongjianzhongliuxiadenengliangyinji。cike，
wozhengzhanzaiyijiangaodanggongyudeyushili，kongqizhongmimanzhenongyudexuexingweiheyigu……tiannidefubaiqixi。
yuganglideshuizaoyibeiranchengshenhese，yigenianqingnvrenlewushengxiditangzailimian，shouwanshangdeshangkouzhengningwaifan。
jingfangganggangkanchajieshu，jiashuweituowolaizuo「jinghua」。wodaishangtezhidehumujing，
yanqiandeshijieshunjianbianlemoyang。qiangbi、diban、tianhuaban，daochudoufuzhezheyicenghuiheisedewuqi，
neishijuewanghetongkudecanhui。danzaizheixiehuiheizhishang，
haipiaofuzheyisisiguiyide、rutongzhuwangbandeliangyinsesixian。wodexinzangmengdiyisuo，huxishunjiantingzhi。
zheiyinsi……worende。tacengxiangtengmanyiyang，zaiwolinghunshenchuzhagen、shengzhang，
ranhoujiangwodeaiyi、wodejiyi、wodeyiqie，kenshideyiganerjing。sannianqian，wojiaolinwan。
wocengyongyouyigequanshijiezuiwanmeidezhangfu，guyanchen。tayingjun、duojin、wenroutitie，jiangwochongchenglegongzhu。
womendeaiqingshisuoyourenyanzhongdetonghua。zhidaoneitian。woruchangzaijiadengtahuilai，
weitazhunbeilejiehunjinianridezhuguangwancan。menkaile，tazoulejinlai，
yanshenqueshiwocongweijianguodebinglenghemosheng，fangfozaikanyigelaji。「wanwan，」taweixiaozhe，
yongzuiwenroudeyudiao，shuochuzuicanrendehua，「woconglaimeiyouaiguoni。henizaiyiqidemeiyimiao，
dourangwogandaoexin。」wodeshijiezaineiyikebengta。wobuxin，wokuzhezhiwenta，
womenzhijianneimeduomeihaodehuiyi，nandaodoushijiadema？tazuijiaodexiaoyigengshenle，
daizheyisiguiyidelianmin：「huiyi？henkuai，nijiubuhuiyouzheixiefannaole。」huayingangluo，
woganjueyoushenmedongxicongwodexinzangbuweikaishikenshi，yizhongwufayanyude、linghunbeichoukongdejutongxijuanquanshen。
woyanzhengzhengkanzhetayanzhongdewo，congyigexianhuoderen，bianchengyijushiquguangcaidequqiao。wodeai，wodehen，
wodejiyi，douzaifeisuliushi。zaiyishixiaosandezuihouyike，wokandaoyigemohude、bukemingzhuangdeyingzi，
congguyanchendeshenhoufuxian，tadekouqi，zhengshenshendichazaiwodexinkou。neidongxi，yiwodeaiweishi。erxianzai，
shigesannian，wozailingyigenvrendesiwangxianchang，zaicikandaoletadehenji。wozhaixiahumujing，
binglengdefennuxiangdusheyiyangchanshangwodejizhui。「su**，zenmeyang？zheili……ganjinglema？」
sizhedemuqinzaiyipangzhandouzhewen，lianshangxiemanlekongju。wokanzheta，huanhuankaikou，
shengyinshayadebuxiangziji：「furen，shasininverde，bushiyiyuzheng。」wodunledun，
yiziyijudishuodao：「shiyitouguaiwu。xianzai，woyaoqubatajiuchulai，ranhou……zaileta。」
【2】wozhongshengdezheijushenti，yejiaosuyan，shigewufuwumudeguer，
kaozhezheifenshenshentaotaodezhiyemianqianghukou。meirenzhidao，zheishuangnengkanjian「canhui」deyanjing，
shiwosiwangshibeineiguaiwusilielinghunhou，huodedeweiyi「zengli」。sizhedezhangfujiaozhoukai，
shigexiaoyoumingqidehuajia。genjujingfangdediaochabaogao，zhoukaizaibannianqianxingqingdabian，
