第六章 身份危机

yelingyuchuxuexiaohou,zhijieqianwanglekuileixuexiaofenbudebailingge,bijingzheiciyelingyuchuxuexiaofaxian,juedabufenxueshengdouliuzailexuexiaozhunbeiguankanneichangxuanba,jiranbeifaxiandejilvjiangdile,hebizheimemafanpaoquneimeyuandefenbu。

yushangcibutongdeshi,suiranyelingyuzheiciyijiuyishanpojiu,queshishouchiguibinling,suiranbeishouweizhiyiguoyifan,haishihenqingsongdejiujinqule。

buguogangzoujinbailingge,yelingyujiuyoubeilanzhule。

“zhanzhu!bailinggenei,jinzhipinminjinru!”

qiantaiyiweiqingnianzhaodaizhengzaireqingzhaodaiyiweichuanzhehualidezhongnianren,kandaoyelingyuzhihou,likeshensebinglengdeshuodao。

yelingyuyanzhongmouguangmeiyousihaobodong,dandandao:“bailinggenatiaoguidingshuo,pinminbunengjinrule?”

qingnianzhaodaichaoyelingyuzoulejibu,yanshenxili,zhengyaokaikou,jiujianpangbiandeneiweizhongnianrenshangxiadaliangleyelingyuyifan,ganxingqudao:“nishikuileixueyuandetezhaoshengba,kanzheinianji,yinggaishigaodengbanjile。”

jianzhongnianrenkanzheyelingyukaikou,qingnianzhaodailimaceshenzhankai,gongjingdedengzhongnianrenbahuashuowan。

yelingyuxinzhongyitu,suirankeyijinruguizuqudepinminbuduo,danyebuzaishaoshu,henduoweiguizujinxingdicenglaodongligongzuodepinminyedounengchuruzheibian,weihezheirenzhiyongyiyanjiukanchulaizijideshenfenle。

“henjingyama?nixiongqiandexueyuanhuizhanghaimeiquxialai。”zhongnianrenjianyelingyuzheigebiaoqing,weiweiyixiao,zhilezhiyelingyuxiongqiandekuileiyinjihuizhang。

yelingyuyileng,ditoukanlekanzijixiongqiandeneiyigexiaohuizhang,sisifangfangde,shangmianhuazheyigekuileihexindetuan。

“yuanlaizheishixuexiaodetezhaoshengxunzhang。”yelingyuxinzhongchanshenglebuxiaodebolan,zhiqianyizhimeizaiyiguozheigehuizhang,zhidangshiyifutese,meixiangdaohaishishenfenyinji,zheimeshuolai,neixierenshizheigexunzhangderen,dounengzhidaozijishikuileixueyuandexueshengle。

xiayishidemole**qiandexunzhang,yelingyuzhijiejiangqiquxiafangjinlekoudai。

erhouzhongnianrenyouzhuantoukanxiangqingnianzhaodaishuodao:“ruoshiyibandepinmin,nijuedekeyizhijiecongzhengmenjinruma?”

qingnianzhaodaimianseyidai,queshi,zaitajinlaizhiqian,waimianbingmeiyoufachuguoyidianzhengdoudeshengyin,yejiushishuo,mianqianzheirenqueshishiyikerendeshenfenzhengchangjinlaide。

nandaotashiyigeguizuqudeguizu,zhishixihuanzheimedabaneryi?

buyinggaia,guizuquyouguizuqudeguize,shenweiguizu,shibubeiyunxuchuanzheizhongpojiufuzhuangde,qingnianzhaodaiyixiazixianrulemihuozhong,bijingtaconglaimeiyouzhaodaiguopinmin。

shenshendikanleyiyanyelingyuhou,zhongnianrenxiaodao:“nihaishiwozaibailinggeyushangdediyigetezhaosheng,liantijingjiebucuo,jingshenliyehenqiang,haohaojiayou,xiwangweilaihainengjiandaoni。”

shuowanhou,zhongnianrenjiutaibuzouchulebailingge,qingnianzhaodaibuganyousihaozulan,gongjingdewanyaogongshendao:“gongsongdaren。”

yelingyuxinzhongbolanbuduan,kanzhezhongnianrendebeiying,butingdezaijiyizhongsousuo,quedingmeiyoujianguozheimeqiguaideyigeren。

“zheiweikeren,buzhidaoninyoushenmexuqiu?”qingnianzhaodaitaiqitou,muguangkanxiangyelingyu,youxieshitanxingdewendao。

yelingyumeiyouquguanqingnianzhaodaidetaidu,zhijienachulezijideguibinling,shuodao:“woyouwupinyaojiaoyi。”

“guibinling?”qingnianzhaodaijieguoyelingyushouzhongdelingpaihouyouxiejingya,tabingfeishimeiyoujianguoguibinling,keshizaipinmindeshouzhong,zheihaishitadiyicijian。

