wozuanzhemeishuochukoudegaobaidengfenglai,fenglaile,daizhexiamodeliang,quemeibaneigejiaolinyiwandenvhai,liuzaiwodeshenbian。
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erlingerwunian,linchuanshi。
chuangwaidexuewushengdiluozhe,fugailejiuridexuanxiao,shijiezhishengxiayipianganjingdebai。
youshiyiniandong,linyiwandeshengriyoudaole。
chengwangzuozaishuzhuoqian,taidengdeguangyunzhaozaitadeshenshang。tapukaiyizhangxinzhi,gangbizaizhijiantingdunlehenjiu。
zuizhong,taluobi,xiexianeigeshuxiyoumoshengdechenghu:
“晚晚,见信安。”
bijianhuaguozhimian,fachushashadeqingxiang,xiangxueluoxiadeshengyin。
“youxiaxuele。tamenshuo,xuehuashitianshangderenxiejidishangdexin,neiwoxiedezheixie,suanbusuanshinixing?”
taxiedehenman,meiyigezidouzhenzhuozhe,fangfotazhendenengdudao。
“jintianshinishengri。womaileyigehenxiaodedangao,chashangleyigenlazhu。xuyuandeshihou,wocaifaxian,woyijingmeiyouzigetinixuyuanle。”
xiedaozheili,tadebijianturantingdun。tatingxiabi,shenxiyikouqi,shenshoudakaileshuzhuozuidicengneigeshanglesuodechouti。
limianzhiyouyitayongniupijinzixikunhaodexin。xinfengyijingweiweifanhuang,shishiguangzouguodehenji。
taxiaoxinyiyidijiekainiupijin,zuishangmianyifengdeyouxiajiao,shangmianhailiuzhedangchushaonianqingsedebichu。
chengwangjiangxinzhankai,fangdaozhuomianshang。zhuomianshanghaiyouyizhangyongxiangkuangbiaoqilaidebiyezhao。
zhaopianshangchengwangpangbiandenvhaixiaodehentian,jiuxiangshiyidaotaiyang。
zheixieniantachangchanghuimengjiantamenzaiyiqileyongyouleyigejia,biandehenxingfu,henxingfu。
dantadeshengyinquezaitadenaohailiyuelaiyuedanle,talikaitaijiule,jiudaoneihaoxiangyijingshishangbeizideshile。
tazaoyikezailechengwangdexinshang,jiujiubunengshihuai。
chengwangdixiatoukanzheshouwanjiandebiao,shizhenbutingzhuandong。yizhenweifengchuiguo,zhuozishangmeiyoudizhidexinyebeichuidaolemuzhidedibanshang。
fengshihuihuitoude,keneigezaiwanfengzhongxiaoderenzaiyebuhuile。
chengwangxiaoshengdidinanzhe:“linyiwan,jintiandefengyidiandoubuwenrou。”
“banianle,wohaoxiangni。”
tahuayingangluoxia,yidileijiukuaisudihuaguotadelianpang,ranhouzhongzhongdidiluozaitadezhijian。
shijianfangfozaizheiyiketingzhile,tamenzhijiandehuiyimanmandifanshangxintou。
tafankaileyibenhenduohenduonianqiandeyijingyouxiefanhuangdebijiben,shangmiancunzhehenduozhangtadezhaopian,haiyouneizhangzhishuyutamenlianggerendehezhao。
xiatianhaihuilai,kezaiyemeiyouyigexiatiannenghetaxiangyule。
yiqiedejiyidouhuidaoleneinianqingchun,neiniangaoyidexiatian。
zhuomianshangyifengfengzhizhankaizhe:
basuineinian,woyinwangnayaochibeisuozailejiamenkou。wofengkuangdipaidazhemen,danwodejialibingmeiyouren。
fuqinzaiwosansuibianqushile,muqinzitaqushihoubianchuguole。
pingshiwomenzhijianweiyidejiaoliu,bianshitameinianjihuilaihenduodeqian。tadedianhuashidabutongde,wodeshengriyeshiwurenzhixiaode。
woshiyouwaipoyangdade,dantazaibannianqianyequshile。
tacongxiaoyuwoshuomuqindebuyi,suoyiwohenxiaobianxuehuileduli,yejieshoulegudu。
wozongyiweizijizaoyixiguanleduziyigeren。
danzaibeikunzaimenwaizheiyike,wodeyanjiaohaishishile。
woyibianku,yibianshijingfandongzheshubao。
wohaishimeirenzhuxintoudeweiqu,yanqianyuelaiyuemohu,yididiyanleiranshilewodeyifu,yecitongzhewodexinzang。
woyiweiwohuiliulangjietou。
zhidao,woyujianleyigenvhai。
tazailoudaolikanjianlelangbeidewo,jiangwodaihuiletadejia。
wojiuzheiyangkanzheta,tazongshineimeaixiao,neiyangwenrou,neiyangmingmei。
就像是夏日的太阳。
congneitianqi,wohaoxiangyeyoulejia。tademuqinshigehenhaoderen。wohaoxiangyezaimanmandirongruzheigejia,yirisancan、sijibianhuan。
tamendeai,rangmeiyouganshoudaoduoshaoaidewo,yehaoxiangkaishibiandewenroule。
wodeshijiezaimanmandibiandewennuanleqilai。
直到,我十岁那年。
wodemuqinhuilaile,erwoyebeipobanlejia。wokanzhelinyiwanhuposedeyanjing,tayemanyanleishuidikanzhewo,rangwobiezou。
danwoquewufazhengtuomamadeshou,wohaishilikaileneigexiaoqu,yelikaileta。neitianwanshangwoyigerenzaichuangshangkulehenjiuhenjiu。
houlaiwochangchangwenzijiweishenmeneimeshebudeta。
或许,是喜欢吗?