congyigeaiqirumingdenanren，bianchengleyigelengmodeshibaozhe，zuizhongdaozhiqizijingshenbengkui，xuanzelezisha。
duomeshuxidejuben。woyi「houxujinghuafuwu」weiyou，yuejianlezhoukai。kafeiguanli，tazuozaiwoduimian，
mianrongqiaocui，yanshenkongdong，xiangyigebeichouzoulelinghunderenou。zheifumoyang，
hesannianqianguyanchenxuanbuwo「sixun」shidebiaoqing，ruchuyizhe。「zhouxiansheng，duiyuninqizidelishi，
wohenyihan。」wojiangyibeireshuituidaotamianqian，kansibujingyidiwendao，「wotingshuo，
ninhenintaitaicengjingfeichangenai，shishenme……rangyiqiegaibianleni？」takongdongdeyanshenyouleyisibodong，
zuichunxidong，quefabuchurenheshengyin。wodaishanglezangzaifasilideweixingerji，
qidonglelianjiezhetezhimujingdeyinpinganyingqi。tongguomujing，woneng「ting」daotalinghunshenchudehuixiang。
yipiansiji。bu，bushisiji。ershixiangbeimouzhongliliangqiangxinggeshihuahoudekongbai。tadeai，tadejiyi，
doubeimoqule。zhishengxiazuijichude、weichishenglijinengdechengxuzaiyunzhuan。「shi……tabianle。」xujiu，
zhoukaiganbabadituchujigezi，「tabiandebukeliyu，pianzhi，fengkuang。wozhishi……leile。」huangyan。
wokandaotalinghundekongdongzhong，yigenweiruodeyinsiruoyinruoxian，heanfaxianchangdeyimoyiyang。zheitouguaiwu，
zheitoubeiwomingmingwei「shixinmo」deyaowu，tadezuoanshoufagengjiachunshule。tabujinchidiaoleshouhaizhedeai，
haijijiahaizhezhirulexujiade、yongyiziwohelihuadejiyi。「zhouxiansheng，
ninzuijin……youmeiyoucanjiaguoshenmetebiedejuhui？huozhe，renshishenmetebiederen？」wobubujinbi。
tadeyanshenshanguoyisimimang，suijiyaoleyaotou：「meiyou，wodabufenshijiandouzaihuashi。」
wozaizhuoxiadeshouqiaoqiaozuanjin。xiansuoduanle。jiuzaiwozhunbeifangqideshihou，
yigechuanzhejingfudenanrendabuliuxingdizouleguolai，jingzhizuozaiwomenpangbian。tayuemosanshisui，
yanshenruiliruying，hunshenshangxiadoutouzheyigushengrenwujindeshaqi。「zhoukai，womenyoujianmianle。」
takandoumeikanwoyiyan，muguangsisisuodingzhoukai，「guanyuniqizideanzi，haiyouxieyidianxuyaonipeihediaocha。
」nanrenziwojieshao，tajiaoliwei，shixingjingduideduizhang。zhoukaideshentimingxiankaishifadou。
liweidemuguangzhuanxiangwo，daizhehaobuyanshideshenshihehuaiyi：「nijiushineigeshengunqingjiegong？wojinggaoni，
buyaozaizheilizhuangshennonggui，fangaijingfangbanan。」woyingshangtademuguang，meiyousihaotuisuo：「liduizhang，
ruguonizhendexiangpoan，huoxubugaizhidingzheочевидныевещи（mingxiandedongxi）。
youxiexiongshou，shinimendefazhengyiqijiancebuchulaide。」「biru？」tatiaomei，yuqilimanshijifeng。
「biru，yizhongnengrangren『aiyizhengfa』debingdu。」liweilengleyixia，suijichixiaochusheng，
yanshenxiangzaikanyige**。danwozhidao，wobayikehuaiyidezhongzi，zhongjinletadexinli。yinweijiuzaiganggang，
wocongtade「qingxucanhui」li，kandaoleyishanerguodemiwang。tayidingyechajuedaolezheileianzideguiyizhichu，