“zenmehuishi,lianpinmindoufangjinlaile?”jiuzaiqingnianzhaodaizhunbeijinxinganpaideshihou,ziyiloudeyigefangjianzhong,yigezhongnianzhuguanzouleguolai。

“zhuguangexia。”qingnianzhaodaijiandaozhuguanzhihou,jimangditouhuiying。

“zheimejiumeilai,meixiangdaobailinggexianzaidedengjiyijingdidaozheigeyangzilema,jingranlianpinmindoukeyijinxingjiaoyile。”zizhongnianzhuguandeshenhou,yigecanglaodelaozhezoulechulai,kanqiyangzi,gangcaiyinggaishiyizhizaifangjianneiyuzhongnianzhuguantanhua。

“yangmulaoshizheishinalihua,womenbailinggesuiranyizhishimianxiangzhenggekuileichengzuoshengyi,queyebuhuihepinminzuojiaoyi,xiangbishibeizheigepinminzuanlenagekongziliujinlaile。”zhongnianzhuguanxiaodao。

“yangmulaoshi?”yelingyuyitingdaozheigemingzi,xinlituranxiangqileyigeren,kuileixueyuanzhongdengnianjidezhurenyangmu,suwenzheirenkanbuqipinmin,yizhixiangyaoxiangxiaoweihuitichufeichutezhaoshengdejihua。

zheikebushigehaoxiaoxi,meixiangdaoduoguolexuesheng,haiyoulaoshizaizheili,pinminjinrubailinggebenjiushizhidezhuyideshiqing,youqizijihaiyongyouguibinling,yidanbeichachuzijideshenfen,kongpahuiyinqiyouxinzhirendediaocha,youqizijixianzaibenjiushenchuweizhideweixiezhizhong。

yigeyuanbenlianxiadengkuileihexindouwufazhizaochulaidefeicaituranjianlianlingxihexinyeshuoyoujiuyou,zheirensheizhidaoleyehuizhenjingranhoujinxingdiaochaba,zheikebumiao。

yishijian,yelingyuturanfeichangganxiegangcaineiweizhongnianren,ruobushita,zijixianzaihaidaizhetezhaoshengdexunzhang,yidinghuibeilinmuyiyanfaxian。

zouweishangji!chenlinmuhaimeizaiyizijideyangzi,ganjinzou。

“wangjin,haibugantachuqu,meikandaozheiliyouzhongyaokerenyaozhaodaima?”zhongnianzhuguanmuguangzhuanxiangqingnianzhaodai,manyandeyanli。

“zhuguan,bingfeizheiyang,zheiweikerenshi”qingnianzhaodaijianzhuguanhezhuguandekerensihuduizheiweiyongyouguibinlingdeguguaikerenyouwujie,limazhunbeijieshi,buguohaimeiyoushuowan,jiubeiyelingyudaduanle。

“shiwobuzhihaodai,xiangyaojinlaibailinggejianjianshimian,xianzaimashanglikai。”yelingyuyibianpeixiaodao,yibianjiezhuweizhichayinhuidenazouleqingnianzhaodaishouzhongdeguibinling,zhuanshenjimangchaomenwaizouqu。

“zhanzhu,nigangcaicongwangjinshouzhongnazoudedongxishishenme?”jiuzaiyelingyujijiangtachubailinggezhishi,zhongnianzhuguanbinglengdeshengyinchuanlai,erhoubianjianzhongnianzhuguandeshentichuxianzaileyelingyudeshenqian。

linmujianzheiyimuyetingyouqude,huanxiongzhanzaiyuandi。

yelingyushentijimangyidun,zheidoubeifaxianle,jianshizairaobuguoqule,yelingyuzhinengdizhetoushuodao:“shigangcaiwojiaojitaxiangyaojinxingjiaoyidedongxi,zaipinminkulajiduilijianchulaide。”

zhongnianzhuguanjiangmuguangkanxianglewangjin,wangjinxianzaiyebuzhidaogaizenmeshuole,mianseweinan,meiyouchengren,yemeiyoufouren。

“najiwokankan。”zhongnianzhuguansuijishenchushou,yanyuburongzhiyi。

yelingyuxinzhongandaobumiao,buguohaishizhinengjiangguibinlingjiaolechuqu。

“zheishi?”zhongnianzhuguankandaoguibinlinghouyanshenyitiao,erhoukanxiangyelingyu,chenshengdao:“nizhendeshizaichengwaidelajiduilijiandaode?”

yelingyulianliandiantou,jimangshuodao:“zhengshi,houlaiwoyouxingdezhizheishiguishanghuideguibinling,zheicaixiangyaonazhelaijianjianshimian。”