congciyihou,wokaishisichunulixunzhaolinyiwandezongji,momoguanzhuyouguantadeyiqie。
zhidaochuer,yinweiyichangwulibisai。
mamagejuelewoduiwangluodeyiqiezhangkong,zhengzhengliangnian,wozaiyewufalejietadedongxiang。
houlaidehoulai,wozhizhidaotazhuanxuele。
haoxiangshihetongxueguanxibuhao,woxiangzhidaoweishenme,danshenmeyedatingbudao。
chuershiwoyoutingshuo,tadaolexinxuexiaohaoxiangzhanggaole,yebianpiaoliangle,yeyouhenduorengentabiaobai。
wokaishijiaoji,woturanyoudianhaipalitayuelaiyueyuan。danhoulaiwoyouxianglehenjiu:
yedui,zheimehaodenvhai,
jiuyinggaihenduorenxihuanba。
zhongkaoqianxi,wosichudatingzhongyuzhidaolinyiwanyaokaolinchuanyizhong。congneitianqi,wodezhiyuanyebianchengleyizhong。
woxiangkaodetajinyidian,zaijinyidian。
jiuzheiyangtoutoukantayiyan,jiuyiyan,yehenxingfule。
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第一封信
林亦晚:
很高兴再次见到你。
neiyuanbenshihenxunchangdeyitian,qichemingdishengzaiwoerbianweiraozhe,wozhengzouzaiyitiaoxuannaodejiedaoshang。
wozaijiedaoshangpaihuaizhe,jipianluoyebeixiarizhiredefengchuiluozailewodejiaobian。
wotingxiajiaobu,jiangtashiqi。
woxiangjiangtajuqiyutaiyangpingqi,xiangyidiandiankanqingtademailuo。
zhengdangwotaiqitou,woturankanjianleni。
danhuangdeweiguangzhaozainizhangzhangdefasishang,weifengqingqingchuifuzhenidezhangqun。
woyongyuanjideneitian,zaineigexiatian。
zaineigelingxiaohuashengkaidelukoushang,wozaiciyujianleni。
woxiangruguobushiwozheixienianyizhizaixunzhaonidezhaopian,woyerenbuchuni。
renbuchuzheiyangpiaoliangdeni。
wokanzhenishouzhongyenazheyipianyezi,nizhengduizheciyandeyangguangjiangyezigaogaojuqi,yidiandiandikanqingtademailuo。
zheihaishinixiaodeshihoujiaowode。
nizaikanzheyezi,erwozaikanzheni。
jiuzaicikewohaoxiangpaoguoqu,paoguoquyunixiangren,woxianggaosuni:
dangchuneigeyizhibeinibaohude,neigemeirenaidexiaonanhai,tazhangdale。
tabianchenglekeyibaohunidedarenle。
dan,wobuganmaichuneiyibu,wojiuzheiyangyizhidaizaiyuanchu,toutoukanzheni。
kandeshaoweiyouxielengleshen。
——程望
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zhidao,linyiwanxiaoshizailechengwangdemuguangzhong。tajiaojidisichuxunzhaozhe,zhongyuzaiyijiakafeishudian,faxianletadezongji。
shudiannei,linyiwanhaoxiangzaixunzhaoyibenshu。
“ninhao,nimenzheibianyou……”
shudiandianyuantingxialeshoulidehuo,xianglexianghoubianzhilezhibuyuanchudeyigejiazi:“haoxiangjiushengyibenle。”
“wozheieryoudianermangbuguolai,nizijiqunakeyima,buhaoyisia。”
linyiwanbailebaishou,xiaolexiao:“meishi,wozijizhaojiuhaole。”