zhishiwufayongtadeluojiqujieshi。songzouhunbushoushedezhoukaiheyilianbuxiedeliwei，woduzizuozaikafeiguan，
fupanzhezhengjianshi。guaiwubuhuiwuyuanwuguchuxian。yidingyouyige「siyangyuan」zaibeihoucaokongzheyiqie。shishei？
guyanchenma？bu，taxianzaiyinggaizhengchunfengdeyi，xiangshouzhetayongwodeminghuanlaidecaifuhediwei。
tahuishisiyangyuanma？haishishuo，tayezhishi……lingyimeiqizi？wodeshouzhiwuyishidizaishoujipingmushanghuaguo，
yitiaocaijingxinwendanlechulai。「gushijituanzongcaiguyanchen，jinrigaodiaoxuanbu，
jiangyuyishupintouzijiexingui『huanyin』shalonghezuo，gongtongkaifagaoduanyishupinshichang……」zhaopianshang，
guyanchenxizhuanggelv，yiqifengfa。tashenbianzhanzheyigenvren，xiaoyeruhua。wodexueye，shunjianninggule。
「huanyin」shalong。wosiqian，guyanchenzhengchimiyucanjiayigejiqisimideyishushalong，
tashuoneilinengjitadailaiwujindechuangzuolinggan。erneigeshalongdemingzi，jiujiao「huanyin」。【3】「huanyin」
shalongderuchangquan，qianjinnanqiu。tabugongkaishoupiao，zhijieshouhuiyuantuijian。chuanwenzhong，churuqijiandefeifujigui，
shibenshizuidingjideminglichang。woyongjinlesuyanzheijushentilisuoyoudejixu，youtongguoyixiehuisequdao，
caimianqiangnongdaoleyizhangweizaodeyaoqinghan。dangwochuanzheyishenzulaide、jiazhibufeidewanlifu，
zhanzaishalongjinbihuihuangdedamenqianshi，xinzangbushoukongzhidikuangtiao。zheili，jiushineitouguaiwudechaoxuema？
shalongneibudeshehuachaohuxiangxiang，kongqizhongpiaodangzhexiangbinhedingjixiangshuideweidao，
yizheguangxiandenannannvnvchuansuoqijian，meigerenlianshangdouguazhejingzhierxuweidexiaorong。wodaizhemianju，
xiangyigeyoulingbanzairenqunzhongyouzou，yongwodeyanjingsouxunzherenheyichangde「qingxucanhui」。chuhuyiliao，
zheilihen「ganjing」。ganjingdeguofen。meiyoujidu，meiyoutanlan，
meiyouyuwang……suoyourendeqingxudouxiangbeiyicengguanghuadebolizhaozhu，pinghuaerdandiao。
zheibenshenjiushizuidadebuzhengchang。yigezhenzhengdeminglichang，yinggaishiquanshijieqingxucanhuizuiangzangdedifang。
zheilide「ganjing」，zhiyouyizhongjieshi——youshenmedongxi，zaichixubuduandi「qingli」zhezheilideqingxu。
huozheshuo，「tunshi」。wodemuguangsaoguoquanchang，zuizhongdinggezaierloudevipqu。guyanchenjiuzaineili。
sannianbujian，tabiyiqiangengjiachenwen，yegengjia……lengmo。tazhengduanzhejiubei，yuyigefushangtanxiaofengsheng。
erzaitashenbian，yiweizheyigejiaoqiaokerendenianqingnvhai，zhengshicaijingxinwenshangdeneigenvren。
tadelianshangyangyizhexingfuerchimidexiaorong，kanxiangguyanchendeyanshen，chongmanleaiyi。
neishiwocengjingyouguodeyanshen。tajiushixiayige「wo」。taotiandehenyijihuyaojiangwodelizhifenshaodaijin。
wosisidizuanzhuquantou，zhijiashenshenqianjinzhangxin，yongtengtonglaiweichiqingxing。bunengchongdong。wobixuzhaodaozhengju，
zhaodaoneitouguaiwu，zhaodaotadezhuren。woshenxiyikouqi，duanqiyibeixiangbin，