“hahaha,kanyangzizheibailinggedeguibinlingyebuzhiqianle,jingrannengzaipinminqudelajiduilibeijiandao。”linmuxiaodao。

zhongnianzhuguanlimaxiaodao:“linmulaoshiciyanchayi,neilidelajibuyelaiziyugeweiguizudejiazhongma,zhibudingjiushinaweiguibinbuxiaoxinbaguibinlingyishilehaiweifaxianbale,linmulaoshihaiqingxianquerlouzuozhe,guanyuwomendeshengyi,denglingyiweizhuguanlailewomenzaijixuxiangtan。”

“hao,buguozheilideshi,zhuguanhaideganjinchulihaocaixing,bailinggezuoweikuileichengzuidadeshanghui,kebunengjielianchuxianzheizhongjiangdishenfendeshi。”yandiduiyelingyuluchuyifenshenshendebuxiezhihou,linmuzoushangleerlou。

shouqiguibinling,zhongnianzhuguanbiyidekanleyiyanyelingyu,huishoudao:“gunba,zheilibushinizheizhongrenkeyilaide。”

yelingyusongleyikouqi,jimangzouchulebailingge。

zhongnianzhuguanzhuantoukanxiangwangjin,yanlipipingdao:“niyeshi,zuoweiwomendezhongdianpeiyangrenyuan,zenmelianyidianfenbiannenglidoumeiyou,zheizhongrendehuayenengxiangxinma?chadianrangyimeiguibinlingyiluozaiwai。”

“keshineiweidarenshuo”wangjinyuyanyouzhi,neiweidarendeyanguang,zijizongbunengfanboba。

“haolehaole,zheicijiufangguoni,bazheimeiguibinlingsongdaozongge,bafachuzheimeiguibinlingdefenbuhezhurenxinxidoudiaochachulai,jiyuanzhurensongguoqu,wozheibianhaiyouyigedadanzi。”zhongnianzhuguanbaguibinlingrengjiwangjinzhihoujiushangleerlou。

wangjinkanzhezijishouzhongdeguibinling,xianruleliangnan,yineiweidarendeyanguang,yingdangbuhuikancuorencaidui,keshiyouyuzaisan,wangjinhaishizhunbeijiangshouzhongdeguibinlingsonghaidaozhuge。

zheiyibian,yelingyulikaibailinggezhihou,likehuaqianzaiyijiaxiaoxingfuzhuangdiangoumaileyijiankuandadeheisezhangpao,benlaineidianjiakanyelingyudezhuangbanshigeshizudepinminmoyangdoubuxiangrangyelingyushichuande,buguozaiyelingyunachushimeijinbihou,taidulimayibaibashidudazhuanwan,tuijianlezheijianzhiliangjuejiadezhangpao。

daishangmaozizhezhuzijideshenxingherongmaohou,yelingyuqianwanglelingyijiadaxingshanghui,bailinggexianzaikendingshibunengzaiqule,jibianshiyuanbenjiaoyidefenbuyebuxingle,sheiganbaozhengneigejiandingshidangshimeiyourenchuzijitezhaoshengxunzhang,xianzaihuixiangqilai,zijihaishitaitianzhenle,jingranmeiyouyidianyinzangjiuqujiaoyineimezhenguidelingxihexinle。

liyongzheijianhuaguishenmideheisezhangpao,yelingyuhenrongyidejiuzoujinlejinciyubailinggededierdashanghuiyuelongshanghuidefenbu。

jinrushanghui,diyicengdeguimobizhibailinggeyehaobuxunse,renliulianghaixiandegengduo,qiantaishijiweizhaodaitaidudouhenreqing。

henkuai,youwupinjiaoyideyelingyujiubieanpaidaolesiloudejiaoyibaojian。

tongbaibaogedejiaoyiliuchengyiyang,yelingyujiangzijidelingxihexinnalechulai,erhouhuodeleyiqianyibaimeijinbiheyigeyuelongshanghuideguibinyinji,zheigeyinjishibenrenduyoude,zhiyoubenrenkeyishiyong。

jiaoyiwanchenghou,yelingyubiaoshi,zijiqishihaiyoujimeilingxihexinkeyijiaoyi,fuzeyelingyudejianbaoshitaidugengjiareqingqilai,biaoshiruoshiyouzugoudeshuliang,keyijichugenggaodejiage,shenzhifangshangyuelongshanghuiyinianyidudepaimaihuishang,yelingyuyinglexialai。

zouchulongyueshanghuihou,yelingyuchenzhongdexinqingmianqianghuanjieleyixie,zhishaoxianzaihaimeiyouchushenmeshi,zaichushizhiqian,zijibixujinkuaixiulianle,yinci,mingtiandexueyuanlajichangzhixing,shijueduibunengchuwentide,xitongzhihoudenengliangjingti,jiuquankaoneigelajichangle。