chengwangzhanzaibuyuanchu,toutoudikanzhelinyiwanzhengbutingdifanzhaozheshenme。
zhidaotadeyanjingtingliudaolemouchu。
zuizhongtazaichengwangduimiandeyigeshujushangtinglexialai。
linyiwankanzheneibenshuxiaolexiao,ranhouxiaoshengdidiguzhe:“ye,zhaodaole。”
tadianledianjiaojian,zuijiaobuduanshangyang,luchuxiaoxiaodeliwo。tadeshouzhinulidixiangqiangouzhe,zhongyugoudaoleshudebianjiao。
ercikedechengwang,zhengzhanzaishujiadelingyibian。xinzangquezaifengkuangdiluantiaozhe,tajiazhuangwushisuiyidibainongzhemianqiandeshu。
jiuzaibuzhidaoshenmeshihou,tabuxiaoxindijiangmianqiandeshupengdaozaidi。
zhongjianzhedangzhetamendeshubujianle,chengwangjiuzheiyangzaifengxijianduishangleduimianlinyiwandeyanmou。
tadeliansebiandeyouxiehuangluan,xinzanghaoxianglouleyipai,suihouganjindidunzailedishang,huangmangdinaqileganggangdiaozaidishangdeshu。
taxiayishidixiangyaotaopao,quezaizoudaomenkoushiturankandaoleshoulihaijinjinzuanzhedeneibenshu,jiuyoubiandeyouxiehuangluandipaoxiangleshouyintai。
linyiwanganggangtouguoshujudefengxikanguoqu,zaitaneigejiaodu,zhinengkandaonashuderendejianbang。
haoxiangshiyige,chuanzhemisetixushanbozixiuzhangdeshaonian,nazouletaxiangyaodeshu。
linyiwankanzheneigeshenyingkuaisupaodaomenkou,youmanmannuoxiangleshouyintai。
yanjiantayaofukuanle,bianmashangzhuileguolai。
可还是晚了一步。
dianlidezuihouyibenyijingbeichengwangmaixiale,linyiwandeliansebiandeyoudianzheji,bianzoukuaileliangbuxiangtabenleguolai。
chengwanggangzhunbeizhuanshen,jiuganjuedaozijihaoxiangbeishenmedongxijiezhizhule。
linyiwandeshouzhuadaoletadeshubaodaizi。
“等,等一下”
zhitingjianyigewenroudeshengyin,xiaoshengdishuozhe。
chengwangzhuanguotoulai,yongzheyishuangqingchedeyanmoukanzhelinyiwan,tingliulepianke,yougankuaidiyixianglebiechu。
linyiwanyongshifenzhenzhideyanshenkanzhechengwang,shouzhixiangtashouzhongdeshu,zhayanshuodao:
“neige,ninhao。zheigeshuwoyuanyiduochuyixieqian。taduiwohenzhongyao,wozhaolehenduojiadiancaizhaodaozuihouyiben。”
“niyuanyibazuihouyibenrangjiwoma?huozhe,nikankanyoumeiyouqitaxiangkande,wokeyimailaigennijiaohuan。”
chengwangjihushiyongzheyoudianduosuodeshengyinshuoleyiju:“hao。”
linyiwanyouxiezhenjingdikanzheta,sihumeixiangdaotajingrandayingdizheime,gancuiguoduan。
chengwanghuangluandibashufangzaileyipangdezhuozishang,ranhouxunsuzhuanshenlikaile。
shaoniandedanqiechongmanzhenggexintou,tabuganyouyisitingliu。
哪怕是多一秒钟。
linyiwanganglakaishubaolalian,jiutingdaoyizhenkaimendefeng**,shaonianxiaoshizailetadeyanqian。
“dengyixia,wohaimeijiniqianni!”