chaozheyigekansiluodandenanrenzouqu。tashibenshiyoumingdeyishupinglunjia，yeshi「huanyin」dechangke。「xiansheng，
yigerenma？」woyongzuiwumeideshengxiankaikou。nanrenxianranduiwodedashanhenshouyong，womenhenkuaipantanqilai。
wopangqiaoceji，shitucongtakouzhongtaochuyixieguanyushalongzhurendexinxi。「『huanyin』dezhuren？
neikeshigechuanqirenwu。」nanrenhelekoujiu，yadishengyin，daizheyisijingwei，
「meirenjianguotadezhenmianmu，feichangshenmi。zhizhidaotaduiyishuyouzhechaofandepinwei，
erqie……sihuyouzhongnengrangrenxinxiangshichengdemoli。」「moli？」「shia，」nanrenshenshenmimidishuo，
「woyougepengyou，zhiqianyizhiyuyubudezhi，zicongbeizhuren『dianbo』leyixia，
xianzaiyijingshiguoneiyixiandedadaoyanle。haiyouchengxineigebaofahu，yeshizaizheili，
qiudaoleyiduantianciliangyuan……」wodexinchenlexiaqu。zheibushishenme「dianbo」，yebushishenme「tianciliangyuan」
。zheishijiaoyi。yongyibufenziji，qujiaohuanlingyibufenkewangdedongxi。biru，yongqingganqujiaohuancaihua，
yongliangzhiqujiaohuancaifu。erneitou「shixinmo」，jiushijiaoyidemeijiehezhixingzhe。jiuzaizheishi，
loushangdeguyanchensihuchajuedaolewodezhushi，muguangchaowozheibiansaoleguolai。woxinzhongyijing，
xiayishidiceguoshen，yongneigeyishupinglunjiadeshentidangzhuziji。tademuguangzaiwoshenshangtingliulebudaoyimiao，
bianhaowubolandiyikaile。tameirenchuwo。yeshi，woxianzaizheizhanglian，pingpingwuqi，
helinwanneizhangmingyandongrendelianpang，meiyouyisiyihaodexiangsizhichu。keweishenme，wodexinhuizheimetong？
shiyinweitameirenchuwoershiluoma？bu。shiyinweitayanzhongneichedidemosheng，fangfo「linwan」zheigemingzi，
liantongwomenzhijiandeyiqie，doucongweizaitashengmingzhongcunzaiguo。neiguaiwu，chidezhenganjinga。
wodeshouzaiweiweizhandou，beizhongdexiangbinyangchuquanquanlianyi。buxing，wobunengzaizheilibaolu。
wobixuzhaodaoyigenengjinjulijiechuguyanchen，bingqietanchatalinghunshenchumimidejihui。yigedadandejihua，
zaiwonaozhongchengxing。【4】jihuadediyibu，shizhizaohunluan。wozoudaoshizhedetuopanbian，jiazhuangjiaoxiabuwen，
shentiyiwai，zhenggerenchaozheerlouvipqudefangxiang「shuai」leguoqu。shouzhongdexiangbinbeituoshouerchu，
huachuyidaoyoumeidepaowuxian，jingzhundipoxiangleguyanchen。「a！」tashenbiandenvhaifachuyishengjianjiao。
hesedejiuyejinshusazaileguyanchenangguidebaisexizhuangshang，liuxialeyidapiancimudewuzi。「duibuqi！
duibuqi！wobushiguyide！」woliangundaipadizhanqilai，chongdaotamianqian，yibiandaoqian，yibiannachuzhijin，
shoumangjiaoluandiqucashitaxiongkoudejiuzi。「gunkai！」guyanchenyanedizhouqimei，yibatuikaiwo。jiushixianzai！
zaiwodezhijianchupengdaotayiliaodeshunjian，wofadonglewodenengli。shiyeshunjianbeisilie，
wushuhunluandehuamianheshengyinyongruwodenaohai。wokandaoleguyanchendeshijiao，
kandaoletazheixieniandeshenghuo——qianyue、tanpan、qinggongyan……taderenshengjiuxiangyibugaosuyunzhuandejiqi，
jingzhun、gaoxiao，quemeiyourenhewendu。wokandaoletaduishenbianneigenvhaide「wenrou」，meiyigeyongbao，
meiyijuqinghua，douxiangjingguojingmijisuandechengxu，wanmeidehaowupozhan。ranhou，wokaishixianggengshenchutanxun，
tanxuntabei「shixinmo」kenshihouliuxiadelinghunkongdong。neiliyipianqihei，bizhoukaidegengjiashensui，gengjiasiji。
wokandaolewode「siwang」。huamianzhong，wodaozaidishang，linghunbeiyidiandianchouli，erta，guyanchen，
jiuzhanzaiyibian，lengmodikanzhe，zuijiaoguazheneimowozhisinanwangdeweixiao。henyiruyanjiangbanpenyong，
jihuyaochongkuawodeyishi。bu，budui！jiuzaiwojijiangbeifennutunshishi，wobuzhuodaoleyisiyichang。
zaineipianjizhideheianshenchu，youyigenjiqiweiruode、jihuwufachajuedeyinsesixian。
tabushicongguyanchentineishengfachulaide，ershicongwaijie，lianjiezhetadelinghunhexin，xiangyigentixianmuoudexian。
wodedanaofangfobeiyidaoshandianpizhong，shunjianyipiankongbai。ta……bushisiyangyuan。tayeshiyigekuilei！
neigenyinsi，jiushikongzhitadejiangsheng！shishei？daodishishei，nengjiangcengjingneiyangyigejiaoao、dulidenanren，
bianchengyijuchedidexingshizourou？wodemuguangfengkuangdizaizhouweisaoshi，shituxunzhaoneigensixiandeyuantou。ranhou，
wokandaoleta。zaierlouyigebuqiyandejiaoluoli，zhanzheyigechuanzhebaiselianyiqundenvhai。
takanqilaibuguoershichutou，shenxingxianruo，liansecangbai，xiangshineizhongfengyichuijiuhuidaodelindaiyushidemeiren。
tashouliduanzheyibeiniunai，ananjingjingdizhanzaineili，fangfozhenggeshalongdexuanxiaodouyutawuguan。tajiaoguqingqing，
guyanchenzuitengaidemeimei。zaiwohaishilinwandeshihou，tazongshigenzaiwoshenhou，tiantiandijiaowo「saozi」。
tashanliang、danchun、buanshishi，shiwoheguyanchenaiqingdejianzhengzhe。guyanchencengshuo，
qingqingshitashengmingzhongzuizhongyaoderen，tayuanyiweitafuchuyiqie。cike，tazhengjingjingdikanzhezheichangnaoju，
kanzhebeiwonongdelangbeibukandegege，kanzhetashenbianjinghuangshicuodexinhuan。tadeyanshen，pingjingwubo。
danzaineipianpingjingzhixia，wokandaoleyishanerguode、binglengcigudexiaoyi。neigenkongzhizheguyanchendeyinsi，
tadeyuantou，zhengshiwomianqianzheigekansirenchuwuhaidenvhai！
yigubifaxianguyanchenbeipanwoshihaiyaocigudehanyi，congjiaodizhichongtianlinggai。yuanlai，wohencuoleren。yuanlai，
zhenzhengdeemo，yizhidoupizhezuichunjiewuxiadewaiyi，duozaiwokanbujiandedifang，
xinshangzhewobeikenshi、beihuimiedequanguocheng。guqingqing。tacaishi「shixinmo」zhenzhengdezhuren。
【5】cong「huanyin」shalongtaolihou，wojihuxutuo。guqingqingcaishimuhouheishouzheigefaxian，
birangwozaisiyicihaiyaozhenhan。wokaishifengkuangdidiaochaguqingqing。raner，tadexinxishaodekelian。
chuleshiguyanchendemeimei，biyeyuyisuoputongdaxuedeyishushizhuanyewai，zaiwuqita。tameiyoushejiaozhanghao，
congbucanjiagongkaihuodong，xiangyigeshenghuozaiguyanchenguanghuanxiadetoumingren。yueshizheiyang，yueshikeyi。