tatingjianletadeshengyin,danhaishihenhuangzhangditaozoule。
他一直走,一直走。
zoudaolemenwaihenyuandejietoucaitinglexialai,tapanghuangdexinzang,haizaipengpengpengditiao,jiuzheiyangjiujiuyebunengpingfu。
chengwangcongweiquerenguozijizheiyangreliedihuozhe,zhidaotazaiciyujianlelinyiwan。
tazhanzaineililianqueyouxiehongle,naozhongmanchulailewushugexiangfa:【woganggangshibushihenqiguai?tarenchuwolema?】
【huozhe?kenengtayijingwanglewoba?】
【danlinyiwan,jintianjiandaoniwohaokaixin。】
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第二封信
林亦晚:
我好想见到你
jintianshifenbandediyitian。gaoyiwubandejiaoshiluanzaozaode,banlichulenihaiyoulianggetongxueyemeilai。
fenbanshi,woyizhizaixiangwomenhuibuhuifenzaiyigeban,meixiangdaoyuanwangjingranzhendeshixianle。
yinciqianyitian,wokaixindeyiwanshangdoumeishuihao。
huoxuyeyoukenengshiwaimiandeyueliangtailiangle。
jiaoshili,dajiadouzaitaolunzhexuexiaodewangnianqushi,qizhongzuijijizhazhadeshizuozaiwoceqianfangdenvsheng,liuyangyang。
tingshuonimenshihenhaohenhaodepengyou,congchuzhongjiuhenyaohao。
tashuo,nimenzhijiandexiangyuyouyizhongqimiaodeyuanfen,yeshiwozuixianmudeyuanfen。
woyoudianjiduta,wozongjuededaizainishenbianderenyinggaishiwo,peiniyiqishangxiakederenyeyinggaishiwo。
kebushiwo,ruguoshiwojiuhaole。
ruguowohenizaiyigechuzhongjiuhaole,ruguowomencongxiaoyiqizhangdajiuhaole。
xiangzhexiangzheyoudiannanguo,wocuoguonideshijiantaiduole,woduomexiwangkeyipeibannidemeiyiduanshijian。
wulunnidebeishang,haishidexiyue。
buguowojintianhaidedaoleweiyidehaoxiaoxi:nidezuoweijiuzaiwodeqianmian。
wozhongyu,yitaiyanjiunengkanjiannile。
zongjuedejintiandetiangewaideqing,taiyanggewaidehao。
jiaoshiwaidechanmingzhenzhen,nibieshuochangdehaitinghaotingde。jiulianzaoshangmamazuodenanchidefandouhaochiqilaile。
haoqidaimingtiana,wogaichuannashuangxiezi,beinageshubao。
jintianwanshangdeyueliangweishenmeyouzheimeliang,huangderenshuibuzhejue。
——程望
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erlingyiwunian,yanglinjie。
yigewanfengyoudianwenroudebangwan,jiedaoshangxingrenxishao。
linyiwanjintianmeiyouqubaodao,tacikezhengruoyousuosi,manwumudedizouzaijiedaoshang。
huran,yigeshuxidebeiyingchuangruletadeyanmouli。
是一个男人的背影。
tazouludezitai,shenzhishenshangdeneijianlaojiukuanshidejiakeshan,douxiangjiletashuxideyigeren。
她去世多年的爸爸。
tadeyanjingmengdiyiliang,huxiyouxietingzhi,suoyoudelizhizaineiyigeshunjianjiubeixiongyongdeqingganjiyanmeile。
talaibujisikao,zhiyouyigeniantou:genshangqu,zaikanyiyan。
yankanzheneigebeiyingguaijinleyigelaojiuxiaoqudeweiqiangbian,mashangjiuyaoxiaoshile。
她急忙地跟了上去。
“ng?zenmeshiyimianqianga。”,taxiaoshengdidiguzhe。
“dankanshangquzheigexiaoqudedamenhaoxianghenyuan。”
tahuanguleyixiasizhou,silvzaisanhaishicaizhuledixiadeneikuaishitou。
yinweichuzhongzhuxiaoshi,jingchangheliuyangyangfanqiangchuqumaikaolengmian。
suoyilinyiwandeshenshouhaisuanminjie,taliluodipashangleqiangtou。
kejiuzaitazhanzaiqiangtou,wangxiayitiao,jiezhegenshangganggangneigenanrenshi。
只听“刺啦”一声。
yinweitaqishentaijile,meikanqingxiamiandeshuzhi,tawaitaodemaozibeiqiangtouyikejueqianglaoshudekuzhilaolaodejigouzhule。
tashunjianbeizhuailehuilai,zhenggerenxiangzhibeifengdouzhudefengzheng,gangadiguazaileqiangtouheshuzhizhijian,shangxiabude。
linyiwankanzhenanrenyuelaiyueyuandeshenying,xinlikaishijidebudele。
tianyijingyouxieheile,fengbusuanmenglie,quedaizheyiguwanliedejinger,tiezhedimianjuanqilekuye,dazhexuaner,fachu“shasha”deqingxiang,jiuxiangshimouzhongbuhuaihaoyideqiexiao。
taxianzaixiangshiyigefengling,suishidouyaodiaoxiaqu。
danneigeshensifuqindebeiying,zaoyixiaoshizaileqianmianloudongyinyinglile。
taciyaliezuidikanzhezhouwei,xinlianmazheziji:
【真是蠢透了!】
【linyiwana,linyiwan。nishijisuiderenle,jurannengyinweizhuiyigerenying,bazijiguashushang。】
【mingtianyaoshibeirenfaxian,xinwentoutiaohuibuhuishi《jing!miaolingshaonvshenyeguashu,shiweiqingsuokunhaishixingweiyishu?》】
tayuexiangyuejuewang,tashenzhikaishikaolvshibushigaihanjiuming,kezhouweiqueyigerendoumeiyou。