yigenengcaokong「shixinmo」zheizhongyaowu，jiangzijiqingegebianchengkuileidenvren，zenmekenengruci「danchun」？
weiyidexiansuo，jiushineigenlianjiezheguyanchendeyinsi。wobixuzhaodaotadeshiti，
zhaodaoguqingqingzangnihesiyang「shixinmo」dechaoxue。wozaiciliyongwodenengli，zheiyici，
wobuzaishibeidongdi「kan」，ershichangshizhudongdi「zhuizong」。wobishangyan，jingshenligaodujizhong，
jiangneitianzaiguyanchenshenshangganzhidaodeyinsipinlvzuoweixinbiao，zaizhenggechengshidenengliangchangzhongjinxingsousuo。
zheishiyizhongjiqihaofeixinshen，yejiqiweixiandexingwei。shaoyoubushen，
wodelinghunjiuhuimishizaipangzadechengshixinxiliuzhong，chedixiaosan。hanshuijinshilewodehoubei，
wodedanaoxiangbeiwushugenzhenzhayiyangjutong。zhongyu，zaiyishijijiangbengkuidebianyuan，
wobuzhuodaoleyilvweiruode、tongyuandenengliangbodong。talaizichengdong。neipianquyu，
youyijiazaoyifeiqiduoniandejiaohuiyiyuan——shengmaliyiyuan。chuanwenneilinaogui，jishinianlaiwurengankaojin。
yigefeiqideyiyuan……haiyoubizheigengshihezangwunagoudedifangma？diertian，
wohuanshangyishenbianyuxingdongdeheiyi，qianruleshengmaliyiyuan。yiyuanneibupobaibukan，daochudoushihuichenhezhuwang，
kongqizhongmimanzheyiguchenfudemeiwei。wodaishangmujing，yanqiandejingxiangrangwoxintouyilin。zheilideqingxucanhui，
nongyuderutongshizhi。youbingrenlinzhongqiandetongku，youyishenghuitianfashudejuewang，
haiyougengduowowufafenbiande、hunzazhekongjuyukuangxideguiyinengliang。zheixienengliang，xiangyangliaoyiyang，
ziyangzheyigepanjuzaicididejudayinying。wonengganjuedao，「shixinmo」jiuzaizheili。
woxiaoxinyiyidiyanzhenengliangbodongdezhiyin，xiangyiyuanshenchuzouqu。chuanguozhangzhangdezoulang，
wolaidaoyishanjinsuode、tongwangdixiashidetiemenqian。neigunengliangbodong，jiushicongmenhouchuanlaide。
wocongbeibaolinachuzhunbeihaodekaisuogongju，pingzhuhuxi，kaishigongzuo。laojiudesuoxinfachu「kada」
yishengqingxiang，menkaile。yigubiwaijienongyubaibeidetiannifubaiqixi，hunhezhexiaodushuideweidao，pumianerlai。
woshanshenjinru，shenhoudetiemenque「peng」deyisheng，zidongguanshangle！yucitongshi，zoulanglidedeng，
yizhanjieyizhandiliangleqilai，canbaideguangxianzhaolianglezhouweidehuanjing。woxinzhongjinglingdazuo。zheishigexianjing！
「jiranlaile，weishenmezheimezhejizouni？」yigeqinglengde、daizhexiaoyidenvsheng，congdixiashishenchuchuanlai。
shiguqingqing！tazhidaowohuilai！jimingchuanzheheisezhifudebaoancongheianzhongzouchu，jiangwotuantuanweizhu。
tamenyanshenkongdong，dongzuojiangying，hezhoukai、guyanchenyiyang，doushi**kongdekuilei。wobeifaxianle。
zaijueduideliliangmianqian，wozheidianweimodejilianggenbenwusuodunxing。wobixutaochuqu！
womengdijiangbeibaozaxiangliwozuijindebaoan，chentadongzuochizhideyishunjian，fadonglenengli。
womeiyouqugongjitamen，ershijiangmubiaoduizhunlezheidongjianzhubenshenjizanlebainiande「qingxucanhui」。